I looked through my mother's things, all her clothes, her books and records, finally finding a diary. I remembered the second key I had found in my room at Wilson house, and fished it out of my pocket, where I had put it after opening the box. It fit, and I opened the leather book. As I read through it, my heart dropped.
"May 18th; it happened again today, uncle ralph raped me and no one believed me. I hate my life, I just want to kill myself"
"June 24th; the kids at school are horrible, ever since they found out from Alex that we had sex after the movie they've never stopped calling me a slut and a whore and I just hate them all. I just wish I could find it in myself to end it all"
"Nov 8th; well I found out for sure today that I am pregnant, and I'm so scared. I don't know who the father is and my aunt and uncle are so angry at me, I'm scared that the next time either one of them hits me they'll hurt my baby, and all I want is for my baby to come out okay and to be healthy. I don't know if it's a boy or a girl yet but even though I'm scared I'm kind of excited, if I have this baby then I'll have someone that will love me and never do anything to hurt me, and I'll do everything I can to make sure my baby has the best possible life, and I'll never hurt it like aunt clara does to me"
"Feb 2nd; I decided that when I have my baby I'll call her Wisp, it's such a pretty name and I hope she'll be pretty. I can't wait until I have her, I'll take such good care of her I know I will, I'll love her so much, I'll give her everything I never had"
"June 29th; my little baby is so beautiful, I can never get over how pretty she is. Everyone says that she looks like me, but that can't be because I'm not pretty and she's beautiful"
"July 13th; I'm so happy now that I have Wisp. Aunt and uncle are still horrible and mean to me but they treat my little girl well, and that's all I ask for, I don't care what anyone does to me I just want my baby to treated good"
"May 24th; they took her away from me, and I'm so alone and so scared and so unhappy, if only they'd let me I'd gladly kill myself because I hate being alive so much right now it hurts to be alive and be without my little girl"
I laid the book down, unable to read anymore. My poor mother, how could anyone have been so cruel to such a beautiful woman? If she was as nice as she was pretty, she would have been perfect. I laid down against her pillow, wishing that I could have met her at least once.
"Oh mom, why did you have to die? I miss you so much and I just want to touch you and hear you, just to know that you're there. I need you mom after all I'm going through, and to find that you're dead, I just can't handle it." I started crying again, unable to contain myself. I got up from the bed and went to the bathroom, not sure of what I was going to do. I sat down on the edge of the tub, as I turned the faucets on. I guess I thought that taking a bath would be a good idea, maybe it would help me calm down. As the tub filled up and I took off my clothes, settling into the warm water, it suddenly dawned on me what I had been thinking. The whole point of this trip had been to find my mother, to find a reason for my being here. But since she wasn't here, and never would be again, it could only mean one thing.
I'm not supposed to be here either.
I could hear a pounding on the door, someone calling out to me. When I didn't answer the door opened, and I saw Chad. When Chad saw me, I could tell he nearly fainted.
"Wisp? Oh my god Wisp what have you done?!" He rushed to my side, lifting me out of the warm water and onto the floor. He leaned me up against the side of the tub, as he took the towels that were hanging on the wall and pressed them to my wrists. The yellow towels quickly turned red, as I drifted further from reality.
"Wisp please don't leave me, stay with me Wisp I'll call an ambulance and you'll be okay, just don't leave me!" Chad's voice drowned out as my eyes closed, and suddenly, I felt nothing.
"May 18th; it happened again today, uncle ralph raped me and no one believed me. I hate my life, I just want to kill myself"
"June 24th; the kids at school are horrible, ever since they found out from Alex that we had sex after the movie they've never stopped calling me a slut and a whore and I just hate them all. I just wish I could find it in myself to end it all"
"Nov 8th; well I found out for sure today that I am pregnant, and I'm so scared. I don't know who the father is and my aunt and uncle are so angry at me, I'm scared that the next time either one of them hits me they'll hurt my baby, and all I want is for my baby to come out okay and to be healthy. I don't know if it's a boy or a girl yet but even though I'm scared I'm kind of excited, if I have this baby then I'll have someone that will love me and never do anything to hurt me, and I'll do everything I can to make sure my baby has the best possible life, and I'll never hurt it like aunt clara does to me"
"Feb 2nd; I decided that when I have my baby I'll call her Wisp, it's such a pretty name and I hope she'll be pretty. I can't wait until I have her, I'll take such good care of her I know I will, I'll love her so much, I'll give her everything I never had"
"June 29th; my little baby is so beautiful, I can never get over how pretty she is. Everyone says that she looks like me, but that can't be because I'm not pretty and she's beautiful"
"July 13th; I'm so happy now that I have Wisp. Aunt and uncle are still horrible and mean to me but they treat my little girl well, and that's all I ask for, I don't care what anyone does to me I just want my baby to treated good"
"May 24th; they took her away from me, and I'm so alone and so scared and so unhappy, if only they'd let me I'd gladly kill myself because I hate being alive so much right now it hurts to be alive and be without my little girl"
I laid the book down, unable to read anymore. My poor mother, how could anyone have been so cruel to such a beautiful woman? If she was as nice as she was pretty, she would have been perfect. I laid down against her pillow, wishing that I could have met her at least once.
"Oh mom, why did you have to die? I miss you so much and I just want to touch you and hear you, just to know that you're there. I need you mom after all I'm going through, and to find that you're dead, I just can't handle it." I started crying again, unable to contain myself. I got up from the bed and went to the bathroom, not sure of what I was going to do. I sat down on the edge of the tub, as I turned the faucets on. I guess I thought that taking a bath would be a good idea, maybe it would help me calm down. As the tub filled up and I took off my clothes, settling into the warm water, it suddenly dawned on me what I had been thinking. The whole point of this trip had been to find my mother, to find a reason for my being here. But since she wasn't here, and never would be again, it could only mean one thing.
I'm not supposed to be here either.
I could hear a pounding on the door, someone calling out to me. When I didn't answer the door opened, and I saw Chad. When Chad saw me, I could tell he nearly fainted.
"Wisp? Oh my god Wisp what have you done?!" He rushed to my side, lifting me out of the warm water and onto the floor. He leaned me up against the side of the tub, as he took the towels that were hanging on the wall and pressed them to my wrists. The yellow towels quickly turned red, as I drifted further from reality.
"Wisp please don't leave me, stay with me Wisp I'll call an ambulance and you'll be okay, just don't leave me!" Chad's voice drowned out as my eyes closed, and suddenly, I felt nothing.