My Mistakes in Life
By [1]Pikablu
Part 12: A Happy Family?
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"Oh, my princess, you're safe!" he said, hugging me. I felt weird being hugged by him. I didn't know what to say. Then for some reason I thought of this...
"John left me!" The minute I was in jail, I knew I was going to rat out John. That bastard.
"I took care of John," he said, letting me go from the hug.
"You didn't kill him, did you?" I asked. Even if I now hate John, I still wouldn't want him to die!
"No-no-no, I yelled at him," he assured me. I felt a little tired, so I took a fast shower and went to bed. Giovanni went downstairs; he said that he need to take care of something. I lay in bed thinking about Samuel.
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My first time
Later on that day, we sat hugging each other. John was at work (he was still a TR member). Giovanni and I were up to no good. Ok, let's see if I can remember it... I tried to block this out of my head.
As we were both kissing each other, I decided that we should stop for a while, but for some reason Giovanni didn't want to. He picked my whole body up and carried me to the bedroom. Then he took off my top. The truth is, I was scared, and I'd never done this before.
"Baby, I... I'm... well..."
"Delia, I know you're ready. Your mother would want you to be with me, and you know that I'm right for you. I... I... well... you know...I--"
"Love me?"
He didn't say anything until 2 minutes later. "I care for you very much."
I should've known from the minutes he took to answer. I should've known that he didn't love me. But I was dumb back then--I admit it, I was dense back then.
After all of our clothes were off, he finally presented my with the biggest pain in my whole life. One was the virgin pain; the other was in my heart... that will come later on.
In October, we got married. He wanted me to still have the last name Ketchem... he said that he couldn't tell me his last name... because of something... I forget at times...
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Tell him or not?
I'm 21 now, and I feel like the world is spinning around. I'm going to have a baby! A life was to be here in 4 months. Am I going to be a good mother?
I'm in the bathroom, I'm crying, I've been crying ever since Lee took me to the doctor. No one knows only me; everyone thinks I'm sick. The baby is not going to have a good life... I feel it. A child who will grow up in a evil place like this, with his or her mother and father who don't even love each other anymore...
Every day I feel like I hate Giovanni. He's always away. I hear a lot of the members telling me that he's cheating on me. Also they say that he hires the girls by seeing who is the best in bed.
I can't believe no one notices that I'm fat! Giovanni hardly sees me anymore. I think John knows; Lee is too busy trying to get a date with some girl in TR. I have to tell my husband... I'll tell him tomorrow.
(The next day)
"Honey?"
"Uh-huh," he says, reading that damn newspaper.
"We're going... I have some news for you."
"Yeah... good news?"
"I don't know."
"Tell me before I go."
"YOU AND YOUR TRIPS! WHAT ABOUT ME?"
"What about you?" he asked with one eyebrow up and his face staring at me.
"I NEED YOU HERE... WITH ME!"
"You know I'm always busy!"
"OH, JUST FORGET IT!"
"Calm down, Delia, I will spend time with you!"
"Whatever."
"I will! I care about you, and... ok, I'll put everything on hold today, and we'll go the bedroom and--"
"NO!"
"Huh?"
"Is that all you want?"
"No... you know that's not the only thing I want!"
"Look at me! Notice something?" I showed my body. I was trying to make him see my belly.
"You look the same... what's wrong?"
"I'M PREGNANT, YOU IDIOT!" I said, leaving the kitchen.
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My new baby's name
"So... you picked a name?"
"I picked all girl names."
"Well, now that he's here... I guess we better pick his name."
"I don't know any boy names."
"John's a good name."
I gave him an evil glare.
"Maybe not," he said with a sweat drop. He knew I was already upset with him.
"Lenny!" I said happily.
"Lenny? No-no, he has to have a strong name... like for a leader!"
"Leader?"
"Yes, who will rule when I'm gone!"
"Gone?" I was shocked... gone? What did he mean by that? I don't want my son to be a leader... if he were president or something, that was ok, but not a Team Rocket leader.
"Matthew," he said, holding our newborn.
"I really don't like that--"
"This is my child, and he's going to have the name Matthew!"
Your child? I'm the one who had him... if anything, he was MY child!
But I was dumb back then. I made so many mistakes, and I can never go back. This one the main one. I've given birth to a child whose mother doesn't love his father. And I don't know a thing about babies. I don't deserve this. I shouldn't be a mother.
