Disclaimer: I hate writing these things, but if I don't, I'll get sued. So
here
it goes. I own nothing except for the plot. Everything else
belongs to J.K. Rowling.
Chapter 9
Harry led Ginny outside by the hand, not knowing exactly where he was going. His mind was filled with so many thoughts, each of them not being happy ones. He wanted to get what he had to do over with, and yet, he didn't want to begin. His thoughts were disturbed when he felt Ginny stop walking.
"I figured you wanted to come to our spot. Am I right?" Ginny asked smiling.
'That wonderful smile, I always loved it. It could make a person feel as if everything was ok,' Harry thought. Then, realizing that Ginny was still waiting for a response said, "Yeah, I was planning to come here."
"Are you ok, Harry? You look worried about something."
"No, I'm not ok. Look, Ginny, we have to talk."
"Well, I'm all ears," Ginny said this still smiling.
I don't exactly know how to put this," Harry said looking at his feet.
"Look at me, Harry," Ginny said as she lifted his chin to make him look her in the eyes, "What's wrong?"
Harry felt his eyes fill up with tears, but he didn't want her to see him this upset. He looked down at the floor again and whispered, "I don't think this is going to work out."
'Why does that sound so familiar?' Harry thought, 'It's like I heard that before.' Then it hit him, Draco had said the same exact thing to Ginny just a few months earlier. Once again, Ginny interrupted his thoughts.
"What are you talking about?!?" she asked sounding both angry and hurt.
"I just think that we should break up," he said as calmly as possible.
"Why?!?"
"Because."
"I think I at least deserve an explanation!" she said louder. Harry noticed that a few stray tears were streaming down her face. Whether they were tears of pain or frustration, he didn't know.
"I can't explain why."
"It's not that you can't. It's that you don't want to!!" Ginny screamed now getting red in the face.
"I just don't think that it's going to work out. Trust me on this one."
"What ever happened to, 'I love you, Ginny Weasley,'" Ginny screamed and then completely broke down, "You told me you loved me!!!"
Harry didn't know what to do. He really did love her, but if he stayed with her, she would be hurt and it would be his entire fault. Finally, he spoke up, "I lied."
"So, you're telling me that you never loved me? Everything that we shared meant nothing to you??!!??"
Harry felt a lump form in his throat, but somehow managed to say, "Exactly. It meant nothing to me. I never loved you. The whole time we were together, I was lying to you!" As if things weren't bad enough, it began to rain.
"But- but why? Why did you do this to me? How could you use me like that??"
"Just having fun I guess," Harry said trying to keep the conversation short. It was breaking his heart to do this to her and he was afraid that he would start to cry also, "Let's get inside. It's raining and I don't want you to get sick."
"Do you actually think that I would go somewhere with you after what you just told me. And like you would care if I got sick!! You just told me that you never loved me!"
Harry wanted to scream that he did care for her and that he did love her. He even opened his mouth to say so, but caught himself just in time. He looked at her face and saw the pain in it. However, that expression hurt him less than the one that he would see only a few seconds later. Her face was filled with disgust, disgust with him. In her eyes, he could see a little bit of hate. Never had he ever felt so miserable. To see the woman he loved look at him in such a way tore him apart.
"I don't know what I ever saw in you, Harry!! I can't understand how I could ever love someone like you!! Just to look at you now makes me disgusted."
"Ginny, stop it!"
"Don't you ever tell me what to do!! You have nothing to do with my life anymore!"
Harry grabbed her arm, realizing too late that it was a big mistake. Ginny whipped around, pulled her arm out of his grip, and slapped him in one swift motion. Harry knew that he deserved this and didn't do anything. Then said something that would ring in his ears for a very long time.
"I hope I never see you again. My only other hope is that you drop dead!" she screamed. She was drenched from the rain, her eyes were red from crying so much, and the bottom of her robes had mud on them. She then ran back into the building.
Harry had never been so sad. The only emotion that was surpassing his sadness was anger. It seemed as if his life was falling apart. Sirius was in danger and he lost the love of his life. He punched the tree which used to symbolize his and Ginny's love. By doing so, he split the skin on his knuckles. He felt no pain though. He really didn't even notice the blood that was covering his hand.
"Why does this always happen?!?!?" he thought aloud. His knees became weak and he sank to the ground, not caring that he was getting covered in mud. Nothing mattered to him. "I almost hope that Ginny gets her wish and I do die tonight!"
Harry then began to cry. He cried harder than he ever had before. It was a truly pitiful sight. Rain was mixing with tears, which were mixing with blood. He was a mess.
"I have to talk to someone," he said as he used whatever strength he had to get up and begin the walk inside. His worst fear was that he might run into Ginny, but the person Harry really should have been afraid of was Ron. At the moment, Harry had forgotten how protective Ron was of Ginny.
When Harry walked into the Gryffindor Common Room, he was a complete mess and everyone was staring at him. He saw Ron and Hermione also looking at him, but somehow didn't notice the anger etched into it.
"Ron, can we-" Harry began, but he was cut off by Ron.
"How dare you hurt my sister like that!!!!????!!!!" Ron yelled so loud that some people jumped. They had never seen Ron so upset.
"Listen, Ron, I can explain," Harry said.
"There is no explanation good enough for breaking my sister's heart the way you did!" Ron yelled even louder that some people decided it best to leave the Common Room.
"Ron, let Harry explain!" Hermione pleaded. Harry had a feeling that Hermione knew the reason behind the way Harry had behaved.
"Why should I let him explain?!? He used my sister. God, Harry, I never thought you would do this!!"
"Ron, listen-" Harry was once again interrupted by Ron.
