The letter
by: Kathi Skywalker (kathiskywalker@compuserve.de)


From: Amidala Padmé Naberrie Skwalker / Alderaan
To: Lord Darth Vader / Castle Bast / Imperial Center

Dear Ani,

When you get this letter I will already be gone.
You know there were so many things I wanted to tell you, so many things I
wanted you to know but I always found excuses for not telling you.
I know I always walked the safe way; and so I do now with this letter. I
never really had the courage to fight when it was nessecary like you, my
love. I was the master of politics and you were master of the sword. You never
really liked politics, no, even worse, you hated them.
Oh yes, darling, I know.
Mabye our relationship was wrong casted right from the beginning, who knows?
But I know one thing for sure, that I loved you.
And I don't want you to think that I left you alone when you needed me most,
Ani.
Because I didn't.
I've longed for you every day and night since then. But I couldn't come to
you.
Why? You may ask now. I can still picture your blue eyes asking for
understanding.
Why? That's the word, the question I feared and it's also the answer,
because you would have asked me. And what would I have answered?
Because Ben told me never to see you again.
Why?
You would have asked again.
Because I love you. I would have answered.
And I would have told you. I would have told you that I was pregnant by you.
And what would you have done, my Ani? Maybe you would have brought our child
to Palpatine, who would have killed it like all the other Jedi in the
galaxy. No. I couldn't allow that to happen to our child, my love.
He's almost 5 years old now, darling. His name is Luke. Luke Skywalker. He's
got your eyes and your hair. I love him so very much, Ani.
No, Ani, don't even think about searching for him. He's not here. Ben did a
good job. He took Luke away from me only half a year after I gave birth to
him. Sometimes he allows me to visit him. But he doesn't even know who I
really am. I hate Obi-Wan for doing this to me. Even if I know his reasons.
First I've lost you then I lost our son.
I swore the Jedi I would never tell you about him. But I'll never give up
hope, Ani.
I still love you.
Don't hate me for not telling you earlier. That's the only thing I ask from
you: Don't hate me.

Yours for ever and always,
Amidala.