Authors notes: Here's chapter four, I hope its all right.
Disclaimer: I do not own Digimon.
Impossible love: Chapter four
Daisuke slowly walked to the train station. He wore a large jacket and a scarf around his neck because of the extremely cold weather Odaiba was having. He blew on his hands and rubbed them together, trying to keep warm. He couldn't get the thought of last night out of his head. "He's so different from Hikari, I would love him more than I could ever love her…" Daisuke repeated what he had said last night over and over again. He was becoming more frustrated. Part of him wanted to loose this thought but another wanted to hold on to it.
"This shouldn't be happening. I don't love Ken. I love Hikari. Even though she's dating Takeru, that means I can still love her, right?" Daisuke gave aloud sigh. "Besides Ken wouldn't like me like that. Miyako is all over him all the time. I bet he'll end up getting married to her one day. Besides he's a genius and I'm just a dumb retarded, looser. I couldn't even get Hikari to love me. So why would he love me…"
Ken sat on the train staring out of the window, lost in his thoughts. The train was rather crowded but Ken wasn't focusing on that. He couldn't stop thinking about what Wormmon had said to him. "Ken, don't be afraid to tell Daisuke the truth." Did Wormmon know? Did he know all his feelings about Daisuke and if he did was it that obvious. He hoped not. Luckily sometimes Daisuke wasn't that observant. But perhaps if he dropped some hints… Ken kicked himself mentally. If he did hint to Daisuke that he liked him then Daisuke would probably think he was some sick weirdo.
"Wormmon must know. Why else would he have said that. Maybe Wormmon's right, maybe I should tell him. But…" Ken sighed into himself. "I'm still a coward. Wormmon always looks for the best in situations but I don't think there is a good solution for my problem. And yet I wonder why I feel this way. So drawn to him. He's my best friend, but of course I've always wondered why he would want to be friends with someone like me. Even after the torture I put innocent defenceless Digimon through. I was a monster, but yet, he forgave me. That is the sign of a true friend. But can it be the sign of true love?"
"I have so many questions but yet so little answers. Answers I shall never know unless I conquer my fear. Love, friendship, happiness, these things, I thought I'd never experience them. While I was the Digimon Kaiser, I put my effort into destroying all these things, but yet I want to feel them now. Why does love have to be so difficult?"
Daisuke waited anxiously at the train station. He looked at his watch, the train was due to arrive at any minute. "I must stop thinking about this. Ken is my friend, nothing else. I'll force myself to put these thoughts behind and enjoy myself and have fun today."
The train stopped. Ken tried to push past the crowd of people all trying to get off. A large man pushed past him. "Outta the way kid!" Ken found himself falling. He closed his eyes shut, expecting to hit the ground. Instead he felt someone holding him up. He looked up and saw his best friend.
"Ken are you all right?" he asked quickly, concerned about his friend.
Ken nodded, turning a deep shade of red. "Tha…thank you, Daisuke."
Daisuke smiled. "No problem buddy."
An awkward silence…
"It really is cold today, isn't it."
Ken nodded in agreement. He noticed Daisuke's hands, which had turned quite red. "Didn't you bring gloves."
"Nah, I couldn't find them. I probably lost them somewhere."
"Here take mine." replied Ken, handing him the gloves.
"But what about you?"
Ken blushed. "I'll be fine. My jacket has long sleeves so my hands won't get too cold."
Daisuke took the gloves. "Thanks Ken."
"You're welcome."
The two friends began to walk.
"So did you bring Wormmon?" asked Daisuke.
"No, he wanted to stay home. How about Chibimon, did you bring him?"
"Nah, all he would do is complain."
Ken chuckled a bit. "Sounds like someone I know."
"Who, Wormmon?"
Ken smiled. "Never mind." He liked the way Daisuke didn't pick up things right away. He didn't think it made Daisuke dumb or stupid but may him seem rather cute.
"I left Chibimon with five bars of chocolate. He'll be eating so much he wont even notice I'm gone."
"Hey lets go to the arcade! I haven't been there for a long while."
Ken was slightly surprised. He would always go there, usually to challenge Takeru on the fighting video games to try and impress Hikari.
Ken nodded. "Sure let's go."
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"Alright I'm going to beat you! I am the master at this game!"
Ken smiled. Daisuke's overconfidence seemed to annoy a lot of people but Ken liked it. Ken could win easily at this game if he wanted to, he was able to programme hundreds of computer programmes and games, so basically he was a master at video games. But instead, he decided to let Daisuke win.
"Ha I win! I'm unstoppable! I'm the master! No one can beat me!"
"You sure are Daisuke."
"Lets go get something to eat. I'm starving."
Ken nodded and followed his friend.
"So what do you want to eat?"
"Anything you want is fine, Dai-chan."
"Hey how about some pizza?"
"That'd be great." replied Ken, giving his friend a small smile.
Ken watched as Daisuke scoffed down a large slice of pizza.
"This is great! Aren't you going to eat the rest of yours?"
Ken looked down at his plate. He hadn't even eaten half a slice yet. He pushed his plate towards Daisuke. "I'm not really hungry right now. You can have it."
