The weeks leading up to my return were nerve wrecking and hard to deal with. In the back of my mind I knew that I had a new found responsibility and I would have to leave sooner or later, and then there was that conversation with Shane that I nor he was ready for.
The call woke me early the next morning.
"I didn't want to wake you but you sounded like you really needed to talk to me."
"I do." I said. "It's about the baby."
"I heard she's gorgeous, and that she is a real sweet little baby."
"She is, she kind of takes after her father in that department."
"All of us have been dying to know who the father is. You said that you wouldn't tell anyone until you told him."
"That's kind of why I needed to talk to you. I wanted to talk to you first."
"Why?" I heard Shane get a little nervous. "You need advice on how to tell him?"
"That would be nice but no. I wanted the father to be the first to know before other people found out. I promised that I would talk to him first and," I took a deep breath. "Well, I am talking to him."
"What do you mean?"
"Shane, I mean that you are the father."
There was a silence and then I heard a soft cry come from Shane on the other line. "I know that it's a huge shock and all and I completely understand." I said. "I just thought that you had all the right in the world to know."
"Are you totally sure?"
"Yes," I started to tear. "Listen, if you don't want to have anything to do with the baby then I understand. I don't think that it would be the right thing to do, but I would understand if you don't want to take responsibility."
"No, I wouldn't do that to you," he gave a little laugh. "I'm just a little shocked. I mean, you and me having a baby, who would have thought?"
"Not me. Are you sure that you are totally one hundred percent O.K. with this?"
"Actually no. But this is a little baby, I wouldn't just leave her like that."
"Good because if you did that then I wouldn't be able to look at her, she looks a lot like you."
"Really?"
"Yes, she has your mouth, and eyes." I heard Shane cry a little harder. This time I knew that they were tears of pride. "Some of the facial expressions that she makes reminds me of Stephanie and yourself it's so funny."
"So when am I going to see my daughter?"
"In another couple of weeks I'll be back."
"Just make me one promise, that you'll let me take as much responsibility that I can, and let her wrestle."
"It's done," I said. "Make me a promise."
"O. k what?"
"That you won't ask me to marry you. We have a baby together, but there is no way that I am going to marry you."
"I can make that promise."
"Good."
"I have to go to a promo shoot now, so I'll see you in a few weeks."
"You better believe it. Bye Shane."
"See you real soon Kay."
"O.K. bye." I hung up the phone and went to give Geannie a bottle.
And before I knew it I was on a plane to Cleveland to make my return. Vince had made special arrangements so that Geannie would be taken care of while I was doing the show.
Jeff and Steve met me at the airport.
"Kayla, I missed you so much." Steve said. I put Gean down in a chair and hugged Steve. "God how I missed you," he picked me up and spun me around.
"I missed you too, and it feels so good to know that I am coming back."
"We all love the fact that you're back too." Jeff said. "Do I get a hi?"
I walked over to him and jumped on him. I gave a little scream. "I missed you so much, you can't even imagine."
"I think that I can." Jeff said. He gave me a kiss, but for some reason it didn't feel like it use to. We had been talking on the phone for so long that now I was in a way starting to feel like I was more of a friend to him then anything else. I didn't think that was the way that Jeff felt, but it was the way that I felt. Maybe it was just because I wasn't around him for the longest time.
"Come on guys let's get to the hotel and then let's get out of here." Steve said.
I put my arm around Jeff as Steve carried Geannie to the car.
"You know the more that I look at this little girl, the more that I think I see Shane, or Vince in her." Steve said as we were at the hotel relaxing before we had to leave.
"That's because she looks like her father." I said. Steve and Jeff both looked at me. Jeff nearly fell off the chair he was sitting on.
"Are you saying that Shane is the father?" Steve asked.
I nodded. "Yes, that's what I'm saying. I know that he is the last person that you would think of, but that is the truth."
"Are you totally sure?" Steve asked.
"I know that I am going to get this so many times until I get to tell everyone, but yes I am sure. I know the time period who I was with, Shane is the only that matches."
Jeff stayed quiet. He just looked at me and then down at the floor. I knew that it was an uncomfortable spot for him and all, but he was going to have to get use to it. If he wanted me then he would have to get use to this.
"It was just one big mistake." I said. "I'm not saying that she was an accident, I love her and I'm happy that she's here, but Shane and I was not supposed to happen." I said, to in a way reassure Jeff.
"She is beautiful." Jeff said. "And I know that me and her are just going to be the best of friends," he said with a smile. I smiled and him and relaxed a little more.
"So when are you going to meet up with Shane?" Steve asked.
"Tonight at the arena." I said. "He's going to visit her for a little and then I'm going to drop her off with a baby-sitter that Vince got."
Jeff looked at his watch. "It's getting near time to leave, I have to go and clean up." He stood up. "I'll be back in about an hour and then we'll be out of here to the arena."
"O.K." I gave him a little kiss on the cheek and he walked out of the room.
"Are the two of you getting really serious about each other?" Steve asked me.
"I thought that we were, I guess I just need to get back on track with everything after being apart so long." I looked at him and smiled. "I know that everything is going to work out the way that it's supposed to be, so I'm not worrying about anything."
"That's a good thing. I don't need you worrying about more then you really have to."