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My baby
Matthew just learned how to crawl. He likes playing with his toys. I could just play with him all day and never get tired.
My husband hates when I don't pay any attention to him. My husband loves the baby, but the thing is, he hates it when I'm with the baby. He'll yell at me, and I will still play with the baby. When he's trying to talk to me, I'll act like I'm playing with the baby.
This morning something happened that I thought would never happen.
"Who's the cutie here? Who's the cutie? Yes, yes, it's you... oh, yes, it is," I said, feeding the baby.
"Delia, today I'm going on another trip."
"You are the cutest little thing I've ever seen! Yes, you are..."
"Delia?"
"Open your mouth for the train," I said, giving the baby a spoon of baby food.
"Delia?"
"Was that good?" The baby started to laugh.
Giovanni stood up from the kitchen table. "DAMN IT, DELIA, LISTEN TO ME!"
"What?" I asked, annoyed.
He walked up to me and slapped me in the face, sending me straight to the floor.
"I'm sorry I had to do that, but you asked for it! I'm LEAVING!" he said, grabbing his coat and slamming the door.
I sat there, a little surprised and a little scared. I started to cry. The baby did, too.
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My plan
(It's the same day)
Today was like every other day. Members from TR are telling me to leave, and that my husband is cheating on me, which I believe is true. I found a lot of things that weren't mine. Black bras and panties, a lot of clothes that weren't mine. I never had even seen them.
So this is the day. I've decided that I'm leaving. Leaving everything and everyone, even my child. I love him so very much, but I can't leave with him. If I get caught, I'll be killed or something else will happen. I can't let anything happen to Matthew. I really love him, but I must leave now!
Rocky, a member who is misguided like everyone here, is my friend. She's been here almost all her life. She knows everything that goes on; she's one of the members who told me that Giovanni is cheating on me. She's going to help me out. It's hard because if the guards see me, I'm dead. Yes, I'm the leader's wife, but no one should see my face, because I'm wearing a mask. We all sat on the front room couch. My husband is on a trip, but he'll come back at 4:00 pm. So we needed a plan before then.
"Ok, D, you wait until midnight, then slowly walk to the elevator. Peter the elevator boy will bring you to the 3rd floor--"
"3rd floor? Why not the 1st?"
"D, you can't go to the 1st floor! What if people see you?"
"Oh. I see your point."
"Then from there we will help you get away."
"Ok... I'll miss you... all of you."
"Oh--" My other friend Mia was about to cry. "We'll miss you too. You're like the mother we never had," Mia said. Rocky and Mia hugged me.
Rocky hardly hugged people, but she felt real close to me. Her mother used to beat her, and her brothers were always picking on her and calling her a brat and some other names. Rocky ran away and had to live in a church for a while until her mother found out that she was there. Rocky then closed the church doors, keeping her mother inside, and burned the whole church while her mother was inside. Rocky then joined a gang and did some really bad stuff like killing people. Giovanni thought that she'd be perfect for TR. Once we met, I found out that she's a sweet girl inside, but she is misguided.
Mia, well... she's Rocky's best friend, and she didn't want to be alone; since Rocky joined, she did too. Mia is a funny girl, but when they have pokemon fights or even real fist fights, Mia can turn into a whole different person.
After they left, I sat on the bed and thought about the whole idea of leaving... I've hardly been outside during the day, only at night. I haven't seen the sun in a very long time--about one whole year.
I need to leave. I need to.
I look at a notebook by the dresser. I should leave Matthew a note. Maybe when he's older, he'll read it and know that I will still love him.
I got a pen and thought of what I'm going to tell him. I thought about for 15 minutes...
"Dear Matthew..."
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I know, I really didn't want Giovanni to slap Delia... But a lot of people wanted me to put that in so... hm... let me try to explain. Some people look at the story and wonder, "Why is Delia leaving, or wanting to leave?" Also, it tells you that Delia doesn't want to be with a man who hits her and treats her like dirt. I hope none of you men out there do this! But in my heart, I know you don't! ^_~
E-mail [2]PikadaBlu@aol.com!
References
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By [1]Pikablu
Part 12: A Happy Family?
