Title: What's Real and What's a Dream (Chapter 2)
Genre: Card Captor Sakura Song fic
Rating: This part is also probably just a PG…
Notes: Once again you will receive a healthy dose of introversion on Sakura's behalf. This will span over a long period in her life, while not really touching on the series in too much depth. There will also be a lot of pairing switches. Nothing TOO angsty about them.
Warning: There is no Yue/Sakura in this part either. She's very confused and doesn't really know what she wants. No other warnings really other than my apologies to S+S fans.
Disclaimer: Alas, I own them not. What a shame. . But I would spend a lifetime paying for the rights to Yue and Yukito!!! Hee hee… Oh the song "Somewhere in Between" belongs to Lifehouse.
~ I can't be losing sleep over this, no I can't
And now I cannot stop pacing
Give me a few hours; I'll have all this sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
Everyday I see the faces of people staring at me with hungry eyes and superficial smiles trying to find out just what makes me, me. Half of the time I can't even tell if the looks I receive are from friends or those that just want to be more popular. From the outside I must seem like I have a pretty good deal. Oh boy, are they wrong! My life is a… But that's not the point.
Ok, ok. Reality check here. Oh I forgot, I'm nowhere near normal, and reality has a whole different meaning to me. I mean think about it, I have 53 magical cards that are pink no less, topped off with a magic key that turns into a staff and two guardians. Now, when I say guardians I mean a beautiful angel with wings and catlike silver blue eyes, and a mane less lion also with wings. I should be honored to have such things… shouldn't I?
No… I couldn't imagine life without them all. Just as I experienced the empty feelings prior to the judgment with Yue, I don't care to ever feel that again. Oh yeah, Yue is my guardian slash moon angel. The lion is the sun guardian, his name is Kero, well, actually Keroberos. But who's being choosey? I want to be normal. I want to live a normal life with my family and friends and not always have to hide something. Not only do I have to live out of the norm, I'll also live for hundreds of years. I hear Clow lived way into the hundreds. Oh Kami-sama! I don't want to live that long!
Of all the tough luck, I'll have to live even longer than that. I suppose the only one that will even live nearly as long as I will be Eriol-kun. And Syaoran-kun may also live quite a while, yet I'll still be alone in the end.
I don't think I can handle this. I'm still not strong enough to deal with this. Or maybe, I just don't want to. I mean… longevity is great I suppose… Only if you have someone you love to share it with. I keep thinking that maybe I'm missing something in my analysis, but what is it? I don't know… All I know is that… I'm miserable… If only someone would see past my smile and realize how much it hurts…
~ Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
The brunette stood quietly before the pool of surreal silver that reflected her image perfectly. Eyes of perfectly colored emerald flashed in the mirror revealing the confusion and pain that was now coursing through her blood and nervous system. How… how did it come to this? Letting out a long sigh, she trailed her eyes over to the two girls in the room with her. All were dressed in fascinating Chinese garbs that seemed to sparkle in the artificial light.
The girl with crimson colored eyes looked up to meet the eyes of green in the mirror with a small smile on her face. Ebony hair was being looped and styled perfectly upon the girl's head in order to accent the beautiful white Chinese wedding dress. In a brief moment an entire conversation was exchanged within that solitaire glance causing the girl with honey brown hair's skin to crawl.
"I know that you're sad..."
"I'm still happy for you Meiling..."
"Are you really? I never meant to take him away from you..."
"Sure you didn't..."
The expression on the Chinese girl's face twisted slightly into a knowing grin as if to reply to the last remark. Sakura spun back to the mirror and gazed at it with wide eyes that spoke of loneliness and pain that she was sure would never go away. She'd known that Syaoran was moving away from her, but she hadn't foreseen this. Melancholy jade traveled over her perfectly formed body in the red dress. Her waist length hair was decorated in soft loops of hair at the back of her head causing the light to play upon it in almost an exotic and magical way.
Was she not pretty enough? Maybe she hadn't been lively enough, or even smiled enough. All she knew was that after today, she had lost Li Syaoran forever. Another girl dressed in Chinese formal walked over to her and peered at her with sympathetic eyes of startling blue violet. "You ok Sakura-chan?"
