Date. 12.05.2001
Time. 9.42 pm
Music. Cowboy Bebop… No Disc
Epilogue
Copyright. I do not own the Vision of Escaflowne nor its characters. Blah blah blah…
Author's Notes. Thank you all!!! I feel so loved! Reviews mean so much to me! *sob* this is the LAST installment of Rota Fortunae. I have a sequel in the works, nothing has been written yet… and I stress the yet. I have a 6 week winter break so I should have something up soon. I'm bored out of my freakin mind. I was going to wait and release this on Hitomi's 20th birthday (December 9, which is two days before my 19th yay1) but I couldn't. Why? Because I was bored. So I hope you all have indulged yourselves in reading my fanfic and I hope to see you in the future!
The Vision of Escaflowne. Rota Fortunae
Epilogue
* * *
11 months/colors later…
Something was wrong. She felt as though a part of her was no longer within her reach. Had it been taken from her? Something… was missing.
Hitomi's eyes flew open and stared at the ceiling, her nose filled with the scent of new paint. The Fanelian palace was in the process of being built. For the first time, she hadn't waken to the sound of men banging their hammers against the roof. No… instead, something else had waken her.
Without looking, her hand sought for him sleeping next to her, but no one lay there. Her pink lips curled into a smile. Oh God… not again… he didn't…
She sat up in the giant bed and swung her feet over. The nighttime sky was just beginning to lighten in the distance, but the crickets continued to chirp noisily. The soft glow of candlelight flickered on the walls, capturing her shadow as she moved. But they offered no warmth.
She shivered as her bare feet touched the wooden floors. Winter came early to this mountain terrain nation, even though this color was the equivalent of her Mystic Moon's October.
Mystic Moon. She couldn't believe that she had just called Earth the Mystic Moon. It hadn't even been a whole year since she had decided to live on Gaea and the Day of Revelation had occurred. Only eleven months.
Eleven incredible months.
She walked across the room, her ghostly nightgown trailing the ground. She opened up her closet door, rooting through the clothes that could give her warmth. Her fingers stopped upon the feel of a familiar material; the sleeved cloak that Gaea had given her. She hadn't worn it since she had tossed it to Celena all those months ago. She rubbed the cloth between her thumb and finger, deciding that it was warm enough, and took it off of the hanger. Swinging it over her shoulders, she proceeded outside.
The stars still shone brightly against the deep blue of the night sky. Her feet padded across the balcony as she clutched the ever-present pendant that still hung from her chest. She drew in a deep breath of the cool air and closed her eyes for concentration.
where is she, van? she asked into her mind.
relax… i've got her right here… he replied with his mind's voice. she was wide awake this morning and i didn't want her to make you get up… you need a break…
Hitomi breathed a sigh of relief. where are you? she asked.
on my way back… we were at the lake… i was over the city earlier… i wanted to show her the kingdom…
She smiled at this. He took such pride in Fanelia. She glanced down and saw a night guard walking around the grounds.
don't come back to the room… dhani is on the prowl… i'll meet you in the garden…
all right… i'll be there in thirty minutes… And with that, Hitomi cut the connection.
She ran back into the room and quickly shoved her feet into her slippers. Careful not to let the door slam, she closed it gently and tiptoed down the hallway. Growing so accustomed to sneaking out on various occasions, she knew exactly where to step so that the boards wouldn't groan.
She thought she was free and clear when she ran smack into Dhani.
"Oh, gods, My Lady!" he cried, bowing slightly at the waist after straightening himself. "I did not see you coming."
She laughed. "No, its entirely my fault, Sir Dhani!" she replied. "I'm just going to go for a early-morning stroll in the gardens."
He nodded. "The palace is coming along nicely," he noticed. "It's almost done."
"Yes… just a few more mon… colors and it'll be finished… finally."
Dhani bowed once more. "My Lady, if you'll excuse me, I must return to my duties."
"Understood… and thank you."
Once more alone, she walked briskly over to the large wooden gate that served entrance to the gardens. Luckily, when Zaibach had attacked the previous year, the gardens were only slightly damaged. Hitomi had been relieved… some of those plants had been hard to come by.
The sweet fragrance of the exotic flowers filled the enclosed grounds. She paused, inhaling deeply the smell, then proceeded to the middle. Van had built her a gazebo with a swinging bench as a belated birthday present. Or an early one as he put it. She sat upon one of the cushions and slowly pushed off, let the seat swing gently.