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Back to the HQ
A/N: If you like this fanfic...my best friend Kate made a killer picture of Delia and Samuel kissing...If you want to see that picture please E-mail me or review saying so...and please sign in...or give me your E-mail address!
"Oh, my princess, you're safe!" he said, hugging me. I felt weird being hugged by him. I didn't know what to say. Then for some reason I thought of this...
"John left me!" The minute I was in jail, I knew I was going to rat out John. That bastard.
"I took care of John," he said, letting me go from the hug.
"You didn't kill him, did you?" I asked. Even if I now hate John, I still wouldn't want him to die!
"No-no-no, I yelled at him," he assured me. I felt a little tired, so I took a fast shower and went to bed. Giovanni went downstairs; he said that he need to take care of something. I lay in bed thinking about Samuel.
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My first time
Later on that day, we sat hugging each other. John was at work (he was still a TR member). Giovanni and I were up to no good. Ok, let's see if I can remember it... I tried to block this out of my head.
As we were both kissing each other, I decided that we should stop for a while, but for some reason Giovanni didn't want to. He picked my whole body up and carried me to the bedroom. Then he took off my top. The truth is, I was scared, and I'd never done this before.
"Baby, I... I'm... well..."
"Delia, I know you're ready. Your mother would want you to be with me, and you know that I'm right for you. I... I... well... you know...I--"
"Love me?"
He didn't say anything until 2 minutes later. "I care for you very much."
I should've known from the minutes he took to answer. I should've known that he didn't love me. But I was dumb back then--I admit it, I was dense back then.
After all of our clothes were off, he finally presented my with the biggest pain in my whole life. One was the virgin pain; the other was in my heart... that will come later on.
In October, we got married. He wanted me to still have the last name Ketchem... he said that he couldn't tell me his last name... because of something... I forget at times...
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Tell him or not?
I'm 21 now, and I feel like the world is spinning around. I'm going to have a baby! A life was to be here in 4 months. Am I going to be a good mother?
I'm in the bathroom, I'm crying, I've been crying ever since Lee took me to the doctor. No one knows only me; everyone thinks I'm sick. The baby is not going to have a good life... I feel it. A child who will grow up in a evil place like this, with his or her mother and father who don't even love each other anymore...
Every day I feel like I hate Giovanni. He's always away. I hear a lot of the members telling me that he's cheating on me. Also they say that he hires the girls by seeing who is the best in bed.
I can't believe no one notices that I'm fat! Giovanni hardly sees me anymore. I think John knows; Lee is too busy trying to get a date with some girl in TR. I have to tell my husband... I'll tell him tomorrow.
(The next day)
"Honey?"
"Uh-huh," he says, reading that damn newspaper.
"We're going... I have some news for you."
"Yeah... good news?"
"I don't know."
"Tell me before I go."
"YOU AND YOUR TRIPS! WHAT ABOUT ME?"
"What about you?" he asked with one eyebrow up and his face staring at me.
"I NEED YOU HERE... WITH ME!"
"You know I'm always busy!"
"OH, JUST FORGET IT!"
"Calm down, Delia, I will spend time with you!"
"Whatever."
"I will! I care about you, and... ok, I'll put everything on hold today, and we'll go the bedroom and--"
"NO!"
"Huh?"
"Is that all you want?"
"No... you know that's not the only thing I want!"
"Look at me! Notice something?" I showed my body. I was trying to make him see my belly.
"You look the same... what's wrong?"
"I'M PREGNANT, YOU IDIOT!" I said, leaving the kitchen.
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My new baby's name
"So... you picked a name?"
"I picked all girl names."
"Well, now that he's here... I guess we better pick his name."
"I don't know any boy names."
"John's a good name."
I gave him an evil glare.
"Maybe not," he said with a sweat drop. He knew I was already upset with him.
"Lenny!" I said happily.
"Lenny? No-no, he has to have a strong name... like for a leader!"
"Leader?"
"Yes, who will rule when I'm gone!"
"Gone?" I was shocked... gone? What did he mean by that? I don't want my son to be a leader... if he were president or something, that was ok, but not a Team Rocket leader.
"Matthew," he said, holding our newborn.
"I really don't like that--"
"This is my child, and he's going to have the name Matthew!"
Your child? I'm the one who had him... if anything, he was MY child!