"Daijoubu Tomoyo-chan… Don't worry about me." A weak smile crossed her face as she forced herself to hide her feelings. "Zettai daijoubu…"
"It's time ladies… Daidouji-san, you will walk down the isle second with Hiiragizawa-san following right after Kinomoto-san and Tsukishiro-san." Syaoran's mother smiled slightly and waved toward the door. Sakura walked out dazedly not really paying attention to where she was going. Eighteen years old, and still hanging on to a pointless crush. Perhaps, Touya had been right when he'd said she was too young at age twelve to decide she was in love.
Yukito looked at her silently and leaned down to whisper in her ear. Surprisingly, it wasn't his tone of voice at all, but Yue's slipping out for only her to notice. "Mistress… are you all right?" Looking up at Yukito she saw the silver violet eyes in the place of the hazel nut-brown eyes she knew so well.
"I'm fine Yue-san…" Looking away, she knew that the moon guardian was not convinced. Sliding back into the depths of Yukito's mind, he watched as the older boy smiled happily and offered his arm to Sakura. Taking it, she forced a smile on for him as well. "Thanks Yukito-kun…"
From deep in Yukito's subconscious, Yue let out a long sigh. Was it just him or did she just pretend like he didn't exist? That couldn't be true. She was too kind and loving to allow something like that to happen. And if it did, it was hardly intentional. So, he would just be patient, because someday she would have to realize that he was there. And that even though his heart feared the idea, he cared deeply.
~ This is over my head but underneath my feet
Cuz tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way it was
I wish that it was just that easy
Settling down onto the coarse shingled roof, Sakura felt her eyes drawn to the night sky above. How long had it been? "Syaoran-kun… How did it come to this?" Tears rimmed dazzling eyes of jade as she focused on the sparkling stars in the midst of the blanket of midnight blue. For a brief instant she swore she saw his face against the dark backdrop smiling back at her, but soon it faded away.
Slowly she drug her knees to her chest and began to shiver in the night breeze. "Why do I have to be all alone?" The harsh whisper cut through the night not meaning to be heard yet it was anyway. Yue let out a long sigh and closed his eyes. Shaking his head he felt the long strands of silver white hair fall loose from its soft ponytail. His mistress was still very young even at the age of eighteen. Yet, that single question spurred memories in his heart at least a few centuries in age.
Had he not questioned Eriol the same thing? Eriol had told him that Yukito had found the one most dear to him. To be honest, Yue had no clue which person out of the sea of chaos, known as Yukito, was the chosen fancy. Yet the Clow reincarnation hinted at the elder Kinomoto. Was he supposed to feel the same as the snow rabbit? It wasn't going to happen.
Suddenly movement caught his attention and his eyes slid open to see Sakura rising to her feet. She was wearing a long nightgown that was a soft shade of blue fashioned in almost a Victorian style. It reminded him of London even though he didn't want to remember. Many nights he'd spent on the roof in London much like his mistress now. Was she thinking of that boy from Hong Kong again?
Her hands clasped over her chest as swirls of honey brown hair licked at the wind. She felt so tired from the burden she felt. No one could share it with her. Didn't they understand or see past all of her smiles? "But I don't want them to…" A sad smile touched her lips as her hands tightened into fists. In a moment she spun about in place dancing across the roof in her bare feet. She knew Touya would freak if he knew what she was doing, but she didn't care. The stars and the moon seemed to be begging her to enjoy they're simple light and cool night breeze.
Suddenly she hit something firm and opened her eyes to see the bewildered look in her moon guardian's eyes. "Yue-san! Gomen ne! I didn't know you were here…" Yue blinked then looked away silently withdrawing his hands from her shoulders. Without thought she whimpered surprising even herself. "Etto…" Giggling nervously she took a step backward away from him almost reluctantly.
"Don't worry about it Mistress." Yue coolly looked away toward the moon feeling its cold energy throb into him body. "Why are you up so late? Daijoubu?"
Laughing in a nervous tone, she placed one of her small hands at the base of the back of her neck. "I'm fine! Nothing to worry about!" The moon guardian gave her a steady stare that silently said he wasn't worried and she should be ashamed she'd even said such a thing. Letting out a sigh she placed a smile onto her face. "Yue-san… Can I talk to you? Ano… since you're here… Etto… I mean I… never mind…"
Yue arched a slender brow slowly and cast her a questioning glance. "I will listen…"
Sakura let out a sigh of relief then plopped down on the rooftop with little or no grace. Smiling, she motioned for him to sit beside her, which he finally did. "It's been nearly a year since Syaoran and Meiling's wedding, ne?" The white haired guardian nodded slowly not looking away from the moon for even a moment. Slowly she felt her heart sink at this sight causing her to look down at her clasped hands resting in her lap.
