As soon as I had waken up I felt very nauseous. I ran to the bathroom and stayed there for a few minutes.
I heard a soft knock on the door. I pulled myself away from the toilet and opened the door.
"Are you O.K.?" Jeff stood at the door.
"Yes, I am perfectly fine," I hugged him and went to sit down on the bed.
"Did you have a good sleep?" Jeff asked.
"Yes, but it was still a little weird because it was the first night that I had spent alone in a while."
"I told you to knock and I would be there."
"Jeff, you are always there and I have a feeling that you always will be."
"Really? I like the sound of that," he went to lean in and get a kiss and I pulled away.
"Is there something wrong?" he asked me.
"It's just that I threw-up before and I don't know if I'm getting sick, plus my mouth probably tastes pretty bad."
"Enough said," he smiled and laughed. "We're all going out to eat in about a half hour."
"O.K. let me take a quick shower." I went into the bathroom and brushed my mouth out really well before going into the shower.
"Are you finally gonna get in the shower?" Jeff asked me.
"I'm going, I'm going" the door opened and he walked in.
"Oh man not even undressed yet, what is this?"
"Hey, hey, hey."
"Oh please, do you know how many times we have been in the same bathroom while the other takes a shower?"
"Yes, I know a whole lot of times," I smiled at him. "But this time is a little bit different."
"There were so many times that I just wanted to jump in there with you. But I didn't dare, not without your permission, and because of the fact that you were with Dwayne for the last half of a year."
"You're always welcome to come in now." I smiled slyly and took of my shirt.
He gave a laugh as I finished undressing and went in the shower.
It felt good to know that I was with someone else, but also very strange. I was always one to do things on my own and needed my own space. Maybe Rocky and I taking this little break was for the best. I had to figure out by myself where my own heart lied and with which man.
It didn't take Jeff long to jump in with me, and what I "needed time to work up to" had started happening.
Anyone can say and think what they like. You can never fully understand a certain situation and position until you are in it. I cannot try and explain what I felt towards Jeff at that moment in time.
I finished getting ready a little while later then planned. When we finally got down to the lobby the guys were looking at us.
"What?" I asked.
"Well we had time to go get our dinner and then come back," Matt said.
"Yes, that omelet was quit good, would you like the left overs?" Adam asked. He held up the bag and everyone started to laugh.
I bit my lip and just stayed by Jeff, who was blushing.
We did what we had to do that day and went to Smackdown! On the ride there I had the best idea.
"Paul"I yelled excitedly once I saw him at the arena.
"I know that I am so lovable but you don't have to be that excited to see me!"
"Yes I do. I have the best idea."
"O.K. shoot," he said.
"Well, you know how you and Austin are the two man power trip?"
"Yes."
"And you know how you have been complaining that you are sincerely sick of being hated by the crowd and always doing what Vince told you?"
"Yes."
"Well I just had a nice idea." I smiled at him. "How would you like to expand that?"
"What do you mean?"
"Well, I don't mean like having this entire group thing, but I mean like an alliance, actually having some friends."
"That sounds pretty cool, but how are you going to pull it off?"
"Well I am going to need Steph's help and it may mean getting on Vince's bad side for a while."
"Hey I am game, anything that you want to do I am right there for you."
"Well what I figure is that I have some sort of tying factor between, you, me, Matt, Jeff, Jay, Adam, Steve, I would say Rocky, but I guess that would not work." I got quiet.
"Hey listen I know what happened between the two of you and I want you to know that everything is going to work out. I just know that it is. Even if you aren't going to be with Rocky you are still gonna be friends with him, you have to be."
"That's what I want above all else."
"If you need to talk, my door is always open."
"Thanks Paul." I said. "Now I have to go and get ready for my match."
"Who are you facing?"
"I have no idea, all I know is that it is meant to be a surprise."
"Well, good luck." Paul said winking. "Who knows if you are going to need it."
"You don't mind me using Stephanie do you?"
"No, as long as it is perfectly fine with her."
"Thank you so much, this is going to rock."
I had grown up with wrestling in my life. Vince and his family would come down to Texas in the summer, that is until the day that I decided to move in with them in their house in the New England area. Steve had always been a rebel and done his own thing, and by that time he had worked his way into a local wrestling school.