She pulled out the worn journal from a secret compartment underneath and a pen she had inside her ever present duffel bag. She found this place comforting and the only place where she could write in her diary. She bit the cap and began to write:
I don't know if this will ever be legible to anyone on Gaea since I've only written in Japanese. Perhaps somehow this will travel to Earth and my story will be acknowledged…
My name is Hitomi Kanzaki de Fanel. With this attaching last name, I am Queen of Fanelia, but I certainly don't feel like I'm royal. As of now, I have only lived on Gaea for less than a year… but I have chosen to stay here. I don't know where to start to tell my story of how I came to live on an entirely different planet. Perhaps at the beginning… that's a good place. The beginning was about eight years ago… when I was fifteen. It had been a normal day… wake up, go to school, take tests, track practice… but something completely altered my life. It all started with a boy and his dragon…
Something rustled in one of the large bushes. Hitomi quickly shut her journal and hid it underneath, her eyes scanning everywhere. Suddenly, a doe leapt from the bush and looked at her with large, brown eyes.
Hitomi eased back into the bench. "Hello, Gaea," she said, softly.
"Hello, dear child," she heard her great-grandmother's soft voice speak from right next to her. The doe in front of her disappeared, and Gaea sat on the swinging bench, smiling.
"God… don't do that!" Hitomi said, drawing her cloak tighter.
"Why not?" she asked innocently. "You can do it, too, you know."
"I know…" she replied. "But I'm not really used to everything yet."
Gaea smiled even more. "So how are you adjusting to life here? I'm sure that it's quite different from the densely populated Japan with all your technologies?"
"No… no, it hasn't been that bad actually," Hitomi straightened her nightgown. "I mean, I'm more comfortable here than I was there." She pointed to the Earth hanging in the violet sky.
Gaea nodded. "And how's the family life?"
Hitomi let out a laugh. "I never thought I would be married and have a child at the age of 22," she said. "At this point, I'd be working… just out of college… new to the world." She paused, formulating her next words. "But this… my life is wonderful because of Van and Sellie."
"Ah… last time I visited, she didn't have a name yet," Gaea said. "You decided then?"
Hitomi nodded. "Selmé Rynna de Fanel," she replied. "It's Fanelian… I thought it was fitting."
Gaea smiled. "'Child of twilight,'" she analyzed it. "I believe its fitting as well. And speaking of…" She pointed into the distance.
Hitomi stood up quickly as her heart lightened. She could see her love winging his way over the palace, slowing down as he approached the gardens. He beat his colossal wings towards the ground and lightly touched the flowery floor.
As he approached her and Gaea, clutching the bundle of blankets in his strong arms, Hitomi crossed her own in front of her chest, tapping her foot.
"Oh great… what did I do now?" he asked, still a little breathless from the long flight.
"You know she's too young to go out flying just yet," she said.
"Two colors isn't too young!" he cried. "My mother took both me and Folken out when we were much younger…"
"…and look at how well you turned out," she pointed out. Van had a look of bewilderment plastered on his face until she smiled to show she was only joking. He smirked as she stepped forward and peeked beneath the mass of warm blankets. A tiny hand reached out and grasped her finger.
Hitomi drew back the covers to reveal a giggling face. Selmé's sparkling green eyes as she happily looked up at her parents. With her other free hand, she shoved a flower towards Hitomi.
"Oh, sweetie," she said, inhaling the perfume of the wildflower. "This is beautiful." She eyed Van. "I guess I *have* to forgive you now."
He snorted and looked at Gaea. "Would you like to hold your great-great-granddaughter, My Lady?" he asked.
She nodded and took the babe from his arms. She made a cooing noise at Selmé, who shrieked with delight.
"Little one, you have such an amazing and strenuous life coming," she said as she made some sort of mark upon her forehead. "I bless you as a child of Atlantis. With this sign, you will be protected."
"So when are you coming flying with me again," Van asked Hitomi as they stood to the side, observing. "You haven't gone once since she's been born." He made a pouting face. "I'm lonely."
"You're right… I haven't gone out lately, have I?" she laughed. "Fine, we'll go tonight… just you and me."
