Padmé's Diary (CH3)

By obi's girl

~~Qui-Gon nodded watching Luke replay the possibility that Ben was his father and not Anakin. For years after he crossed over, he watched Anakin, Obi-Wan and Padmé. There was the occasional flirt between Obi-Wan and Padmé but as far as he knew, that's all there was. But he could have been wrong and missed something, a simple gesture that could have been more.

He knew, when they were alive, almost all the girls in the Temple had a crush on Obi-Wan (sometimes, Qui-Gon himself but that was rare). Obi-Wan was always flattered by girls staring at him and blushing in corners. Padmé however was different. She wasn't a normal girl but she was special.

"Master Jedi, is something wrong?" a voice asked.

Qui-Gon didn't need to turn around and face the young woman to know it was Padmé herself. He sensed her. She stood on his right, looking down at the well. It took awhile for her to piece together what was happening but when she did, she placed a hand over her mouth and cried, "OH SITHPAWN! That's my diary!"

"It is, and Luke's found it. Your son has found it." Qui-Gon replied irritably, facing her, "Padmé, I know it's not my business to intervene – but did you have an affair with my apprentice?"

She bit her lip, fidgeting and pacing about, "I've always had feelings for Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon. When you and Obi-Wan first came to Naboo, I did have a crush on him as I'm sure much of my staff did." Referring to her handmaidens.

He crossed his arms, eyes narrowing on her, "You didn't answer the question. Did you have an affair with Obi-Wan?"

Padmé hesitated again, glancing back at the well, looking at her son slowly draw closer to insanity. She did love Obi-Wan. He kept her from falling to the Dark side after Anakin had. He was her anchor and she was forever thankful to him. The trouble was, emotionally she had fallen out of love with Anakin and fallen in deeper love with Obi-Wan.

She nodded, "Anakin and I were already falling apart before he crossed over. Obi-Wan was there to help me through that dark time." She paused, biting her lip, looking down, "I won't lie to you because I know if I do, you'll know. Obi-Wan and I did have an affair but I assure you, Luke is Anakin's son. Not Obi-Wan's."

"And your absolutely sure about this?" he questioned.

Padmé rolled her eyes, leaning on the well, "What is this, an inquisition? Of course Luke is Anakin's son. Obi-Wan told me himself. He placed his hand on my stomach and told me that Anakin's Force signature matched that as the life inside of me."

"I never meant to cause any trouble, but I can't deny my feelings either. What should I do, Master Jedi?"

Qui-Gon leaned back, uncrossing his arms, "For one, Luke can't return to Coruscant and tell his sister that he's Obi-Wan's son. You have to talk to him before that."

She nodded, "What about Obi-Wan? Should I bring him along?"

"No! I think it would be better if you go alone, Padmé." He glanced back at the well and the diary, nodding, "I still don't understand how Obi-Wan could have ended up with your diary."

She shrugged, "Before I died, I gave it to him to keep. My family was already gone and I didn't trust anyone else. But I told him, no matter how strong the urge, he couldn't read it."

"I swear, Master Jedi, I never meant to cause any trouble. I'll talk to Luke immediately; I don't know what I'll say to him  - I never expected him to find my diary."

Qui-Gon mused, "Tell him the truth, Padmé, because he deserves to know it, despite how complicated and hurtful it might be. But I advise you, DO NOT bring Obi-Wan with you when you talk to him. He needs to hear the truth from you, not him."

"Are you going to punish Obi-Wan?" she cried, fearful for her love.

"No. Falling in love is a natural thing. Sometimes it's the wrong love but we can't help that. But love is something, we, as Jedi, gave up for this life because love, on occasion, had the tendency to not only hurt us but those we loved." Qui-Gon stated, gazing up at her, smiling partly.

Padmé nodded, "I understand your meaning, Master Jedi. Thank you." She bowed partly and left him.

TBC