(Inuyasha and Co do not belong to me. I just like to write about them. Okies, I'm going to attempt to get all this tied together before this thing hits 30 chapters. And yes, I have writen a 30 chapter ficcie before, yiii! Cross your fingers and hope I can be coherent. Oh, and also I did notice a mistake I made in earlier chapters regarding the sword that Sess-chan had made from the Goshinki - calling it the Goshinki when it's actually another name. For you IY purists, I apologize.)
Kanashimi no Hate ni - End To Sorrow - Twenty-Four
Reconciled/Rin and Myoga's Discovery!
Kagome knew something was wrong the instant she entered her room. Narrowing her eyes, she went to her backpack and rummaged through it.
Her Shikon shard was missing! In a panic she looked everywhere, but it wasn't there. She couldn't even sense it anywhere.
Sesshoumaru. He must have taken it! Just then he appeared, his eyes focused on Kagome. She flew into him in a rage.
"Give me back the Shikon shard, you asshole.." Kagome seethed.
"You will not use that sort of language to refer to me, wench.." Sesshoumaru growled.
"I want the damn shard now!" Kagome didn't care if he was offended.
"I have no use for an insipid jewel, bitch.." Sesshoumaru grabbed her wrist. She was definitely pissing him off. After last night he would have thought she would be more docile.
But then he found that he didn't like the idea of Kagome being docile at all...
"Don't touch me!" Kagome backed away, trying to jerk away from him. Even now she felt that weakening pull towards the youkai-lord and she hated herself for it.
"I shall touch you whenever I wish.." Sesshoumaru said coolly, his face not betraying what he felt, which was a mixture of anger and confusion. Before Kagome could say another word, Sesshoumaru brought her forcibly against him and kissed her hard. Kagome hit and kicked at him, but Sesshoumaru would not budge. Finally he pulled away from her mouth and said, "If I wanted the Tetsusaiga, I would have taken it from you, along with your precious shard. I wouldn't go to the trouble of bedding you for it. I, Sesshoumaru, believe in being direct."
Kagome blinked with surprise.
Sesshoumaru sighed. He was not sure of how to proceed. He was used to his word being obeyed and that was all. Taking others into consideration was new to him. Rin had been and still was, sort of a training ground for him. Kagome was the equivalent of boot camp.
"I said that I was yours, Kagome. Does that not have meaning in your time?" Sesshoumaru asked.
"But do you - love me?" Kagome asked.
"Love does not exist for a youkai." Sesshoumaru said as he watched her expression. "But the giving of oneself to another is a rare thing - a precious thing. Do you understand my meaning?" Sesshoumaru asked, hoping the hell that she did. Explaining things like this was not his forte.
"I - think so." Kagome touched his cheek with her hand. "I'm - sorry, Sesshoumaru. It - was wrong of me to accuse you so. I was just - scared."
"You did not seem so before."
"That was because - " Kagome paused. "You made me feel secure, loved, wanted and needed. I felt - I never felt the way that way before with anyone else before. You made me feel as if I were the only one." She whispered softly.
"Not even with - " Sesshoumaru did not even want to mention his name.
"Inuyasha? I - " Kagome drew a ragged breath. "I loved him but it always felt as if a shadow was over everything. Kikyou's shadow. I looked like her and I sometimes felt as if I were some shadow of hers, not wanted because I was Kagome, but because I looked like Kikyou, and was even her reincarnation. But I wanted - I wanted to be loved because I was Kagome."
"I cannot say the words that would please you, Kagome. That is not my way." Sesshoumaru said. "But I can show you.." He kissed her gently, catching her lower lip with his teeth, nibbling on it. Kagome felt a sharp pitch of desire rise within her.
~God, what has happened to me?~ Kagome thought wildly. ~I've turned into a sex maniac!~
She pulled away, her eyes darkening. Sesshoumaru could see the desire in them, and he was sorely tempted to make amends in a very delightful way. But it was not seemly - at least not right now.
"Come. I have something for you." Sesshoumaru said.
"For me?" Kagome asked.
Sesshoumaru nodded and Kagome said, "Wait! The Shikon shard! If you didn't take it, who did?"
"We will find it. Now come with me."
Kagome looked worried. Someone had the Shikon shard. She just knew it. It was then she remembered something.
~Jaken..I could have sworn I sensed two Shikon shards on him..~ Kagome thought as she followed Sesshoumaru. Yes, she was sure of what she sensed then, but how could he had them once but then not have them? She knew that little toad was not that careless enough to lose them. Somehow though she had sensed them and then suddenly they were not there as if they disappeared into thin air.
She would definitely corner Jaken on that. If he had them, she get them away from him.