"Thanks Ken."
"You're welcome."
Daisuke stared at Ken while he wasn't looking. He was pretty. "I never really noticed how attractive Ken looks. He's so kind and polite. I wish I could be more like him…"
Daisuke slowly took bites out of his pizza. He felt greedy eating nearly two pizzas while Ken hadn't anything.
"So..Um…how's soccer being going?" asked Daisuke trying to escape his thoughts.
"I haven't played in a while."
"But you're the team captain."
"I've been to preoccupied lately."
Daisuke gave a sympathetic smile. "I know how that feels. To do you wanna talk about it?"
Ken became panicked. "Um…no it's ok."
"I haven't played for a while either. How about we go to the park and get a game?"
"Sure I'd love too!" Ken winced. There he went again, sounding like some popular girl getting a date. "I mean ur…sure."
"Let's head back to my apartment and get my soccer ball."
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Daisuke opened the door and they both went in. The apartment was a mess. Ken's mum would never leave the apartment in a mess like this. She was a total clean freak. Ken had a feeling that Daisuke was the cause of the mess.
Daisuke blushed, feeling embarrassed. "Sorry about the mess. I forgot all about it. I should have cleaned up the place before you came."
"Don't feel embarrassed, it's fine."
"I'll go get the ball. You can just stay in the living room."
Ken nodded.
Suddenly the door opened. Daisuke's older sister Jun walked in. She frowned when she noticed the mess the house was in. "Daisuke! Haven't you cleaned up yet! Mum and dad are gonna kill you when they see this place."
She then noticed Ken sitting on the couch. "Oh hi Ken."
Ken stood up. "Hello Jun, how are you today?"
"Apart from the big test I've gotta study for this weekend, I'm fine. I haven't seen you in awhile. Here or on the T.V."
Ken blushed slightly. In the pass, he was interviewed on television very often. Hundreds of reporters would wait outside just to get one interview with him. But lately none came around. Not that Ken cared, he was glad just to be an ordinary kid. Daisuke always thought he was lucky to be sort of famous, but Ken just found it annoying.
"Well it's good to know you're here. All Daisuke has been doing is staying in his room moping about, he won't even tell me or my mum and dad what it's about. At least he's got a friend now."
Daisuke came out angry. "Jun what are you saying about me!?"
Jun sighed. "Nothing, nothing."
"Well who said you could talk to Ken."
"Well nobody said I couldn't, did they?"
Daisuke stuck his tongue out at his sister.
"Boy Daisuke, that's real mature. I don't even understand why Ken would want to be friends with someone like you. You both are so different. He's nice and sweet and you're just a monster."
Daisuke was angry but hurt. Their people went again, saying he and Ken were so different. Ken turned red. He didn't want dragged into this brother, sister conflict.
"Well Dai-chan you should be greatful you have Ken as a friend or you would still be sitting in you're room all alone." replied Jun before going into her room.
"That Jun, she thinks she know everything!" Daisuke clinched his fists, tightly together.
"She's not that bad." said Ken trying to make the situation better.
"If I left you alone with her for ten minutes then you'd see what I was talking about." Daisuke picked up his soccer ball and nudged Ken. "C'mon lets go."
Ken nodded and followed his friend out of the apartment.
Daisuke and Ken walked to the park in silence. Ken started to wonder what was wrong.
"Stupid Jun. Why does she have to say stuff like that. There's another person who thinks Ken and I, are the exact opposite. This is so annoying. Before I wouldn't care but now…" Daisuke felt like he wanted to cry. But he couldn't, not in front of Ken anyway. " Why have all my feelings turned to Ken, just a few days ago I was totally in love with Hikari. But I still am. Maybe I'm just pushing my feelings towards Ken because I'm jealous of Hikari and Takeru being together. Besides I promised myself I wouldn't think about this today. I don't want to ruin today."
They finally reached the park. Daisuke and Ken quickly ran towards the soccer field. Nobody else was there so they had the field to themselves. Daisuke took off his jacket and threw it on the ground. "Come on Ken, let's play!"
Ken smiled and rushed towards his friends. It was very obvious that Ken was the better soccer player but he wasn't going to try his best, he's like to see the happy look on Daisuke's face if he beat him.
The two friends raced about the field laughing happily together.
"Motomiya gets the ball and he scores!" Daisuke jumped about the field happily.
"That was a great goal, Dai-chan. You're a great soccer player."
Daisuke chuckled. "Compared to you, I suck. You're the best soccer player around. Remember when you kicked my butt at the soccer match we had a few years ago. That proved how good you are."
Ken's face turned pink. "But Dai..Dai-chan, remember went I was about to score a goal, you stopped me. I mean that was a really good tackle."
Daisuke smiled. "Maybe, but you're the best player."
Daisuke stopped talking and looked up towards the sky. Soft flakes of snow fell softly on to his face. "It's snowing…"
Ken smiled. "It's so pretty."
Daisuke nodded and stuck out his tongue. "I love catching the snowflakes on my tongue."