He kissed her on the cheek. "It's a date, then," he whispered into her hair. He looked back over to Gaea and his daughter, who had been apparently falling asleep in her arms. "If you don't mind, ladies, I'm going to take Sellie to bed," he said. Gaea transferred the baby to him and he spread his wings out wide.
"I'll be up in a minute," Hitomi said. He smiled at her and took off, flying towards the balcony.
"She's beautiful, Hitomi," Gaea said from behind her. "So full of life… just like you."
"Just like us," she replied. "Although I tend to think she takes more after her father."
Gaea let out a ringing laugh. "I also see that you still wear this." She pointed to the Atlantean pendant hanging from her neck.
Hitomi's fingers instinctively touched the stone. "I know that I don't need it," she said. "But I like having it around. It's still my good luck charm." She walked back to her bench.
"There's something else that's troubling you, isn't there, little one?" Gaea asked, joining her.
"When I received the power of Atlantis… the voice told me that I was pregnant with Sellie at that exact moment… and then you… just now, you said that her life will be hard…" She paused. "It's not over, is it?"
Gaea shook her head, her soft black hair tumbling down with white blossoms tied in it. "Far from it… this cycle will never end. In fact, I would say that this is merely the beginning."
"But Sellie?"
"When the power of Atlantis entered you, it entered her as well," she replied. "She has such responsibilities in her future, along with you."
"So we will be needed later on, then?"
"Not in the near future, but soon." She took Hitomi's hand. "But don't think of it right now, dear heart. Live in the moment, with your husband and daughter."
With that, Gaea stood up and bowed to her. "I must get back… but if you ever need me, just call on me." She walked down the steps of the gazebo and into the bushes, disappearing into the greenery.
* * *
She returned to her room as quietly as she had left it. She remained in the gardens a few more moments after Gaea had disappeared into the flowers, then walked up the steps to the sleeping quarters. The sun, not having dawned, had begun to lighten the sky. A few more hours of sleeping in, then back to work. But she would cherish those few hours.
She grasped the handle and pushed the door open, peeking inside. Van must have started a fire for it seemed a little warmer than when she left it a little while ago. He lay sleeping in the middle of the bed with no covers on, still in the same breeches he had worn flying. She squeezed in and shut it, hearing a faint click in doing so.
"So what did you talk with Gaea about?" Van asked, not stirring in the bed.
"I thought you were asleep!" she huffed.
He grinned, not opening his eyes. "Nope. Waited for you."
She walked over, tossing the cloak onto a chair and stood at his side. "You didn't even put away your wings, you lazy ass," she noted. It was true; his Draconian wings hung off the sides of bed on either side. "Now where am I supposed to sleep?"
"Hmmm… good question. I mean, there's me… and Sellie didn't exactly want to go back to her basinet or anything." His eyes opened and looked down at the sleeping baby on his chest. He had removed her blankets so that she slept only in her cloth diaper upon his bare skin.
"That's a good way for her to catch cold, you know," she said. "Oh well." With that, she released her own wings and climbed into bed, covering her child with one and snuggled closer into Van's warmth. She used her feet and brought up the covers up to their mid section.
"You never answered me," he said, stroking her hair tenderly. "What were you and Gaea talking about?"
"She just asked how I was doing here," she replied, adjusting her wing so that it fully covered Sellie. She had failed to notice the single white feather that the baby clutched tightly in her tiny hand. "And that it wasn't over. I'm going to be needed again. And so will she."
"Sellie? Does she have it, too?"
Hitomi nodded. "But we don't have to worry about anything right now. It won't be for awhile."
"Good. We have some time to enjoy ourselves." He kissed the top of her head. "Good night, love."
"Good night." But Hitomi didn't go to sleep. She lay there, in her true love's arms, wondering of what was to come. Gaea had echoed the exact words that Ashira had once said.
*It doesn't end here. It's only the beginning.*
THE END
Selmé Rynna actually doesn't mean "child of twilight." Only part of it does. I got the name Selmé from some JRR Tolkien treasury or something and it was an Elf word that meant "twilight." Only it was spelled Silmé. I changed it. Oops. Her middle name comes from a character's nickname in the Last Dragonlord, a book series (there's only 2) that I got hooked on.
Dhani is named after George Harrison's son. I am a huge Beatles fan and I was deeply saddened by his passing. But now he's jamming with John.