A few moments passed finally bringing Yue's attention to her fully. Frowning inwardly he turned to her realizing that she'd figured he was no longer listening. "Mistress… I am listening…"
A smile returned to her face before she frowned and punched the taller in the shoulder. "S-A-K-U-R-A! I don't really like being called that…" Yue blinked then fought the urge to smile at the small teen. She was no longer the little girl he'd agreed to protect, she was now a young woman caught between wanting to grow up and hang onto her past with all her might. She was indeed a beautiful sight.
"Gomen… Sakura-sama. You may continue if you wish." The girl bobbed her head happily as she leaned back slowly rocking slightly.
"Was I bad for him? Was I so horrible that he had to get tired of us being together? I don't mind that he chose Meiling… She's my dear friend, but it still hurts…" Tears began to fall her cheeks as her startling green eyes met his.
"Sakura-sama… that is hardly the case." Yue forced his gaze to soften as he cupped her chin lightly in one of his hands. "You mustn't look at it as if you are at fault, you should realize that sometimes things are just not meant to be. You are still young… Do not allow this to hurt you so deeply."
Defiantly Sakura withdrew from his gentle grasp and looked away. "You don't understand Yue-san! You just don't understand… Do you know how long I'll be alive? How long I'll have to live with that pain?" Angrily she closed her eyes and forced herself to calm.
"Well passed a hundred years I would guess." The cold monotone brought the small teen from her reverie as he looked up at the sky once more with the same cold gaze she was accustom to seeing on his smooth pearl-like features.
Groaning in anger she stood up and pulled out one of her cards. "I'm going to bed…" Still grumbling slightly to herself, she threw the card into the air and called out its name. "Fly!" The soft pink wings soon grew from her back and stretched out elegantly. As she lifted into the air, all Yue could do was sigh in frustration.
Taking a deep breath he rose and allowed a slight smile to cross his face. "If nothing else, she's not crying anymore…" The smile melted into a grin as he lifted from the roof and headed back to his false form's home.
~ Cuz I'm wating for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in betweenWhat is real, and just a dream
Walking with unsure steps, Sakura approached her high school building. For once she was early and didn't have to run like lightning in order to be there before the bell. Letting out a long sigh, she paused at the gates and looked at the campus forlornly. Life is so redundant… Letting out a sigh she took another step forward. "Ohayo Sakura-chan!"
Whirling about she met the steady midnight eyes of Hiiragizawa Eriol. "Hoe! Ohayo Eriol-kun! What are you doing back in Japan? I thought you moved back to London…" Eriol smiled lightly, and then looked up at the school just beyond the gates.
"I had a feeling that I should stay here for a while…" Sakura blinked at his solemn tone not knowing what to say. It had been a long time since he'd used that tone of voice with her. "Unless you wish me to leave." Lightening his mood he once more gazed at her with his usual warm smile.
"Iya! I want you to stay!" Giggling softly, she clapped her hands together happily. Maybe… I won't have to be alone after all. Smiling broadly she grabbed his hand and started her way onto the school campus dragging the calmly smiling Eriol behind her. Pausing a moment she noticed someone running toward them breathlessly waving at the two of them. Long lengths of smoky lavender tousled in the wind behind her catching the tawny rays of the morning sun within them. "Ohayo Tomoyo-chan!"
Tomoyo stopped before her breathing quickly. "Ohayo Sakura-chan! Hiiragizawa-kun." Eriol looked up at her flushed face and smiled warmly before bowing politely in greeting.
"Daidouji-san… It is truly a pleasure to see you again. Were you running after us long? You seem rather out of breath." Tomoyo blushed then nodded mutely.
"Hai… I called Sakura-chan's name many times, but I fear she didn't hear me." Instantly Sakura's face began to turn red in embarrassment while turning her gaze to the ground.