"Me too." replied Ken. He stuck out his tongue and started slowly twirling around in circles like Daisuke. Both laughed and fell on to the ground.
"It's getting kind cold." said Daisuke wrapping his arms tightly together.
Ken nodded. "You're right."
"Hey I know, let's go back to my place and get some hot coco. And maybe you could even stay for the night."
"Sure, but would you're parents mind?"
"Nah, I doubt it. They think I've been spending to much time by myself lately."
Ken was surprised. "Haven't you seen the other Digidestined?"
Daisuke shook his head. "Not recently."
There was an awkward silence.
"I thought I was the one not seeing the other Digidestined. I hope everything with Daisuke is ok."
"Ken-chan let's go back now." said Daisuke lifting up his jacket.
The two friends quickly walked through the park.
"Thanks for coming Ken. I've had a really great time."
"Me too, thanks for inviting me."
"I've missed you a lot Ken." Daisuke held his head in the opposite direction, being embarrassed.
"I've missed you too Dai-chan."
Both friends gave each other a heart-warming smile.
Daisuke laughed. "Hey last one out of the park has to make the hot coco."
Ken giggled. "You're on."
Both began racing through the park. Daisuke ran ahead. "I'm gonna win if you don't…." He stopped suddenly. Hikari and Takeru were together sitting on a bench hugging.
"It's really cold isn't it, Takeru."
"Yes, you must be freezing. Here take my jacket." Takeru took the jacket and wrapped it warmly around Hikari.
She smiled sweetly at him. "Thanks. You're so sweet. But won't you be cold?"
"Don't worry as long as your happy, then I don't mind."
Hikari blushed. "Takeru I love you."
"I love you too, Hikari-chan."
Both moved closer. Hikari wrapped her arms around Takeru's neck and were locked in a sweet kiss.
Tears began to fill Daisuke's eyes. So they really did love each other. Daisuke felt his entire world fall apart.
Ken stood behind him. "Daisuke…."
Daisuke couldn't take it anymore. He began to run quickly away.
"Daisuke wait!" cried Ken.
Takeru and Hikari looked up.
"Ken? What are you doing here? What's going on?" asked Takeru quickly.
Ken shot both of them a cold glare and began chasing after Daisuke.
"Daisuke! Daisuke!" Ken panted as he ran though the park. "Daisuke where are you?" He looked down on the ground, one of his gloves that he had given Daisuke to wear, was lying there. He dashed over to the soccer field. Daisuke was sitting on one on the stands, were fans would usually sit when people were playing. Ken slowly walked over to his friend. "Daisuke…."
"Just go away. I need to be alone."
"But…" Ken was lost for words he didn't know what to say. "I'm sorry…."
"For what?"
"For what happened."
"About Hikari and Takeru going out? That's not your fault."
"I know this must be hard for you, and I…"
"How the hell would you know. Knowing that the one that loved you, rejected you."
"I could imagine it. You can do better. There are lots of people out there…"
"Well I don't care. I've loved Hikari for years. For years I've been chasing after, doing whatever the hell she wanted and then she just went off with that fucking bastard. Life just isn't fair. I'm just a pathetic loser that everybody hates."
"Daisuke don't say that, that's not true."
"Of course it is!" Daisuke clinched his fists tightly together, trying to stop the tears from filling his eyes. "I'll never find anybody that loves me."
Ken stared at Daisuke. So many different emotions stirred in his eyes. Ken wanted to make the pain go away, for his best friend to be happy again. He took a deep breath. Wondering if he should tell the truth to Daisuke. If he didn't do it now would he ever have another chance? Daisuke was brave, he stood up to his fears and conquered them, this was how he wanted to be. It was now or never. Ken's heart raced faster and faster. He began breathing loudly and slowly. He walked closer to his friend. "Dai…. Daisuke…I have…. Something to tell…you."
Daisuke stared down towards the ground. "Yeah what is it?"
Clinching his fists tightly he let it out. "I…I… Daisuke I love you!" said Ken stuttering.
A powerful breeze blew by, the sky became darker, and the air became colder. Daisuke looked up at his friend. His expression was clueless. Had Ken just said what he thought he had said? It had to be a joke, why would Ken ever love him. Was this just a sick joke to make the pain of loosing Hikari increase? "How dare you say that! Why the hell would you say something like that!"
Ken stepped back, afraid of his friend's harsh words. "But..but Dai-chan…."
"Don't call me that! You just come here and say you love me, right after my true love has broken my heart! Hikari was the one that I loved, not you!"
Ken stared at his friend. Tears filled his eyes. His world had shattered. The pain he so feared was now coming true.
"I'm sorry…."
"You're sick Ichijouji! I don't believe what you just said!"
Ken's heart sunk as he heard his last name called out with so much hatred in it. He couldn't take it anymore. He backed away and ran. Not ever looking back. An incredible pain took over his body. A pain he had never felt. A pain he had so feared….
Authors notes: I hope that was ok. Sorry for doing that to Ken and making Daisuke mean when Ken told him, but chapter five should be up very soon. Please review.