*****
Myoga was outside, and he had just feasted on a delicious meal of - well he had feasted anyway. The demon flea was quite sated and fat - so much so that he could not avoid the running feet of the little girl.
SQUISH!
"Oiiiii..." Myoga groaned. Surely it was his fate to live a long life and to always be squished like a pancake.
Rin stopped short and looked around. What was that? It was then she spotted Myoga. She recognized the flea and squealed with delight. Myoga was funny. Rin had already shook the fearsome image of Jaken out of her mind. She was outside now and no Jaken to bop her over the head with his nasty stick!
"Hi, Myoga-jiin!" Rin picked up the flattened old flea and he popped back to his usual round shape. Rin placed him on her shoulder as the flea dusted himself.
"Greetings, Rin-chan.." Myoga bowed.
"I'm glad you're here, Myoga. Wanna help me pick flowers for Kagome and Sess-chan?"
"Hm.." Myoga stroked his goatee thoughtfully. "I am afraid this old flea can't help you with that, child."
Rin giggled. "I forgot. Let's go!" In a burst of energy, the child ran and Myoga nearly fell off.
"This Myoga - he's getting too old for such swift starts!" Myoga clung to Rin's hair.
They picked flowers for awhile - well at least Rin did - as Myoga kept a sharp eye out for danger. Myoga was quite good as self preservation.
It was then that Rin saw something on the far side of the field. It was something - furry and it looked like a little tail sticking up. Rin became excited. Maybe it was a pet she could take to show Sess-chan! But then Rin became a little scared. What if it was a wolf? She did not like wolves. They were the only things that she was scared of.
"Rin-chan. What is wrong?" Myoga asked.
"I see something - over there." Rin pointed.
"Hmmmmm.." Myoga hopped off Rin's shoulder. Cautiously the old flea made his way over to the furry tail that was sticking up. Something about that tail looked awfully familar. It was definitely a fox tail - at least that was what Myoga thought. He hopped a little closer and saw -
"Shippo-chan!" Myoga exclaimed. And there was Kirara, Sango's pet. But where was Sango and the monk, Miroku? He looked at Shippo and Kirara and came to the conclusion that they were exhausted. The little flea hopped back to Rin and said, "It is all right, Rin-chan. Come!"
Rin went over and squealed with delight at the unconscious little kitsume and the demon-cat.
"They're so CUTE and FLUFFY!! Just like Sess-chan!" Rin was smiling from ear to ear.
"We need to let Sesshoumaru-sama and Kagome know that they're here, Rin-chan. They're her friends and they may be hurt."
"S'okay! Rin carefully picked up both the little kitsume and Kirara with both hands. lying them upon her shoulder. Racing back to the castle, she went in search of Sesshoumaru and Kagome..
****
"These were your mother's?" Kagome frowned slightly as Sesshoumaru showed her the quiver filled with arrows and the magnificent bow that was within it.
"Hai. She was a great warrior in her own right. Although she could use a sword, her preferred weapon was the bow - at least that is what my father told me." Sesshoumaru said.
"And you want to give these to me.." Kagome looked at them with wonder.
"They are of little use to me." Sesshoumaru said.
~Well he makes me feel good..~ Kagome smirked.
"And they were my mother's.." Sesshoumaru added. "If you wish them, they are yours."
Somehow Kagome was able to read the true meaning behind his words - that he was giving them to her because they were his mother's. He had loved his mother and she supposed that to him he was honoring HER, Kagome, by giving them to her.
"I'm honored." Kagome said with a slight smile. "They are beautiful, Sess-chan.." She took the quiver and placed it on her back. Although it had been made for a demoness, it fit Kagome perfectly. She took the bow and tested it with her hand. The balance was perfect. She did not know what kind of material it was made from, but she knew it had to be rare indeed.
Evidently he was pleased that she liked his gift, for a slight smiled crossed his face, reaching his golden eyes.
"I suppose you would like to try them out." Sesshoumaru said offhandedly.
"I suppose you would like to see about the Tensaiga and the Tetsusaiga together, too?" Kagome teasingly asked.
Sesshoumaru shrugged elegantly. "Always you place words upon my lips that I've never spoken."
"Hah. I'm right. Don't mess with me, fluff boy.." Kagome playfully ruffled the fur on his looped around tail. "I'm psychic."
"What is this - psychic?" Sesshoumaru frowned. He did not like the unfamilar words that she used sometimes since they appeared to leave him at a disadvantage. Being called 'fluff boy', he would allow to pass as long as she did not do so around others.
"Sesshoumaru-sama! Kagome-chan!" Rin's voice cut into the momentary silence. Kagome gasped as she saw what the little girl was holding in her arms.