"Gomen ne Tomoyo-chan… I must have been lost in thought…" Tomoyo smiled lightly and then looked over at Eriol with a curious gaze. As they began to talk, Sakura allowed herself to return to her thoughts. She had been very excited to see the reincarnation of Clow again, so excited in fact, that she'd forgotten how lonely she had felt before. I suppose magic is not so bad as long as Eriol-kun will be around to keep me company…
"Sakura-chan?" Blinking in surprise she found that her gaze had been glued to Eriol the entire time she'd been thinking. "Daijoubu? You are extremely quiet this morning." Worried eyes of deep blue seemed to mirror the worry that she was sure was in his heart.
"Daijoubu Eriol-kun! Don't worry about me!" Laughing nervously she didn't notice the look of sadness on Tomoyo's face. "I think I'll go ahead of you guys and get ready for class. I'll catch you guys later!"
Watching as the young card mistress disappeared into the building, Eriol couldn't help but let out the breath he had been holding. "Something is the matter I believe." Slowly he removed his glasses and cleaned them with his shirt as Tomoyo dropped her gaze to the ground.
"Hiiragizawa-kun… now tell me why you are here and not in London." Looking up at her with knowing eyes she noticed a light in them that hadn't been there before. Sighing she wondered how he could look so young without his glasses and yet so mature with them.
Replacing the glasses eloquently he answered her in a quiet voice. "Daidouji-san… Can I ask you a favor first?" The girl nodded her affirmation before he proceeded. "Please call me Eriol… I hate hearing you address me so formally… I would truly like for us to be closer than these formalities. Onegai?"
A sudden rush of warmth filled her cheeks as she put a hand to her mouth. "Mochiron… I would be honored to do so… And please… call me Tomoyo as well." The young teen smiled at her pleasantly waiting for her next question. "Demo… Will you tell me why you are here?"
A small grin swept over his features as he leaned closer to her in order to whisper. "Why… to see you of course Tomoyo-san… So… May I have the honor of walking you to class?"
A sudden giggle escaped her lips as she nodded to him. "You may… ano…" Pausing she looked up into his eyes intently. "What about Sakura-chan? The way she was looking at you earlier… it was almost like…" Cutting off her sentence she looked away from the indigo haired boy.
"I see… Don't worry about it Tomoyo-san… if it is a crush or what not… She'll get over it. Besides, she's just confused after having to go through my cute little descendant's wedding." Tomoyo nodded slowly and let out a long sigh.
"I know… Shall we think on that later? We should really get to class…" Eriol nodded and offered her his right arm in a gentile manner. Accepting the gesture, Tomoyo took his arm and they began their slow walk into the building. But… will it be ok? Eriol-kun doesn't understand how deeply things hurt Sakura-chan… Sakura-chan… I so hope you don't have a crush on him… Looking up at Eriol sadly she wondered how her friend would take it, and she also wondered if she would have to walk away again all in the name of happiness for the one she loved.
~ Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet againI don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this
"Ohayo! Class I would like you to meet our new transfer students. I know most of you already know Hiiragizawa-san from London so please help him to feel at home." The teacher smiled lightly as he pointed to a seat behind Tomoyo, which he took happily. Finally he turned about and looked at the door again. "And this is our student from Ukraine, his name is Starlet Even. Please be kind to them and welcome them."
Sakura looked up from her staring at Eriol in order to see the newcomer at the front of the room. Murmuring broke out amongst the students as a boy with deep ebony hair and startling amethyst eyes stood before them with a slight smile on his porcelain features. Sakura couldn't help but marvel at him tracing his smooth countenance and the braid of hair that reached down to just below the shoulder blades. Bowing respectfully, he seemed to ignore the comments flying about him.
With slow strides, the boy walked over to where Sakura was sitting and nodded to her while smiling. "Ohayo… do you mind if I sit behind you?" Blinking in astonishment, Sakura shook her head emphatically. There wasn't even a hint of any accent in his voice and it remained a slow soft tenor.
"I don't mind at all! Welcome to Japan Starlet-san." The boy smiled at her slightly before turning and looking at Eriol. The smile widened as Eriol met his gaze.
Eriol felt as though he'd been frozen in place. Holding his breath he returned the other's gaze and forced himself to speak in his amiable manner. "Welcome Starlet-san… I hope you enjoy it here."
