Not My Trance

Summary: I guess this is sort o goes along with MY HARPER. But this time it's from Harper's slightly confused self. Let me know if you want me to continue the "story".

Disclaimers: Still not mine. Andromeda belongs to Gene Rodenberry and the people who own his stuff. No infringements intended upon anyone's rights. Lyrics to CAN'T LOOSE YOU belong to CAEDMANS CALL.

So you're gone, but I know you're not so far away

You're a call on the phone or a ride on a plane

But that just isn't the same, yeah well

That's ok because I was never home anyway

So now everyone's evolving and I am jus the same

As I was ten years ago, but I don't know

Maybe the simple life is more the way to go

But then again, I'm mostly all alone

'Cause I'm loosing everyone

But I know I can't loose you

And maybe my time will come

But I know I can't loose you

The older I get well the more that life is making sense

And it's similar to traffic or being president

'Cause I'm not the one in control

You grab a hold

I'm just a hammer helping to nail the future down

But it's getting hard [watching] my friends leave town

'Cause I'm loosing everyone

But I know I can't loose you

And maybe my time will come

But I know I can't loose you

But maybe I missed the nose right on my face

For what's just passed it

And maybe I have the gift that everyone speaks so highly of

Funny how nobody wants it

'Cause I'm loosing everyone

But I know I can't loose you

And maybe my time will come

But I know I can't loose you

I CAN"T LOOSE YOU by: CAEDMANS CALL



You're not Trance!

I don't care how much you about her, or for that matter, about me. You don't know as much as you think you may know. Even if you are you. you're still not you.

Maybe someday I'll understand why everyone I… care… for always has to leave me or die.

My parents, my cousins …and now you.

So you haven't really left, you've just "grown up".

Then why do I hurt when I think of you?

If you were you, and really here, since you apparently haven't left, then I would be ever so happy and just go about my life as if my best friend wasn't dead.

O sure, I'll be nice. I'll even talk to you like one would to a friend. I'll play the game and fool everyone. I've gotten good at it over the years.

I'll pretend it doesn't hurt every time I look at you, every time I talk to you, every moment of my life.

But , I will. And I won't be okay.

It's nothing against you.

You seem nice enough, but

She was my BEST FRIEND.

I loved her.

I never told her, but I loved her, and I'll cherish that one kiss from her till my death and beyond.

But, I can never love you.

You may be Trance Gemini, but you're not Trance.

You're, NOT MY TRANCE!