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Wow it's been a long long time since this fic, huh? I just never really had any ideas for this, but now I have the conclusion finished!! Anyway, thanks for all of the encouraging reviews in the first chapter! It was everyone there who inspired me!!


Taichi's Dream World
Cut Me in Half
by: Sapphire Goddess


Tai spotted Matt and held back a scream as he ran over to his crumpled up body. Matt! Matt! he yelled, sliding down beside him.

The rain plastered Matt's hair to his face. God only knows how long he had been laying there for. Tai pulled Matt on top of himself, hugging him closely to his chest and wiping the blonde hair away from his face. Tai buried his face into his shoulder, crying his name over and over again, wishing he would wake up.

Now Tai was in a new world. A world of loneliness.

**~**

The clock ticked away steadily. More seconds of his life gone with each tick. Tick. Tick. Tick. The noise began to get to him, so he pulled the covers over his head. He didn't want there to be any noise, any light, no people - he wanted to be completely alone.

It wasn't really his choice. It was his fault, yes, but he didn't have a choice anymore. His precious Matt was gone. He was never coming back.

They buried him last week. Tai couldn't really remember the funeral. He didn't really want to. TK looked upon him with such a disgusted face, as if them being gay was really the fault of his death.

However, in a way it was.

The stupid spell faltered. If only it worked. Matt wasn't supposed to come though. He wasn't supposed to touch Tai's shoulder and get him sent back too. That wasn't the plan! Tai was still supposed to be in that fucked up world and Matt was supposed to be here on earth.

Then again, no matter what they would still have been alone. No matter what, Tai was never going to see his precious Matt again either way.

But still, if the spell had worked, he would have known that Matt would be safe. Knowing that Matt would be safe and happy was all that mattered.

Oh what was he saying? Like Matt would be happy. They were soul mates, and all because of himself, he and Matt got transported into that stupid, perfect world.

But then, could he place Matt's death on TK and Kari? They were the ones who rejected them being together. It was them who caused Tai to wish that they were in another alone alone together.

Who am I kidding? he asked himself, pulling the covers off his head. It's my fault. Matt's dead because of me.

He began to cry again until he felt a hand rub his back. He lifted his head; no face expression showed on his face at who he saw.

Don't look at me that way. You know I don't like you at the moment, but you're still a Digidestined and his boyfriend.

Tai sniffed and sat up. I know that.

TK shrugged and sat on the be next to him. I heard you admit that it was your fault. So want to explain what really happened?

TK didn't believe Tai's story about the Dream World. Tai didn't really blame him, considering it seemed a bit farfetched.

I'm not lying about the Dream World, TK. It really happened! Ask Matt he... Tai choked up when he realized that Matt was never going to be asked another question again. No one would ever hear that amazing voice again. Never ever...

TK slapped his cheek, but not hard. Don't faint on me now! I just want to understand what happened to my brother! That's all!

I told you the story already. When you guys rejected us, I wished that we were somewhere else alone together and suddenly we were there. But then slowly we forgot about who we were. Until one day, when we both saw you and Kari in dreams crying over us. That's when we began to remember who we were. I learned of a spell that would bring us back, but we couldn't go back together. Matt wasn't supposed to touch me during the spell, or it would send me back to... and the result of that was his... his...



Tai nodded, looking up to see TK's face expression. He had already told TK this story, but this time he told it in greater detail.

I... you saw me and Kari crying in a dream?

Tai nodded. Matt turned back to his old self first, and then he helped me through it too.

TK bit his lip. I just find this so hard to believe...

I know it's hard! But you have to believe me! I never wanted to hurt Matt! Ever! I loved - love - him

TK was deep in thought for a moment before he snarled and stood up. You are such a liar, Taichi Yagami! I hate you! You killed my brother! Stay the hell away from me, Kari and the other Digidestined! You are not one of us!

As soon as TK bolted from the room, Tai began to sob again.

You are not one of us. TK's words echoed through his mind, and he had the feeling they would always echo through his mind.

**~**

He was alone again. Now it's been two weeks since Matt's funeral. Tai hasn't left his apartment. Well, it wasn't even his. An old high school friend happened to find him in the park that night with Matt and offered to give him the place while he went on holidays for a month.