Even ceased to smile for a moment then turned away to take his seat next to him. After a few moments, he closed his eyes and spoke in a low voice. "You have not changed a bit have you Hiiragizawa-san… or should I say Master Clow…"
"Eh?" Eriol felt his heart beat quickly then looked to see if Tomoyo or Sakura had heard his words, yet both were in a deep conversation talking as if they two were the only ones in existence. Looking back at Even he saw a cool smirk upon his lips. "How…?"
"Does it matter?" The boy turned his head in order to look Eriol fully in the face with his sharp eyes of amaryllis. "How are things? It seems that your aura has weakened since your previous life and a new light has emerged…" Looking back at the girl in front of him he arched a single brow. "The energy of a star… No wonder she has the cards as well as your former guardians… but tell me Clow…" He looked back with a smirk. "Are they in better hands then yours? Though… any person would be better than you…"
Suddenly the cool demeanor Eriol had kept melted away as he rose from his desk sending his chair flying backward. "What right have you to say such things?!" Silence filled his ears as he glared angrily at the boy from Ukraine.
"Eriol-kun…" Blinking, Eriol looked away from Even to see the worried gazes of everyone in the room save for the one boy that had caused him to blow up. Sakura looked at him inquisitively matching the gaze of shock that was also on Tomoyo's face. "Daijoubu?"
A wave of crimson settled in his cheeks as he retrieved his chair and sat down quickly. "Hai… Daijoubu… Gomen nesai for my sudden irrational behavior." After apologizing his eyes wavered down to his desktop trying with all his might to ignore the laughter emanating off of the boy next to him.
Sakura sighed and looked over at Even wondering if he had said something to upset the strong magician. To her surprise the boy in question was looking her straight in the eye with a gaze that seemed to penetrate her very heart. "Ore wa Even, anata wa?"
"Eh… Atashi wa Sakura… Kinomoto Sakura." The boy nodded slowly and propped his chin upon his hands while ignoring the glare that Eriol and Tomoyo were giving him.
"Nice to meet you Kinomoto-san." Sakura nodded slowly and felt her face growing warm. Shaking her head she looked away from him and sat facing the front of the room. "Daijoubu? Did I upset you?"
"Ee… Iiee! Not at all! It's just… Call me Sakura, Even-kun." The boy smiled and slumped back into his chair heeding the request for silence from the teacher. This would be a long school semmester, but he intended to enjoy every minute of it.
Sakura sighed then listened to the teacher begin his lecture while contemplating the boy behind her and the Eriol. Had Even said something to upset Eriol? If so, how could anyone get such a reaction out of him? Eriol was a hard one to get to react. Suddenly the thought of Eriol made her smile and stare straight through the blackboard and her teacher. I wonder… if he would help me out…
~ Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdyThis cannot be happening
Bolting out of her house, Sakura sped down the street in a near attempt to break the sound barrier. Rounding a corner she felt herself lose her balance and start to fall down onto the pavement. Horror filled her face at the thought of how much it was going to hurt, but then again, it couldn't hurt as bad as what she was feeling right now. Closing her eyes tightly she waited for the worst, it felt as though time had stood still. "Sakura-chan!"
Suddenly arms wrapped around her waist and she was brought back to full stature. Gently the person let go and steadied her repose before taking a step back and walking out in front of her. "Daijoubu Sakura-san?"
One emerald eye opened, then the other to meet the sight of a taller teen leaning in front of her in order to make eye contact. Suddenly realization hit her as she registered the gem toned amethyst eyes peering at her worriedly. "Sakura-chan!" Looking to the side she saw Yukito running over to the two with wide hazelnut brown eyes. "Daijoubu?!?!"
The girl couldn't help but giggle at the sight before turning back to the boy that had saved her. "I'm fine Yukito-san, Even-kun saved me from an awful meeting with the pavement." Wincing at the thought, she saw the relief flood into both of their eyes. Even straightened up and looked at Yukito intently before taking a step back in surprise. Sakura blinked and looked at him intently. "Doushitano Even-kun?"
Yukito stepped toward him and placed a hand on the younger teen's shoulder. "Thank you for helping Sakura-chan… demo… is something the matter?" A mixture of fear and shock were evident in Even's eyes as he withdrew from Yukito's grasp.
Taking one step back he looked over at Sakura with an unsteady gaze. "Gomen ne… I'm going to head on to school…" Trembling slightly he bowed to them and spun about walking quickly away from them. Calling over his shoulder as he walked away, Sakura heard a slight tension in his voice. "I'm glad you're ok Sakura-san, see you later."