"I know that you don't. Do you need to get anything together?"
"Actually I do, so I'll be back," he got up and rubbed my shoulder. "Just make sure that you take it easy tonight O.K."
"I promise that I will." When Steve walked out of the room I grabbed Geannie and laid down on the bed with her. I was tired from the flight and so was she. We both were in need of a little nap. I heard a little knock on the door, it wasn't closed all the way so that Jeff could come back in without any problem.
"Come in." I said softly. I looked over and saw Dwayne. I smiled at him. "I didn't know that you were here."
"You don't think that I would be anywhere else for your return? How you doing?"
"Hi, I'm doing better," he leaned over and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
"She is so adorable." Dwayne said squatting next to the bed.
"Thank you. This is Geannie Ann. She would say hi, but she just fell asleep."
"Has she seen her father yet?"
"She's going to see him tonight."
"And who would she be going to see and call her daddy?"
"This may be a little shock, but it's Shane."
"Shane? You and Shane?"
"I know, it was never supposed to happen but it did and that's the only thing that I can say."
"It is a little bit of a shock. But I know that you have to be going through your own hard time so I'm not going to say anything."
"Thank you."
"She does look like Shane." Dwayne laughed. "This girl is going to be quite a different looking baby."
"Why do you say that?"
"Because it's you and Shane. It's going to make a very good combination." He looked at me and stroked my hair. "I missed you so much."
"I missed you too." I said. He smiled at me and I felt those butterflies that I use to get in my stomach around him again.
"Come with me for a late dinner tonight. We'll leave a little early and go to the hotel or something and catch up on the last few months."
"I would like that, but let's make it for another night, tonight is kind of going to Shane."
"That's fair. I think that it's very nice of you to give a night to talk to Shane about all of this. Does he already know?"
"Yes, I told him a few weeks ago, so we've talked about it quite a bit unitl he got really comfortable about the whole situation."
"I would like to have a baby one day."
"Another little Rocky running around? I don't think the world is ready for another people's champion."
"I don't think they are either, but I think maybe one day in the future. Do you remember what we used to talk about?"
"Of course I do. We use to sit in your car for hours just talking about having kids, or living in a beach house in Miami."
"I use to love all of those talks. I loved them all. We use to sit there and just imagine what we would be like. Our kids would all be big sports fans."
"The boys would play football, the girls whatever the wanted to do." I smiled at him. "I remember."
"So do I." Dwayne's face and mood seemed to change. He got a little quiet and looked at me like he did the day that I told him we were through. "I can never forget that. I have to get going now." he said. "I just wanted to make sure that I saw you on the day that you came back. I'll see you backstage."
"Till later." I said.
"Great to have you back." I gave him a kiss on the cheek and felt the same old shiver that I, in a way, missed. Dwayne left the room and I sighed a little bit wondering what I was going to do about Dwayne.
I looked at a near by clock. The hour or so of rest that I had was going by to quickly. I had to get up and get everything together for Geannie.
I put her in her carseat and sat her on the bed. I got her diaper bag together and got my things together to.
Before I was done packing Jeff came in to get us to go to the arena.
"I'll be right there, just give me five minutes and I'll be done."
"We have a little bit of time you don't have to rush."
I walked around making sure that I had everything that I needed.
"All right, I'm done. I have everything, let's go."
"Nervous?"
"Like you wouldn't believe."
"You'll do great like always baby."
"I need to hear that, but I don't even know who I'm facing." I said.
"You're tagging along side Stephanie."
"Why?" I asked.
"There's a storyline that is going to turn into the main event, you're going to be part of it."
"Yeah, but fans don't know me to be friends with Stephanie."
"Catch is that Ivory is on the other side of the apron, you get a victory over her you are the number one contender for the Women's Champion against Chyna."
"God, you know that I can't beat her." I said.
"Don't worry about that, all you do is worry about tonight and doing what you do best."
"That's what I am planning on doing." I said. "You never have to worry about me and what I'm feeling,"
"But I do anyway." Jeff said.
While we were driving to the arena Jeff played "Betterman" by Pearl Jam.
"Waiting, watching the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop. Tell him. Take no more. She practices her speech. As he opens the door she rolls over, pretends to sleep as he looks her over. She lies when she says she in love with him, can't find a betterman, she dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a betterman."
The song is manily about a girl in a bad relationship who wanted out, but that wasn't the way that I took it. I started asking to myself, if I was really lying when I said I loved Jeff and if I couldn't find a better man then Dwayne. Dwayne and I were an amazing couple. I quickly pushed the thought out of my head and tried to concentrate on what the match would be like.
We got to the arena and headed to the locker room. As I walked in everyone yelled surprise. They had set up a little return party for me.
"We had to do something for your return." Jeff said. I smiled and went around saying hi and showing the baby off to everyone.
I looked around the room and saw Shane standing off in a corner watching me and the baby.
I walked over to him and gave a shy smile. "Shane meet Geannie, Geannie this is your loving and handsome looking father Shane. No one can say she's not a McMahon." I said.
"She does have the McMahon look." he said. "Do you mind if I hold her?" he said.
"Of course not, you are the father."
"That's going to take some getting use to." Shane said.
"I know. Everyone is going to have to get use to that." I smiled as Shane picked up Geannie. "That's a nice sight." I said.
