Authors Notes: Here is chapter five of the story. I hope this chapter doesn't suck.

Disclaimer: I do not own Digimon.

Impossible Love: Chapter five

Ken ran away, faster than he had ever ran before. A million thoughts and images raced through his mind but all he wanted to do was run. An hour later he finally made it home. The train ride back seemed to never end. He wasn't in a hurry to get home. He wasn't in a hurry to get anywhere. Only to escape the pain…

He quickly ran in his apartment and fell down on the couch. The green bug like Digimon appeared from his room. "Ken…Ken what's wrong?"

"Nothing just leave me alone!" he yelled, pushing his face down on the pillow.

Wormmon slowly approached his friend. Never had he seen Ken in such a terrible state. "But Ken…"

Ken slowly got up. "I want you to go back to the Digital world."

"What are you talking about, Ken!?"

"Just go…."

"But, I don't want to, Ken. I want to stay here with you."

"I just want to be alone..."

Wormmon quickly climbed on to the couch. He put one of his small legs on Ken's lap. "Does this have something to do with Daisuke?"

Ken quickly whacked Wormmon off the couch. "That's none of you're Business!"

Wormmon looked up from the floor, tears in his eyes.

Ken was shocked realising what he had just done. His sadness deepened. "I haven't done any thing so cruel like that since I was the Digimon Kaiser." More tears began to flood his eyes. He slowly bent down and helped Wormmon up. "I'm so…. Sorry."

"Ken, please tell me what's wrong, I can help you." replied Wormmon faintly.

Ken placed Wormmon on the couch, turning away. "No Wormmon. I have to figure this one out for myself."

"But…"

"I don't want to sound selfish but I'd like you to return to the Digital world for the time being. I just need to be myself for awhile."

"I think you've been by yourself long enough, but you are my master and I shall to what you want. Goodbye, Ken."

Ken cringed. Master? Had Wormmon just called him master? Ken hadn't heard this name being addressed to him since he was the Digimon Kaiser. A horrible thought took over him. Was he acting just like he used to be? His heart began beating faster and faster, he was becoming the Digimon Kaiser again. He got down on his knees, his breathing increased. "No this can't be happening!"

He looked around, quickly running into his room. "Wormmon?" But he was gone. The D-3 was lying beside his computer. Wormmon had already gone. I promised myself I'd never be evil again!" He had hurt two of the people he cared for the most, Wormmon one of his best friends and Daisuke, the one he had truly loved for so long. "I hurt Daisuke by telling him I loved him, and I hurt Wormmon when he was only trying to help me…. I'm a monster!" He moved into the bathroom. He looked at himself closely in the mirror. His eyes where puffed up, and his face seemed whiter than snow. "Why do I have to hurt everybody…"

"I do not deserve to live. Daisuke I'm sorry…." He slowly walked out of the bathroom, into the kitchen. Opening a drawer, he took out the sharpest knife he could find. He gently raced his finger against the sharp blade. "I said that if the one person I truly loved broke my heart, I would not be able to go on. Now I've lost the people Icared about the most." He moved into the bathroom, quickly locking the door.

"Death…" A faint smile touched over his lips. "It might be the cowards way out, but I'd rather have it this way than to live my life in pain and loneliness. Daisuke I was right, you do deserve better. I just hope that Hikari realises how special you are before it's too late. Now I won't be able to hurt anyone again, this is my punishment, a punishment I've deserved for so long…"

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Daisuke quickly rushed up the stairs towards his apartment, tears ran down his cheeks. His sister Jun was standing in the doorway, ready to leave. She turned around, quickly noticing her brother. "Daisuke, mum and dad will be out soon, I'm going out…."

He quickly ran past her, nearly knocking her down. "Daisuke!" she called after him. She slowly walked back into the apartment. He was in his room. "I wonder what's wrong?" She gently knocked his room door. "Daisuke is everything ok?"

"Yes now go away! I wanna be alone!"

Jun frowned. Something obviously was up with her brother. She sighed while grapping her bag and leaving.

Daisuke whimpered loudly, he could not help but cry. Everything had happened so fast. "That's two people that have hurt me now…" He groaned angrily. He fiercely kicked his soccer ball in a violent rage. "Why do all the people I have feelings for, want to hurt me…." He sniffed loudly. Chibimon was lying on a pillow in a corner, fast asleep. Daisuke was glad. He didn't want have to explain the whole situation right now. "I can't believe Ken would do that. I thought he was my best friend. Betrayal, that what I'll ever know. I told Hikari how much I loved her and she just went off with that fucking bastard Takeru. Now Ken. The one person I thought I could trust the most hurt me. I don't understand, why would he do such a cruel thing."

