Jealousy is an Ugly Thing
Disclaimer: "Le sigh" I do not own any of the Gundam Wing characters. I only own the character Amanda Chambers. I have written this story only because of my love for them and an over active imagination. This is not a true continuation of the episodes and the information given is made up and based on other fan fictions I have read.
Part 1
It was a warm bright sunny day as a dark haired boy laid out on the beach. "It's over," he thought "The war is finally over."
He forced his tense body to relax and began to think about everything that had happened. The war had ended unexpectedly. He had been able to stop the giant piece of Libra from crashing onto the earth and had managed to survive. Although at the time he had not cared if he lived or not because as he had told Relena to him his life was cheap.
When he returned to the others they tended to Quatre's injury and had gone their separate ways. He had felt the need to see Relena again and did so. He left her a card and teddy bear on her birthday. The card had read "I love you." Being a strong confident girl she clearly told him that she was not satisfied with just a card, ripped it up and asked him to tell it to her face. He was unable to and simply walked away. It was not that he didn't mean it, oh no. It was just that it had taken everything in him to even write it. He wasn't used to showing emotions anymore it had been stolen from him along with any other part of his humanity when he was a child during his "Perfect Soldier" training.
His heart ached at the memories and he forced himself to relax once again. It was another effect of the training. It took a lot of concentration to relax his body even when he was alone or around people he trusted. Relena was the first one to brake through his barrier. She was the only one who was able to remind him that he had feelings and he felt love for her because she wakened up his humanity once again. Indeed he was sure he had it now but he still didn't know how to deal with it or show that he had it. He wanted to show his true self that he wasn't just a soldier anymore. Of course he loved her for being herself she was a strong confidant, mature, loving and an overall extraordinary girl.
She had been considered Queen of the World at her young age of fifteen and was now the Vice Foreign Minister. He wanted to keep protecting her in the least, until he was able to tell her to her face that he loved her. With that in mind he was in a sense glad that he had survived. He was also glad that the others had survived.
"Great," he thought bitterly disgusted with him self, "I can admit all my emotions to myself but not to others."
He was worried that he would never be able to overcome his training and become a normal person. He wanted to be able to live without his body tensing at every moment and be able to show emotions. He wanted his humanity back. He was worried that it would never happen because everyone else seemed to already be breaking their masks. Little by little but at least they were doing it.
He knew this because Quatre, the most caring of all of them, wanted them all to live together. After two months of not seeing each other he had insisted on all of them living in one of his many estates on the earth.
"We've been through so much together that it just wouldn't be right to lose track of each other," he had claimed.
He had won them all over as it was very hard to say no to his loving and caring friendship and they had been living in this mansion by the beach for the last week.
He had noticed that all of them had changed. They were all more open with their emotions and trusted everyone more. It was normal for Quatre, but even Wufei who had been the most untrusting and unwilling to be with them had changed. He now acknowledged that they were his friends and was more open as well. Even though none of them had shared their pasts it was still an improvement and they would all heal together.
His mind whirled with all his thoughts and the sun's warm rays began to take their toll on his tired eyes and he dozed off under the warmth. Since he truly was asleep his conscious was unaware that there was a figure lurking around hiding under the catwalk but his body did become tense once again. The figure crept closer and closer until finally…
"Damnit what the hell?"
The boy couldn't help but yell out after being rudely awakened from his slumber when something hard landed on him. His already tense body reacted in an instant and threw off whatever had landed on him. He stood up quickly forcing his eyes to adjust to the brightness of the sun and search for what had landed on him when he stared into laughing violate eyes.
"My what foul language Heero! What's the matter don't like being surprised?"
I actually surprised you? That's weird.
"Duo…" Heero growled shooting him his famous death glare through cold cobalt blue seemingly uncaring eyes.
Duo was totally unaffected. He had become immune to Heero's body language because they were best friends out of all the ex-gundam pilots. This was thanks to Duo. When they had gone their separate ways Duo had taken part in making sure that no one strayed to far away from the rest of the others. So when Heero would seem like he would do a disappearing act he would call him every day and visit at least once a week. Heero had acted cold towards him but he also noticed a change in him. He talked more and seemed to listen more. He also seemed more caring. The truth was that Heero had enjoyed his company. He was tired of being alone all the time. They understood each other completely even though they only knew what the other wanted them to know.
Duo kept laughing even though Heero was turning an interesting shade of red truly angered that he was awoken from a much-wanted nap. Duo finally controlled himself.
"Yes, Heero you were saying?"
Heero gave him a sinister smile. "Run."
Duo swallowed nervously as he ran away. He knew that tone of voice all too well. It meant, Do what I say or I'll hurt you a lot more then I was planning to.