"I'm kind of enjoying it myself." he said. "I wish that I could spend some more time with you cutie, but I really have to get going. Daddy has a job that he needs to do."
"So does mommy." I said. "I'll take her. Go open up the show."
"Meet me for dinner?" he asked. "I want to spend more time with you and her."
"Sure, it shouldn't be a problem. See you later on tonight."
"Bye." he gave Geannie and I a kiss and then left. I walked around and said hi to everyone. They were all excited to see the baby. Most of them were very surprised to hear that Shane was the father. Before I knew it I was out in the ring along side Stephanie facing Ivory and Tory.
The story was that Steph had upset Tori and Ivory and they made a challenge to her. She chose me for her partner, obviously.
My music hit and I felt the rush of a thousand fans screaming. God how I missed that, I really did. I went around and did the gunz taunt. It felt good to be able to do that knowing I was part of Team Xtreme.
I went in there, nervous, more than usual, and did the best that I could. I knew that I was doing a good job as I heard the crowd scream and go crazy as I hit the hurricarana from the top rope, and got the pin.
I walked up the ramp with Stephanie in a hug. "Glad to have you back sister," she said to me.
"I am glad to be back." I walked through the curtain and jumped on Dwayne. He was waiting there to go out for his match.
"You did so great Kay," he hugged me tight. "That was incredible."
"Someone has to keep the extreme attitude alive." I said with a smile.
"Well, you certainly do."
I saw Jeff walking towards me out of the corner of my eye. "Thanks." I got down and stood there.
"Good match." Jeff said. "Now everyone knows that you're back." He gave me a hug and a kiss.
"They better." I said. I put my hands around him. "If they don't know, I'll make sure that they do." I looked over at Dwayne's face. "Hey, I'll see you later DJ" I said.
"Of course," he said. He tried to put on a smile, but I knew that he wasn't all to enthusiastic about seeing Jeff and I together.
"Listen Jeff, I'm going to go out to dinner with Shane tonight, do you mind?" I asked. "I know it's my first night back, but I need a little time with Shane."
"I know you do. I can't say that I'm not disappointed, but no I don't mind."
I hugged him as we walked. "Thank you, it does mean a lot to me."
I took a shower and got changed. "I'm off. I'll meet you at the hotel." I said to Jeff.
"O.K., but don't forget, we're driving to the next venue, so we have to leave a little earlier then usual."
"I won't. Bye baby." I gave him a hug, and a kiss, grabbed Geannie and left.
Shane and I decided to just go to the hotel and eat at the restaurant there. It wasn't very fancy or anything so it was nice. I don't know for how long we talked, but we didn't really talk about anything that was too important. Most of it was about Geannie and how she looked. I was so happy that Shane was nice enough and sweet enough that he actually was falling in love with her. I knew that he would not run off and leave me and the baby by ourselves, but I didn't think that he would get attached so quickly.
"You don't know how happy I am that you actually are proud to have a daughter." I said.
"Everything happens for a reason. It may not be what I would expect in life, but it happened. And I am glad that she came out, now I get to be part of her life." I smiled.
"Thank you."
"Now I want to ask you a question," he said. This is when things started to get real interesting.
"What about?"
"It may get a little personal so just promise that you'll answer me," he said.
"O.K. go ahead."
"I see you with Jeff, and I know that he cares about you, I know that he loves you, but I don't see the same thing in you. Why aren't you with Dwayne anymore?"
"I guess things just didn't work out." I said. "I know that it looked like it would, but I just guess that it didn't."
"So you let Steve just break the two of you up?" he asked. He was really prying into my feelings.
"I didn't let Steve break us up, it was my idea and I'm going with it." I said.
"Even if it's wrong? I don't mean to tell you what to do, but I have a feeling that all of this is wrong and that you should really give Dwayne another shot."
"I can't do that to Jeff." I said.
"Can't do what to Jeff? What's worse, letting him believe that you love him, or telling him that you love Dwayne and hope that things work out the way that it is?" Shane said.
"I don't know what to tell you." I said. "And I don't know where you are getting this from or why you are asking it."
"Well, I just told you all of this because I've been meaning to ask you about it. Dwayne and I aren't the closest of friends, but I have heard my dad talk to him about you and how he can't compromise his promos because he's a little hurt about you. And I kinda remembered because he's been sitting at the bar for the past hour or so watching you."
"And you didn't' tell me?" I asked.
"I didn't want you to get all self conscience," he said. "I think I better go. Listen, I'm going to take Geannie up and see if she wants to sleep."
"It is way past her bedtime, a bottle and a little lullaby and she should fall right asleep." I said.
"Will do. See you in the morning mommy." Shane said like a little baby. I laughed.
"See you in the light hours." I gave her a little kiss and Shane a kiss on the cheek.
"Thanks for letting me do all of this."
"It'll come in handy for when you get married and have little Shane O'Mac's running around."
He gave a little laugh. "Well, good night again. And do me a favor and talk to Dwayne."
"I do talk to him." I said.
"You know what I mean. I'll see you in the daylight," he said and walked away.
I turned around, looking as if I was about to leave and saw Dwayne. I waved for him to come over. I was getting tired, but I was thinking right about then that Shane did have a point and maybe he was right.
