He didn't think much about it until he saw Jeff give me a kiss. I had no idea that Dwayne was there until I heard his vioce. I opened my eyes and almost jumped out of my seat.
"I was going to talk to you about what happened before but I see that this whole situation between you and Austin was just an excuse to start something with skittle head over here."
"That isn't true," Jeff said defensively.
"Oh yeah and this I am supposed to believe coming from a man who probabbly killed niney percent of his brain cells dying his hair three hundered colors a week."
"Dwayne lay off," I said. "That's not the way things happened at all."
"So are you telling me that I imagined that you were kissing Jeff and that the two of you are together?"
"I am saying that whatever Jeff and I have here is something that happened only after I told you that we called it quits."
"So you and he have something going on?"
"In a way yes." Jeff said.
"That's all that I needed to know." he gave me a look and walked away.
I put my head down.
"That didn't go very well."
"Ya think?" I said sarcastically. "Man, see I wanted to talk to him before he found out from someone else that we were this type of couple. "
"I know that you did and I am sorry that things happened that way."
"I know that you are. I should go find him, I still want to just be friends while I figure all of this out."
"You should, I'll give you a ride to the hotel," Jeff said hugging me.
"Thank you so much Jeff."
"So I'll meet you at the gate."
"I'll see you then." I smiled and walked away to find Dwayne.
He sat in his seat with an angry and hurt look. And I could understand why, I knew how it felt to be betrayed by someone you love, I just couldn't believe that I was the one to be the betrayer.
"I need to explain." I said sitting down in the seat next to him.
"There is absolutly nothing left to explain. You are a free women and can do what you want. I just thought that you would wait more then twenty four hours to move on to the next person. That is if he wasn't with you before." Dwayne said coldly. He would not even turn his head to look at me.
"Listen Dwayne, I know tha tyou are hurt, and I am too."
"How is that possible? Did you just have to go threw the humiliation that I just had to go threw?"
"I went threw that humiliation on national television so don't tell me I don't know what you are feeling. And I was also the one who had to walk away from what we had. God Dwayne I thought that we would be together forever."
"So why aren't we?"
"You don't think that I want an answer to that question? I need my space to figure things out. And I need to fix things with Steve."
"Oh so your plan is to start a relationship with skittles and that will fix everything?"
"I did not start a relationship with Jeff," I said sighing.
"So what exactly did you start?"
"I don't know what we started, all I know is that I do feel for him, I always have."
"And what about me?"
"I have been trying to tell you that you were special, always were and always will be. Jeff told me that he loved me, that he always had."
"So what happened for the last six months?"
"He didn't think that he could make me as happy as you could, plus he knew that I was happy with you and he didn't want to ruin it."
"What a lovely story."
"I made an effort to try to talk to you,and I thought that you would be a little bit more adult about things. I can see that I was wrong."
"You were wrong about a lot of things."
"I see that now. But just for your information, not like I should be telling you, but Jeff is willing and able to give me time to work up to a real relationship. I still love you, but, I think that since I have the chance, I should sperad my wings and try other options." I stood up and looked at his face. "I will never forget what we had, and I hope that one day we can return to the way we were, in the future." I leaned over and gave him a kiss on the cheek. I started to tear. "Goodbye Rocky."
Although he had been acting very cruel and unfeeling I felt him shudder at the touch of my lips.
There was still a longing for his touch, but for the time being I knew that it was never going to work out the way I hoped. Dwayne had taken everything the wrong way and now whatever shred of hope there was for a good break it was gone. I had feeling that war was about to start between me and him. He was cold and cruel when I went to talk to him.
When I sat back down in the seat next to Jeff he sat silent and calm. As was his usual way. His head lifted from his notebook. He wouldn't force me to talk if I didn't want to. Part of me wished that he would. I knew that I would have a hard time talking to him about this unless I was given a little push. I was dying to tell him that what had happened but I didn't know how to bring it up. When we finally got to the hotel I realized that I really didn't know where I was going to stay.
"I'll get your key." Jeff said to me driving up to the hotel.
"You-you got me my own room?"
"Yeah well I figured that you would need a little time alone, I know you wouldn't feel comfortable with me so I called the hotel and got you your own room."
"Jeff, you know that it's not that I am uncomfortable, I just need to get use to the whole idea."
"Whatever you want to say. I just figured that it would be best to get your own room."
"Thank you, for everything."
"I didn't do anything spectacular, just got a room."
"But you don't know how much that means to me." I gave him a kiss. "You are the best." I said to him.
"Well I'll do anything for a kiss like that." he smiled. "I'll be back." he went to the front desk and came back a few minutes later. "Here you go. It's two rooms down from mine so if you need me, just knock."
It was late and I was tired. All I wanted to do at that point was sleep. I had a few hours before I had to get up to do interviews and photo shoots and then finally the taping of Samckdown. There was never a free moment to myself at this point. I know that the fans thought that it was all another interesting plot for the show but it wasn't. This was the first real big thing that happened to me that was in and out of the ring. Every other grudge, besides the one with Lita, was left inside the ring with my character. I would have the fans sympathy to a shallow character level, but that was all.
I walked into the room and closed the door. For once in a few months I could close the door and not expect to hear it open. It was a relieving and sad feeling. I was free in a way, for the first time in six months. I was left alone, by myself and able to think with no disruptions.
The only thing that was prodominantly on my mind was fixing things with Steve. I laid on the bed, wanting so desperatly to be my own. And I fell asleep thinking of a way to get things back to the way they were with Steve.