Helga Dream
Part 4
Arnold and I got along very well except that one certain thing. I always made the excuse that I wasn't ready but it was true. I wasn't really Helga so I couldn't. The first day of the honeymoon was great except for that same one thing that made us argue. Children. It started at the waterfall. "Come on Helga!" "NO! You don't understand! I'm not ready." "Why aren't you ready to have children?" Uh oh. Now what? "Say we have to get checked for illnesses." Thanks. "We have to get checked for STDs. We don't want the innocent child getting AIDS." "OK. I know a clinic and a hospital near here. We can get checked after we finish swimming." Great. Now I have no excuses. "Like I said, have faith!" That's easy for you to say! You have your own house with fancy clothes going to medical school, at church you're a pastor and you get money by working with MY older brother by making PCs! "How did you know?" You're ME. Remember? "Right." I jumped into the pool.
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An hour later we were at the clinic. We already took the test and I knew that we were OK somehow. "Mother's instinct, you know it." DON'T SAY THAT! "SORRY!" I'm so sorry. I'm just not ready do be a mom. I'm really a kid. "Come on! You're great with kids. Remember the children's stories?" How did you know? "Everyone reminds me about it." Oh. The doctor came and said "Nothing there. You can go now." Oh Lord, help me. I might become a mother! I can't do that! I even dreamed I was pregnant and it scared me to death. "Oh. That's why. Are you scared because the pain and some people die during it?" Yes. "Don't worry. The body is mature. It can handle it. I promise you'll be ok." I started to cry right there in the clinic. Arnold heard me and took me home. When we got there, I told him why I wasn't ready. He talked to me but I was still worried. I told him I'll go to sleep and calm down. I went to the bedroom, prayed and went to sleep.
Part 4
Arnold and I got along very well except that one certain thing. I always made the excuse that I wasn't ready but it was true. I wasn't really Helga so I couldn't. The first day of the honeymoon was great except for that same one thing that made us argue. Children. It started at the waterfall. "Come on Helga!" "NO! You don't understand! I'm not ready." "Why aren't you ready to have children?" Uh oh. Now what? "Say we have to get checked for illnesses." Thanks. "We have to get checked for STDs. We don't want the innocent child getting AIDS." "OK. I know a clinic and a hospital near here. We can get checked after we finish swimming." Great. Now I have no excuses. "Like I said, have faith!" That's easy for you to say! You have your own house with fancy clothes going to medical school, at church you're a pastor and you get money by working with MY older brother by making PCs! "How did you know?" You're ME. Remember? "Right." I jumped into the pool.
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An hour later we were at the clinic. We already took the test and I knew that we were OK somehow. "Mother's instinct, you know it." DON'T SAY THAT! "SORRY!" I'm so sorry. I'm just not ready do be a mom. I'm really a kid. "Come on! You're great with kids. Remember the children's stories?" How did you know? "Everyone reminds me about it." Oh. The doctor came and said "Nothing there. You can go now." Oh Lord, help me. I might become a mother! I can't do that! I even dreamed I was pregnant and it scared me to death. "Oh. That's why. Are you scared because the pain and some people die during it?" Yes. "Don't worry. The body is mature. It can handle it. I promise you'll be ok." I started to cry right there in the clinic. Arnold heard me and took me home. When we got there, I told him why I wasn't ready. He talked to me but I was still worried. I told him I'll go to sleep and calm down. I went to the bedroom, prayed and went to sleep.