Authors notes: Second part of my little 'A night to think.' set.. I wrote this one after deciding the other part wasn't 'just right' on it's own.... I dunno... I don' think I worte squall all to well.. this
is my first attempt on him. Tell me what you think ok? (*chibi eyes* please?) Anyhoo.. this is a YAOI involved fic.... it's safe though, no Lemony goodness here. *sigh* and not half as much cussing as the first fic. heh..... okies.. on with the fic! Move along! *prods you with the fish again*
Funny.....
I can't help but keep and eye on him while I dance. He's been so quiet these days... I'm beginning to worry....
Alright so most people think I am incapable of such a thing. I know what they call me behind my back... even my friends... Leonheartless... Ice King... Emotional retard.. but that's what I am.. I can't really help it.
I wonder sometimes if they really like me for me, or if they just like me for what they've made me out to be.... what they want me to be. The truth is, I don't want to be what they want me to be... Everyone is trying to change me.. my so-called friends... my idiot father, who isn't really such an idiot once you get passed his immaturity..... and of course.... there was her...
Yes, she has always been trying to change me... trying to 'fix' me. Ever since we met she went right to it... but I don't need to be changed.. to be fixed.. hyne, I'm not broken....I sometimes can't remember whether I ever really loved her like 'that'.. or if I've just felt obligated to because that's what they expected of me..... Because it was my duty..
Duty....
Hmmm... one word, four letters.... One great big pain in the ass.... All this responsibility was thrusted into my face in such a short period of time and I've taken it all silently because it was my duty.... I became squad leader,... fought against..'him to save our freedom..... became her knight.... fought Matron... Became headmaster of Balamb garden.... son to the most powerful man in the world.... and of course,.. saved the world from time compression.....ugh.. GOD DAMMIT! I'm only 18!!!! I don't want any of this... why can' they just leave me alone? Why can't it be like before?.. when they were all to afraid or shy to even speak to me......
Well not all of them... heh.. no... he was always there. Even when I was little, he'd always be there.. whether it as a friend or as an enemy.. He always accepted me for who I was.. never tried to change me... But... I think I ruined it.
The way he looks at me now,.. his eyes are full of such hurt... he's never challenging me to duels or insulting my judgement anymore.... It's funny how you can grow to miss a bully... but it's true.. I miss him... as a rival and as a friend.... but he hates me now... too bad because I think I'm in love with him.... Seifer Almasy.... why'd it have to be him?
Honestly? I think I've always loved him. Ever since we were little kids and He'd always try to play with me.... I wanted to play but... I felt if I got to close to him.. he leave..... everyone always leaves me... now I still don't know how to talk to him... he's so handsome and bold. It's kind of intimedating. Besides... if he knew I was gay, he'd probably beat the ever loving shit out of me.
She's saying something.. laughing actaully. But I wasn't paying attention. I was too busy watching those expressive eyes following me from the balcony.... they're gone now.... funny how a simple song can make you think... even funnier since it's the one HER mother wrote for my moronic Father...
I wonder whether Luguna ever really love Julia heartly.. he seems to.. but... of course He did marry my mother.... so..... Uh... actaully I have not a single god-damned clue... This ball is boring, my head's too god-damned confusing and Rinoa's annoying the hell out of me... whatever.....I think I'll go to the trainning center before I give myself a headache.....
*sigh*
~OWARI~
is my first attempt on him. Tell me what you think ok? (*chibi eyes* please?) Anyhoo.. this is a YAOI involved fic.... it's safe though, no Lemony goodness here. *sigh* and not half as much cussing as the first fic. heh..... okies.. on with the fic! Move along! *prods you with the fish again*
Funny.....
I can't help but keep and eye on him while I dance. He's been so quiet these days... I'm beginning to worry....
Alright so most people think I am incapable of such a thing. I know what they call me behind my back... even my friends... Leonheartless... Ice King... Emotional retard.. but that's what I am.. I can't really help it.
I wonder sometimes if they really like me for me, or if they just like me for what they've made me out to be.... what they want me to be. The truth is, I don't want to be what they want me to be... Everyone is trying to change me.. my so-called friends... my idiot father, who isn't really such an idiot once you get passed his immaturity..... and of course.... there was her...
Yes, she has always been trying to change me... trying to 'fix' me. Ever since we met she went right to it... but I don't need to be changed.. to be fixed.. hyne, I'm not broken....I sometimes can't remember whether I ever really loved her like 'that'.. or if I've just felt obligated to because that's what they expected of me..... Because it was my duty..
Duty....
Hmmm... one word, four letters.... One great big pain in the ass.... All this responsibility was thrusted into my face in such a short period of time and I've taken it all silently because it was my duty.... I became squad leader,... fought against..'him to save our freedom..... became her knight.... fought Matron... Became headmaster of Balamb garden.... son to the most powerful man in the world.... and of course,.. saved the world from time compression.....ugh.. GOD DAMMIT! I'm only 18!!!! I don't want any of this... why can' they just leave me alone? Why can't it be like before?.. when they were all to afraid or shy to even speak to me......
Well not all of them... heh.. no... he was always there. Even when I was little, he'd always be there.. whether it as a friend or as an enemy.. He always accepted me for who I was.. never tried to change me... But... I think I ruined it.
The way he looks at me now,.. his eyes are full of such hurt... he's never challenging me to duels or insulting my judgement anymore.... It's funny how you can grow to miss a bully... but it's true.. I miss him... as a rival and as a friend.... but he hates me now... too bad because I think I'm in love with him.... Seifer Almasy.... why'd it have to be him?
Honestly? I think I've always loved him. Ever since we were little kids and He'd always try to play with me.... I wanted to play but... I felt if I got to close to him.. he leave..... everyone always leaves me... now I still don't know how to talk to him... he's so handsome and bold. It's kind of intimedating. Besides... if he knew I was gay, he'd probably beat the ever loving shit out of me.
She's saying something.. laughing actaully. But I wasn't paying attention. I was too busy watching those expressive eyes following me from the balcony.... they're gone now.... funny how a simple song can make you think... even funnier since it's the one HER mother wrote for my moronic Father...
I wonder whether Luguna ever really love Julia heartly.. he seems to.. but... of course He did marry my mother.... so..... Uh... actaully I have not a single god-damned clue... This ball is boring, my head's too god-damned confusing and Rinoa's annoying the hell out of me... whatever.....I think I'll go to the trainning center before I give myself a headache.....
*sigh*
~OWARI~