A/N: These are the thoughts of Harry Potter. It's kind of different (I hope). Also, I would love constructive feedback to this! Again, this is Harry's P.O.V.

Warning: Slight slash! If you don't like slash, you've been warned!

Disclaimer: Sadly, I own nothing! J.K. Rowling owns it all!

Reflections of Betrayal

Kiss me.

Hold me.

Love me.

Leave me.

Why?

Days, months, years.

All gone.

Still I don't understand. I will never understand.

Leaving me to battle the evil, which resides in darkness.

Never realising the pain I went through. The anguish I felt.

Love for none but your self.

You never really loved me.

You say you did. Lied through your teeth.

You say you understand. How could you?

I hate you.

I hate him.

I hate me.

Love. You don't know what love is!

You need.

I need.

We all need. But what you needed, wasn't what I needed was it? No. You didn't care what I needed, only what you needed.

I needed you.

I tried.

I wished.

I prayed.

I cried.

But what did you do? You abandoned me!

Turned your affections to him.

I wish I could say it's all his fault, but I know it's yours as much as his.

Didn't you ever wonder how it would affect me?

You never asked. Just let it be.

I dreamed. Lots of dreams.

Good… Bad… Both…

And each time, I knew that you would be there, knew that I could turn to you.

But you betrayed me when I need you the most.

You told me you loved me.

Told me to always look to our love.

Told me always believe.

I believed. Always… until you turned it against me.

You told me to look to the light.

That way I would always be safe.

You LIED!

I wasn't always safe.

They came for me. I saw them clearly.

Leering.

Snarling.

Smirking.

Then he was there with them. Leering. Snarling. Smirking. And laughing.

Cruel, cold, laughter.

He scared me.

He wanted to scare me. Trying to attack me. Trying to finally get me.

Never quite getting there. Always trying.

I knew that the only way to get away was to have you with me.

But you didn't want to be with me.

NO! You were happier with him.

Manipulating my feelings against me.

Letting him feed off your lustful love.

Carving scars around my heart. Breaking me in every way possible.

Light.

Dark.

Happy.

Sad.

Did you ever really notice me?

I think not.

Sure, you pretended to. Feeding off my love. Creating raw emotions to play against me.

I began to realise that I didn't need you.

Never did.

Never would again.

But I didn't realise that you would one day need me.

How could I?

He was always there.

Always taking you away.

Never letting you notice that I was there.

But you didn't care. You didn't want to notice me.

NEVER!

I longed to be noticed by you.

HA! How naïve!

How was I supposed to know?

You played my love and turned it against me.

I was innocent.

You convinced me there would always be love.

Again… You LIED!

Took away my hope, my life. Just let it go. And let my innocence go.

Now you need me.

Plead with me.

Adore me.

Dying you finally concede your love to me.

I turn away.

Brittle bones break.

Hardened hearts ache.

Tired tears torment me.

I've never not loved you.

Never not cared.

Never not been with you.

But, you betrayed me.

Broke my heart. Denied my love. All for him.

You will never know the pain you caused.

Never know the hatred you conjured.

Now, like you, I turn my back.

Not looking back.

Heart and soul destroyed.

Not daring to love again.

To care again.

To lose you again.

Shattered limbs exhausted collapse.

Pain over-riding sense.

Death over-coming life.

Hurt mixed with hate.

Love mingled with betrayal.

Confusion and denial.

Never again.

Hurt.

Heart.

Hope.

Hell.