Sure he had become immune to Heero's body language and words but not his actual actions. Heero was just too strong. Heero caught up with Duo quickly as if he had been walking and promptly heaved him into the ocean. When Duo came up gasping for air he stated calmly,
"I hate surprises, don't you ever forget that."
Duo stared at him for a while before replying "Geez crabby pants all right"
Heero acknowledged his understanding with a grunt and started walking away towards the mansion. Duo staggered out of the water rinsing off his braid and clothes as thoroughly as he could before following. He ran to catch up with Heero's quick steps.
"So Heero ol buddy what were you doing out there anyway?"
Heero stared at him as if he were the stupidest man on both the earth and the colonies but with a sigh he replied,
"I think it was pretty obvious, I was thinking before but right now I was trying to take a nap until somebody interrupted me." Heero shot another glare at Duo to emphasize his point and Duo smiled nervously.
"What were you doing out here Duo?"
"I...uh ...was coming back from visiting Hildey and I saw you on the beach and..... well, you know what happened then."
Heero smiled inwardly at Duo's blushing. He didn't understand why Duo was so shy when it came to Hildey. It was obvious to all of them and he personally thought they made a cute couple. Duo, however, didn't like feeling embarrassed and felt the urge to counterattack but he wasn't sure with what. Then the thought hit him.
"What were you thinking about Heero? Your love Relena?"
It was Heero's turn to blush and even though he didn't want to, his cheeks denied him his secrecy and turned a light shade of red. He did his best to answer calmly, "No, I have no interest in her I was thinking about the war. How peace is so nice, how things have turned out, how I wish that I--…never mind"
Duo stared dumbfounded at how his friend had so uncharacteristically shown a hint of emotions. He felt happy for him and at the same time was unsure of what to say. Heero had taken a pained expression on his face and it hurt him to see him that way.
No one needs to suffer anymore its all over He thought. "I-I understand Heero," he said finally finding his voice. "If you ever want to talk about it you know I'm here."
Heero turned to face him his eyes once again cold and lifeless. He once again covered himself in his protective wall of an impassive face that sheltered and tortured him.
"I'm fine, but thank you." He walked away his pace quicker while his mind yelled at him, Why don't you tell him? Why don't you let him know what's bothering you? You trust him he's your friend. Show your emotions damnit! He won't hurt you.
Duo stayed back watching him for a while. He was surprised at the way Heero could have been open as a book for anyone to read and as closed as a safe with no combination.
"Don't worry buddy we well all break our masks together and we will heal together. Although I do wish I knew what cruelty was done to you to make you this way."
Disclaimer: "Le sigh" I do not own any of the Gundam Wing characters. I only own the character Amanda Chambers. I have written this story only because of my love for them and an over active imagination. This is not a true continuation of the episodes and the information given is made up and based on other fan fictions I have read.
Part 1
It was a warm bright sunny day as a dark haired boy laid out on the beach. "It's over," he thought "The war is finally over."
He forced his tense body to relax and began to think about everything that had happened. The war had ended unexpectedly. He had been able to stop the giant piece of Libra from crashing onto the earth and had managed to survive. Although at the time he had not cared if he lived or not because as he had told Relena to him his life was cheap.
When he returned to the others they tended to Quatre's injury and had gone their separate ways. He had felt the need to see Relena again and did so. He left her a card and teddy bear on her birthday. The card had read "I love you." Being a strong confident girl she clearly told him that she was not satisfied with just a card, ripped it up and asked him to tell it to her face. He was unable to and simply walked away. It was not that he didn't mean it, oh no. It was just that it had taken everything in him to even write it. He wasn't used to showing emotions anymore it had been stolen from him along with any other part of his humanity when he was a child during his "Perfect Soldier" training.
His heart ached at the memories and he forced himself to relax once again. It was another effect of the training. It took a lot of concentration to relax his body even when he was alone or around people he trusted. Relena was the first one to brake through his barrier. She was the only one who was able to remind him that he had feelings and he felt love for her because she wakened up his humanity once again. Indeed he was sure he had it now but he still didn't know how to deal with it or show that he had it. He wanted to show his true self that he wasn't just a soldier anymore. Of course he loved her for being herself she was a strong confidant, mature, loving and an overall extraordinary girl.
She had been considered Queen of the World at her young age of fifteen and was now the Vice Foreign Minister. He wanted to keep protecting her in the least, until he was able to tell her to her face that he loved her. With that in mind he was in a sense glad that he had survived. He was also glad that the others had survived.
"Great," he thought bitterly disgusted with him self, "I can admit all my emotions to myself but not to others."
He was worried that he would never be able to overcome his training and become a normal person. He wanted to be able to live without his body tensing at every moment and be able to show emotions. He wanted his humanity back. He was worried that it would never happen because everyone else seemed to already be breaking their masks. Little by little but at least they were doing it.
He knew this because Quatre, the most caring of all of them, wanted them all to live together. After two months of not seeing each other he had insisted on all of them living in one of his many estates on the earth.