But I was dumb back then. I made so many mistakes, and I can never go back. This one the main one. I've given birth to a child whose mother doesn't love his father. And I don't know a thing about babies. I don't deserve this. I shouldn't be a mother.
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My baby
Matthew just learned how to crawl. He likes playing with his toys. I could just play with him all day and never get tired.
My husband hates when I don't pay any attention to him. My husband loves the baby, but the thing is, he hates it when I'm with the baby. He'll yell at me, and I will still play with the baby. When he's trying to talk to me, I'll act like I'm playing with the baby.
This morning something happened that I thought would never happen.
"Who's the cutie here? Who's the cutie? Yes, yes, it's you... oh, yes, it is," I said, feeding the baby.
"Delia, today I'm going on another trip."
"You are the cutest little thing I've ever seen! Yes, you are..."
"Delia?"
"Open your mouth for the train," I said, giving the baby a spoon of baby food.
"Delia?"
"Was that good?" The baby started to laugh.
Giovanni stood up from the kitchen table. "DAMN IT, DELIA, LISTEN TO ME!"
"What?" I asked, annoyed.
He walked up to me and slapped me in the face, sending me straight to the floor.
"I'm sorry I had to do that, but you asked for it! I'm LEAVING!" he said, grabbing his coat and slamming the door.
I sat there, a little surprised and a little scared. I started to cry. The baby did, too.
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My plan
(It's the same day)
Today was like every other day. Members from TR are telling me to leave, and that my husband is cheating on me, which I believe is true. I found a lot of things that weren't mine. Black bras and panties, a lot of clothes that weren't mine. I never had even seen them.
So this is the day. I've decided that I'm leaving. Leaving everything and everyone, even my child. I love him so very much, but I can't leave with him. If I get caught, I'll be killed or something else will happen. I can't let anything happen to Matthew. I really love him, but I must leave now!
Rocky, a member who is misguided like everyone here, is my friend. She's been here almost all her life. She knows everything that goes on; she's one of the members who told me that Giovanni is cheating on me. She's going to help me out. It's hard because if the guards see me, I'm dead. Yes, I'm the leader's wife, but no one should see my face, because I'm wearing a mask. We all sat on the front room couch. My husband is on a trip, but he'll come back at 4:00 pm. So we needed a plan before then.
"Ok, D, you wait until midnight, then slowly walk to the elevator. Peter the elevator boy will bring you to the 3rd floor--"
"3rd floor? Why not the 1st?"
"D, you can't go to the 1st floor! What if people see you?"
"Oh. I see your point."
"Then from there we will help you get away."
"Ok... I'll miss you... all of you."
"Oh--" My other friend Mia was about to cry. "We'll miss you too. You're like the mother we never had," Mia said. Rocky and Mia hugged me.
Rocky hardly hugged people, but she felt real close to me. Her mother used to beat her, and her brothers were always picking on her and calling her a brat and some other names. Rocky ran away and had to live in a church for a while until her mother found out that she was there. Rocky then closed the church doors, keeping her mother inside, and burned the whole church while her mother was inside. Rocky then joined a gang and did some really bad stuff like killing people. Giovanni thought that she'd be perfect for TR. Once we met, I found out that she's a sweet girl inside, but she is misguided.
Mia, well... she's Rocky's best friend, and she didn't want to be alone; since Rocky joined, she did too. Mia is a funny girl, but when they have pokemon fights or even real fist fights, Mia can turn into a whole different person.
After they left, I sat on the bed and thought about the whole idea of leaving... I've hardly been outside during the day, only at night. I haven't seen the sun in a very long time--about one whole year.
I need to leave. I need to.
I look at a notebook by the dresser. I should leave Matthew a note. Maybe when he's older, he'll read it and know that I will still love him.
I got a pen and thought of what I'm going to tell him. I thought about for 15 minutes...
"Dear Matthew..."
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I know, I really didn't want Giovanni to slap Delia... But a lot of people wanted me to put that in so... hm... let me try to explain. Some people look at the story and wonder, "Why is Delia leaving, or wanting to leave?" Also, it tells you that Delia doesn't want to be with a man who hits her and treats her like dirt. I hope none of you men out there do this! But in my heart, I know you don't! ^_~
E-mail [2]PikadaBlu@aol.com!
References
1. mailto:PikadaBlu@aol.com
2. mailto:PikadaBlu@aol.com