How could he have been so stupid? Of course his master was going to sense he wasn't there, walk up to his room, and find
his notebook. It wasn't like he put a 'don't read' warning on it. Sith, if this had been a different situation he would've
slapped himself. The tension was so thick you could've cut with a knife; neither of them knew what to do, or what to say.
Obi-wan's stomach was doing all the gymnastic moves you can think of, and that wasn't helping him very much. After looking a
few minutes at the notebook he finally averted his eyes back to the cause of al the nervousness, his master.
His midnight blue eyes were staring at him, begging him to say something. "Did you like my text?"
Qui-gon was caught of guard, he was shocked. Of all the things he could say he had to say that? How the hell was he
supposed to answer that? He wished someone would just appear in front of their door, so he could think at least a
little bit more about his answer. But that wasn't going to happen, so he just had to be honest.
He cleared his throat, and gave the best possible answer he could think of. "It was beautifully written,
and it came right from your heart. But to answer your question, no, I didn't like it." He saw confusion
written all over his padwan's face, but it was quickly hidden and soon his face was expressionless.
What does he mean? Obi-wan didn't like where this was going. He was supposed to tell Qui-gon how he felt,
not have a nice little chitchat about his text. "Did you know it was about you?" Yeah, he was going to tell him,
he was going to put him in his place. "Do you even realise the pain and agony you've put me trough?"
The hurt was probably written all over his face, and Qui-gon could probably see all of it. But he didn't care anymore.
His heart was talking, no screaming, and he was going to let it until it was done. He saw his master was going to
interrupt him, but with one quick wave of his hand he silenced him, he needed to get everything out.
Just for once he wasn't going to bottle it up inside. "Do you know how you made me doubt about myself?
Do you know that every time I needed someone to talk to me, or just hold me, to let me know they cared,
you always turned your back on me? Do you know that at night I would cry myself to sleep
'cause I felt alone and abandoned? Do you?" Tough the next thing his master said was just a
three letter word, it managed to shock him. "Yes."
It's amazing how one word can shock someone so much. Qui-gon saw that Obi-wan tried to say something, but miserly failed.
"Oh padawan, I was so wrong, always thinking I was doing the right thing by being so hard on you, always presuming that you
knew how much I cared about you." And again he saw his padwan shocked. Oh sith, he even doubted that I cared about him,
if only he knew. I have to tell him this, how much he means to me. Clearly he thinks that I don't need him, that I want him
gone, that I don't love him. "Obi-wan I can't begin to tell you how much you mean to me, how I appreciate your brilliant
smile in the morning that make's me feel happy." This time it was his turn to let his heart talk, he was going to tell this
boy how much he loved him. " I can't count the times I couldn't sleep, and went to your room to watch you,
comforted by the fact that tomorrow was going to be another day with you by my side." He saw tears form in his padwan's eyes,
but that didn't stop him. "Without you Obi-wan I would be lost, I am your master but that doesn't mean I haven't learned
allot from you. You teached me how to love again padawan. You wormed your way into my heart, and made me love you so much.
Don't ever doubt that again, I love you very much my padawan."
Obi-wan felt tears roll down his cheek, but he didn't mind them. For the first time in his life his master had opened
his heart to him. He saw his master was in tears also, and quickly wiped them away with his thumb. He had always dreamed
of this moment to come, but now it did he didn't know what to say. No, he didn't need to say anything,
he needed to do something. He let his shields down.
Qui-gon had completely forgotten about the bond. He knew what he had to do now, and did the same as his padwan.
As soon as he had lowered his shields he felt love and joy flow trough their bond. But that didn't work away the knot
of guilt in his stomach. "How can you forgive me?"
His master had asked a simple question, but it still made his heart ache. "Master, I already forgave you, it's the
forgetting that's going to take some time. But we've got time, and I'm sure that together we'll make it. I love you master,
and by that alone I know this will work out." Nothing could've prepared him for his mater's next action, he hugged him.
At first Obi-wan stiffened a bit, but then he completely relaxed as he felt his master make soothing patterns with his
large hands on his back.
He didn't think when he hugged his padwan, he listened to his heart, and did what it was telling him to do.
He felt Obi-wan relax in his arms, and hug him back. His hands that were much littler compared to Qui-gon,
were rubbing up and down his back. funny, he thought, I'm being the comforter and the comforted at the same time.
He felt their bond strengthen, and knew that is was stronger then before.
Qui-gon saw trough the window that the sun was rising, and felt that the knot in his stomach was gone.
Let's sit and watch the sunrise, together you and me.
I've been so down, I've bee, so lost, that I've forgotten how wonderful life could be.
But I know now we can make it, I know that we will get trough.
Let's sit down and watch the sunrise, together me and you.
note:After rereading this story, I've come to a conclusion: THIS STORY IS SO SAPPy!!!!...I really hope NOBODY from my family
finds out i writed this, elseway i'll just find myself a big nice hole, crawl in it, and die...If you read this entire story,
then you can proudly say that you are very brave and you get a nice big old hug from me *hug*...If you didn't like it,
well then I really hope your a pacifist...if not *backs away slowly*...anyway, thank you very much for reading it!!!