Mmmh

Mmmh... where am I? Great, Pan is carrying me... I'm still sleepy... I've been in Pan's arms all this time! And now she notices that I've awaken... ugh... light hurts my eyes and I can hardly open them... she is talking to me, but I don't understand much of what she says because I'm still half asleep. And she touches my hair... let's see, I must open my eyes to see where we are... ah, on the sofa... hey, uncle is also here... have I slept for very long? I want to have some more sleep... I grab Pan's dress and hide my face on her chest, because there's still too much light...
I'm beginning to understand what they're saying... they are talking about momma and dad, who have gone for a walk. As momma doesn't trust uncle, uncle doesn't like her much... he always says funny things about her, like that of dressing in threads... or that she wears more make up than a clown...! It would be very funny to see mommy with a clown face! And uncle and Pan also say that dad only asks what is the dinner. And this is also funny because it's a bit true! My dad eats a lot!
Great, if mommy and daddy are out perhaps they will let me go with them if they go out, and I like it a lot...! But to go with them I must be awake, or they would leave me in my cot... as now I can open my eyes wider than before, I withdraw a bit of my face from Pan, I rub my eyes with my hands and she looks at me again. Hey, hey, she's tickling me! Stop, stop, it's very funny! No, no, don't stop... I want mmmmmmore! How... how it does tickle! Now uncle is also tickling me...!! They will make me have a laughing fit!
Pan asks if I'm hungry, and I say yes...! Now we go to the kitchen, and she puts me on my chair. Uncle talks to her while she cooks my food, and meanwhile he also talks to me... he asks me what I want to eat. Chocolate!, I say, and he laughs because I can't say this word very well, yet... let's see when I'll be able to speak well ... then I will say to Pan: Pannnnnn, uncle wants to marry you because he staaaaaaares at you like when you staaaaaaare at someone who you want to marry a lot! Like now, he's staaaaaring, staaaaaaaaaaaaaaring at you with a smile, one of those verrry big ones! If my uncle stopped being shy, they will soon be married, for sure. Uncle has just told Pan that she is gorgeous... and she has turned around and has looked at him the same waaaaaaay as well... Pan is very shy as well because she has become a bit red...
Wooooooow!, what a big dish...! I open my mouth and they put spoonfuls in it. I want to take the spoon from Pan. I know how to eat on my own! She gives it to me and she tells me not to get very dirty. I know already, Pan! Besides, uncle has put a bib on me! Look... aaaaah... see, how well? I have only stained my face a bit, but this can be washed...! Pan and uncle sit down by the kitchen table and talk. Uncle spends the whole day saying silly things that make Pan laugh, and I love him a lot because I like that he makes Pan laugh. Now I don't know what they're talking about... about where Pan goes... Pan goes to a place that is a bit strange, that is called college... uncle brought me there once, when we were to fetch her. There were lots of people, and lots of buildings, but they were not round like the ceecee's building. We waited for her sitting in a bank until one door opened and people started to come out, lots of people, with schoolbags like the children that go to school and that I see on TV, and they were funny because they were old and were still wearing schoolbags like children! And in the end Pan also came out of the door, but she was not wearing a schoolbag. Uncle and I gave her lots of kisses! and then we left. I don't know what Pan does in there everyday... I guess that she plays with the computers, because she loves them a lot, the computers, and she knows very well how to play with them... that's why, when uncle's computer dies, she knows how to repair it. Or perhaps what she does there is to make plain doughnuts that people must not eat because they are dangerous and the make your tummy hurt, but those doughnuts are food for the computers... and then, when she's finished making them, she brings them to uncle's bedroom and she feeds the video game console with them, and, since it's so happy, it plays some music and produces some drawings and uncle gets very happy too, and, as Pan likes that uncle becomes happy... she makes even more of them! But I don't like very much that Pan goes to university... I'd like her to be always and always here at ceecee. Why don't they start a university here, at ceecee? I'm sure that those boys with schoolbags wouldn't mind coming here! It's very pwetty, the ceecee! Though I don't like those guys much... when we went to fetch Pan, they looked at uncle with ugly faces. And I don't like that anyone looks at my uncle like that! I don't know why they don't like my uncle, but they are stupid. What they could do here at ceecee, though, could be a university for Pan only. Thus, there wouldn't be those dumb boys! And Pan would be at ceecee all day, as if she lived here!
