COPYRIGHT DISCLAIMER:
All rights and privileges to Houshin Engi belong to Ryu
Fujisaki, JUMP Comics; Shueisha Inc., and TV Tokyo. Characters
from HE are used without permission for the purpose of
entertainment only. This work of fanfiction is not meant for
commercial use. No infringements of rights are intended.
In other words - please don't sue me, shi NEEDs herr
allowance to buy HE merchandise and make you guys rich!
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I. DREAM DRIVEN
by Kotoshin, aka Shioru Sutherlands
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"The furtherest distance
between two people -
is not
the ends of the earth
nor the line between
life and death.
It is when
I am standing
right here
with you,
and you do not know
that
'I love you.'" [1]
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... I've known you for such a long time. We grew up together,
spent time together, played pranks on teachers and fellow
students and each other. Sixty years. Sixty years in Konronsan,
studying under Genshitenson-sama.
Sixty fleeting years.
A short time, barely the blink of an eye, in the lifetime of an
Immortal.
As doushi, we were the best of friends. We still are. We have
shared much, you and I. We have shared our laughter, our tears,
our hopes and our fears - the dreams and secrets confided only to
each other.
I thought it was forever. It would be forever. That you'd always
be there, with me. That I'd always be there, for you. That
nothing could ever come between us, between the closeness we
shared.
I used to hold you close at night, sharing the warmth in this
single room, in this bed we share. You dream, of dark things,
of terrible things that children were not meant to know. Dreams
of screams and blood and fire that the child you were lived
through.
Survived.
Sometimes, I wondered if either of us really did.
How much of you died, burning in the fire?
How much of 'me' did I leave behind, charred to ephermal
ashes in memory?
I dream, with you. Beside you. The shadows of the past cling
to us, lingering, the scent of blood and loss that neither of
us could forget.
We comfort each other, holding and securing each other from
drowning in the whirlpool of rememberance when the nightmares
come. When the memories rebathe us in blood.
One more tie that bind us, this sorrow of the past. The bleak
yet gripping past that shaped us, molded our very being - the
past made us who we were. The past that made us who we /are./
I look to the past and remember all that had been, all that was,
all that was lost which I wish to regain. All that happened,
that which I wish undone. Unhappen. Unreal.
But you ...
It was you who taught me to look to the future. The brightness,
so bright, so endless the possibilities of the vision in your
eyes. It opened my eyes to the dream of you, the dream that
made what I dreamed small and insignificant.
I dreamed only of peace, of becoming an Immortal sennin, and
use my skills to help the people when I could. I dreamed of
being left alone, aloof from the world of mortals and their
woes. Helping to ease the pain, but never letting such
tragedies close - never allowing myself the closeness which
invariably brings heartache.
But you - you changed that. You saw much further than this
small and selfish vision of mine ever could. Did. You saw a
dream that was greater than mine. A dream the encompassed
mine as a tiny part of its whole.
"A Ningenkai without sendou."
You believed in me. You were the first to congratulate me when
I attained the rank of sennin. And one of the Jyu Ni Sen, no
less.
"I knew you could do it."
I believe in you. You could not see them, would not believe me
if I spoke - but I see in you a freeborn soul with great wings
of wind and light.
You would fly far.
And I ...
... I would go with you, as far as my wings can follow.
- end -
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[1] -- roughly translated quote from a chinese novel. Shi can't
remember which one. Shi /thinks/ the author's penname was
"Sky-heart" if translated. if you know, please email shi. ^^;
================================================================
minor bits of babble:
... this used to be part of a long fic shi did. Being lazy, shi
decided to finally give in, and cut it up into short pieces
but still grouped together in the same fic - universe-wise.
This Fuugen is quite different from the one in "Smiling Tears",
and should be treated as a different person.
And yes, shi can 'see' different versions of the same character.
