The Truest Love
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Note: Okay, gomen for not getting this chapter out sooner. I just haven't been able to find the time to write lately, plus, I didn't get the response I expected from the last chapter. Remember, if I don't get many reviews for this fic, I'm not going to continue, this one is just a little something to try and help me get over writers block (at least that's why I started it). Anyway, I would like to thank all my imouto's and my few neechan's for being so supportive of me and making me laugh when I get discouraged, especially Golden Goddess and Menz-chan *glomps*. And also, I want to thank my friend Chibi Majin Vegeta for letting me pick on him *giggles* He's such a good sport bout it too *mumbles: Cept for when he's being a jerk*. Please email me at
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Thoughts are italicized
Dream Sequences are italicized (thoughts in dreams aren't)
**** Change of scene, time, etc…
Chapter 5 – I Can't Go On
"Miyana?" Endymion questioned, raising an eyebrow. "The name doesn't ring any bells." He commented dryly.
"Of course it wouldn't," She said, smirking evilly. "I've always been a part of Selenity, banished to sleep eternally in her body where she could control me… my dear sister took everything from me at one point…" She said, a bitter smile on her face.
"Nande kuso?! What's going on Usagi!!" Wufei demanded, standing protectively in front of the woman that resembled Usagi so much.
"Usagi? Didn't I just say that my name is Miyana?" She asked, scowling at Wufei.
"…." Wufei's eyes narrowed on the woman. "Where is Usagi!" He demanded in a cold voice.
"Usagi's taken my place for now," She said with a smirk. "She's watching this whole battle… I still need to get my revenge on her… my dear sister…"
"Nani?!? Sister?!?" Endymion demanded, eyes flying open. He nearly lost his grip on Quatre's unconscious form at the shock of her words.
"Hai, she's my twin sister." She said, bitterness in her voice.
"How can she be your sister?" Endymion demanded, his eyes narrowing.
"You truly know nothing Endymion," She said with a chuckle. "You were my little puppet, Selenity truly loved you. She really did, demo… you were so naïve. You never knew that I knew everything you did to her. Every little thing, the broken dates, the messages on your answering machine. I am not as naïve as my dear innocent sister. When everyone thought she was crying her eyes out over your lies, I went out and searched for you… I saw your 'study' dates with your college friends." She said with a smirk. She saw Endymion pale at the mention of all this, sinking into his head how stupid he had previously acted.
"Well… if you don't give Usagi back to me, I guess I have no choice but to take her by force." Endymion said, drawing his sword. Before he could move an inch, though, the blade of Wufei's katana was at his throat.
"You lay a finger on her and I'll kill you." He said calmly, his eyes narrowed on the fuming prince. A smirk spread across Miyana's lips as she watched Wufei's actions.
"You may be useful to me, Wufei-chan," She said, still smirking. She walked up behind him and wrapped her arms around his waist, feeling his muscles tense up at her touch. "What's wrong Fei-chan? You like little Selenity better than me? That weak little girl? You would choose her over me?" She asked in a seductive whisper. He felt her lips brush against his ear as she whispered to him, making chills go down his back.
"Shuttup onna…" He mumbled, keeping his eyes fixed on Endymion. A fake pout spread across her face as she took a step back.
"Well, Fei-chan, I think I can handle him," She said, putting a hand on his katana. "Trust me." She said, smirking. He reluctantly pulled his katana away, sheathing it.
"Bring Usagi back or I'll kill you." Wufei mumbled, suddenly drawing his katana and holding it at Miyana's throat. A low chuckle escaped her throat as she grabbed the blade, sending a jolt of negative energy flowing through the metal. He was sent flying into the wall, slumping slowly to the ground.
"IIE!!!" A voice screamed from Miyana's body. Miyana's hands flew to her head as pain ripped through her body. "FEI-CHAN!!!" She shrieked in Usagi's voice screamed in terror.
"Stop is Selenity!!" Miyana's voice shrieked as she fell to her knees, both hands on her head.