Pan tells uncle things about the university and uncle listens to her staaaaaaaring, staaaaaaaaaaaaaaring at her... I can't understand a word from what she's saying, but she must like it because she smiles a big smile! I think that uncle doesn't understand much either from what Pan says, because, of course, his computer is always dying... but he listens to her carefully and, from time to time, he says some things that are funny. Uncle is crazy!
I've already eaten my food. Can we go out? Plllllllllease!
Uncle grabs me and Pan takes my bib out. I've soiled it a bit... it doesn't matter, does it? I didn't mean to, Pan, really... but I've got too much food on the spoon sometimes... They carry me to the bathroom and they wash my face and my hands. If they put some different clothes on me now, it will mean that we are out for a walk...! Yes, we are going to my bedroom! And Pan looks in my wardrobe, so we'll go out! How I love Pan and uncle!
I'm very happy that Pan and uncle like taking care of me so much, because they are my best friends. I think that what they're doing is to learn what they have to do to have a little daughter or a little son, to have one of their own... With which baby should mommy and daddy have played with, to know how to be my parents? Ugh, there are too many things that I still don't know... Pan has taken my pyjama out and she's changing my diaper. And, meanwhile, uncle shows me my teddies. He hides them and then he shows them again to me. Where are they? I don't know, he hides them... he makes them disappear...! He's very intelligent, my uncle! Because he always makes them appear again!
They are now talking about where we'll go now. To the beach? To the city? Uncle says that he doesn't mind, as long as he is with Pan. Uh, uh, and Pan doesn't realise that he wants to marry her yet! Pan says that they could take me to the zoo or to some park... come here, Pan, come here, I want to give you a kiss, can't you see how I'm asking you with my hands in the air...? What's there in the zoo? It's nice, isn't it? You both always go to nice places with me!
Pan has put a little dress on me and now uncle's combing my hair. Pan gives me a small mirror so that I can see myself. He has put my hair in two tiny ponytails with two very small flowers, and they are very funny for the tails stand up! And now they put some cologne on me, they give me a cookie and they put me in my pram. We're ready to leave!
Uncle pushes the pram. We are walking on the path that ends in the door to exit the Cc. I've turned around for a moment and I've seen a detail that I've liked. Uncle's only pushing me with one hand and he's given the other one to Pan. Uncle loves her a lot... and she loves him a whole lot too, because she's become very happy too, though she's said nothing... I like it very much when Pan puts her head here, on uncle's shoulder... because sometimes they both close their eyes and I can see that they are very happy and, if both are happy, everything goes well...
I don't know where we'll go, but I don't care much. I am happy whenever they are with me, no matter what we do!
Now we've stopped. I turn around, I don't know what's the matter, they're talking, deciding where to go. How nice they both are, looking from here, from forwards... their hands are still together, they can't stop smiling, and I think that, like me, they don't care where to go as long as we are together. What is nice when we go out is that, when we are outdoors, mommy and granny cannot come and take me to do anything. They would like that I was always having a bath, but I'm already clean, can't they see? But once we are outdoors, it doesn't matter where to go... let's go far, far way, so we'll take longer to come back...! And the sun will set to sleep and, since it'll be a bit cold, we'll have a big hug, the three of us, like this, very big...!
Pan caresses my hair for a moment, she tickles me, and uncle looks for something in his pocket. Ah!, I know what it is, that kind of small sweets that grown ups are always carrying around, the sweets for making magic!! I must lean into my pram, so I don't lose it!! It seems that grown people love to make magic, they take one of those sweets, they throw it all at once and, puff!, things appear there, ships, cars, houses, whatever! When I am older, I will also carry some of these small sweets! Perhaps they don't give me any yet because they are afraid that I may think that they are sweets for real, and eat them... my tummy would hurt a lot if, all at once, a car appeared in there! But I already know that I must not swallow those ones... if I knew how to speak enough, I'd tell them. Always the same! I must hurry to learn how to speak, for, if I don't, they'll always think that I'm a small kid that knows nothing!
Uncle throws the sweet to the ground, and the same as always happens, lots of smoke comes out from it... what will it be what he's made appear? It's very big! My uncle knows a lot of things!!
It's a round, red ship, with a big glass in the front. How nice it is! Now uncle's got me in his arms, they'll put the pram backside, they always do when we are going on the ship. I love going on the ship, because there are only two seats, and therefore I sit on the lap of the one that's not driving, and I can see the clouds, and the sky... uncle will drive today and Pan will carry me. Is it that we'll go very afar? Perhaps we'll even stay the night...!