Do I

Do I love him

Do I love him not

The question never ceases

its rambling over my thoughts

taking all my mind and just enjoying

enjoying the torture it produces in me

My love are you real

Or are you a mere illusion

A simple allusion

That my mind creates to hide the

True pain of my cruel reality

And when I think I am at peace

It again plagues me with its unstoppable

Longing for one answer only one straight forward answer I am not capable to give , the answer to my doubt

Do I love thee

Do I love thee not