Tai only ate once a day, but when the food in the house began to run low, he didn't really care. Maybe if he stopped eating, he would die and Matt would be his again...

He slapped his forehead. What if Matt came back to life? He couldn't be dead and Matt alive.

He slapped his forehead once again. Matt was never going to be alive.

What decisions to make. If only there were two of him to help him decide.

**~**

It's been three weeks. His friend would be home in a week. His friend expected him to be out in his own apartment in a week.

Dragging himself out of bed, he went into the kitchen. His stomach growled for not eating in two days. He felt a little weak and if he was going to search for an apartment, he needed to eat something.

He opened his fridge, not really expecting anything o be in there, but for some reason there was a tomato. Just one tomato. His eyebrow raised but he took it out anyway. TK must have left it for him when he came by yesterday (he supposedly forgot an important key the day he had come earlier).

He took it out and placed it on the counter. Then he grabbed a knife. He sliced one thin slice. Cutting the tomato reminded him of Matt. Matt had always been a good cook. He would have been much better at cutting this. Matt was perfect at doing things like that. Matt was perfect in every way.

He was just about cutting the middle of the tomato when the phone rang, causing the knife to slip and draw a big cut along his palm, just above his wrist. He didn't do anything about it. Just stared at it. Watched the blood flow along his palm, making his hand red. So red... Matt wasn't bloody when he died. No blood came from Matt. Maybe Tai would die the opposite...

The phone finally stopped ringing and the caller began leaving a message.

Yuuta! I know your on holidays, but call me back later. I'd love for us to get together. It's me, Liz. You know you want me. Let's hook up later. You also better have gotten me the perfect present! Call me back.

At the word perfect, an image of Matt came into his head. The image stayed for a moment, but something replaced it.

Matt's voice was calling him. He was whispering Tai's name over and over again. The blood still poured from his hand and the brunette fell to the floor, beginning to sob at the sound of Matt's voice.

It was nice though, to hear his voice. It was lulling Tai to sleep... from all the loneliness, heartache and feelings of failure. Maybe he was dying. Tai wasn't sure. He didn't care. He continued to listen to Matt's voice, but after a few minutes of the whispering, it seemed to get louder. Matt was now screaming his name! Or maybe it was just the echo, but nevertheless, Tai was trying to shake the voice out of his head.

He wished it away, over and over again. The voice pounded into his mind. Over and over again.

His eyes shot open, but instead of seeing his friend's apartment, he was peering into crystal blue eyes.

Am I dead?

Matt laughed softly, brushing hair out of Tai's eyes. No silly. Did sex really wear you out that much?

Tai's brows frowned in confusion. What was Matt talking about? Them just having sex? Huh? He was dead... dead...

He sat up, the covers falling onto his lap. He and Matt were both naked in the bed. Matt also sat up.

Is something wrong? I know yesterday was a bit... hard, but we should just forget about TK and Kari. We should just matter and our happiness. Hey come on, you told me this all night and after... we had sex I just thought I'd say it since you seem to be a bit upset by it now.

Tai remembered telling Matt that the night they had sex, just before they were transported to the Dream World.

Was that all a dream? Was it a dream he had about being in the Dream World and Matt dying? But it felt so real, so vivid... Surely it couldn't have been all a dream. Matt didn't seem to remember because he was stroking Tai's cheek.

Maybe none of it had really happened. It was just an awful, horrible dream. A horrible dream that seemed to be three years of his life.

Say something, would you? You're normally the talkative one.

Tai smiled and closed the gap between his and Matt's lips. Nothing felt better than having Matt's lips against his own. When he pulled away, both were smiling.

I'm so glad you're alive.

Matt laughed. Well I'm glad I'm alive too. I don't know why I would be dead, but hey, whatever floats your boat.

Tai smiled and kissed him again. So, Matt didn't remember any of it. It had to have been a dream. But then again, he did say one last wish, for the voice in his head to go away... Maybe he got one more wish? Even if it had been real, Tai wasn't about to tell Matt any of it. After all, they had their lives to live together. There was no need to drag the past in.

THE END