Disclaimers: It's written in disjointed English. This is a POV, I'm allowed to do that. ^.~ I don't own Weiß, however much I wish I did. Don't sue me. You won't get a dime. O.o; Oh, and the lyrics? I only used bits and pieces that I wanted. Gomen. ^.^ This is complete, utter random rummaging around in Omi's brain. It twists, it curves, it coils. There's no straight line here. ¬.¬
Lyrics are from Kid Rock's "God Knows Why," hence the title of the ficlet.
One more thing: To understand the latter part about Noh, please go to [1]http://www.iijnet.or.jp/NOH-KYOGEN/english/english.html for information. The Noh shite is the main character.
//'s indicate music lyrics.
God Knows Why...
//I've been sittin' here
Tryin' to find myself
I get behind myself
I need to rewind myself
Lookin' for the payback
Listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me//
It's sort of funny, really. The others hate it when I listen to American music. I think because they don't... understand it. Not in the sense that they don't understand eigo, but... Maybe they just don't understand the songs.
But this one... The one that's playing right now. It sounds like me. Sounds like me, when I'm not smiling at the world, pretending that everything's all right. When I'm alone, when I let myself go.
When it's okay for me to cry.
//I take too many pills it helps to ease the pain
I made a couple of dollar bills still I feel the same//
I have to smile, for them. For my... brothers.
They're my brothers, plain and simple. Ken-kun... Aya-kun... ...Youji-kun.
//And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around//
The Takatori clan, they were never my family. I never was Takatori Mamoru.
Weiß... is my family.
//People don't know about the things I say and do
They don't understand about the shit that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone... I've been gone for way too long
Maybe I forgot all things I miss
Oh somehow I know there's more to life than this//
They know me. They know who I am... And, sometimes, they've seen deeper than I would have liked... seen into my heart, seen past the mask. Seen it break, seen it tossed aside like the mask of a Noh shite.
//I said it too many times
And I still stand firm
You get what you put in
And people get what they deserve
Still I ain't seen mine
No I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin'
I've been walking down that line//
So when will /I/ break?
When will I lose control...?
When will I lose myself?
...I can't. I'm needed. I can't ever let myself slip. Ken-kun, Aya-kun, Youji-kun, they need me. They need my smiles. They need me to care.
So is this why I keep it up? Is this why I keep going? For the men I privately call my brothers?
//So I think I'll keep on walking
With my head held high
I'll keep moving on and only God knows why
Only God.....only God
Only God knows why
Only God....knows....why why why only God knows why//
...Only God knows why.
~OWARI~
Read! Review! Comments and Constructive Criticism, please? (Flames will be pointed at, laughed at, then used to toast marshmallows. Mmm, s'smores....)
References
1. http://www.iijnet.or.jp/NOH-KYOGEN/english/english.html
Lyrics are from Kid Rock's "God Knows Why," hence the title of the ficlet.
One more thing: To understand the latter part about Noh, please go to [1]http://www.iijnet.or.jp/NOH-KYOGEN/english/english.html for information. The Noh shite is the main character.
//'s indicate music lyrics.
God Knows Why...
//I've been sittin' here
Tryin' to find myself
I get behind myself
I need to rewind myself
Lookin' for the payback
Listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me//
It's sort of funny, really. The others hate it when I listen to American music. I think because they don't... understand it. Not in the sense that they don't understand eigo, but... Maybe they just don't understand the songs.
But this one... The one that's playing right now. It sounds like me. Sounds like me, when I'm not smiling at the world, pretending that everything's all right. When I'm alone, when I let myself go.
When it's okay for me to cry.
//I take too many pills it helps to ease the pain
I made a couple of dollar bills still I feel the same//
I have to smile, for them. For my... brothers.
They're my brothers, plain and simple. Ken-kun... Aya-kun... ...Youji-kun.
//And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around//
The Takatori clan, they were never my family. I never was Takatori Mamoru.
Weiß... is my family.
//People don't know about the things I say and do
They don't understand about the shit that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone... I've been gone for way too long
Maybe I forgot all things I miss
Oh somehow I know there's more to life than this//
They know me. They know who I am... And, sometimes, they've seen deeper than I would have liked... seen into my heart, seen past the mask. Seen it break, seen it tossed aside like the mask of a Noh shite.
//I said it too many times
And I still stand firm
You get what you put in
And people get what they deserve
Still I ain't seen mine
No I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin'
I've been walking down that line//
So when will /I/ break?
When will I lose control...?
When will I lose myself?
...I can't. I'm needed. I can't ever let myself slip. Ken-kun, Aya-kun, Youji-kun, they need me. They need my smiles. They need me to care.
So is this why I keep it up? Is this why I keep going? For the men I privately call my brothers?
//So I think I'll keep on walking
With my head held high
I'll keep moving on and only God knows why
Only God.....only God
Only God knows why
Only God....knows....why why why only God knows why//
...Only God knows why.
~OWARI~
Read! Review! Comments and Constructive Criticism, please? (Flames will be pointed at, laughed at, then used to toast marshmallows. Mmm, s'smores....)
References
1. http://www.iijnet.or.jp/NOH-KYOGEN/english/english.html