"Leave him alone Miyana!!!" Usagi cried, the golden crescent moon blazing brilliantly on her forehead. The black dress disappeared and Usagi kneeled on the ground, only having pink ribbons swirling around her body. Wufei's eyes widened as he saw the angel before him slowly changing. Her dark hair turning to a silvery-white, her hands stretched above her head with both of her cerulean blue eyes closed. White feathered wings stretched out from her back, lifting her a few inches off the ground as the pink ribbons began to settle into a long white gown. The crescent moon on her forehead disappeared, being replaced by a golden nine-point star. When she brought her hands down, a silver crystal in the shape of a blooming flower floated a few inches off her palm.
"She is an angel…" He whispered as his eyes fell upon her beautiful face… her angelic features and of course, those endless pools of blue that were her eyes.
"Leave now Endymion… I can't hold her back for long…" A silvery voice whispered.
"Cosmos…" He whispered, recognizing the angelic features of the former Queen of the moon.
"Leave now or Selenity and Miyana will kill you… You have to find the dark one before Miyana does… please help them…" She whispered, fighting to keep the two souls in one body back… trying to keep them from lashing out again… Selenity would surely kill him or herself if she managed to get free… Miyana would cause mass destruction and chaos around the world, destroying anything that she thinks has value to Selenity, including the earth and the moon. Endymion's eyes narrowed but he agreed.
"I'll be back." He muttered as he turned and began to walk away, dragging Quatre along behind him.
"Omae o koroso." A monotone voice said from behind Endymion. Endymion turned to see a boy with wild brown hair and cold prussian blue eyes.
"Get lost." Endymion muttered, continuing to walk away.
"If you don't drop Quatre, I will kill you." Heero said in a cold voice.
"You want the boy? Take him, I warn you though, only I have the antidote to the poison that was injected into him." Endymion said, tossing Quatre to the ground. Endymion then opened a sort of portal and stepped through.
"Usagi…" Wufei muttered, seeing the woman with white hair floating off the ground.
"Arigato…" She whispered before crumpling into a heap on the floor. Wufei kneeled to her side, picking her still body up in his arms and holding her body close to his. Her hair returned to its normal golden blond as the white dress was replaced by her normal clothes and the crescent moon on her forehead disappeared. He picked her up and walked toward her room, glancing over his shoulder as Heero struggled to pick Quatre up.
"Hey Heero, what's wrong with Q-man?" Duo asked as he approached the group. Heero just shrugged his shoulders and attempted to lift Quatre with the help of Duo.
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What's going on Usagi? Wufei wondered as he lay her on the soft bed that depressed slightly with her weight. There's so much you didn't tell us… He let the thought trail off as he saw her stir, her eyebrow creasing as if she were trapped in a nightmare. He brushed his hand along her cheek, letting his fingers slide over her silky smooth skin. She mumbled incoherently in her sleep, a small tear sliding silently down her cheek. Who was that woman anyway? He thought to himself, remembering the name. Cosmos… who is Cosmos? Damn it Usagi!! Why won't you tell us who you REALLY are?!?!? He thought angrily as his muscles tensed. He heard a quiet whimper from her and realized that he had grabbed her hand and was now squeezing it. He loosened his grip and the kittenish whimpering stopped.
"Fei-chan…" She whispered, tossing in her sleep.
"Usa-chan…" He whispered as he climb in next to her, wrapping his strong arms around her tiny form. Usagi's thrashing about stopped as she felt a warm body next to her. She snuggled her face into his chest, relaxing in the embrace.
"Usagi! Omae o koroso!!!" A voice shouted.
"Nani?" Usagi said, turning her face to see a man walking through the shadows. "Demo… why? What did I do?" She asked, a confused look on her face.
"You were born… you were born instead of Miyana… you trapped Miyana into that damned innocence of yours and kept her prisoner," His cold voice said. "Demo… once I find you, once I'm released, she will be as well." Usagi could sense the smirk she knew had spread across his lips.
"I… demo, I didn't do anything! My mother is the one that did it!! Please… don't hurt him…" Usagi pleaded, knowing who they would go after. The silhouette chuckled to himself, and this time she saw the deep smirk that spread across his lips.
"Don't worry, tenshi, I'm not after him. I'm just here to make sure you're trapped in that body like Miyana has been for so long." He said, smirking as he spoke.