"Kirara! Shippo!" Kagome carefully placed the quiver off of her shoulder and reached for the two.
Sesshoumaru groaned inwardly. This was no longer the castle of the youkai-lord, Sesshoumaru, but a damn menangerie!
Kanashimi no Hate ni - End To Sorrow - Twenty-Four
Reconciled/Rin and Myoga's Discovery!
Kagome knew something was wrong the instant she entered her room. Narrowing her eyes, she went to her backpack and rummaged through it.
Her Shikon shard was missing! In a panic she looked everywhere, but it wasn't there. She couldn't even sense it anywhere.
Sesshoumaru. He must have taken it! Just then he appeared, his eyes focused on Kagome. She flew into him in a rage.
"Give me back the Shikon shard, you asshole.." Kagome seethed.
"You will not use that sort of language to refer to me, wench.." Sesshoumaru growled.
"I want the damn shard now!" Kagome didn't care if he was offended.
"I have no use for an insipid jewel, bitch.." Sesshoumaru grabbed her wrist. She was definitely pissing him off. After last night he would have thought she would be more docile.
But then he found that he didn't like the idea of Kagome being docile at all...
"Don't touch me!" Kagome backed away, trying to jerk away from him. Even now she felt that weakening pull towards the youkai-lord and she hated herself for it.
"I shall touch you whenever I wish.." Sesshoumaru said coolly, his face not betraying what he felt, which was a mixture of anger and confusion. Before Kagome could say another word, Sesshoumaru brought her forcibly against him and kissed her hard. Kagome hit and kicked at him, but Sesshoumaru would not budge. Finally he pulled away from her mouth and said, "If I wanted the Tetsusaiga, I would have taken it from you, along with your precious shard. I wouldn't go to the trouble of bedding you for it. I, Sesshoumaru, believe in being direct."
Kagome blinked with surprise.
Sesshoumaru sighed. He was not sure of how to proceed. He was used to his word being obeyed and that was all. Taking others into consideration was new to him. Rin had been and still was, sort of a training ground for him. Kagome was the equivalent of boot camp.
"I said that I was yours, Kagome. Does that not have meaning in your time?" Sesshoumaru asked.
"But do you - love me?" Kagome asked.
"Love does not exist for a youkai." Sesshoumaru said as he watched her expression. "But the giving of oneself to another is a rare thing - a precious thing. Do you understand my meaning?" Sesshoumaru asked, hoping the hell that she did. Explaining things like this was not his forte.
"I - think so." Kagome touched his cheek with her hand. "I'm - sorry, Sesshoumaru. It - was wrong of me to accuse you so. I was just - scared."
"You did not seem so before."
"That was because - " Kagome paused. "You made me feel secure, loved, wanted and needed. I felt - I never felt the way that way before with anyone else before. You made me feel as if I were the only one." She whispered softly.
"Not even with - " Sesshoumaru did not even want to mention his name.
"Inuyasha? I - " Kagome drew a ragged breath. "I loved him but it always felt as if a shadow was over everything. Kikyou's shadow. I looked like her and I sometimes felt as if I were some shadow of hers, not wanted because I was Kagome, but because I looked like Kikyou, and was even her reincarnation. But I wanted - I wanted to be loved because I was Kagome."
"I cannot say the words that would please you, Kagome. That is not my way." Sesshoumaru said. "But I can show you.." He kissed her gently, catching her lower lip with his teeth, nibbling on it. Kagome felt a sharp pitch of desire rise within her.
~God, what has happened to me?~ Kagome thought wildly. ~I've turned into a sex maniac!~
She pulled away, her eyes darkening. Sesshoumaru could see the desire in them, and he was sorely tempted to make amends in a very delightful way. But it was not seemly - at least not right now.
"Come. I have something for you." Sesshoumaru said.
"For me?" Kagome asked.
Sesshoumaru nodded and Kagome said, "Wait! The Shikon shard! If you didn't take it, who did?"
"We will find it. Now come with me."
Kagome looked worried. Someone had the Shikon shard. She just knew it. It was then she remembered something.
~Jaken..I could have sworn I sensed two Shikon shards on him..~ Kagome thought as she followed Sesshoumaru. Yes, she was sure of what she sensed then, but how could he had them once but then not have them? She knew that little toad was not that careless enough to lose them. Somehow though she had sensed them and then suddenly they were not there as if they disappeared into thin air.
She would definitely corner Jaken on that. If he had them, she get them away from him.
*****
Myoga was outside, and he had just feasted on a delicious meal of - well he had feasted anyway. The demon flea was quite sated and fat - so much so that he could not avoid the running feet of the little girl.
SQUISH!