Our family wasn't always the best and, I was starting to feel very uncomfortable around them. I had always felt out of place, but by the time I was almost a teenager I felt like I should have never been in that family to begin with.
I ran out of his dressing room and into Vince.
"Kay, just the person that I was looking for."
"Hi Vince what's up?" I asked a little concerned.
"I just wanted to inform you on your match tonight. You were supposed to have the night off, but I need a really good match before the main even tonight."
"So you decide to make it me?"
"It's nothing strenuous, just a simple match to defend your honor as a Team Xtreme member."
"If it's against Amy then-"
"No, no, nothing like that. Amy, Lita has the night off," the cameras came by us, the show had just started and they wanted to know if there was anymore action between Amy and I tonight.
"Well then against who?"
"Chyna, is back,"
"Yeah I know that already," I said interrupting him.
"Well, you'll face her tonight in the ring."
"What?"
"I've scheduled a match against Chyna for you."
"Vince are you insane?"
He gave me a strange look and laughed a little. "If I'm not mistaken, I am not the one who decided to jump the man who has been like a father and also the boss."
"Listen about that, I have been meaning to talk to you about that."
"Well we'll talk later, now is not the time or place."
"Is this some sort of punishment?" I asked. I stayed quiet and then realized why he set it up.
"No, it's not punishment. Just go out there and entertain these people."
I smiled as he walked away. I know that the audience and the announcers were wondering whether or not there was a relationship between us. He set the match up so I could prove myself to the world, show them that even if I didn't win, that I could stand up to the most powerful and influential woman in the WWF.
I suddenly got very excited and ran all the way down to Matt and Jeff's dressing room.
I flung open the door and ran in about ready to scream.
"Why are you so happy? I know you like your job, but this is a little ridiculous." Matt said watching me bounce around the room.
"I have a great idea and I don't know why I didn't think of it sooner."
"Well let's here this genius idea of yours?" Jeff asked.
"First the good news about tonight." I said to him trying to calm myself down. "Vince set up a match against Chyna for me!"
"Are you sure that you are ready for that?" Matt asked me.
"I have been waiting for this my entire career, and I can't believe that this day is actually here."
"Then I say go for it baby," Jeff said smiling.
"You would say that wouldn't you. Come on Jeff, you aren't the least bit worried?" Matt said to him. "This is Chyna we're talking about."
"Hey I know that my girl can handle this."
I smiled at his comment. The thought of being his girl was new, fresh, exciting, and unbelievable when I had first started in the WWF the first person I had my eye on was Jeff, and now here I am, in a way dating him.
For a short period in time I forgot about Steve until we sat down and started watching the show.
The camera cut to Steve and Dwayne, my stomach sunk when I saw the two. I know that whatever they were going to say, was for real and not just for the camera.
"Oh man, what is going on?" I said as soon as I saw them.
"It'll be fine, you don't know what's going on yet." Jeff said to me rubbing my leg.
Dwayne was in Steve's face. "Thanks to you the best thing that walked into my life walked out!" Rocky yelled.
"I don't know what you are talking about."
"Don't give me that you jabroni. I'm talking about Kayla, your sister. Because of you and your trailer park trash views she left me."
"Well that was probably the smartest move that she has made in her entire life."
Dwayne was getting way to emotional and upset to stay in front of the cameras.
"Get out of here," Dwayne looked at the camera men. "I mean get out of here before I jump you instead of this jabroni."
"Listen Rocky, I know that you're mad, but whatever Kay does, well, it's for the best."
I sat in the jumping room silent, almost rocking in my seat.
"Hey, why don't you go and talk to them both." Jeff said to me. I looked at him. "I know, you need to talk to him and Steve. Just go get things straightened out. I hope that you'll come back, but if you don't then, I'll understand."
"Thank you so much. I promise I'll be back."
"I hope that you can stick to that." Jeff said softly. I smiled meekly and left.
"You know that you may have just let her go for good." Matt said to Jeff.
"Then at least I won't spend the rest of my years wondering what if she never went."
"You are a brave man Jeff Hardy."
I ran all over the halls backstage, not caring about the cameras or the show, trying to find Steve and Dwayne. When that didn't work I went to the ring.