"Iie…" Usagi spoke, feeling the tears that were already forming in her eyes. "Please don't… I…" Her voice trailed off as she fell to her knees. "I don't want to fight anymore… please don't take me away from Wufei… I, I won't be able to stand it…"
"Perfect," His smirk grew. "That means that our plan will work. You'll be just as miserable as I am now." The tears began to fall from her eyes, staining her cheeks.
Wufei-chan… I'm sorry… She thought to herself, letting the tears fall. I refuse to fight… I… I won't do it anymore… I'm sorry I'll be leaving you soon… Miyana's just too strong for me… Hre thoughts trailed off as the dream slowly melted away, as did the silhouetted form.
"Usa-chan…" She heard his voice so clearly then she felt so warm… she felt he was near, he was so close to her… he had brought light to her life when there was only darkness… he had stopped her from making the biggest mistake ever… Even though he would never say it, she knew he felt the same way about her that she felt about him… She had been the light in his life, she had come to him when all he had left was his loneliness… She had helped him conquer his greatest fear… the fear that had forced him to seal himself away in solitude… loneliness had set in and she had brightened the darkest parts of his being… She renewed his love for life, only this time, this time he was no longer fighting… he was different… he didn't think only of the battle field, she wandered through his mind, haunting him with her warm smiles and silvery laughs… Warming his heart with her charm and beauty… Causing strange feelings to erupt from within him, feelings that he had never experienced before.
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Heero and Duo laid Quatre on the bed, noticing how pale he was.
"So, Heero, are you gonna tell me what's wrong with him?" Duo asked impatiently.
"It's none of your concern, just call a doctor." Heero said as he walked out of the room, leaving Duo by himself with Quatre. Duo shrugged his shoulders, letting out an exasperated sigh.
"Why do I always have to be the one to call the doctor when anyone gets hurt?" Duo asked, picking up the receiver.
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All right onna… you won't get away this time… Heero thought to himself as he began to make his way toward Usagi's room. He held a piece of paper with a few words scrawled across it and his gun in the other hand. He walked down the hallways, his normal emotionless mask covering his face. He silently pushed the door open, noticing Wufei's sleeping form next to the girl… that distraction that was taking Wufei's mind off the job. He was making mistakes that could possibly cost his life and Wufei didn't seem to be able to focus. Heero had noticed that on his last mission, Wufei was a vital part of this operation and he wasn't working up to par. He'd get rid of that witch that had cast that spell on him.
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"So where exactly is she?" Rei asked as the four girls stepped off of the plane. As soon as they stepped off the plane, a swarm of people surrounded them.
"Miss Aino!" People were crying as they held out notebooks to receive Minako's autograph.
"I guess I'm getting more popular than I thought ne?" She asked, a sweatdrop on her forehead as she began to sign autographs.
"Come on Mina-chan!" Rei growled, grabbing Minako as she pulled her away from the crowds of people. "We have more important things to do than signing autographs. Remember? We have to find Usa-chan."
"Hai, gomen people, I have to be going now!" Minako cried, waving as she made her way away from the crowds, her friends huddling around her to keep any more people from recognizing her.
"Honestly…" Rei muttered as she continued to drag Minako through the hallways, picking up her bags as they arrived at the baggage area. "These people are so rude…" She commented as a rather large man pushed past her, muttering curses about the youth nowadays.
"So where do we start looking?" Makoto asked, picking up her bag.
"I suppose we should start at the college campus ne?" Ami asked, pulling out her computer.
"That seems logical, demo… wouldn't Mamoru have found her already?" Rei asked, tossing Minako her bag.
"Hmm… I suppose so, demo do you have any better idea?" Ami asked, pocketing her computer. Rei shrugged her shoulders, sighing loudly.
"You got a point Ami-chan… We're headed for the college campus ne?" She asked, sitting on one of her bags as she waited for everyone else's luggage to come through.
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Usagi was warm… she felt safe for once… she could feel strong arms wrapped around her and knew who it was… The one that had protected her from Endymion… the one that had saved her when she was about to end her life… The one that had brought a new light into her life, lighting up the dark shadows that had descended upon her… the ones that ate at her soul, making her feel empty inside… He had filled that place and expanded so much more, making her feel in a way that was totally new to her…
"Fei-chan…" She whispered his name, kissing his cheek lightly. She traced her fingers along his cheek, smiling as he sleepily opened his eyes. Those deep mysterious eyes that she loved so much… what was it about those eyes that drew her to him? She felt his muscles tense slightly but they relaxed a moment later as he realized where he was. She pressed her lips lightly against his, feeling him respond lightly, still half asleep.