"You're gonna carry that weight…"
Time. 9.42 pm
Music. Cowboy Bebop… No Disc
Epilogue
Copyright. I do not own the Vision of Escaflowne nor its characters. Blah blah blah…
Author's Notes. Thank you all!!! I feel so loved! Reviews mean so much to me! *sob* this is the LAST installment of Rota Fortunae. I have a sequel in the works, nothing has been written yet… and I stress the yet. I have a 6 week winter break so I should have something up soon. I'm bored out of my freakin mind. I was going to wait and release this on Hitomi's 20th birthday (December 9, which is two days before my 19th yay1) but I couldn't. Why? Because I was bored. So I hope you all have indulged yourselves in reading my fanfic and I hope to see you in the future!
The Vision of Escaflowne. Rota Fortunae
Epilogue
* * *
11 months/colors later…
Something was wrong. She felt as though a part of her was no longer within her reach. Had it been taken from her? Something… was missing.
Hitomi's eyes flew open and stared at the ceiling, her nose filled with the scent of new paint. The Fanelian palace was in the process of being built. For the first time, she hadn't waken to the sound of men banging their hammers against the roof. No… instead, something else had waken her.
Without looking, her hand sought for him sleeping next to her, but no one lay there. Her pink lips curled into a smile. Oh God… not again… he didn't…
She sat up in the giant bed and swung her feet over. The nighttime sky was just beginning to lighten in the distance, but the crickets continued to chirp noisily. The soft glow of candlelight flickered on the walls, capturing her shadow as she moved. But they offered no warmth.
She shivered as her bare feet touched the wooden floors. Winter came early to this mountain terrain nation, even though this color was the equivalent of her Mystic Moon's October.
Mystic Moon. She couldn't believe that she had just called Earth the Mystic Moon. It hadn't even been a whole year since she had decided to live on Gaea and the Day of Revelation had occurred. Only eleven months.
Eleven incredible months.
She walked across the room, her ghostly nightgown trailing the ground. She opened up her closet door, rooting through the clothes that could give her warmth. Her fingers stopped upon the feel of a familiar material; the sleeved cloak that Gaea had given her. She hadn't worn it since she had tossed it to Celena all those months ago. She rubbed the cloth between her thumb and finger, deciding that it was warm enough, and took it off of the hanger. Swinging it over her shoulders, she proceeded outside.
The stars still shone brightly against the deep blue of the night sky. Her feet padded across the balcony as she clutched the ever-present pendant that still hung from her chest. She drew in a deep breath of the cool air and closed her eyes for concentration.
where is she, van? she asked into her mind.
relax… i've got her right here… he replied with his mind's voice. she was wide awake this morning and i didn't want her to make you get up… you need a break…
Hitomi breathed a sigh of relief. where are you? she asked.
on my way back… we were at the lake… i was over the city earlier… i wanted to show her the kingdom…
She smiled at this. He took such pride in Fanelia. She glanced down and saw a night guard walking around the grounds.
don't come back to the room… dhani is on the prowl… i'll meet you in the garden…
all right… i'll be there in thirty minutes… And with that, Hitomi cut the connection.
She ran back into the room and quickly shoved her feet into her slippers. Careful not to let the door slam, she closed it gently and tiptoed down the hallway. Growing so accustomed to sneaking out on various occasions, she knew exactly where to step so that the boards wouldn't groan.
She thought she was free and clear when she ran smack into Dhani.
"Oh, gods, My Lady!" he cried, bowing slightly at the waist after straightening himself. "I did not see you coming."
She laughed. "No, its entirely my fault, Sir Dhani!" she replied. "I'm just going to go for a early-morning stroll in the gardens."
He nodded. "The palace is coming along nicely," he noticed. "It's almost done."
"Yes… just a few more mon… colors and it'll be finished… finally."
Dhani bowed once more. "My Lady, if you'll excuse me, I must return to my duties."
"Understood… and thank you."
Once more alone, she walked briskly over to the large wooden gate that served entrance to the gardens. Luckily, when Zaibach had attacked the previous year, the gardens were only slightly damaged. Hitomi had been relieved… some of those plants had been hard to come by.
The sweet fragrance of the exotic flowers filled the enclosed grounds. She paused, inhaling deeply the smell, then proceeded to the middle. Van had built her a gazebo with a swinging bench as a belated birthday present. Or an early one as he put it. She sat upon one of the cushions and slowly pushed off, let the seat swing gently.