"I know that time is precious here in the WWF so I'll make this short. As all of you know, I have split from Rocky. But I think that my personal life should be kept out of this ring. I just want to say one thing. Yes, I have left Rocky, and yes part of the reason was for you Steve. For all of this I am utterly sorry. Rocky I never meant to hurt you. But here in this ring is not the place to talk. I want the both of you, if you're men, to meet me after the show to talk this all out." I walked out the ring before anyone could come in and say something.
I went back to Jeff's dressing room.
"I told you that I would be back." I said sitting down next to him.
"You always keep your promises." He smiled. "Well I have to go out for my match. Are you ready to make your debut as part of Team Xtreme?" Jeff asked me.
"I am more then ready. I was born to do this." I said to him.
"Let's get out there." Matt said.
Being out there with the two of them was the most natural and electrifying experience that I have had in a long time. I only hoped that Lita was watching and realized that her part in Team Xtreme was long over.
It was the light heavyweight championship for Jeff. I know that it isn't the most important belt out there, but it's a belt and I knew that he could win it. It was a first to sit out there and root for Jeff, as my boyfriend, or whatever we were together.
All the years that we had spent together, this was the first time that we walked out together arm in arm.
"Come on man, you can do this, go get that belt." Those were the few words of encouragement that Matt gave Jeff. Matt patted Jeff's back and walked out of the ring.
"You're my good luck, you know that right?" Jeff asked me as his opponent walked down the platform.
"You never needed luck." I hugged him. "You are the greatest in the ring, remember that."
"Coming from you I always will. Do you mind if I get a little kiss, I might need the luck."
"You don't need the luck but you can always have the kiss." I leaned over and gave him a quick kiss on the lips.
"Well Tazz it looks like Kayla is getting a little friendly with Jeff. Could he possibly be a reason why her and The Rock have parted ways?" Michael Cole said.
"I don't know what is going on Coleslaw but if Jeff is with Kayla then all I can say is that he is one lucky man."
"So true Tazz so true."
"Are you checking someone out?" Tazz said playfully. "Naughty Coleslaw."
I walked out of the ring and watched Jeff's match. His opponent Jerry Lynn was no hard match for him. I did the usual cheerleading, banging on the apron whenever he was down. And after a few minutes Jeff pulled out the win. Matt and I ran into the ring. After a hug from Matt Jeff turned to me spun me around, and kissed me. It was probably on the second or third time that he had ever kissed me like that in all the years that I have known him. And one of those few times was that same night while in the shower. I was a little surprised by the fact that he actually kissed me. Ever since the day that he told me that he was in love with me he was timid about showing his feelings.
I looked at him when he put me down and smiled. I laughed a little, grabbed him and kissed him again. Why I was feeling what I was feeling towards him I didn't know, but for once on my life I was confused, lost, but not scared. Sometimes in life you have to get lost to become found again, it's just the funny ways of life. I did not even think that maybe Rocky or Steve would be upset about that. However they were. Before we could even walk out of the ring both of them came out managed to jump Matt and attack Jeff.
"What are you doing?" I screamed at the both of them. I pulled Dwayne off of Jeff.
"I should be asking you the same question!" he said back.
"Have you forgotten that we are over?"
"I still love you, I want you back."
"Yeah well this," I knelt by Jeff. "This is not the way to do it."
Steve came into the ring after he was done beating on Matt. "Come-on we're getting out of here Kay."
"Steve I'm not going anywhere." I looked down at Jeff. "hey sweetie you all right?" I was worried because Jeff was expecting anything and Rocky ht him pretty hard. I thought that he could have been injured.
Dwayne made a move for me and Jeff but Steve stopped him.
"What do you mean you're not going anywhere? Do you know who you are kneeling next to?"
"I know perfectly well, and who are you to be telling me what to do, both of you? Who do you really think you are? Steve you told me that you no longer had a sister, so from that perspective, I have no brother, get out of here. And as for you Rocky, I told you that I needed, and wanted a break. Now both of you get out of here."
Jeff got to his feet and stared at both of them.
"This isn't over." Steve said.
"In the ring it is." I said back to him.
"Kayla don't do this, please tell me that we have a second chance." Rocky said to me as Steve walked up the platform.
I grabbed a mic before saying anything.