"Usagi…" He started, sitting up next to her. She sat up and leaned against him, breathing in his familiar scent. "What happened?" He asked, looking down at her with those dark eyes.
"I… I don't know…" She let her voice trail off as her gaze fell to the floor. "I… I don't remember… she… she took over, there wasn't anything I could do!" Usagi cried, panic in her voice. "What's happening to me?!? Why does it have to be this way?! Why can't I just have a normal life?!?" She cried, bursting into tears. "Why… why didn't my mother tell me about this…" Wufei pulled the crying angel into his arms, stroking her hair lightly. Don't worry, onna, I'll make that bitch Miyana pay… He thought as his eyes narrowed and his muscles tensed slightly. Usagi stood up and made her way to the bathroom, her eyes dry. "I'm going to get a shower, will you teach me to fight when I'm done?"
"Hai, onna, just hurry up." Wufei said, his arms crossed over his chest as he remained sitting on the bed. He glanced over at the nightstand and noticed a piece of paper lying there with a few words scrawled across it. Nani? What's this? Wufei thought as he picked up the paper. In big bold, red letters it said 'You're going to die soon, pathetic princess'. Wufei scowled, his hand clenching the paper in anger. The paper crinkled in his hand as he held the paper firmly in his fist. What kind of a sick joke is this!?!? Wufei's mind screamed as the anger took over. He stood up and stomped out of the room, dropping the paper as he headed for the door.
"Nani? Wufei-chan?" Usagi asked as she peeked out of the bathroom door, watching as he stormed out of the room. She had her hair wrapped in a huge white towel and had another one wrapped around her body. She knelt down and picked up the note, uncrumpling the paper. She gasped as she read the simply message, falling to her knees with her hand over her mouth. "N… Nani? Who wrote this? Endymion?" She asked herself as she tried to recognize the handwriting. It wasn't Mamoru's handwriting, demo… who's was it? "What have I done to make everyone want to kill me?" She asked herself, still sitting on her knees on the ground. She gasped as she heard a small clicking sound and felt an object pressed to the back of her head.
"Omae o koroso… and this time I won't miss…" A monotone voice said as she slowly rose to her feet.
"Demo… why?" She asked fearfully. "I… I didn't do anything… I…" Her voice trailed off as the tears brimmed her eyes.
"You're a distraction that must be eliminated." He said simply, no emotion in his voice at all.
"Demo… I don't know what you're talking about. I'm a distraction? How so?" Usagi asked, feeling bolder for a moment.
"Wufei hasn't been able to concentrate on his missions. He nearly got me and my comrades killed in our last mission. His mind isn't on the job… You will have to be eliminated." Heero said calmly.
"Yuy!" A voice snapped from behind. "What in the hell do you think you're doing?!?!" Wufei's angry voice demanded.
"Eliminating an obstacle," Heero said simply. "Zero told me that this girl is an enemy so she must be killed."
"Omae o koroso!!" Wufei shouted as he lunged at Heero, knocking him to the ground. The gun skidded across the floor and Usagi rushed to pick up the gun as the two boys wrestled around on the ground.
"Stop it!!" Usagi shouted, holding the gun up in the air. She pulled back the trigger, getting both of the gundam pilots' attention. "If this is the way you feel about me, I'll just leave!" Usagi shouted as a bright flash of light engulfed her. When the light died down, Usagi was gone…
"Usa-chan…" Wufei whispered as he watched his savior disappear.
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Usagi didn't know where she was going, she could no longer stay there, though. She had only caused them trouble. Quatre was in a coma, Heero was intent on killing her, and Wufei was making mistakes that could cost his life in the battlefield. She felt the tears the soaked her cheeks, dripping off her chin and onto the front of her tank top. She still had the gun, it was tucked away between her skin and her skirt, hidden from view. Why did everything have to be like this? She was always causing trouble to those that she loved. It seemed that the youma always went after her best friend, Naru… her mother had been a victim of their attack as was her little brother. Why did it have to be this way? Why was she always forced to fight? If the Ginzuishou was so powerful, shouldn't it have seen that Usagi was unhappy? Shouldn't it have done something to grant her greatest wish? Her wish to live a normal life… not being forced to fight and forced to accept a destiny that she didn't want…
"Usa-chan?" A voice asked from behind her. Usagi didn't turn toward the voice, she already knew who it was. "Where have you been odango atama?!" The angry voice of the pyromaniac Senshi clamped her hand on Usagi's shoulder. She spun Usagi around and her angry glare dropped from her face as she looked on at Usagi. "Nani? Usa-chan? What's wrong?" She asked, concern streaking across her face.