She pulled out the worn journal from a secret compartment underneath and a pen she had inside her ever present duffel bag. She found this place comforting and the only place where she could write in her diary. She bit the cap and began to write:
I don't know if this will ever be legible to anyone on Gaea since I've only written in Japanese. Perhaps somehow this will travel to Earth and my story will be acknowledged…
My name is Hitomi Kanzaki de Fanel. With this attaching last name, I am Queen of Fanelia, but I certainly don't feel like I'm royal. As of now, I have only lived on Gaea for less than a year… but I have chosen to stay here. I don't know where to start to tell my story of how I came to live on an entirely different planet. Perhaps at the beginning… that's a good place. The beginning was about eight years ago… when I was fifteen. It had been a normal day… wake up, go to school, take tests, track practice… but something completely altered my life. It all started with a boy and his dragon…
Something rustled in one of the large bushes. Hitomi quickly shut her journal and hid it underneath, her eyes scanning everywhere. Suddenly, a doe leapt from the bush and looked at her with large, brown eyes.
Hitomi eased back into the bench. "Hello, Gaea," she said, softly.
"Hello, dear child," she heard her great-grandmother's soft voice speak from right next to her. The doe in front of her disappeared, and Gaea sat on the swinging bench, smiling.
"God… don't do that!" Hitomi said, drawing her cloak tighter.
"Why not?" she asked innocently. "You can do it, too, you know."
"I know…" she replied. "But I'm not really used to everything yet."
Gaea smiled even more. "So how are you adjusting to life here? I'm sure that it's quite different from the densely populated Japan with all your technologies?"
"No… no, it hasn't been that bad actually," Hitomi straightened her nightgown. "I mean, I'm more comfortable here than I was there." She pointed to the Earth hanging in the violet sky.
Gaea nodded. "And how's the family life?"
Hitomi let out a laugh. "I never thought I would be married and have a child at the age of 22," she said. "At this point, I'd be working… just out of college… new to the world." She paused, formulating her next words. "But this… my life is wonderful because of Van and Sellie."
"Ah… last time I visited, she didn't have a name yet," Gaea said. "You decided then?"
Hitomi nodded. "Selmé Rynna de Fanel," she replied. "It's Fanelian… I thought it was fitting."
Gaea smiled. "'Child of twilight,'" she analyzed it. "I believe its fitting as well. And speaking of…" She pointed into the distance.
Hitomi stood up quickly as her heart lightened. She could see her love winging his way over the palace, slowing down as he approached the gardens. He beat his colossal wings towards the ground and lightly touched the flowery floor.
As he approached her and Gaea, clutching the bundle of blankets in his strong arms, Hitomi crossed her own in front of her chest, tapping her foot.
"Oh great… what did I do now?" he asked, still a little breathless from the long flight.
"You know she's too young to go out flying just yet," she said.
"Two colors isn't too young!" he cried. "My mother took both me and Folken out when we were much younger…"
"…and look at how well you turned out," she pointed out. Van had a look of bewilderment plastered on his face until she smiled to show she was only joking. He smirked as she stepped forward and peeked beneath the mass of warm blankets. A tiny hand reached out and grasped her finger.
Hitomi drew back the covers to reveal a giggling face. Selmé's sparkling green eyes as she happily looked up at her parents. With her other free hand, she shoved a flower towards Hitomi.
"Oh, sweetie," she said, inhaling the perfume of the wildflower. "This is beautiful." She eyed Van. "I guess I *have* to forgive you now."
He snorted and looked at Gaea. "Would you like to hold your great-great-granddaughter, My Lady?" he asked.
She nodded and took the babe from his arms. She made a cooing noise at Selmé, who shrieked with delight.
"Little one, you have such an amazing and strenuous life coming," she said as she made some sort of mark upon her forehead. "I bless you as a child of Atlantis. With this sign, you will be protected."
"So when are you coming flying with me again," Van asked Hitomi as they stood to the side, observing. "You haven't gone once since she's been born." He made a pouting face. "I'm lonely."
"You're right… I haven't gone out lately, have I?" she laughed. "Fine, we'll go tonight… just you and me."