"I didn't know that you were there." I said. "If I knew I would have told you to come over." I said.
"That's why I didn't want to tell you that I was here. I know that you wanted to spend tonight with Shane."
"Well, the night was spent with him. Sit, I want to talk." I said.
"I do too," he said. "So tell me all about what you were up to for the last few months," he said.
"I've been getting stronger, healing, having a baby, you know the usual, what have you been up to?" I said. I leaned on my hand and smiled.
"Not as much as you were up to. I just made a few cameos in shows, promos, beat some people in the ring, same old, same old."
We talked for a while. We didn't talk very much about the present, we talked about the past and all the memories that we had together. There wasn't one that I forgot. Everything that Dwayne wanted to talk about I remembered like it was right there being played in front of me.
"This entire night we have been talking about what happened as we were together. But there is still one thing that I haven't told you that I really want to." Dwayne said.
"And what would that be? I don't think that there is anything that you forgot to say."
"I think that there is," he said.
"Then tell me, I want to know everything that you are thinking about."
"I still love you," he said to me. I looked at him and almost told him that I still loved him too. "And I still cringe every time that I see you with Jeff. I still want to rip you away from him. I want to hug you and kiss you. See that thing that you do with the hand in the head and the smile, I want to be able to look at that and tell you that you look so gorgeous."
"You have told me this time and time again." I said.
"And I am going to tell you over and over until you come back to me. And I know that you can't say that you aren't going to come back, or one day you won't think about it."
"So are you willing to wait around forever?" I asked.
"If I really have to," he said. "I don't plan on it, but yes I think that I will."
I looked at him and all of those memories and kisses ran through my mind. I leaned across the table and kissed him. In a way it did feel more natural then kissing Jeff, but how and what was I going to tell Jeff?
"I'm sorry." I said to Dwayne.
"Why? I know that I'm not," he said.
"Because that wasn't right and I shouldn't have done that. No matter the situation or anything I am still with Jeff."
"Are you still stuck on him?" he asked.
"Please." I said. "I know that you can't understand that, but there are feelings between him and I."
"But nothing that compares to you and I." he said.
I shook my head. "I don't know what anything is anymore, so to make that assumption would be wrong." I said. I looked around and saw Matt. "Oh God." I said.
"What, what's wrong?" Dwayne asked.
"Matt's here."
"Yeah so?" he asked.
"Matt talks to Jeff, Matt tells Jeff what happened. Dwayne I can't let Jeff find out that way." I said.
"Calm down Kay, you don't even know if he saw anything." Dwayne said.
"Well, I have to go find out." I got up and gave Dwayne a little kiss on the cheek. "I'll talk to you tomorrow." I said.
I walked over to Matt and sat down next to him. "Hey," he said.
"Listen, about before."
"You mean the liplock with Dwayne?" he asked. "I'm not going to tell Jeff anything, if you tell him," he said.
"Thank you Matt. But this doesn't mean that me and Jeff are over or anything."
"I didn't say that," he said. "I just want you to be the one to talk to him about whatever that was about back there. I know that everyone has a little set back every now and then."
"I didn't plan on that happening." I said. "I just want you to know that." I was so nervous that Matt would think I was some sort of slut or something. "I would never hurt Jeff like that."
"I know that, calm down. The two of you have known each other to long to want to hurt him like that deliberately."
"You really are a good brother." I said.
"I know. Let's get up to sleep. We do have to get up pretty early." He got up and we walked to our rooms. I heard Matt humming something, but I couldn't make out what it was.
"Matt what are you singing?" I asked him.
"'She lies when she says she's in love with him,'" he simply said.
"I get the point O.K."I said.
"Do you?" he asked me. "I just want you to think about it. I'm not trying to tell you what to do."
"Please don't. I am so confused these days that I wouldn't even be able to pay attention to you even if you tried to tell me what to do."
"I know, and I don't mean to pressure you or anything, but, you need to figure out what to do, and pretty soon, because, here's your room."
"Thanks for not saying anything Matt."
"It's not my place to. Just make sure that you don't play around with his heart."
"I never wanted to in the first place." I gave him a hug. "You're a good man."
"Thank you, you're a good woman. See you bright and early tomorrow morning."
When I walked in Jeff had Geannie laid across his stomach.
"I thought she was spending the night with Shane?" I asked.
Jeff pointed to the corner. Shane was sleeping in a chair in the corner of the room. "He put her to sleep, and then he fell asleep. She woke up again, so I took her."
"O.K. thanks." I gave him a kiss. "I'll take her in a few minutes."
I walked over to the chair and woke up Shane. "Come on daddy, you did your work for tonight." I said.
"I fell asleep I guess."
"You did. Go to your room and get some sleep." I helped Shane out of the chair. "Good night."
Shane gave me a smile and left the room.
"I guess it must be pretty late." I said. "I'm sorry I didn't think that it was that late."
"It's O.K. Shane told me that you wanted to stay down in the dining room a little longer, and I don't mind."
"You are a sweetie do you know that?"
"Thank you," he said.
I changed into my pajamas and crawled into the bed with Gean right by my side.
I heard Jeff roll over and put his arm around me.
"I love you Kay," he said to me. "Kay?" I didn't answer him. I stayed quiet, hoping that he would think that I fell asleep. "Well, good night baby."