"I am going to say this loud and clear so that you can understand this time. When I went to talk to you acted so mean and cold, I figured from that we were over, through. Now, now you think that you can run into the ring, beat up my boyfriend, or whatever you want to call him and just get me back?" I moved closer to him. I took his hand and he almost started to tear. "This is not the way to do things. I told you before that I wanted to talk after the show, and that still stands."
Dwayne nodded and left the ring. I waited until he left and walked backstage with Matt and Jeff. Jeff waited until we got into the locker room to show his anger of what happened.
"I just want to thank you for keeping it cool out there it meant a lot to me," I said to him.
"I can't believe that they had the nerve to do that," Jeff slammed his newly claimed belt on the bench. "I never did anything to either of them to go out there and attack me like that."
"Man they attacked me too," Matt said to him. "I never did anything to them. I mean you, well you are with Kay and that is enough of a reason for both of them to hate you. Don't even worry about it. Kay's handling it."
"I'm trying but I don't know how much more I can handle," I sat down on the bench and put my head in my hands.
Jeff sat next to me. "Listen beautiful I am always bhind you a hundred percent with whatever you have to do. I know how much you have to handle. This must be extremely hard on you."
"I don't think that you have any idea," I started to tear. Matt through the camera men out of the room. He sat on the other side of me.
"Jeff would have an idea, he went through a lot with me when we first started dating. Remember I told you that I was going to do anything that I had to to make you come up to the WWF and be in our newly founded Team Xtreme?"
"Of course I remember," I said to him not looking up.
"Vince almost fired the both of us for insisting that you come up. Only he made us work with Lita. Trust me Jeff had a whole lot to handle at that time."
"Maybe one day I'll tell you," Jeff said to me. "You might be surprised with what you hear," He stroke my head gently. "You can get through it all I know that you can."
"I can't live without Steve though," I told them.
"Hey, come here. It's going to be just fine," Jeff said to me. He pulled me into his chest and I cried. Matt rubbed my back and reassured me.
After a few minutes I got up and went to wash up. I had a match against Chyna that I was totally unprepared for.
"Jeff stay backsatge," I said to him before I left. "I don't want anyone coming out and trying to jump you again. It'll be the best for the both of us."
He nodded without a word.
"I still have a few minutes before I go on," I said to him once I saw that worried look on his face.
"I just worry," he told me.
"Oh god," I said suddenly.
"I knew it, you were never ready to date me," he said sadly.
"No not that, I think I'm going to be sick again," I got up and ran to the bathroom.
"Are you going to be able to fight tonight?" Jeff asked me.
"I-I," I vomitted, and then answered. "I hope that I can," I said breathing in deep. "This is a chance of a lifetime," I said quickly.
Somehow I pulled myself together and managed to go out and face Chyna. I didn't win the match, but I did prove that I could stand up to the most influential and powerful women in the World Wrestling Federation.
"Maybe in another few months you can get back in the ring and maybe even beat me," Chyna said backstage.
"Oh, you can count on that," I said with a smile. I went into the dressing room and waited until the last bit of Smackdown was over.
While I was walking out to the car with Matt and Jeff I heard Adam and Jay call after me. I slowed down and let them walk ahead of me.
"Kay wait up," I heard Adam yell.
"What's up?" I asked.
"Don't be upset," he said.
"We saw Steve and Dwayne talking in the hallway."
"Oh God," I said getting worried."What were they talking about? Where they talking about jumping Jeff again?"
"No they weren't talking about that," Adam said.
"What were they talking about?"
"Calm down, don't get all upset," Jay said.
"Tell me what they were talking about."
Jeff and Matt must have started walking towards us because I saw Jay hold out his hand.
"They were talking about ways to get the two of you to break up," Adam said.
"Where did you see them last?"
"They were talking and walking," Adam said.
"Don't go and try to find them, it won't do any good."
"I guess that you are right," I said. "I am going to talk to them back at the hotel."
"Just thought that you should be warned."
"Thanks Adam, thanks Jay. I'll catch up with you guys tomorrow," I went to the car and didn't say a word about what Jay and Adam had told me.
When I got to my room I saw Steve and Dwayne waiting outside my door.
"I'll come by your room later," I said to Jeff.