"Oiiiii..." Myoga groaned. Surely it was his fate to live a long life and to always be squished like a pancake.
Rin stopped short and looked around. What was that? It was then she spotted Myoga. She recognized the flea and squealed with delight. Myoga was funny. Rin had already shook the fearsome image of Jaken out of her mind. She was outside now and no Jaken to bop her over the head with his nasty stick!
"Hi, Myoga-jiin!" Rin picked up the flattened old flea and he popped back to his usual round shape. Rin placed him on her shoulder as the flea dusted himself.
"Greetings, Rin-chan.." Myoga bowed.
"I'm glad you're here, Myoga. Wanna help me pick flowers for Kagome and Sess-chan?"
"Hm.." Myoga stroked his goatee thoughtfully. "I am afraid this old flea can't help you with that, child."
Rin giggled. "I forgot. Let's go!" In a burst of energy, the child ran and Myoga nearly fell off.
"This Myoga - he's getting too old for such swift starts!" Myoga clung to Rin's hair.
They picked flowers for awhile - well at least Rin did - as Myoga kept a sharp eye out for danger. Myoga was quite good as self preservation.
It was then that Rin saw something on the far side of the field. It was something - furry and it looked like a little tail sticking up. Rin became excited. Maybe it was a pet she could take to show Sess-chan! But then Rin became a little scared. What if it was a wolf? She did not like wolves. They were the only things that she was scared of.
"Rin-chan. What is wrong?" Myoga asked.
"I see something - over there." Rin pointed.
"Hmmmmm.." Myoga hopped off Rin's shoulder. Cautiously the old flea made his way over to the furry tail that was sticking up. Something about that tail looked awfully familar. It was definitely a fox tail - at least that was what Myoga thought. He hopped a little closer and saw -
"Shippo-chan!" Myoga exclaimed. And there was Kirara, Sango's pet. But where was Sango and the monk, Miroku? He looked at Shippo and Kirara and came to the conclusion that they were exhausted. The little flea hopped back to Rin and said, "It is all right, Rin-chan. Come!"
Rin went over and squealed with delight at the unconscious little kitsume and the demon-cat.
"They're so CUTE and FLUFFY!! Just like Sess-chan!" Rin was smiling from ear to ear.
"We need to let Sesshoumaru-sama and Kagome know that they're here, Rin-chan. They're her friends and they may be hurt."
"S'okay! Rin carefully picked up both the little kitsume and Kirara with both hands. lying them upon her shoulder. Racing back to the castle, she went in search of Sesshoumaru and Kagome..
****
"These were your mother's?" Kagome frowned slightly as Sesshoumaru showed her the quiver filled with arrows and the magnificent bow that was within it.
"Hai. She was a great warrior in her own right. Although she could use a sword, her preferred weapon was the bow - at least that is what my father told me." Sesshoumaru said.
"And you want to give these to me.." Kagome looked at them with wonder.
"They are of little use to me." Sesshoumaru said.
~Well he makes me feel good..~ Kagome smirked.
"And they were my mother's.." Sesshoumaru added. "If you wish them, they are yours."
Somehow Kagome was able to read the true meaning behind his words - that he was giving them to her because they were his mother's. He had loved his mother and she supposed that to him he was honoring HER, Kagome, by giving them to her.
"I'm honored." Kagome said with a slight smile. "They are beautiful, Sess-chan.." She took the quiver and placed it on her back. Although it had been made for a demoness, it fit Kagome perfectly. She took the bow and tested it with her hand. The balance was perfect. She did not know what kind of material it was made from, but she knew it had to be rare indeed.
Evidently he was pleased that she liked his gift, for a slight smiled crossed his face, reaching his golden eyes.
"I suppose you would like to try them out." Sesshoumaru said offhandedly.
"I suppose you would like to see about the Tensaiga and the Tetsusaiga together, too?" Kagome teasingly asked.
Sesshoumaru shrugged elegantly. "Always you place words upon my lips that I've never spoken."
"Hah. I'm right. Don't mess with me, fluff boy.." Kagome playfully ruffled the fur on his looped around tail. "I'm psychic."
"What is this - psychic?" Sesshoumaru frowned. He did not like the unfamilar words that she used sometimes since they appeared to leave him at a disadvantage. Being called 'fluff boy', he would allow to pass as long as she did not do so around others.
"Sesshoumaru-sama! Kagome-chan!" Rin's voice cut into the momentary silence. Kagome gasped as she saw what the little girl was holding in her arms.
"Kirara! Shippo!" Kagome carefully placed the quiver off of her shoulder and reached for the two.
Sesshoumaru groaned inwardly. This was no longer the castle of the youkai-lord, Sesshoumaru, but a damn menangerie!