================================================================
Last Modified: May 30, 2001 7:11AM
================================================================
All rights and privileges to Houshin Engi belong to Ryu
Fujisaki, JUMP Comics; Shueisha Inc., and TV Tokyo. Characters
from HE are used without permission for the purpose of
entertainment only. This work of fanfiction is not meant for
commercial use. No infringements of rights are intended.
In other words - please don't sue me, shi NEEDs herr
allowance to buy HE merchandise and make you guys rich!
****************************************************************
I. DREAM DRIVEN
by Kotoshin, aka Shioru Sutherlands
****************************************************************
"The furtherest distance
between two people -
is not
the ends of the earth
nor the line between
life and death.
It is when
I am standing
right here
with you,
and you do not know
that
'I love you.'" [1]
================================================================
... I've known you for such a long time. We grew up together,
spent time together, played pranks on teachers and fellow
students and each other. Sixty years. Sixty years in Konronsan,
studying under Genshitenson-sama.
Sixty fleeting years.
A short time, barely the blink of an eye, in the lifetime of an
Immortal.
As doushi, we were the best of friends. We still are. We have
shared much, you and I. We have shared our laughter, our tears,
our hopes and our fears - the dreams and secrets confided only to
each other.
I thought it was forever. It would be forever. That you'd always
be there, with me. That I'd always be there, for you. That
nothing could ever come between us, between the closeness we
shared.
I used to hold you close at night, sharing the warmth in this
single room, in this bed we share. You dream, of dark things,
of terrible things that children were not meant to know. Dreams
of screams and blood and fire that the child you were lived
through.
Survived.
Sometimes, I wondered if either of us really did.
How much of you died, burning in the fire?
How much of 'me' did I leave behind, charred to ephermal
ashes in memory?
I dream, with you. Beside you. The shadows of the past cling
to us, lingering, the scent of blood and loss that neither of
us could forget.
We comfort each other, holding and securing each other from
drowning in the whirlpool of rememberance when the nightmares
come. When the memories rebathe us in blood.
One more tie that bind us, this sorrow of the past. The bleak
yet gripping past that shaped us, molded our very being - the
past made us who we were. The past that made us who we /are./
I look to the past and remember all that had been, all that was,
all that was lost which I wish to regain. All that happened,
that which I wish undone. Unhappen. Unreal.
But you ...
It was you who taught me to look to the future. The brightness,
so bright, so endless the possibilities of the vision in your
eyes. It opened my eyes to the dream of you, the dream that
made what I dreamed small and insignificant.
I dreamed only of peace, of becoming an Immortal sennin, and
use my skills to help the people when I could. I dreamed of
being left alone, aloof from the world of mortals and their
woes. Helping to ease the pain, but never letting such
tragedies close - never allowing myself the closeness which
invariably brings heartache.
But you - you changed that. You saw much further than this
small and selfish vision of mine ever could. Did. You saw a
dream that was greater than mine. A dream the encompassed
mine as a tiny part of its whole.
"A Ningenkai without sendou."
You believed in me. You were the first to congratulate me when
I attained the rank of sennin. And one of the Jyu Ni Sen, no
less.
"I knew you could do it."
I believe in you. You could not see them, would not believe me
if I spoke - but I see in you a freeborn soul with great wings
of wind and light.
You would fly far.
And I ...
... I would go with you, as far as my wings can follow.
- end -
================================================================
[1] -- roughly translated quote from a chinese novel. Shi can't
remember which one. Shi /thinks/ the author's penname was
"Sky-heart" if translated. if you know, please email shi. ^^;
================================================================
minor bits of babble:
... this used to be part of a long fic shi did. Being lazy, shi
decided to finally give in, and cut it up into short pieces
but still grouped together in the same fic - universe-wise.
This Fuugen is quite different from the one in "Smiling Tears",
and should be treated as a different person.
And yes, shi can 'see' different versions of the same character.
================================================================
Last Modified: May 30, 2001 7:11AM
================================================================