"The Christmas Wish" Chapter 3

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing or any of it's wonderful character, they are owned by some rich guy.

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Heero sucked in as much air as possible, he looked down into a pair of violet eyes. 'Is he really this close to me,' Heero wondered. Duo tried to stand up quickly only making the situation worse. Duo again looked up into the cobalt eyes. Suddenly he thought he saw something you wouldn't see in a "perfect soldier". Heero stood Duo up, hoping he could keep his cool about the whole situation.

"Are you okay?" Heero asked with a shrug.

"Fine," Duo replied unsure of whether Heero was concerned or he thought Duo a baka.

"The music is fine," Heero said nonchalantly picking up his bag and walking over to the bunk beds. Heero deposited his stuff on the top bunk and then pulled his slender body up there. He started going through his stuff.

'Did I really see that in those cold eyes,' Duo wondered starting at Heero. He thought back to the moment, 'yes I did' he concluded. 'His eyes portrayed an insecurity he would have never let his body or voice reflect. Why was he unsure of himself?' Duo walked back over to his bed. He lowered himself back down being sure to watch out for Heero's dangling feet. Duo sat in the silence for a moment considering what to do now. 'Why not be myself? What is holding me back?' Duo tried to fight this invisible force.

"So Heero, why did you transfer here?" Duo asked standing up and looking at his new roommate.

Heero looked up for a moment but uttered no response.

"What so now you're not going to talk to me?" Duo wondered turning around to face his stereo. He waited for a response only what he got was silence. Duo looked at the clock, a thought struck him like a large brick, he had a class in fifteen minutes but he also needed to know just what was going on with Heero and why he was there. He needed to know if he could handle this.

"Well maybe you will talk to me later, right now I have a class," Duo said bending down to grab his bag. Heero looked up as Duo bent over, 'what a view'. Duo stood up and turned around facing Heero, who looked away quickly.

"Later, my silent roommate," Duo joked, walking out the door. Duo was so glad to get out of that room. 'Why do I think I want to get away from that boy, but feel like I need to be as close to him as possible?'

Heero sat on the bed as the music surrounded him. He thought back to the night before and the events leading to him sitting there. He chose this school for one reason only, that pilot. That meeting would never leave his mind. As he gave his speech that morning his eyes scanned the people for those violet eyes and chestnut braid. After the speech the only reason he hung around was because he was hoping the pilot would show up. He stood in the shadows searching. Then he saw him. That hair bounced lively as he was pulled around the room. Then those violet eyes turned to look upon him. Duo was pulled to him he seemed different somehow. The expression in those eyes showed someone who was scared. Heero had no concern for the guy he was with the name he only remembers is Duo Maxwell. To feel his hand made Heero want to feel his face, arms, and chest, all of him. Upon the news of their rooming together, Duo ran away.

'Why did he run? Was there something there Heero failed to see or understand? Did he scare the beautiful boy away? Why am I thinking these things? Do I have feelings for that boy? I can't have feeling for him, no! Then again maybe I do in that part of me only I know exists.' Heero pondered all of this for a few more minutes before getting up and heading to class.

Duo discovered that he had two classes with Heero and in both of them the teacher sat Heero next to him. After his last class Duo headed back to his room. Standing in front of the building Duo wondered if he really wanted to go in. 'Maybe Heero isn't back yet,' he hoped.

"Why are you standing out here in the cold?" someone asked behind him. Duo turned around to looking into a pair of cobalt blues.

"What are you doing out here," Duo asked a like surprised by Heero's question.

"Just got out of class," Heero replied simply. Duo shook a little from the cold surrounding him. Heero saw this, he wanted to take Duo into his arms and keep him warm. Heero didn't notice the cold, so it didn't bother him in the slightest. Heero reached out and took Duo's wrist in his hand. Walking toward the building he pulled a shocked Duo along with him. They entered the building; Heero dropped Duo's wrist and headed for the stairs. 'I should have never done that. Why did I do that?' Heero beat himself up over his decision.

Duo stood there for a moment. 'What was that?' He wondered.

"Wait a minute. What just happened?" Duo called chasing Heero up the stairs. Heero didn't respond he just kept walking. Reaching their floor Duo was hot on his heels. He kept calling out to Heero who refused to respond. Duo finally grew fed up and grabbed Heero's arm, stopping him in his tracks. Duo spun him around, only he was faced with something he wasn't sure he wanted to see. Heero's eyes were bleak and cold. Duo wanted an answer but not that look. Far some reason it hurt Duo deeply to see Heero looking at him like that. His eyes began to betray him and show what he was feeling.

Heero looked at the person who just grabbed him to get his attention. He didn't know how to respond so he showed the only thing he knew. Looking into a pair of hurt, scared violet eyes hurt Heero. 'Why did I have to choose something that would hurt him?' He could feel his face soften, 'should I say something? If I do what should I say?'

"Sorry," Heero whispered.

'He apologized, someone so cold and silent apologized. What is going on?' Duo's face showed his shock and confusion. He still held on to Heero's arm, 'just let go' Duo told himself. He couldn't loosen his grip. They stood in the hall several more minutes.

"Maybe we should get out the hall, Duo remarked. 'Can I even move?'

"Yeah," Heero agreed. They still stood in their place not moving an inch. Heero twisted his arm out of Duo's hand as people could be heard coming up the stairs. Reaching out he again grabbed Duo's wrist and pulled him gently down the hall to their room. Opening the door Heero entered with Duo in tow.

"Why do you keep doing that?" Duo asked as the door shut behind him.

"Did you want to look like a baka in the hall," Heero asked him pointedly. 'Why does he make me do these things? I would have never done that with anyone else.'