I sighed and fell asleep. There was no way that telling Jeff what happened at that time was going to be easy.
The call woke me early the next morning.
"I didn't want to wake you but you sounded like you really needed to talk to me."
"I do." I said. "It's about the baby."
"I heard she's gorgeous, and that she is a real sweet little baby."
"She is, she kind of takes after her father in that department."
"All of us have been dying to know who the father is. You said that you wouldn't tell anyone until you told him."
"That's kind of why I needed to talk to you. I wanted to talk to you first."
"Why?" I heard Shane get a little nervous. "You need advice on how to tell him?"
"That would be nice but no. I wanted the father to be the first to know before other people found out. I promised that I would talk to him first and," I took a deep breath. "Well, I am talking to him."
"What do you mean?"
"Shane, I mean that you are the father."
There was a silence and then I heard a soft cry come from Shane on the other line. "I know that it's a huge shock and all and I completely understand." I said. "I just thought that you had all the right in the world to know."
"Are you totally sure?"
"Yes," I started to tear. "Listen, if you don't want to have anything to do with the baby then I understand. I don't think that it would be the right thing to do, but I would understand if you don't want to take responsibility."
"No, I wouldn't do that to you," he gave a little laugh. "I'm just a little shocked. I mean, you and me having a baby, who would have thought?"
"Not me. Are you sure that you are totally one hundred percent O.K. with this?"
"Actually no. But this is a little baby, I wouldn't just leave her like that."
"Good because if you did that then I wouldn't be able to look at her, she looks a lot like you."
"Really?"
"Yes, she has your mouth, and eyes." I heard Shane cry a little harder. This time I knew that they were tears of pride. "Some of the facial expressions that she makes reminds me of Stephanie and yourself it's so funny."
"So when am I going to see my daughter?"
"In another couple of weeks I'll be back."
"Just make me one promise, that you'll let me take as much responsibility that I can, and let her wrestle."
"It's done," I said. "Make me a promise."
"O. k what?"
"That you won't ask me to marry you. We have a baby together, but there is no way that I am going to marry you."
"I can make that promise."
"Good."
"I have to go to a promo shoot now, so I'll see you in a few weeks."
"You better believe it. Bye Shane."
"See you real soon Kay."
"O.K. bye." I hung up the phone and went to give Geannie a bottle.
And before I knew it I was on a plane to Cleveland to make my return. Vince had made special arrangements so that Geannie would be taken care of while I was doing the show.
Jeff and Steve met me at the airport.
"Kayla, I missed you so much." Steve said. I put Gean down in a chair and hugged Steve. "God how I missed you," he picked me up and spun me around.
"I missed you too, and it feels so good to know that I am coming back."
"We all love the fact that you're back too." Jeff said. "Do I get a hi?"
I walked over to him and jumped on him. I gave a little scream. "I missed you so much, you can't even imagine."
"I think that I can." Jeff said. He gave me a kiss, but for some reason it didn't feel like it use to. We had been talking on the phone for so long that now I was in a way starting to feel like I was more of a friend to him then anything else. I didn't think that was the way that Jeff felt, but it was the way that I felt. Maybe it was just because I wasn't around him for the longest time.
"Come on guys let's get to the hotel and then let's get out of here." Steve said.
I put my arm around Jeff as Steve carried Geannie to the car.
"You know the more that I look at this little girl, the more that I think I see Shane, or Vince in her." Steve said as we were at the hotel relaxing before we had to leave.
"That's because she looks like her father." I said. Steve and Jeff both looked at me. Jeff nearly fell off the chair he was sitting on.
"Are you saying that Shane is the father?" Steve asked.
I nodded. "Yes, that's what I'm saying. I know that he is the last person that you would think of, but that is the truth."
"Are you totally sure?" Steve asked.
"I know that I am going to get this so many times until I get to tell everyone, but yes I am sure. I know the time period who I was with, Shane is the only that matches."
Jeff stayed quiet. He just looked at me and then down at the floor. I knew that it was an uncomfortable spot for him and all, but he was going to have to get use to it. If he wanted me then he would have to get use to this.
"It was just one big mistake." I said. "I'm not saying that she was an accident, I love her and I'm happy that she's here, but Shane and I was not supposed to happen." I said, to in a way reassure Jeff.
"She is beautiful." Jeff said. "And I know that me and her are just going to be the best of friends," he said with a smile. I smiled and him and relaxed a little more.
"So when are you going to meet up with Shane?" Steve asked.
"Tonight at the arena." I said. "He's going to visit her for a little and then I'm going to drop her off with a baby-sitter that Vince got."
Jeff looked at his watch. "It's getting near time to leave, I have to go and clean up." He stood up. "I'll be back in about an hour and then we'll be out of here to the arena."
"O.K." I gave him a little kiss on the cheek and he walked out of the room.
"Are the two of you getting really serious about each other?" Steve asked me.
"I thought that we were, I guess I just need to get back on track with everything after being apart so long." I looked at him and smiled. "I know that everything is going to work out the way that it's supposed to be, so I'm not worrying about anything."
"That's a good thing. I don't need you worrying about more then you really have to."
"I know that you don't. Do you need to get anything together?"
"Actually I do, so I'll be back," he got up and rubbed my shoulder. "Just make sure that you take it easy tonight O.K."