Yukito blinked a few times then looked at Sakura a bit bewildered. "A classmate of yours?"
Sakura nodded mutely then looked away from Even's retreating back. "Even Starlet… He's from the Ukraine… He's rather odd, but seems to be kind…"
Suddenly she felt the aura shift as Yukito faded into Yue. Turning about, Sakura met the worried gaze of periwinkle cat like eyes. "Sakura-sama… He felt familiar to me… His aura is something I've felt before…" Yue sighed then pushed his silver white bangs out of his eyes.
"He knows magic?" Sakura blinked in disbelief then shook her head. "I didn't notice anything from him. He seems nice to me… though the first day he was here… Eriol-kun…" Her voice trailed off causing Yue to look down at her in concern.
"Something wrong Sakura-sama?" Watching her carefully he saw her bite her lower lip as it began to tremble. Bending down slightly he met her gaze and reached a hand out to cup her chin in it. "Did I say something wrong?"
Shaking her head slowly she fought herself in order not to cry. "Iya… it's not you Yue-san… Eriol-kun…" Yue arched a brow slightly at his name. "I… I…"
Taking a deep breath, the moon guardian felt his heart crumble. Now the Clow reincarnation had two marks against him. "What did he do to hurt you?" Sakura looked up with wide eyes then collapsed against him making his eyes widen in surprise. "Sh… just be calm Sakura-sama… and tell me from the beginning what happened…"
Taking in a deep breath she forced her sobs to come under control. In a shaky voice she began to speak never once removing her face from his clean white robes. "I… I thought that… he liked me… just maybe… I really like him… He's so… kind… gentle… and he always knows what to say or do… Demo…" Another wave of sobs shook her frail form as Yue timidly rested an arm across her shoulders.
"It's ok… go on…" Yue tried as hard as he could to show some sort of warmth to her. Maybe even a shred of sympathy, but the cold exterior he had erected was making it hard. Watching her like this tore his heart apart. His mistress didn't deserve to be in so much pain… But what could he do? He was just a mere guardian that had no emotions. Right?
"I asked him… yesterday… if he could like me… I told him that I loved him… he said…he said…" She began to cry harder as Yue looked down at her with a mixture of sadness and anger over the situation at hand. One… why Clow of all people and two… why didn't she realize how important she was to him. "He said… that he loved me too… but… like a daughter!" This brought about a short wail that made Yue almost shriek in surprise.
With wide eyes, Yue tried his best to pick out the right words. After all, how do you tell a girl that Clow had always thought of her as his daughter, it was only a matter of common sense that would explain that Eriol would feel the same? Good grief… Why do girls get so choked up about the stupidest things…? Yue sighed and pushed her away gently in order to look her in the eye. "Sakura-sama… I'm sorry it had to work out that way… But it's better that he tells the truth rather than leading you on…"
A flicker of anger flared in her emerald eyes as she pulled away from her guardian. Mumbling softly she looked down at the ground. "You're not the best at finding the right things to say are you Yue-san?" A few years ago, Yue would have been appalled by her words, but after four years or so of trying to be nicer to her, she had gotten close enough to him not to mince words as she once had. Sighing softly, she looked back up at him. "But at least you know how to make me stop crying."
The moon guardian moved slightly in anxiety from the awkward position he'd been put in. Looking down at his mistress calmly he felt a pang of guilt for not being of more help. "Sakura-sama… you'll get passed this… and someday I'm sure you'll find the perfect person to fill your life… After all, you deserve it…" Yue paused and felt the urge to cry for the first time in his life. Here he was telling her to keep on living where he had doomed himself to a life of cold and hateful solitude. "…and I don't…"
Sakura looked at him in surprise unsure that she had heard him correctly. "Yue-san… did you say something?" The gorgeous being with silver white hair shook his head trying to hide the pain that was hiding inside.
"No… I didn't… Will you be ok?" Sakura nodded to him still reluctant to believe her guardian. Watching him closely she felt her heart skip a beat. But that was normal. Everyone knew that Yue was a pure picture of beauty. Sighing she felt her heart grow warm. I hate that Yue-san is so cold… How could anyone turn him down like Clow-san did? I wish he didn't hate me so much. It's obvious that he only tolerates me… He's completely intangible for me.