He walked over to his desk and opened the bottom drawer. In it lay two photo frames. One contained a photo of him and Hikari together and the other showed a picture of him and Ken. He frowned in disgust. He threw the photo frame with the picture of Hikari and him against the wall, smashing it to pieces. Chibimon snorted a bit. With all the chocolate he had eaten he'd be asleep for a long time. He then took the photo frame with him and Ken. He lifted it up, ready to throw it into the air, but suddenly he stopped. He couldn't do it. He looked at the photograph. He and Ken looked so happy. A slight smile came upon Daisuke's lips. Was Ken's real intention really to hurt him?

"Maybe I was overreacting. What if Ken did mean what he said? What if he really did love me? But why would anyone love me…" Daisuke frowned, placing the photo back on his desk. "No Ken would never do something so cruel. He wouldn't lie to me. Ken's my best friend, he wouldn't to that." Daisuke was shocked. "Oh god…" he fell on to the bed. "He was telling the truth. I was just so upset about Hikari to realise. But I can't…" He slapped him self angrily. "No I can't keep lying to myself, I do love him. I was just so upset, that I thought no one would love me back. Now look how I've shown my love…my hurting him."

Sadness struck over him, as he thought about how hurt Ken must be. He remembered when Hikari had rejected him. At least she did in a gentle way. He had yelled and cursed at Ken, for showing his love. Quickly he got up and rushed out the apartment, leaving the door wide open.

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Darkness reached upon every corner of the room. In the middle of the floor he sat, lightly jagging the knife into the tip of his index finger. So this was how he was going to die. By killing himself… He knew it was the coward's way out, but he had been one all his life. It seemed like his only reason for existence was for to hurt all the people around him and only bring suffering and pain upon himself. Well at least he would be able to escape now, and everyone would be happy. It was for the best.

Slowly he moved from his position, and got up. He moved towards his bookcase and took a photo frame down from one of the shelves. It was a picture of him and Daisuke. That had been a great day. Them, plus their Digimon partners had went to the park. It was one of Ken's greatest memories. One that he never wanted to loose. Although it only happened a few months ago, it seemed like years. Instead of being happy and having fun, he was overcome with depression. He gently kissed Daisuke's picture before putting the photo frame on the floor.

He took the knife and fiercely tore it against his wrists. Blood began leaking out through his skin. He smiled. He ripped the knife against his skin again. He repeated it over and over till he could no longer do it. The pain ached through his veins, he grapped hold of his wrists, whimpering a little. It hurt so badly, but that what was supposed to happen. Blood kept gushing through the cuts, he was pleased to see he succeeded and had not chickened out at the last moment. He lay down on the floor, hoping that death would draw near. A million thoughts raced through his mind. What would happen after death? Would he go to Heaven or would he go to Hell? Either way, he didn't care. As long as he was free from this world and the horrible memories that would haunt him. The pain was increasing, his eyes filled with tears. Gathering his last bit of strength, he stood up, slashing his wrist one last time violently. Immediately he fell down.

Suddenly he could hear someone calling out.

"Ken!" the voice shouted.

"Damnit, I can't even be alone in peace to die…."

"Ken!" the voice called out again.

Ken gasped as he realised who it was that was calling out for him. The brunette haired boy quickly opened the door. He gasped at the sight of seeing his best friend lying on the floor covered in blood. "Ken!" Quickly he raced towards his friend. "Ken what happened, why, why did you do this?!" He cried, noticing the knife lying next to Ken.

"I am sorry Daisuke…."

"No don't be sorry. You have no right to be sorry, I mean this was my fault!"

"I didn't mean to tell you, but I've loved you for so long Daisuke and seeing you so upset hurt me, I thought maybe if I told you the truth then you wouldn't be so sad, but instead I only hurt you more…."

"No!" Daisuke lifted Ken's arms. Bring him closer into a slight hug. Tears ran down his face. "I was just confused, I didn't mean any of the things I said. I didn't mean it. Ken I love you too. I have for a long time I just didn't realise it. Please just don't die."

"I love you with all my heart, Daisuke and I have only hurt you again. This is my punishment. I hope Hikari will realise how special you are. And you two will be together forever….."

"What?! Fuck Hikari! I don't care about her it's you and….."

All of Ken surroundings grew darker and blurry. "I'll always watch over you, my Dai-chan. I am truly sorry…"

Suddenly everything blacked out…

Authors notes: I hope that was all right. The next chapter should be up shortly.