If You're Gone
 
Rating: PG
 
Disclaimer: I own nothing, Jason Katims and 20th Century Fox own Roswell, 
and If You're Gone was written by Rob Thomas of Matchbox 20. 
I'm just borrowing them for a while.
 
 
AN: Posted in response to a fanfic challenge at muses and bunnies 
http://pub57.ezboard.com/bmusesandbunnies
 
 
I think you're already gone.
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak - But I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now I'm relaxed - I can't be sure
 
My name is Isabelle Evans Ramierz.  I have a terrible secret that I have been hiding from my husband. 
 It's not that I didn't want to tell, him, but I couldn't.  I knew if I told him, I'd not only lose him,
but I could put my life and the lives of other people I love in jeopardy.  I love Jesse, and 
I trust him, really I do, so one day, I made the decision to let know my secret.  His reaction 
was just what I expected, first disbelief, then shock and finally anger.  That was when 
he walked out.  I haven't seen him since then.
 
I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing
 
If that's the way Jesse wants it to be, there isn't anything I can do.  Jesse always said 
I could tell him anything, but he bailed on me at the first sign of trouble. I meant what
 I said in my wedding vows, but I guess Jesse really didn't. I know I was wrong, I should 
have been honest from the start, but let's face it, my secret isn't something you can
 just sort of work into the conversation.
 
If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you
 
Maybe it's time for me to join the others and figure out a way for us to get 
out of this situation, out of here.  I'm so afraid now.  I don't know where Jesse went, 
or what he is going to do with the information about me.  I thought he loved me, 
but I guess it wasn't enough.
 
I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the room just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind
 
I always thought losing Alex would be the worst and hardest thing I would ever have 
to do.  I loved him, but while it was first love, it wasn't eternal lasting love.  That is what
 Jesse and I had, or at least I thought we did.
 
I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem 
I'm feeling
 
Jesse wouldn't even give me a chance to explain, to explain it all to him.  All he could 
say was that I lied to him, that I didn't trust him.  I couldn't get him to understand that 
wasn't how it was.  I'd trust him with my life.  I did trust him with my life by telling him.  
Why can't he see that?
 
If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you
 
I have to have faith that Jesse wouldn't betray me, or the others.  He loves me, I know
 he does, just as I love him.  Wait, what's that noise.  It sounds like police cars.  
A lot of them.  They are coming closer.  Oh no, Jesse couldn't have he wouldn't have
 told anyone.  He wouldn't risk my life like that.  Please God, let me be wrong.  Oh no, 
I'm not wrong. They are coming for me.
 
I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - do I talk too much
I know it's wrong it's a problem I'm dealing