Authors notes: Well this contains a bitter ((very bitter.. and potty mouthed)) Seifer Almasy.... It's Yaoi so if you don't like that well... LEAVE!.. go on! shoo! *hits you with her comically sized frozen codfish*
Praise , Flames.. air born bricks... all welcome!!!! E-MAIL ME!! PLEASE! *sweat drops*.. too desperate?
So, here I am.
So here I am,..... I'm alone. Not that it's surprising or anything, it just kinda pisses me off.
I blame her.
Her? Why do I blame her? Because she's fucking perfect... she's everything I'm not. Pretty, popular, sweet, gentle..... a girl. yeah, yeah,... I know. I he's in love right? I should be happy... But y'know what?.. fuck 'em, I'm just pissed off.
I hate her.
Yeah I hate her... I hate everything about her... how the hell did she get him anyways?? FUCK! I can't stand seeing them together.. I don't want her to be near him.. I don't want her to touch him, I don't want he to because he should have been mine! When she kisses him it feel like my heart is being squeezed by some invisible hand... how?.. How can she make him smile when all I could ever do was make him frown?
I hate myself.
Uh huh, it's about fucking time. Sure, I've got an ego to stretch a mile wide but, I still can't look in the mirror without scowling.... I'm weak,.. I was controlled... How pathetic is that?.... still, I keep everything in and only let out the shity emotions.... no wonder they all hate me. Hyne, I'm a real prick.
I lie to myself.
There are two kinds of lies in the world,.. lies.. and damn lies. Heh.... I just tell myself I hate him... yep... I'm starting to believe it too. We've always had something there, between us.. driving us... but, .. I'm beginning to think it was always just plain old kick me in the fucking face... hate.
So, here I am.
Here I am, Seifer Almasy, In love..... or was that, in hate? Hell, both can go hand in hand, and if not.. well fuck it because I'm the exception. But it's all true, every word that turned out cold or mocking was only hiding the fact I wanted to hug the little bitch. Every time I made fun of him, just my form of congratulating him..... yep.... even scaring him. I was pretty surprised when he kept the scar..... I did too...
I'm alone.
I'm sitting here at this boring, god-be-damned ball watching those idiots have fun while I sulk. Yep, me Rajin and Fujin made SeeD,... whoopty-fucking-doo... They're over there with their friends.. former enemies... funny how it worked out. Fujin and Quistis .... I always thought her and Rajin.... ha,.. it serves me right to be alone!.. I don't even know my best friends sexual preferences!!! Guess I'm glad they don't know mine though.. if they did.... they'd know I love him.
I'm Pissed off.
The two fucking love birds are dancing. They don't even notice I'm watching from the balcony.... it's better this way. But I'm going to the training center, I really need to kill something and it just may be them if I don't leave..... Honestly?... Fuck honesty!.. He doesn't need to know. I'm just going to keep this rival thing going.. it seems to work for us... too bad I still love him...... fuck.... I'm in love with Leonheartless... now why the fuck doesn't Squall love me?!
~OWARI~
Praise , Flames.. air born bricks... all welcome!!!! E-MAIL ME!! PLEASE! *sweat drops*.. too desperate?
So, here I am.
So here I am,..... I'm alone. Not that it's surprising or anything, it just kinda pisses me off.
I blame her.
Her? Why do I blame her? Because she's fucking perfect... she's everything I'm not. Pretty, popular, sweet, gentle..... a girl. yeah, yeah,... I know. I he's in love right? I should be happy... But y'know what?.. fuck 'em, I'm just pissed off.
I hate her.
Yeah I hate her... I hate everything about her... how the hell did she get him anyways?? FUCK! I can't stand seeing them together.. I don't want her to be near him.. I don't want her to touch him, I don't want he to because he should have been mine! When she kisses him it feel like my heart is being squeezed by some invisible hand... how?.. How can she make him smile when all I could ever do was make him frown?
I hate myself.
Uh huh, it's about fucking time. Sure, I've got an ego to stretch a mile wide but, I still can't look in the mirror without scowling.... I'm weak,.. I was controlled... How pathetic is that?.... still, I keep everything in and only let out the shity emotions.... no wonder they all hate me. Hyne, I'm a real prick.
I lie to myself.
There are two kinds of lies in the world,.. lies.. and damn lies. Heh.... I just tell myself I hate him... yep... I'm starting to believe it too. We've always had something there, between us.. driving us... but, .. I'm beginning to think it was always just plain old kick me in the fucking face... hate.
So, here I am.
Here I am, Seifer Almasy, In love..... or was that, in hate? Hell, both can go hand in hand, and if not.. well fuck it because I'm the exception. But it's all true, every word that turned out cold or mocking was only hiding the fact I wanted to hug the little bitch. Every time I made fun of him, just my form of congratulating him..... yep.... even scaring him. I was pretty surprised when he kept the scar..... I did too...
I'm alone.
I'm sitting here at this boring, god-be-damned ball watching those idiots have fun while I sulk. Yep, me Rajin and Fujin made SeeD,... whoopty-fucking-doo... They're over there with their friends.. former enemies... funny how it worked out. Fujin and Quistis .... I always thought her and Rajin.... ha,.. it serves me right to be alone!.. I don't even know my best friends sexual preferences!!! Guess I'm glad they don't know mine though.. if they did.... they'd know I love him.
I'm Pissed off.
The two fucking love birds are dancing. They don't even notice I'm watching from the balcony.... it's better this way. But I'm going to the training center, I really need to kill something and it just may be them if I don't leave..... Honestly?... Fuck honesty!.. He doesn't need to know. I'm just going to keep this rival thing going.. it seems to work for us... too bad I still love him...... fuck.... I'm in love with Leonheartless... now why the fuck doesn't Squall love me?!
~OWARI~