"I promise that I will." When Steve walked out of the room I grabbed Geannie and laid down on the bed with her. I was tired from the flight and so was she. We both were in need of a little nap. I heard a little knock on the door, it wasn't closed all the way so that Jeff could come back in without any problem.
"Come in." I said softly. I looked over and saw Dwayne. I smiled at him. "I didn't know that you were here."
"You don't think that I would be anywhere else for your return? How you doing?"
"Hi, I'm doing better," he leaned over and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
"She is so adorable." Dwayne said squatting next to the bed.
"Thank you. This is Geannie Ann. She would say hi, but she just fell asleep."
"Has she seen her father yet?"
"She's going to see him tonight."
"And who would she be going to see and call her daddy?"
"This may be a little shock, but it's Shane."
"Shane? You and Shane?"
"I know, it was never supposed to happen but it did and that's the only thing that I can say."
"It is a little bit of a shock. But I know that you have to be going through your own hard time so I'm not going to say anything."
"Thank you."
"She does look like Shane." Dwayne laughed. "This girl is going to be quite a different looking baby."
"Why do you say that?"
"Because it's you and Shane. It's going to make a very good combination." He looked at me and stroked my hair. "I missed you so much."
"I missed you too." I said. He smiled at me and I felt those butterflies that I use to get in my stomach around him again.
"Come with me for a late dinner tonight. We'll leave a little early and go to the hotel or something and catch up on the last few months."
"I would like that, but let's make it for another night, tonight is kind of going to Shane."
"That's fair. I think that it's very nice of you to give a night to talk to Shane about all of this. Does he already know?"
"Yes, I told him a few weeks ago, so we've talked about it quite a bit unitl he got really comfortable about the whole situation."
"I would like to have a baby one day."
"Another little Rocky running around? I don't think the world is ready for another people's champion."
"I don't think they are either, but I think maybe one day in the future. Do you remember what we used to talk about?"
"Of course I do. We use to sit in your car for hours just talking about having kids, or living in a beach house in Miami."
"I use to love all of those talks. I loved them all. We use to sit there and just imagine what we would be like. Our kids would all be big sports fans."
"The boys would play football, the girls whatever the wanted to do." I smiled at him. "I remember."
"So do I." Dwayne's face and mood seemed to change. He got a little quiet and looked at me like he did the day that I told him we were through. "I can never forget that. I have to get going now." he said. "I just wanted to make sure that I saw you on the day that you came back. I'll see you backstage."
"Till later." I said.
"Great to have you back." I gave him a kiss on the cheek and felt the same old shiver that I, in a way, missed. Dwayne left the room and I sighed a little bit wondering what I was going to do about Dwayne.
I looked at a near by clock. The hour or so of rest that I had was going by to quickly. I had to get up and get everything together for Geannie.
I put her in her carseat and sat her on the bed. I got her diaper bag together and got my things together to.
Before I was done packing Jeff came in to get us to go to the arena.
"I'll be right there, just give me five minutes and I'll be done."
"We have a little bit of time you don't have to rush."
I walked around making sure that I had everything that I needed.
"All right, I'm done. I have everything, let's go."
"Nervous?"
"Like you wouldn't believe."
"You'll do great like always baby."
"I need to hear that, but I don't even know who I'm facing." I said.
"You're tagging along side Stephanie."
"Why?" I asked.
"There's a storyline that is going to turn into the main event, you're going to be part of it."
"Yeah, but fans don't know me to be friends with Stephanie."
"Catch is that Ivory is on the other side of the apron, you get a victory over her you are the number one contender for the Women's Champion against Chyna."
"God, you know that I can't beat her." I said.
"Don't worry about that, all you do is worry about tonight and doing what you do best."
"That's what I am planning on doing." I said. "You never have to worry about me and what I'm feeling,"
"But I do anyway." Jeff said.
While we were driving to the arena Jeff played "Betterman" by Pearl Jam.
"Waiting, watching the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop. Tell him. Take no more. She practices her speech. As he opens the door she rolls over, pretends to sleep as he looks her over. She lies when she says she in love with him, can't find a betterman, she dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a betterman."
The song is manily about a girl in a bad relationship who wanted out, but that wasn't the way that I took it. I started asking to myself, if I was really lying when I said I loved Jeff and if I couldn't find a better man then Dwayne. Dwayne and I were an amazing couple. I quickly pushed the thought out of my head and tried to concentrate on what the match would be like.
We got to the arena and headed to the locker room. As I walked in everyone yelled surprise. They had set up a little return party for me.
"We had to do something for your return." Jeff said. I smiled and went around saying hi and showing the baby off to everyone.
I looked around the room and saw Shane standing off in a corner watching me and the baby.
I walked over to him and gave a shy smile. "Shane meet Geannie, Geannie this is your loving and handsome looking father Shane. No one can say she's not a McMahon." I said.
"She does have the McMahon look." he said. "Do you mind if I hold her?" he said.
"Of course not, you are the father."
"That's going to take some getting use to." Shane said.
"I know. Everyone is going to have to get use to that." I smiled as Shane picked up Geannie. "That's a nice sight." I said.
"I'm kind of enjoying it myself." he said. "I wish that I could spend some more time with you cutie, but I really have to get going. Daddy has a job that he needs to do."