"Not if I have anything to do with it," Dwayne said.
"Don't start," I said looking at him. "Go on Jeff, I'll be by later," I gave him a kiss on the cheek and he left reluctantly. "You two in now," I said opening my door and letting them in. Before either of them could say a word I began to talk.
"Now I want both of you to listen to me closly. My personal life, whether it has to do with you, or Dwayne is to be kept out of the ring, is that understood?" I paused and waited to see if they would say anything. When nothing was said I continued. "And Jeff is not to be touched, in or out of the ring. I don't care if he is my new love interest, he did not ask to be in the middle of the thing between the two of us. You touch him again and you will really see what I can do, is that clear?" They were both shocked and didn't say anything. "Dwayne, I don't know what you were thinking when you attacked Jeff, or where you thinking at all? I had said that I wanted to talk to you after the show, did you think that attacking Jeff was going to help the situation?"
"Kay, I can't watch him with you. I love you."
"You have a funny way of showing it. Jeff waited for months, maybe even years before making a single move on me. To me that is what love is. Letting the person be happy, and if the two of you were meant to be then the two of you will end up together. THat is the way that I see it."
"Kay I miss you and want you back," Dwayne said sitting on the bed.
"Kayla, listen to the man, he means what he says." Steve said to me.
"I haven't even started on you yet. You embareassed me in front of millions of people. And you should have no say in my life. According to you I have no brother."
"Listen I know that I had no right to say that, and I realized that when I went home and talked to Debra. I was going to apologize, until I saw you with Jeff. I can't let you be with him."
"You don't get it do you? I am happy with Jeff. It's something new and exciting."
"You telling me that you forgot what we had together? Are you telling me that you don't miss the getwaways, and the all night chats, and the kisses?"
"Dwayne look me in the eyes and tell me that you don't shutter at my touch, tremble at the touch of my lips, miss my body next to yours. Tell me that you don't miss the times that we had to run just to avoid Steve seeing us."
"I miss all of that. I want it back. I love you," Dwayne said. He was practically at the verge of tears.
"I miss that too. And I still love you, but not like I once did. I need the time to be apart and see if I am really meant to be with you. But right now I could use a friend in you, not a boyfriend. And in you Steve I need more of a friend than a big brother who still treats me like I am five."
"I can't do that though," Dwayne said.
"I can't except you with Jeff, Dwayne I can see. He loves you, it's right."
"Then while the two of you can't except that then I don't think that I want to know you."
"What are you talking about"
"Dwayne I am saying that between the two of you, I felt as if I was the scum of the Earth, I felt like I was completely useless. And now I have Jeff,and he is giving me the time and space that I need."
"Please don't leave me."
"I told you it was over, and I meant it. I knew that the time that I went to talk to you on the plane and you were so cold that it was over."
"Kay give the man a chance. I will allow you to date him, but not that skittle head."
"O.k. you have no right to tell me what to do, I think that it is time that you should leave."
"Are you sure?" Dwayne asked.
"Never been more sure, and until you get everything straight I still feel like I don't want to know either of you."
"Whatever I do I do to protect you, I love you and don't want to see you hurt."
"I know that, but you need to let me live my life and see that I am a grown woman who can take care of herself," I said to him.
"I'm trying. I love you, no matter what I say, I love you," he said giving me a hug.
"I love you too," I said to him.
"I'll talk to you tomorrow?"
"I'd like that," I said smiling.
"Please reconsider," Dwayne said walking out.
"I can't. I have to do this for myself."
"Can we talk tomorrow, over lunch?"
"That would be good." I said good bye and walked over to Jeff's room. Matt was asleep, but Jeff was still awake.
"Come back to my room so we won't wake him," I said.
Not that it really mattered. When we got back to my room we layed down on the bed. Jeff didn't ask about what was said. All that he cared about was that I kept my promise.
"Kayla, sometimes I feel like I can't get close enough to you. I just want to crawl inside you and stay there forever," Jeff said as I layed on his chest.
"I know how you feel, I feel the same way," I said tiredly. I didn't know why I was feeling this way towards Jeff, but it felt good and I wasn't ready to give that up. Those were the last words said before we both fell asleep.
The next day would be one to fix things with Vince and hopefully Dwayne.