"We've been through so much together that it just wouldn't be right to lose track of each other," he had claimed.
He had won them all over as it was very hard to say no to his loving and caring friendship and they had been living in this mansion by the beach for the last week.
He had noticed that all of them had changed. They were all more open with their emotions and trusted everyone more. It was normal for Quatre, but even Wufei who had been the most untrusting and unwilling to be with them had changed. He now acknowledged that they were his friends and was more open as well. Even though none of them had shared their pasts it was still an improvement and they would all heal together.
His mind whirled with all his thoughts and the sun's warm rays began to take their toll on his tired eyes and he dozed off under the warmth. Since he truly was asleep his conscious was unaware that there was a figure lurking around hiding under the catwalk but his body did become tense once again. The figure crept closer and closer until finally…
"Damnit what the hell?"
The boy couldn't help but yell out after being rudely awakened from his slumber when something hard landed on him. His already tense body reacted in an instant and threw off whatever had landed on him. He stood up quickly forcing his eyes to adjust to the brightness of the sun and search for what had landed on him when he stared into laughing violate eyes.
"My what foul language Heero! What's the matter don't like being surprised?"
I actually surprised you? That's weird.
"Duo…" Heero growled shooting him his famous death glare through cold cobalt blue seemingly uncaring eyes.
Duo was totally unaffected. He had become immune to Heero's body language because they were best friends out of all the ex-gundam pilots. This was thanks to Duo. When they had gone their separate ways Duo had taken part in making sure that no one strayed to far away from the rest of the others. So when Heero would seem like he would do a disappearing act he would call him every day and visit at least once a week. Heero had acted cold towards him but he also noticed a change in him. He talked more and seemed to listen more. He also seemed more caring. The truth was that Heero had enjoyed his company. He was tired of being alone all the time. They understood each other completely even though they only knew what the other wanted them to know.
Duo kept laughing even though Heero was turning an interesting shade of red truly angered that he was awoken from a much-wanted nap. Duo finally controlled himself.
"Yes, Heero you were saying?"
Heero gave him a sinister smile. "Run."
Duo swallowed nervously as he ran away. He knew that tone of voice all too well. It meant, Do what I say or I'll hurt you a lot more then I was planning to.
Sure he had become immune to Heero's body language and words but not his actual actions. Heero was just too strong. Heero caught up with Duo quickly as if he had been walking and promptly heaved him into the ocean. When Duo came up gasping for air he stated calmly,
"I hate surprises, don't you ever forget that."
Duo stared at him for a while before replying "Geez crabby pants all right"
Heero acknowledged his understanding with a grunt and started walking away towards the mansion. Duo staggered out of the water rinsing off his braid and clothes as thoroughly as he could before following. He ran to catch up with Heero's quick steps.
"So Heero ol buddy what were you doing out there anyway?"
Heero stared at him as if he were the stupidest man on both the earth and the colonies but with a sigh he replied,
"I think it was pretty obvious, I was thinking before but right now I was trying to take a nap until somebody interrupted me." Heero shot another glare at Duo to emphasize his point and Duo smiled nervously.
"What were you doing out here Duo?"
"I...uh ...was coming back from visiting Hildey and I saw you on the beach and..... well, you know what happened then."
Heero smiled inwardly at Duo's blushing. He didn't understand why Duo was so shy when it came to Hildey. It was obvious to all of them and he personally thought they made a cute couple. Duo, however, didn't like feeling embarrassed and felt the urge to counterattack but he wasn't sure with what. Then the thought hit him.
"What were you thinking about Heero? Your love Relena?"
It was Heero's turn to blush and even though he didn't want to, his cheeks denied him his secrecy and turned a light shade of red. He did his best to answer calmly, "No, I have no interest in her I was thinking about the war. How peace is so nice, how things have turned out, how I wish that I--…never mind"
Duo stared dumbfounded at how his friend had so uncharacteristically shown a hint of emotions. He felt happy for him and at the same time was unsure of what to say. Heero had taken a pained expression on his face and it hurt him to see him that way.
No one needs to suffer anymore its all over He thought. "I-I understand Heero," he said finally finding his voice. "If you ever want to talk about it you know I'm here."
Heero turned to face him his eyes once again cold and lifeless. He once again covered himself in his protective wall of an impassive face that sheltered and tortured him.
"I'm fine, but thank you." He walked away his pace quicker while his mind yelled at him, Why don't you tell him? Why don't you let him know what's bothering you? You trust him he's your friend. Show your emotions damnit! He won't hurt you.
Duo stayed back watching him for a while. He was surprised at the way Heero could have been open as a book for anyone to read and as closed as a safe with no combination.
"Don't worry buddy we well all break our masks together and we will heal together. Although I do wish I knew what cruelty was done to you to make you this way."