"Usa-chan…" Minako whispered, seeing the tears that stained her face. Usagi's eyes held a different look to them… gone were the happy dancing eyes they had known so well… Gone was the happy-go-lucky Usagi that had left from Tokyo… Gone was their best friend and all that was left was an empty shell… and empty shell of the girl they once knew…
"Come on Usagi-chan…" Ami said, putting a hand on Usagi's shoulder as they walked toward a hotel that wasn't too far away.
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Usagi lay on the bed, her eyes unblinking, her face emotionless. She didn't want to talk and just ignored the questions they bombarded her with. She didn't want to talk… didn't want to remember the reason she left the one she loved… didn't want to remember anymore… She wished that she could forget… forget everything about this life…
"What's wrong with her Ami-chan?" Makoto asked as she sat next to her blue-haired friend.
"I'm not exactly sure, as far as I can tell, though. She gone into a sort of depression… I don't know why, though. We won't know until she decides to talk about it…" Ami's worried voice trailed off as her eyes flashed to the ground. "Gomen… I don't know what we can do to help her…"
"Usa-chan… gomen for whatever it is that's bothering you…" Makoto said quietly.
"It's not you guys, Mako-chan… you have all been the best of friends to me… It's me… I can't do anything to help… I can't even fight good…" Usagi's voice said quietly from the bed. She was on her side, her gaze falling on the window.
"That's not true Usagi!" Rei broke in. "You've done so much for all of us!"
"Hai, you have Usagi!" Makoto broke in. "When I first came to your school, everyone was afraid of me except for you! You became friends with me when I didn't have any!"
"You made me feel welcome into the group, Usagi-chan!" Minako started. "When everyone thought I was stuck up and teased me, you stuck up for me and made them stop!"
"You've helped me out in ways I can't even describe!" Ami said, standing up. "I mean, no one ever looked at me as a person, just as a brain! They didn't take the time to get to know me and you took that time and now I have friends!"
"They're telling the truth odango," Rei said. "Sure I might be a little mean at times, demo… I'm just afraid that you might get hurt or that you might get into trouble… I don't act like that to be mean…"
"You guys are all too kind…" Usagi's heartbroken voice started. "I… I just don't want to be a burden on you… or them anymore…" Usagi's voice trailed off and they could see her shoulders start to shake with her sobs. Minako walked over to her princess, putting a comforting hand on her shoulder.
"Don't worry Usa-chan… you're not a burden at all…" Minako reassured her, her face solemn as she tried to comfort her best friend.
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"Kisama!!" Wufei growled as the light died down and Usagi was no where to be seen. "How dare you try to kill her you bakayaro!!" Wufei snapped, pulling out his katana and holding it at Heero's throat.
"I did it for your own good! You nearly got us killed on that last mission with your carelessness!" Heero snapped, dodging Wufei as he swung his blade.
"That doesn't cut it Yuy!!" Wufei snapped as he lunged at Heero again, ready to plunge the blade of his katana into Heero.
"Nani? What's going on in here?" Duo asked, peeking his head into the room. "Where's Usagi?"
"Get out of here Maxwell!!" Wufei snapped as his blade swiped at Duo.
"Itai!" Duo cried as the blade left a small cut across his stomach. "Geez! I'm staying out of this one…"
"You're going to die Yuy!" Wufei shouted, anger twisting his normally calm and emotionless features.
"Both of you stop it!!" A weak voice cried as someone stumbled into the room. "Stop this fighting! It isn't worth it!" Quatre's voice said as he fell to his knees.
"Nani? Quatre?" Wufei said, surprised as a second later his katana was knocked from his hand.
