Chapter Three
God, why am I thinking about this so much? Is it because happiness like this is so foreign to me that I'm trying to pick it apart? Maybe. All I know is that I'm laying here with Caroline in my arms, and I can't help but smile. Me. Richard Karinsky. I'm smiling.
It's kind of funny to look back at it now. Last night should have been miserable, but it turned out to be the best night of both of our lives. Well, my life at least.
I was so excited after she hung up the with Joe. She broke up with him for me, she actually loved me the most. I've never been the first choice in my whole life. My father's first choice was his comedy career. My mother's was whiskey. Hell, even Julia chose her trust fund over me, and she was supposed to be the love of my life. But now I know that Caroline is. She chose me. She loves me. I was so excited.
And she could tell I was excited too. She pressed her head to my chest and felt my heart racing. Unfortunately, she thought something was wrong, that it wasn't racing because I was happy, but because I thought we were making a mistake. "What's wrong?" she asked and looked up at me with those big, expressive brown eyes. She looked terrified.
All I wanted was to erase that look from her face. I smiled and kissed the top of her head. "Nothing's wrong. I'm perfect now." She smiled and leaned up to kiss me again. God, her lips felt so right up against mine, so perfect.
It didn't take long for that kiss to turn into more. She reached for the buckle on my pants again, but this time I didn't stop her. Instead, I helped her remove her shirt. Pretty soon, we were both naked. I took a minute to let her form saturate my mind. She was so beautiful, absolutely stunning. "You are so beautiful," I told her, but she just blushed. God, her naivete was such a turn on.
That was all it took really, just that innocent blush. I was hers forever. My hands went all over her body. Her skin was so soft and smooth. She was driving me crazy.
It was actually kind of funny. She got so impatient with the foreplay that she just grabbed my hips and pulled them right on top of hers, not exactly a subtle hint. So I put myself into her, and it was amazing.
Looking back now, all I can do is smile and pull her in a little tighter. I don't think I'll ever be able to let her go now. After the connection we made last night, it'll be impossible to tear her away from me.
I can't believe I finally got to prove to her just how much she means to me. I mean, wow. That's the only word I can think of to describe this experience. It was absolutely incredible. When we were one, I thought my head was going to explode. It was, by far, the most intensely wonderful moment of my life. I wonder if I'll get that feeling every time we make love...probably. At least I hope so.
God, she felt so perfect below me, around me...with me. I've never really believed in fate, but I think I'm starting to. It's like we were made to compliment each other, both physically and mentally. I mean, yes that was the best sex I've ever had, but it is so much more than that too. I've never met someone who challenges me as much as she does. She always tries to make me see that the world isn't always an awful place. I wonder if she knows that I believe her now. A world that allows me to be with someone like her, can't be all bad.
The End