Yue felt her eyes on him and jumped slightly. Why is she staring at me? Peering at her curiously he felt one of his eyebrows arch. "What did I do now?"
This time Sakura jumped in surprise while searching wildly for her response. "You didn't do anything wrong! I'm sorry Yue-san!"
Sighing slightly the moon angel closed his eyes in what appeared to be annoyance. "Why are you apologizing to me? I'm changing back now…" Sakura wanted to call out his name, but she knew it would be of no use. Once the man made up his mind, he would never go back on it. Little did she know was that he would do anything for her, anything at all.
Yukito looked about himself in bewilderment then gave a soft whine. "I really hate the lapse in memory… He gives me no time at all to react…" Looking at Sakura he smiled warmly and waved at her. "So, did you and my other self have a talk? Eh? Ano…" Turning his attention to his watch he nearly started to cry out in surprise. "8:30?! I'm so late! Sakura-chan! You're late to! If we hurry I can walk with you!"
Sakura giggled softly and shook her head. Yukito and Yue were complete opposites and in truth could learn a lot from one another. "Hai… arigauto Yukito-san…" Letting out a long breath, she looked up at the sky. Maybe… I should stop thinking about me… and worry about him… Yue-san hasn't had anyone to take care of him… A smile crept onto her lips as she nodded. That's what I'll do! I refuse to see Yue-san so sad and if it's the last thing I do on this earth… I mean hey… I have over a hundred years to work on him… I'll make that guy smile and lighten up… maybe even make him happy…
~ Cuz I'm wating for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
"Konnichiwa Sakura-chan…" Looking up from her lunch, her emerald eyes met the smiling face of Starlet Even. "May I join you
today?" The boy smiled warmly and sat upon the nod of her head. "So why are you eating alone today? Are not your friends here?
Hiiragizawa-san and Daidouji-san were looking for you when I saw them…"
A flash of red entered her cheeks as she shook her head. Long locks of honey brown hair licked at the air with her motions and
swirled about her as if it were as fluid as water or silk. Even couldn't help but smile at her. "I just didn't want to eat with them today. Besides…
they need time alone…" Even watched her lower her gaze causing her soft bangs to shade her eyes.
"I see… you found out about them being together I gather…"
"How… did you know?"
Even smiled warmly then looked at her untouched lunch. "That doesn't matter, but what does is the fact that you haven't eaten. I
hope you are not sick…"
This caused her to blush even more. "Thank you for your concern Even-kun…"
"It is something that one cannot control. Could I be of any help to you? You seem to be rather tied up in some troubling thoughts."
Sakura raised her eyes slowly to meet his then made her self smile. "Iya Sakura-chan… I can't stand feelings that are forced… I want to help so
you can smile and mean it…"
"Arigauto Even-kun… Tell me… if you have a friend that is really cold and secretive… what would you do to help them?" Even
gazed at her coolly then scratched his head in thought.
"That is a good question… Though… if a person is as you say… why would you wish to be their friend?" Pointing the thought out
matter of fact-ly, the teen narrowed his violet eyes. Now let's see just how worthy you are little miss card mistress…
"Because deep down inside he's a wonderful person that I truly care about!" Suddenly her forceful words ceased as she once more
blushed. "Gomen ne… I didn't mean to have such an outburst… it's just, he's extremely important to me… and I don't want him to be so lonely
and sad…"
This brought a true smile to the boy's lips as he nodded his approval. "Please do not apologize… You're reasoning moves me quite
deeply… Your friend is quite lucky to have you. All I can suggest is to find the true desire of his heart and find a way to make those wishes
come true."
Sakura stared at Even in pure awe. Why hadn't she thought of that? A light airy feeling filled her heart as she clapped her hands
together. "That's a great idea! I must start right away! Arigauto Even-kun!" I can't believe I had forgotten what it felt like to help others… I
wish I had noticed Yue-san sooner… With a smile she jumped to her feet and hugged Even. "Thanks again! See ya later!"
Laughing softly to himself, he watched the lithe girl bound off into the afternoon sun. You may be able to help that poor angel…
And I'll make sure of it… Smiling ever so slightly, he went back to his lunch making plans for later. Plans that would put the little Clow
wannabe in his place.
~ What is real and just a dream…
TBC…