Chapter 3 –
Jseawater: I tried to go to one of their support meetings.
Jseawater: Where everyone is like, "Oh it's not your fault!" And everyone tries to hug you.
Jseawater: But what I think is the absolute worse thing is the God factor that try to push on everyone.
Jseawater: Phtt! :-P
Molly never felt more confused and also worried in her life. Why was her only daughter talking to someone who had some kind problems maybe with substance abused? It was obvious whoever this person was they were an adult with unsetting life. Molly didn't want Fiona talking to anyone like this. Sure everyone deserves a chance, not to be judged and other sweet little love your neighbor sayings. But not when it was her daughter doing it! Oh the lovely second standard of parenting. Molly again was torn on what steps to take. She wanted to know who in the hell this person was and why they had befriended her daughter. Her mind now racing away with images of stalkers and the evening news reports of young girls being killed by internet buddies. On the other hand Tad was an older adult and was perfectly harmless, yet Molly actually knew him.
Jseawater: I'm not sure if it's worth it.
Jseawater: I keep on thinking I'm walking in circles.
Jseawater: I always collide into the "problem" again and again.
Jseawater: What should I do?
That was the first time they had asked a question and they seemed to be waiting for a response. Molly wanted to scream and pull her hair out in clumps. Just ignore whoever it is. They'll get the hint. Don't do anything stupid. Molly kept on telling herself. Yes just get up and leave now, Ned is an understanding person he'll be ok with the excess amount of electricity used tonight. And when Fiona wakes up she'll be doing a lot of explaining of her chatting buddies. Still Molly wasn't completely satisfied with the plan she had come up with. The wanting to be motherly and help somebody in pain factor started to take over.
Jseawater: You there?
Jseawater: Hullo?
It was really has if something had possessed her body and she hovered above and watched, as she started to hit the keys.
Rockerbaby: Yes I'm here.
Molly aboustly couldn't believe she was doing this. She felt a shamed. Knew Fiona would be furious and accuse her of not trusting her daughter. Molly didn't. Only a bad parent that doesn't care about their children will completely and blind trust their offspring. Still the children aren't actually suppose to discover how deep their parents concerns can be.
Jseawater: Good to know.
Jseawater: What do you think?
Molly really wished as if she had thought over a response to Jseawater's troubles and have it sound half way intelligent and more importantly be able to play it off like she understood everything. Of all the stupid things to do this took the cake. But she couldn't back out now.
Rockerbaby: I'm really not sure.
Well it was the truth and a Fi sounding response.
Jseawater: Me as well. Me as well.
Jseawater: I'm royally fucked up now aren't I?
Rockerbaby: No not at all.
For all Molly knew he or she could just what they claimed themselves to be if not even worse. Still no one likes to hear or in this case see someone agree on a statement such as that.
Rockerbaby: We all go through our rough patches. Lord knows I have more than enough to mention.
Oh shit. Suddenly the theory of just pretending to be Fiona was disappearing with every word typed. Fiona didn't have a world full of heart aches.
Jseawater: I doubt that. Your young and have barley entered the "real world"
Jseawater: You need to realize everything can seem so unfair right now, but with age you'll learn those problems are just pity and not worth of fretting over.
Good advice. Molly hated to admitted but so far this person hadn't said or done anything questionable that she won't want her daughter exposed to. Maybe the paranoia was becoming just a bit too much. I have to get out of here. She thinks. She was completely clueless of how exactly.
Rockerbaby: It's getting late and I'm pretty tired.
Well that was easy enough. Molly thinks with a satisfied smirk.
Jseawater: You know what?
Rockerbaby: What's that?
Jseawater: I'm just going to stop it. All of it.
Rockerbaby: Um ok.
Right now would be an especially wonderful time to know what in the hell they were talking about!
Jseawater: I just miss it some much. I have tried. I really have.
Miss what!? Molly was in hell right now. The only she could think of one thing, the same thing as earlier, drugs. What else could explain them declaring they would stop and missing it? Obviously they understand they have a problem but has tried getting help and understands the difficulty of it. That had to be what it was. It was the only logical explationation.
Rockerbaby: I know it will be ok. Just keep on trying.
Jseawater: Sure whatever you say.
Jseawater: Well I shall let you go.
Rockerbaby: Ok.
Jseawater: Oh and tell Molly it's not her fault.
Wait what!? How did this person know me!? She thinks to herself. And what's not my fault!? Molly couldn't ask, because a message popped up on the screen stating Jseawater has left the chat room. Molly sighs and finally shuts the machine down completely. Quietly raises from the chair and out the room without distributing Fiona who hadn't moved since being tossed on to the bed. Molly enters the common room and lays down on the couch, shutting her eyes to enter the sleeping world. She couldn't stop thinking about Jseawater. It was going to be a long night.