The Reason
By: *Squishy*Teddy*


Two weeks had passed since the sorting feast, since the night Lily and James had that fight of words, and still no peace had came to me. I had 14 days of being irritated, and bitched at by a certain white haired girl named Nada Dumbledore. But, today was Sunday, and Sunday had always brought the peace, before. Maybe it would help now.

The midmorning light was breaking through my scarlet velvet curtains that hung from my four poster bed. I continued to leave my pale lashes resting upon freckled dotted cheeks. Personally, I didn't want to wake up, but even with the warm comforting beams adorning the vermilion blankets, and my face. The noise outside my small world was affecting my relaxation.
The draperies of my sanctuary were pulled away, letting the sun's full force fall down on my bedstead. Of course, I moaned, as I always did when I was forced awake. Pulling my pillow over my head, I started to speak into it. "Go away..."

Something large jumped upon my stomach, and straddled my torso. One of Sirius' large hands pulled my barrier from its protected attribute, and the first thing I saw was his toothy grin on me. Still, those limbs that preyed me away from my leisure, were now on my shoulders, shaking something awful.

"Moooony! It's time to get up! Mom made cookies, and Little Jimmy wants to know if you want to come out at play!" His over-cheerful voice in the morning had ended up with a feather pillow to the side of his head, which sent him off me and to the wooden floor besides my bed. On the other hand, I slid out from under my comforter and pressed those awfully large feet to the cold, oak floor. Wonderful morning surprise.

"Shut up, Padfoot..." My voice was husky with slumber, and my hands darted to lashes, laden with sleep, which were quickly brushed off. It only took a few quick steps until I made my way to my trunk. This hole-y trunk with patched up robes holding inside was my house, my holding. My only possession. The lock was broke on it, seeing I retrieved it from the garbage, but you get what you pay for. I knelt in front of it and flipped it open with ease, and almost immediately rummaged through the piles of broken bindings, and patched clothes. Finding a half way descent one, I pulled it out of it's carrier and on to my body.

"Now, that's what I call preparation.." Sirius said, still on floor, looking up at me with those electric hues, with that same smile on his pink lips. My own eyes rolled at him, as I grabbed him by the arm.

"Goofball.." I stated once he was up, and dreadful was the task of surpressing an on coming smile.

"Now, Moony, leave our balls out of this..We know who'd win that.." Sirius said with a grin, as I started to walk away from him.

"Smart ass.." I continued to smile, even though, being annoyed was what was supposed to happen. It never did though.

Padfoot, however, jumped up, and turned to look at his own posterior. His voice rose, with
sarcasm to say to his rump, "I didn't know you were so smart!"

With the look on my face, Sirius had gotten the point to run, and of course, I sprinted after him, yelling smart remarks, and insults, while he skipped down the stairs, nearly running over first years.

He and I could go on for hours exchanging remarks and insults. Throw James in there, and you'd have The Three Stooges. Peter would sit there, complaining about loud mouthed friends, and how he should've gotten normal friends. Wed ignore it, though. After all, we all thought he was kidding.

We darted across the common room, stopping sometimes at chairs to see if I could reach across and grab him. I never could though, but when I had nearly caught him by the collar of his robes, he had took a step back, and out of the common room. I followed, of course, only to trip on the last stair of the entrance, and at someone's tennis clad feet.

Sheepishly, I rose my head, expecting to see James, or even worse, a professor. Instead, I saw Lily. Her emerald hues questioning what I was doing without words. Sirius was behind her, though, doubled over on the floor, laughing at my -smooth- move.

However, my angel reached down and offered me that delicate hand of creamy composure, and my own massive one rose to grab it. Slow motion, it was for me. The perfect situation to make my move, besides the laughing Sirius in the middle of the hall. Then a hellish voice that could only belong to one person stung in my ears, as a foot came down hard on my back.

"Come on, Lily." Nada Dumbledore was standing on the small of my backbone, and even with her small frame, it hurt from a recent bruise. "I want to know what happened.." Came another whine from her pallid tiers. Sirius however, broke into another round of laughter at the sight of this witch standing on my back. Lily also smiled, shaking her head, so that those fiery strands fell onto her chest from behind her ears.

"Nada, come on, get off him." Lily's soft voice echoed softly, as she smirked down to me again.

"Him?" The other girl didn't do anything she was told, only innocently asked that question, while icy oculars rested upon a her friend.

"The person you're standing on..." The redhead pointed out with a long index finger, to me, her other hand now resting at her side again, although her face was very apologetic. I however, growled at Nada, as I tried to push her off my back. However, she made no move to get off me.

"Hello, Lupin..." She scowled down at me. " Honestly, Lily. I thought they just got new carpeting.."

"Get off me, Nada or I'll rip you to shreds." I screamed, not even thinking of the consequences. Nada didn't know what I was, neither did Lily, but my friend who was now completely serious, had stood up from his position on the floor.