"So does mommy." I said. "I'll take her. Go open up the show."
"Meet me for dinner?" he asked. "I want to spend more time with you and her."
"Sure, it shouldn't be a problem. See you later on tonight."
"Bye." he gave Geannie and I a kiss and then left. I walked around and said hi to everyone. They were all excited to see the baby. Most of them were very surprised to hear that Shane was the father. Before I knew it I was out in the ring along side Stephanie facing Ivory and Tory.
The story was that Steph had upset Tori and Ivory and they made a challenge to her. She chose me for her partner, obviously.
My music hit and I felt the rush of a thousand fans screaming. God how I missed that, I really did. I went around and did the gunz taunt. It felt good to be able to do that knowing I was part of Team Xtreme.
I went in there, nervous, more than usual, and did the best that I could. I knew that I was doing a good job as I heard the crowd scream and go crazy as I hit the hurricarana from the top rope, and got the pin.
I walked up the ramp with Stephanie in a hug. "Glad to have you back sister," she said to me.
"I am glad to be back." I walked through the curtain and jumped on Dwayne. He was waiting there to go out for his match.
"You did so great Kay," he hugged me tight. "That was incredible."
"Someone has to keep the extreme attitude alive." I said with a smile.
"Well, you certainly do."
I saw Jeff walking towards me out of the corner of my eye. "Thanks." I got down and stood there.
"Good match." Jeff said. "Now everyone knows that you're back." He gave me a hug and a kiss.
"They better." I said. I put my hands around him. "If they don't know, I'll make sure that they do." I looked over at Dwayne's face. "Hey, I'll see you later DJ" I said.
"Of course," he said. He tried to put on a smile, but I knew that he wasn't all to enthusiastic about seeing Jeff and I together.
"Listen Jeff, I'm going to go out to dinner with Shane tonight, do you mind?" I asked. "I know it's my first night back, but I need a little time with Shane."
"I know you do. I can't say that I'm not disappointed, but no I don't mind."
I hugged him as we walked. "Thank you, it does mean a lot to me."
I took a shower and got changed. "I'm off. I'll meet you at the hotel." I said to Jeff.
"O.K., but don't forget, we're driving to the next venue, so we have to leave a little earlier then usual."
"I won't. Bye baby." I gave him a hug, and a kiss, grabbed Geannie and left.
Shane and I decided to just go to the hotel and eat at the restaurant there. It wasn't very fancy or anything so it was nice. I don't know for how long we talked, but we didn't really talk about anything that was too important. Most of it was about Geannie and how she looked. I was so happy that Shane was nice enough and sweet enough that he actually was falling in love with her. I knew that he would not run off and leave me and the baby by ourselves, but I didn't think that he would get attached so quickly.
"You don't know how happy I am that you actually are proud to have a daughter." I said.
"Everything happens for a reason. It may not be what I would expect in life, but it happened. And I am glad that she came out, now I get to be part of her life." I smiled.
"Thank you."
"Now I want to ask you a question," he said. This is when things started to get real interesting.
"What about?"
"It may get a little personal so just promise that you'll answer me," he said.
"O.K. go ahead."
"I see you with Jeff, and I know that he cares about you, I know that he loves you, but I don't see the same thing in you. Why aren't you with Dwayne anymore?"
"I guess things just didn't work out." I said. "I know that it looked like it would, but I just guess that it didn't."
"So you let Steve just break the two of you up?" he asked. He was really prying into my feelings.
"I didn't let Steve break us up, it was my idea and I'm going with it." I said.
"Even if it's wrong? I don't mean to tell you what to do, but I have a feeling that all of this is wrong and that you should really give Dwayne another shot."
"I can't do that to Jeff." I said.
"Can't do what to Jeff? What's worse, letting him believe that you love him, or telling him that you love Dwayne and hope that things work out the way that it is?" Shane said.
"I don't know what to tell you." I said. "And I don't know where you are getting this from or why you are asking it."
"Well, I just told you all of this because I've been meaning to ask you about it. Dwayne and I aren't the closest of friends, but I have heard my dad talk to him about you and how he can't compromise his promos because he's a little hurt about you. And I kinda remembered because he's been sitting at the bar for the past hour or so watching you."
"And you didn't' tell me?" I asked.
"I didn't want you to get all self conscience," he said. "I think I better go. Listen, I'm going to take Geannie up and see if she wants to sleep."
"It is way past her bedtime, a bottle and a little lullaby and she should fall right asleep." I said.
"Will do. See you in the morning mommy." Shane said like a little baby. I laughed.
"See you in the light hours." I gave her a little kiss and Shane a kiss on the cheek.
"Thanks for letting me do all of this."
"It'll come in handy for when you get married and have little Shane O'Mac's running around."
He gave a little laugh. "Well, good night again. And do me a favor and talk to Dwayne."
"I do talk to him." I said.
"You know what I mean. I'll see you in the daylight," he said and walked away.
I turned around, looking as if I was about to leave and saw Dwayne. I waved for him to come over. I was getting tired, but I was thinking right about then that Shane did have a point and maybe he was right.
"I didn't know that you were there." I said. "If I knew I would have told you to come over." I said.
