My Mistakes in Life
By [1]Pikablu
Part 19: A New Baby
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I think I'm dead,
I feel nothing.
Neither pain nor fear,
Am I really dead?
Just light and free
As like a pidgey I'm flying
I see the golden gates opening
I see all the children playing
Many people of all kinds
Then I see her, beautiful as I remembered
She smiles at me, and walks towards me.
Instead of greeting me, she waves good-bye
"Not now, you mustn't leave him,"
She said to me, as I felt my body moving
I am floating down, away from the gates
Am I going to hell?
Was I really bad?
I heard noises, many types
I hear people talking and I see light.
Bright shiny light, as I open my eyes.
Then I hear crying, I don't know what's going on.
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New babe
"Delia?"
"Sam?" I asked, feeling my body hurt and my arms too weak to move.
"Are you ok?"
"I'm just fine. I only feel a little... MY BABY!" Quickly, without thinking, I sat up to look for my son.
"Calm down, Delia! Ash is fine!" Sam said, holding me, then laying me back down.
"He's ok?" I asked as he kissed my cheek.
"Yes, he's just fine, Delia. You need to rest. In a few days we'll... I mean, you will get to buy your house."
I smiled at him, still feeling weak. "Sam... did I die?"
"You mean, have you died and gone to heaven, or did you die from having Ash?" he joked.
"I mean, did I die and come back to life somehow?"
"Why do you ask?"
"I saw my mother... I saw her waving to me. I wanted to stay with her... But she pushed me back."
"Delia, you were dying in the room. You were dead for a few seconds but came back... Did you really want to leave Ash and me?"
"No, never! But I wanted to stay with my mother... only for a while longer... I love her, and I still miss her," I said, watching the night sky.
"Delia... I love you... and I want you to stay."
"I will stay, I just wanted to see her one more time."
"Delia... I wish... I... I... never mind."
"What is it?"
"Nothing."
"Tell me."
"I wish... I wish I could get to see him. That's all."
"You can't--he's in the nursery--"
"No, I mean, after you leave, I won't get to see him," Samuel said sadly. He gave me a kiss on my cheek and walked out the room.
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Samuel's POV
I walked outside for a while. It was a cold and windy night. I walked around for a very long time. I didn't want Delia to see how much I was hurting. I was deeply in pain.
I love Delia; I wanted to be with her. I know that she is only doing this because she doesn't want trouble, but I really want to see my boy. See him grow up. I didn't get the chance to see my other son grow up, I was always away. Now that I'm rich and famous and I have the time to settle down in my life, I still can't be with my child, Ash. I don't care if my son gets mad at me for marrying Delia; I don't care about any of that. I want to be with my son and my only true love.
I sit here watching the moon and stars. I feel like a wimp or something. A grown man should not be seen crying. But I am, I can't help it. I feel ashamed of crying. I feel like I'm a child again. I can't let anyone see me, not even Delia; I never want to break her heart.
I have an idea. I have to take a stand... I love Delia, but I have the right to see my son. There's something I'm going to have to do, even if Delia disagrees. I don't care anymore--I love her way too much to lose her and the baby, our baby... Ash.
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End of this chapter.
My new email is [2]PikadaBlu@aol.com. Please email me.
References
1. mailto:PikadaBlu@aol.com
2. mailto:PikadaBlu@aol.com
By [1]Pikablu
Part 19: A New Baby
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I think I'm dead,
I feel nothing.
Neither pain nor fear,
Am I really dead?
Just light and free
As like a pidgey I'm flying
I see the golden gates opening
I see all the children playing
Many people of all kinds
Then I see her, beautiful as I remembered
She smiles at me, and walks towards me.
Instead of greeting me, she waves good-bye
"Not now, you mustn't leave him,"
She said to me, as I felt my body moving
I am floating down, away from the gates
Am I going to hell?
Was I really bad?
I heard noises, many types
I hear people talking and I see light.
Bright shiny light, as I open my eyes.
Then I hear crying, I don't know what's going on.
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New babe
"Delia?"
"Sam?" I asked, feeling my body hurt and my arms too weak to move.
"Are you ok?"
"I'm just fine. I only feel a little... MY BABY!" Quickly, without thinking, I sat up to look for my son.
"Calm down, Delia! Ash is fine!" Sam said, holding me, then laying me back down.
"He's ok?" I asked as he kissed my cheek.
"Yes, he's just fine, Delia. You need to rest. In a few days we'll... I mean, you will get to buy your house."
I smiled at him, still feeling weak. "Sam... did I die?"
"You mean, have you died and gone to heaven, or did you die from having Ash?" he joked.
"I mean, did I die and come back to life somehow?"
"Why do you ask?"
"I saw my mother... I saw her waving to me. I wanted to stay with her... But she pushed me back."
"Delia, you were dying in the room. You were dead for a few seconds but came back... Did you really want to leave Ash and me?"
"No, never! But I wanted to stay with my mother... only for a while longer... I love her, and I still miss her," I said, watching the night sky.
"Delia... I love you... and I want you to stay."
"I will stay, I just wanted to see her one more time."
"Delia... I wish... I... I... never mind."
"What is it?"
"Nothing."
"Tell me."
"I wish... I wish I could get to see him. That's all."
"You can't--he's in the nursery--"
"No, I mean, after you leave, I won't get to see him," Samuel said sadly. He gave me a kiss on my cheek and walked out the room.
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Samuel's POV
I walked outside for a while. It was a cold and windy night. I walked around for a very long time. I didn't want Delia to see how much I was hurting. I was deeply in pain.
I love Delia; I wanted to be with her. I know that she is only doing this because she doesn't want trouble, but I really want to see my boy. See him grow up. I didn't get the chance to see my other son grow up, I was always away. Now that I'm rich and famous and I have the time to settle down in my life, I still can't be with my child, Ash. I don't care if my son gets mad at me for marrying Delia; I don't care about any of that. I want to be with my son and my only true love.
I sit here watching the moon and stars. I feel like a wimp or something. A grown man should not be seen crying. But I am, I can't help it. I feel ashamed of crying. I feel like I'm a child again. I can't let anyone see me, not even Delia; I never want to break her heart.
I have an idea. I have to take a stand... I love Delia, but I have the right to see my son. There's something I'm going to have to do, even if Delia disagrees. I don't care anymore--I love her way too much to lose her and the baby, our baby... Ash.
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End of this chapter.
My new email is [2]PikadaBlu@aol.com. Please email me.
References
1. mailto:PikadaBlu@aol.com
2. mailto:PikadaBlu@aol.com