"Liz, I don't know what your talking about. If Science was made to be
interesting, they would have banned it. Either that, or you are just one
freaky girl!"
Liz sighed down the phone. Why couldn't she find someone with as much interest in Science as her? She actually liked school, but Maria found it hard to deal with Science as fun, so she decided to keep it to herself.
"So what are we actually doing today? You and Michael have kind of been keeping quiet which, truthfully, makes me kinda worried!" Liz smiled as she listened to Maria go into detail of how "not everyday had to be a planned day" yada yada yada. Maria had been great the past few weeks, and their friendship had been made stronger. Funnily enough, she had found a good friendship with Michael. He was always looking out for her, and not leaving her out. Like the other day, he had brought Maria some flowers, and from behind his back, some smaller flowers for her had appeared. It had touched her heart. She was glad Maria was so happy. She knew about them finally getting together in the most together-ish way. However, she couldn't deny that it hurt. The night she knew she had cried herself to sleep from what she had lost but couldn't bring herself to forgive.
"Liz? LIZ!"
"Uh yeah, sorry. What were you saying?" Damn, in my own world again!
"I said Michael is here. We'll be round soon ok?"
"Ok, see you then."
She put the phone down and sighed. Since when had life become so difficult? Everyday was a struggle for her to get out of bed and even try to be hospitable to her parents. Speaking of parents, they were always going on about how quiet she had become.
"Yeah well if the one person you truly loved slept with some blonde whore from space, you'd be a bit quiet too."
Silence followed her statement. Her parents had gone to Washington to visit relatives. It had taken her weeks to get them to leave her here, but now after everything had happened, she wished she was there. She wanted to be held by her parents in the hope that they could erase everything. She sighed once more and got up to collect her bag and went downstairs to await Maria and Michael.
"Fun Land? You're taking me to Fun Land?" Liz was stared at her friends un- believably.
"Yeah! It'll be...well, fun!" Maria gestured with her hands. It seemed to work. Liz gave in to a smile.
"I can't believe I'm going to Fun Land. Cheapest place on earth for people with the mental age of 5."
"Hey", Michael cut in, "the tickets weren't exactly cheap you know. And in some places, Fun Land is considered cool." Liz smirked at him. "Ok, maybe in Iceland, or something. The point is, today is about fun."
Maria nodded. Liz smiled. She did feel happy today. Spending it with two of her closest friends. It was when she was alone she hated.
They made their way towards the entrance, and handed in the tickets. In return, they got a stamp on their hands.
"Oh goody. Look what I got!" Liz said sarcastically waving her hand about.
"Suits you babe!" Maria laughed, and pulled Liz towards the dodgems.
"Today I realised something. That if you go long enough without something, you completely forget and don't even notice that is isn't there. I realised that I had been living in a cocoon since the day Max Evans saved me. I never got to let go and have outright fun because of the fear incase it would hurt Max, Michael and Isabel in some way. I would sometimes be happy, but I haven't been in or near a state of peace since then. And I realised that this was why I felt so tired. I've been worn down, and I don't have any clue as to how to be any more. What was I, Liz Parker like? I have so many emotions inside me I don't know which to listen to. I've learnt to make myself feel numb. Sometimes I wish I had never been saved. Not for Max`s sake, for mine. Then I wish Tess had never come to Roswell, New Mexico. I sometimes even wish there was no such thing as aliens. But then I would lose one of my new best friends. Michael. I want to forgive and forget. I just can't. It's like he's tainted. She won. I lost. I lost him. He lost me.
Liz sighed down the phone. Why couldn't she find someone with as much interest in Science as her? She actually liked school, but Maria found it hard to deal with Science as fun, so she decided to keep it to herself.
"So what are we actually doing today? You and Michael have kind of been keeping quiet which, truthfully, makes me kinda worried!" Liz smiled as she listened to Maria go into detail of how "not everyday had to be a planned day" yada yada yada. Maria had been great the past few weeks, and their friendship had been made stronger. Funnily enough, she had found a good friendship with Michael. He was always looking out for her, and not leaving her out. Like the other day, he had brought Maria some flowers, and from behind his back, some smaller flowers for her had appeared. It had touched her heart. She was glad Maria was so happy. She knew about them finally getting together in the most together-ish way. However, she couldn't deny that it hurt. The night she knew she had cried herself to sleep from what she had lost but couldn't bring herself to forgive.
"Liz? LIZ!"
"Uh yeah, sorry. What were you saying?" Damn, in my own world again!
"I said Michael is here. We'll be round soon ok?"
"Ok, see you then."
She put the phone down and sighed. Since when had life become so difficult? Everyday was a struggle for her to get out of bed and even try to be hospitable to her parents. Speaking of parents, they were always going on about how quiet she had become.
"Yeah well if the one person you truly loved slept with some blonde whore from space, you'd be a bit quiet too."
Silence followed her statement. Her parents had gone to Washington to visit relatives. It had taken her weeks to get them to leave her here, but now after everything had happened, she wished she was there. She wanted to be held by her parents in the hope that they could erase everything. She sighed once more and got up to collect her bag and went downstairs to await Maria and Michael.
"Fun Land? You're taking me to Fun Land?" Liz was stared at her friends un- believably.
"Yeah! It'll be...well, fun!" Maria gestured with her hands. It seemed to work. Liz gave in to a smile.
"I can't believe I'm going to Fun Land. Cheapest place on earth for people with the mental age of 5."
"Hey", Michael cut in, "the tickets weren't exactly cheap you know. And in some places, Fun Land is considered cool." Liz smirked at him. "Ok, maybe in Iceland, or something. The point is, today is about fun."
Maria nodded. Liz smiled. She did feel happy today. Spending it with two of her closest friends. It was when she was alone she hated.
They made their way towards the entrance, and handed in the tickets. In return, they got a stamp on their hands.
"Oh goody. Look what I got!" Liz said sarcastically waving her hand about.
"Suits you babe!" Maria laughed, and pulled Liz towards the dodgems.
"Today I realised something. That if you go long enough without something, you completely forget and don't even notice that is isn't there. I realised that I had been living in a cocoon since the day Max Evans saved me. I never got to let go and have outright fun because of the fear incase it would hurt Max, Michael and Isabel in some way. I would sometimes be happy, but I haven't been in or near a state of peace since then. And I realised that this was why I felt so tired. I've been worn down, and I don't have any clue as to how to be any more. What was I, Liz Parker like? I have so many emotions inside me I don't know which to listen to. I've learnt to make myself feel numb. Sometimes I wish I had never been saved. Not for Max`s sake, for mine. Then I wish Tess had never come to Roswell, New Mexico. I sometimes even wish there was no such thing as aliens. But then I would lose one of my new best friends. Michael. I want to forgive and forget. I just can't. It's like he's tainted. She won. I lost. I lost him. He lost me.