"That's why I didn't want to tell you that I was here. I know that you wanted to spend tonight with Shane."
"Well, the night was spent with him. Sit, I want to talk." I said.
"I do too," he said. "So tell me all about what you were up to for the last few months," he said.
"I've been getting stronger, healing, having a baby, you know the usual, what have you been up to?" I said. I leaned on my hand and smiled.
"Not as much as you were up to. I just made a few cameos in shows, promos, beat some people in the ring, same old, same old."
We talked for a while. We didn't talk very much about the present, we talked about the past and all the memories that we had together. There wasn't one that I forgot. Everything that Dwayne wanted to talk about I remembered like it was right there being played in front of me.
"This entire night we have been talking about what happened as we were together. But there is still one thing that I haven't told you that I really want to." Dwayne said.
"And what would that be? I don't think that there is anything that you forgot to say."
"I think that there is," he said.
"Then tell me, I want to know everything that you are thinking about."
"I still love you," he said to me. I looked at him and almost told him that I still loved him too. "And I still cringe every time that I see you with Jeff. I still want to rip you away from him. I want to hug you and kiss you. See that thing that you do with the hand in the head and the smile, I want to be able to look at that and tell you that you look so gorgeous."
"You have told me this time and time again." I said.
"And I am going to tell you over and over until you come back to me. And I know that you can't say that you aren't going to come back, or one day you won't think about it."
"So are you willing to wait around forever?" I asked.
"If I really have to," he said. "I don't plan on it, but yes I think that I will."
I looked at him and all of those memories and kisses ran through my mind. I leaned across the table and kissed him. In a way it did feel more natural then kissing Jeff, but how and what was I going to tell Jeff?
"I'm sorry." I said to Dwayne.
"Why? I know that I'm not," he said.
"Because that wasn't right and I shouldn't have done that. No matter the situation or anything I am still with Jeff."
"Are you still stuck on him?" he asked.
"Please." I said. "I know that you can't understand that, but there are feelings between him and I."
"But nothing that compares to you and I." he said.
I shook my head. "I don't know what anything is anymore, so to make that assumption would be wrong." I said. I looked around and saw Matt. "Oh God." I said.
"What, what's wrong?" Dwayne asked.
"Matt's here."
"Yeah so?" he asked.
"Matt talks to Jeff, Matt tells Jeff what happened. Dwayne I can't let Jeff find out that way." I said.
"Calm down Kay, you don't even know if he saw anything." Dwayne said.
"Well, I have to go find out." I got up and gave Dwayne a little kiss on the cheek. "I'll talk to you tomorrow." I said.
I walked over to Matt and sat down next to him. "Hey," he said.
"Listen, about before."
"You mean the liplock with Dwayne?" he asked. "I'm not going to tell Jeff anything, if you tell him," he said.
"Thank you Matt. But this doesn't mean that me and Jeff are over or anything."
"I didn't say that," he said. "I just want you to be the one to talk to him about whatever that was about back there. I know that everyone has a little set back every now and then."
"I didn't plan on that happening." I said. "I just want you to know that." I was so nervous that Matt would think I was some sort of slut or something. "I would never hurt Jeff like that."
"I know that, calm down. The two of you have known each other to long to want to hurt him like that deliberately."
"You really are a good brother." I said.
"I know. Let's get up to sleep. We do have to get up pretty early." He got up and we walked to our rooms. I heard Matt humming something, but I couldn't make out what it was.
"Matt what are you singing?" I asked him.
"'She lies when she says she's in love with him,'" he simply said.
"I get the point O.K."I said.
"Do you?" he asked me. "I just want you to think about it. I'm not trying to tell you what to do."
"Please don't. I am so confused these days that I wouldn't even be able to pay attention to you even if you tried to tell me what to do."
"I know, and I don't mean to pressure you or anything, but, you need to figure out what to do, and pretty soon, because, here's your room."
"Thanks for not saying anything Matt."
"It's not my place to. Just make sure that you don't play around with his heart."
"I never wanted to in the first place." I gave him a hug. "You're a good man."
"Thank you, you're a good woman. See you bright and early tomorrow morning."
When I walked in Jeff had Geannie laid across his stomach.
"I thought she was spending the night with Shane?" I asked.
Jeff pointed to the corner. Shane was sleeping in a chair in the corner of the room. "He put her to sleep, and then he fell asleep. She woke up again, so I took her."
"O.K. thanks." I gave him a kiss. "I'll take her in a few minutes."
I walked over to the chair and woke up Shane. "Come on daddy, you did your work for tonight." I said.
"I fell asleep I guess."
"You did. Go to your room and get some sleep." I helped Shane out of the chair. "Good night."
Shane gave me a smile and left the room.
"I guess it must be pretty late." I said. "I'm sorry I didn't think that it was that late."
"It's O.K. Shane told me that you wanted to stay down in the dining room a little longer, and I don't mind."
"You are a sweetie do you know that?"
"Thank you," he said.
I changed into my pajamas and crawled into the bed with Gean right by my side.
I heard Jeff roll over and put his arm around me.
"I love you Kay," he said to me. "Kay?" I didn't answer him. I stayed quiet, hoping that he would think that I fell asleep. "Well, good night baby."
I sighed and fell asleep. There was no way that telling Jeff what happened at that time was going to be easy.