He kissed her on the cheek. "It's a date, then," he whispered into her hair. He looked back over to Gaea and his daughter, who had been apparently falling asleep in her arms. "If you don't mind, ladies, I'm going to take Sellie to bed," he said. Gaea transferred the baby to him and he spread his wings out wide.
"I'll be up in a minute," Hitomi said. He smiled at her and took off, flying towards the balcony.
"She's beautiful, Hitomi," Gaea said from behind her. "So full of life… just like you."
"Just like us," she replied. "Although I tend to think she takes more after her father."
Gaea let out a ringing laugh. "I also see that you still wear this." She pointed to the Atlantean pendant hanging from her neck.
Hitomi's fingers instinctively touched the stone. "I know that I don't need it," she said. "But I like having it around. It's still my good luck charm." She walked back to her bench.
"There's something else that's troubling you, isn't there, little one?" Gaea asked, joining her.
"When I received the power of Atlantis… the voice told me that I was pregnant with Sellie at that exact moment… and then you… just now, you said that her life will be hard…" She paused. "It's not over, is it?"
Gaea shook her head, her soft black hair tumbling down with white blossoms tied in it. "Far from it… this cycle will never end. In fact, I would say that this is merely the beginning."
"But Sellie?"
"When the power of Atlantis entered you, it entered her as well," she replied. "She has such responsibilities in her future, along with you."
"So we will be needed later on, then?"
"Not in the near future, but soon." She took Hitomi's hand. "But don't think of it right now, dear heart. Live in the moment, with your husband and daughter."
With that, Gaea stood up and bowed to her. "I must get back… but if you ever need me, just call on me." She walked down the steps of the gazebo and into the bushes, disappearing into the greenery.
* * *
She returned to her room as quietly as she had left it. She remained in the gardens a few more moments after Gaea had disappeared into the flowers, then walked up the steps to the sleeping quarters. The sun, not having dawned, had begun to lighten the sky. A few more hours of sleeping in, then back to work. But she would cherish those few hours.
She grasped the handle and pushed the door open, peeking inside. Van must have started a fire for it seemed a little warmer than when she left it a little while ago. He lay sleeping in the middle of the bed with no covers on, still in the same breeches he had worn flying. She squeezed in and shut it, hearing a faint click in doing so.
"So what did you talk with Gaea about?" Van asked, not stirring in the bed.
"I thought you were asleep!" she huffed.
He grinned, not opening his eyes. "Nope. Waited for you."
She walked over, tossing the cloak onto a chair and stood at his side. "You didn't even put away your wings, you lazy ass," she noted. It was true; his Draconian wings hung off the sides of bed on either side. "Now where am I supposed to sleep?"
"Hmmm… good question. I mean, there's me… and Sellie didn't exactly want to go back to her basinet or anything." His eyes opened and looked down at the sleeping baby on his chest. He had removed her blankets so that she slept only in her cloth diaper upon his bare skin.
"That's a good way for her to catch cold, you know," she said. "Oh well." With that, she released her own wings and climbed into bed, covering her child with one and snuggled closer into Van's warmth. She used her feet and brought up the covers up to their mid section.
"You never answered me," he said, stroking her hair tenderly. "What were you and Gaea talking about?"
"She just asked how I was doing here," she replied, adjusting her wing so that it fully covered Sellie. She had failed to notice the single white feather that the baby clutched tightly in her tiny hand. "And that it wasn't over. I'm going to be needed again. And so will she."
"Sellie? Does she have it, too?"
Hitomi nodded. "But we don't have to worry about anything right now. It won't be for awhile."
"Good. We have some time to enjoy ourselves." He kissed the top of her head. "Good night, love."
"Good night." But Hitomi didn't go to sleep. She lay there, in her true love's arms, wondering of what was to come. Gaea had echoed the exact words that Ashira had once said.
*It doesn't end here. It's only the beginning.*
THE END
Selmé Rynna actually doesn't mean "child of twilight." Only part of it does. I got the name Selmé from some JRR Tolkien treasury or something and it was an Elf word that meant "twilight." Only it was spelled Silmé. I changed it. Oops. Her middle name comes from a character's nickname in the Last Dragonlord, a book series (there's only 2) that I got hooked on.
Dhani is named after George Harrison's son. I am a huge Beatles fan and I was deeply saddened by his passing. But now he's jamming with John.
"You're gonna carry that weight…"