"Yeah, Nada. Get off him. We have things to do today.." Sirius said in complete calmness as the white haired witch removed herself from my back. I stood up, after grabbing onto Sirius' offered hand. Nada continued to scowl, at her giving up of my spine.

However, I chose to ignore it, and gave a frown to Lily as I whispered the word, "bye." Sirius continued to drag me down the hall by the arm. His grip was very tight, now. I knew where we were going though. Down the main stairs, and out the door, we made our way to the whomping willow where a few students were playing under it's massive limbs. A game known as dodging leaves, so that it would sound innocent to teachers, and parents. Many pupils however got hurt in this game, and all were forbidden to play it. Only the dumb, or extremely courageous played it, now.

Sirius' large mouth spread apart, and yelled something quite interesting that made all of the students run to check out. "Flitwick proposed to Trelawny!" It was common knowledge that the two professors had been dating for a while, but no one knew why. For some reason, the upper class man thought it all for the sex. Then again, it was only one opinion.

I soon found myself playing look out for disciples as Sirius once again, turned into a shaggy black dog. Even with my keen eyes, I had a terrible problem seeing the greasy-haired boy who hid among the brush along the edge of the forbidden forest. Once I made sure no one was around, or I thought I did, I slid down the hole. I had made a mistake, although, by not seeing that Slytherin in the bush. The second biggest mistake of my life.

Once in the passage, Sirius transformed back into a human, who was frowning in my direction. "What were you thinking, Moony?!"

"What do you mean, What was I thinking?" I crossed my arms back over my chest, and headed down the long dirt passage to our little hide out.

"Oh, don't play dumb, Remus. You told Nada that you were going to rip her to shreds." Sirius frowned at me once more, running a bit to catch up to me.

"She was standing on my back!" My own hues of sea blue narrowed at my good friend, before I turned to watch ahead of me. I knew what I had done was wrong, but I was angry.

"Even so! If she tells her father, you will get..expelled.." Sirius had made that word, expelled, sound like the ultimate death penalty, which it was, for me. I had no where else to go but Hogwarts. My head hung slightly, while one of my hands ran through sandy tresses.

"You're right, Padfoot...I..I guess I wasn't thinking..." She shrugged slightly as he made our way through a trap door, only to see the other two members of our prestige club lounging in those ruined, dusty recliners.

"What are you talking about?" Peter shyly asked, as he played with a small white mouse in his hand. It's name was Blood, for it's terribly red eyes.

"Remus threatened Nada.." Sirius mouthed, as he made his way to a chair, to loaf.

"Moony, if.." James started, but I interrupted after seating myself on a rather ratty looking footstool, and pulled my legs up to my chest.

"I know, James. I wasn't thinking..."

"What were you thinking about then? You're usually never this careless." Sirius said again. My index finger and middle finger, on both hands, went to my temples, and inefficiently rubbed them.

"It's nothing big, Padfoot. I was just..." I trailed off, but he smiled knowingly, and for once, kept quiet. Sirius was not as dumb as he looked. He could easily put two and two together, and I was graceful for it. James however, who was sprawled out on the couch, wasn't satisfied with my answer, and voiced his questioning of the same inquiry.

"You were just...what?" My head rose, before shaking it.

"I was just thinking about a girl. All right. Just one girl.."

"Ouuu!!! Moony's got a crush.." Peter teased, and I narrowed my eyes at him, easily telling him non-verbally to shut up.

"Who is it?" James questioned, moving closer. He of course, expected me to tell him.

"Mind your own business.." I sneered, and quickly, apologized before standing up. "Sorry, James..I-I'm just sorry."

I had gotten up to leave. To go to my room upstairs, where I used to scratch, and bite myself, but now would ponder what was wrong with me. Why I had blown up at them? Of course, I knew why though. James and Sirius were my best friends, and I was supposed to tell them everything. I wouldn't tell them this though. I couldn't. I had thought it was too early to tell them. Tell them that I was in loved with our best girl friend. Our firebird, our thesaurus. Oh God, how wrong I was. Maybe if I had told them then, when they had ask. She would be mine.

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Author's note: Mwah. Look what I can do when I'm sick. x.x; I should've gotten this done sooner, but I was busy. I have just started high school, and you know how frantic that can be. I knew I had all summer to do this. Why didn't I though? -whisper- I was busy. I wish I would've gotten this done sooner, though. Then maybe people would still check this out. Oh well. The Reason will be updated in the next...three days. Incomplete will remain Incomplete until I rewrite the first, second, and third chapter of that. So what, I change my mind a lot, I'm female. It's allowed.

Thanks for your reviews. They're appreciated, and they make themselves known. I love opinions, and flames. They help when I'm writing. :D! Thank you for review, and for reading. It's very much loved. I love you all...!! Forever Squishy...Squishy Teddy.