I decieded to spend the night in Vince's room so I could watch over him. he was still sleeping. Everyone had already left except for Brian. Dom said he would come back later to pick me up. My whole fucking world has been turned upside down. I sat in my chair curled up in a blakent watching him breathe. brian wasn't back yet from getting both us our coffee. Please make it through the night. Like I said I hate the beep of that heart machine monitor. It kept beeping and beeping and i wanted to break it. Vince chouldn't be here. Brian entered the room carrying two hot cups of coffee. He handed me a cup and went back to close the door.
" How's he doing," Brian asked softly as he sat in the extra chair that was next to me. I drank the hot drink. It woke me up a bit.
" He's still breathin," was all I could say.
" You were really close too him," he asked. I nodded. At that time Brian's cell phone rang. He went outside to take the call. He was gone for a while until he cam back and told me he had to leave.
" Are you gonna be okay by yourself," he asked me.
" yeah," I answered.
" You sure," he asked as he was about to leave.
" yeah, thanks for the company," i said. With that he left. The nurse came by later that night with a pillow and a blanket. I stayed awake most of the night watching vince. he never opened his eyes. It was proably 2 in the morning when I fell asleep. I dreamt about me being run over by some car. Over and over again but I never died. It was like i was there but the pain I was feeling wasn't real. Or maybe the car wasn't real. All I know is that I woke up and there was Vince smiling at me. He looked bad. Real bad. His eyes were all red now.
" How'd you sleep," he asked me. I yawned and laughed silently.
" how about you," I asked.
"good," he said as he cleared his throat.
" how long have you been here," he asked. I leaned on his bed and rested my head on his chest.
" all night," i answered as he ran his hands through my hair. i sighed. We were silent for a long time. I didn't feel like saying anything.
" he hasn't hit you," he asked. I sat up and shook my head.
" have you moved yet," he asked weakly. I said yes. Just to put his mind at ease. He started coughing. It was a dry repitive coughing. He reached over to the table that was next to the bed and drank some water. I noticed he winced
" letty i know i'm not gonna make it," he said to me softly. I wanted to cry but i had no more strength left.
" don't say that," I told him. he started coughing again. He breathed in deeply for a while.
" letty promise me you won't," he started to say but he started to cry. I sat in silence watching him.
" Don't fuck up your life Letty," he said weakly. he was still crying silently.
" I can't be there any more for you," he said. I nodded.
" don't take shit from no one okay," he said his voice cracking. I leaned over and kissed his tears. I felt his cold arms wrap around me. His hug made me feel sad and happy at the same time. He whisphered something in my ear that i wished I never heard. I kissed him on his cheek before I slowly pulled away. He looked at me one last time before he started coughing again. he started coughing up blood. I ran out of the room and found the first nurse I could find. She rushed over to the room. Blood was all over his mouth as he kept coughing. He couldn't stop. I heard that heart think beeping really fast. Faster and Faster. A doctor and more nurses rushed in the room. All this time we were looking into each others eyes. Faster faster Faster faster..and then it stopped.
" How's he doing," Brian asked softly as he sat in the extra chair that was next to me. I drank the hot drink. It woke me up a bit.
" He's still breathin," was all I could say.
" You were really close too him," he asked. I nodded. At that time Brian's cell phone rang. He went outside to take the call. He was gone for a while until he cam back and told me he had to leave.
" Are you gonna be okay by yourself," he asked me.
" yeah," I answered.
" You sure," he asked as he was about to leave.
" yeah, thanks for the company," i said. With that he left. The nurse came by later that night with a pillow and a blanket. I stayed awake most of the night watching vince. he never opened his eyes. It was proably 2 in the morning when I fell asleep. I dreamt about me being run over by some car. Over and over again but I never died. It was like i was there but the pain I was feeling wasn't real. Or maybe the car wasn't real. All I know is that I woke up and there was Vince smiling at me. He looked bad. Real bad. His eyes were all red now.
" How'd you sleep," he asked me. I yawned and laughed silently.
" how about you," I asked.
"good," he said as he cleared his throat.
" how long have you been here," he asked. I leaned on his bed and rested my head on his chest.
" all night," i answered as he ran his hands through my hair. i sighed. We were silent for a long time. I didn't feel like saying anything.
" he hasn't hit you," he asked. I sat up and shook my head.
" have you moved yet," he asked weakly. I said yes. Just to put his mind at ease. He started coughing. It was a dry repitive coughing. He reached over to the table that was next to the bed and drank some water. I noticed he winced
" letty i know i'm not gonna make it," he said to me softly. I wanted to cry but i had no more strength left.
" don't say that," I told him. he started coughing again. He breathed in deeply for a while.
" letty promise me you won't," he started to say but he started to cry. I sat in silence watching him.
" Don't fuck up your life Letty," he said weakly. he was still crying silently.
" I can't be there any more for you," he said. I nodded.
" don't take shit from no one okay," he said his voice cracking. I leaned over and kissed his tears. I felt his cold arms wrap around me. His hug made me feel sad and happy at the same time. He whisphered something in my ear that i wished I never heard. I kissed him on his cheek before I slowly pulled away. He looked at me one last time before he started coughing again. he started coughing up blood. I ran out of the room and found the first nurse I could find. She rushed over to the room. Blood was all over his mouth as he kept coughing. He couldn't stop. I heard that heart think beeping really fast. Faster and Faster. A doctor and more nurses rushed in the room. All this time we were looking into each others eyes. Faster faster Faster faster..and then it stopped.