"Where's Usagi?" Quatre's weak voice asked as he stood up, being held up by Duo.
"Quat-man, you need to lose a little weight." Duo grumbled, struggling to hold the platinum blond up.
"Yuy over here has been trying to kill her since she got here." Wufei said, anger streaking across his face as he crossed his arms over his chest.
"Nani? Where is she then?" Quatre asked, concern on his face.
"She's staying with her Senshi on her college campus." A voice said behind them.
"Huh? Trowa? How would you know that?" Duo asked, his face strained as he supported Quatre's full weight.
"I received a message from a woman calling herself Mercury." Trowa said simply as he stepped into the room.
"Mercury…" Wufei said, remembering the name. "One of her senshi. I'm leaving, if you harm a hair on her head, Yuy, I WILL kill you." Wufei threatened as he left the room, the angered look disappearing from his face.
"I'm going too." Quatre said in a strained voice.
"You can't go!" Duo cried, eyes widening.
"I'm all right… Usagi is the only one that can help me anyway…" Quatre said, his eyes narrowing in pain.
"All right, don't listen to the voice of reason," Duo said, shrugging his shoulders as Trowa began to help Quatre to one of his cars. "I was only trying to help you know."
"He doesn't need your help," Heero said in an emotionless voice. Duo glared at Heero and turned away from him, heading after Quatre and Trowa. He didn't notice the glint in Heero's eyes until after he left the room… not seeing the maniacal smirk that had spread across his face… not hearing the crazy laugh that filled the room soon after they had left. "I'm coming Selenity!!" His voice shouted as his crazy laughter echoed throughout the mansion. "I'm coming for you Miyana!!" All sanity left Heero as he ran toward the elevator leading to his gundam.
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"They're coming…" Usagi whispered from her place on the bed. She hadn't said a word in hours as she just lay there, gazing out the window.
"Huh? Who's coming Usagi-chan?" Minako asked, looking up from her Sailor V game. She didn't receive a response… "Are you sure you don't want to play Usagi-chan? You always loved Sailor V."
"…." Her body lay motionless, having not moved in hours. A worried look covered Minako's face again as she set the controller down, not able to play any longer.
"I wish I could help you, Usagi-chan… Demo, I don't know how I can…" Minako's voice trailed off as her gaze fell onto the bed. Minako felt the bed move as Usagi shifted her weight, reaching for something in her skirt.
"You can help me, Mina-chan…" Usagi said solemnly. She shoved a cold metal object into Minako's hands. "Kill me Mina-chan…" Usagi said, sitting up.
"N… Nani?" Minako cried, feeling the cool metal of the gun in her hand… feeling the weight of the gun as she gripped it with her finger on the trigger. "Usagi-chan! Where did you get this?!?" Minako cried, shocked and scared at the same time.
"Please Mina-chan… that's all that I ask of you… I can't do it myself…" Usagi whispered, the tears squeezing out of the corner of her eyes.
"I…" Minako wasn't able to finish the sentence as she pressed the cool metal of the gun up against Usagi's forehead, pulling back on the trigger…
::Fin::
P-chan: *evil smirk* You no like my cliffies? *evil laugh* Well… TOO BAD CUZ EVERY CHAPTER'S GONNA HAVE A CLIFFIE!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!! *maniacal laughter*
Heero: Omae o koroso! *pulls gun on crazy author*
P-chan: *glares* HEY!! No fair, how come YOU'RE allowed to act like a maniac, but I'M not allowed to!!! *hands on hips, trying to match Heero's death glare*
Heero: …. *hands crossed over chest*
P-chan: You'd really kill me StAr-chan? *chibifies* *big sad pouty eyes* Me imouto wood kwill mwe? *tears fill eyes*
Heero: *mumbles: baka…*
P-chan: *dechibifies* *glares at Heero* You know Heero, you're one of the main stars of this particular fic *evil smirk*
Heero: …..
P-chan: And you know what? I've been laying off on the Duo-torture lately… who do you think I'm gonna torture next? *smirks at Heero*
Heero: *pales slightly* Humph…. Whatever onna….
P-chan: *smirk* You'd better start acting a little nicer… you know I can be cruel… just read the fourth chapter of Allure-chan's fic "If You Had My Love" *evil smirk* Anyway, please email me at