"You better stay the bloody hell away from my sister!" Ron screamed and then punched Harry in the face. Harry never would have believed that Ron could be so strong. Just before Harry blacked out, he heard Ron say, "Maybe his parents killed themselves just to get away from him! I know I would do that!!"
A/N - Finally, my writer's block has been cured!! Just before I fell asleep last night, I thought this up and I couldn't wait until the morning to type it. Well, I hope you enjoyed it. This is the conflict that I was talking about. I'll try to get chapter 10 up soon. Please, as a Christmas gift, review my story!! Thanks!!
it goes. I own nothing except for the plot. Everything else
belongs to J.K. Rowling.
Chapter 9
Harry led Ginny outside by the hand, not knowing exactly where he was going. His mind was filled with so many thoughts, each of them not being happy ones. He wanted to get what he had to do over with, and yet, he didn't want to begin. His thoughts were disturbed when he felt Ginny stop walking.
"I figured you wanted to come to our spot. Am I right?" Ginny asked smiling.
'That wonderful smile, I always loved it. It could make a person feel as if everything was ok,' Harry thought. Then, realizing that Ginny was still waiting for a response said, "Yeah, I was planning to come here."
"Are you ok, Harry? You look worried about something."
"No, I'm not ok. Look, Ginny, we have to talk."
"Well, I'm all ears," Ginny said this still smiling.
I don't exactly know how to put this," Harry said looking at his feet.
"Look at me, Harry," Ginny said as she lifted his chin to make him look her in the eyes, "What's wrong?"
Harry felt his eyes fill up with tears, but he didn't want her to see him this upset. He looked down at the floor again and whispered, "I don't think this is going to work out."
'Why does that sound so familiar?' Harry thought, 'It's like I heard that before.' Then it hit him, Draco had said the same exact thing to Ginny just a few months earlier. Once again, Ginny interrupted his thoughts.
"What are you talking about?!?" she asked sounding both angry and hurt.
"I just think that we should break up," he said as calmly as possible.
"Why?!?"
"Because."
"I think I at least deserve an explanation!" she said louder. Harry noticed that a few stray tears were streaming down her face. Whether they were tears of pain or frustration, he didn't know.
"I can't explain why."
"It's not that you can't. It's that you don't want to!!" Ginny screamed now getting red in the face.
"I just don't think that it's going to work out. Trust me on this one."
"What ever happened to, 'I love you, Ginny Weasley,'" Ginny screamed and then completely broke down, "You told me you loved me!!!"
Harry didn't know what to do. He really did love her, but if he stayed with her, she would be hurt and it would be his entire fault. Finally, he spoke up, "I lied."
"So, you're telling me that you never loved me? Everything that we shared meant nothing to you??!!??"
Harry felt a lump form in his throat, but somehow managed to say, "Exactly. It meant nothing to me. I never loved you. The whole time we were together, I was lying to you!" As if things weren't bad enough, it began to rain.
"But- but why? Why did you do this to me? How could you use me like that??"
"Just having fun I guess," Harry said trying to keep the conversation short. It was breaking his heart to do this to her and he was afraid that he would start to cry also, "Let's get inside. It's raining and I don't want you to get sick."
"Do you actually think that I would go somewhere with you after what you just told me. And like you would care if I got sick!! You just told me that you never loved me!"
Harry wanted to scream that he did care for her and that he did love her. He even opened his mouth to say so, but caught himself just in time. He looked at her face and saw the pain in it. However, that expression hurt him less than the one that he would see only a few seconds later. Her face was filled with disgust, disgust with him. In her eyes, he could see a little bit of hate. Never had he ever felt so miserable. To see the woman he loved look at him in such a way tore him apart.
"I don't know what I ever saw in you, Harry!! I can't understand how I could ever love someone like you!! Just to look at you now makes me disgusted."
"Ginny, stop it!"
"Don't you ever tell me what to do!! You have nothing to do with my life anymore!"
Harry grabbed her arm, realizing too late that it was a big mistake. Ginny whipped around, pulled her arm out of his grip, and slapped him in one swift motion. Harry knew that he deserved this and didn't do anything. Then said something that would ring in his ears for a very long time.
"I hope I never see you again. My only other hope is that you drop dead!" she screamed. She was drenched from the rain, her eyes were red from crying so much, and the bottom of her robes had mud on them. She then ran back into the building.
Harry had never been so sad. The only emotion that was surpassing his sadness was anger. It seemed as if his life was falling apart. Sirius was in danger and he lost the love of his life. He punched the tree which used to symbolize his and Ginny's love. By doing so, he split the skin on his knuckles. He felt no pain though. He really didn't even notice the blood that was covering his hand.
"Why does this always happen?!?!?" he thought aloud. His knees became weak and he sank to the ground, not caring that he was getting covered in mud. Nothing mattered to him. "I almost hope that Ginny gets her wish and I do die tonight!"
Harry then began to cry. He cried harder than he ever had before. It was a truly pitiful sight. Rain was mixing with tears, which were mixing with blood. He was a mess.
"I have to talk to someone," he said as he used whatever strength he had to get up and begin the walk inside. His worst fear was that he might run into Ginny, but the person Harry really should have been afraid of was Ron. At the moment, Harry had forgotten how protective Ron was of Ginny.
When Harry walked into the Gryffindor Common Room, he was a complete mess and everyone was staring at him. He saw Ron and Hermione also looking at him, but somehow didn't notice the anger etched into it.
"Ron, can we-" Harry began, but he was cut off by Ron.
"How dare you hurt my sister like that!!!!????!!!!" Ron yelled so loud that some people jumped. They had never seen Ron so upset.
"Listen, Ron, I can explain," Harry said.
"There is no explanation good enough for breaking my sister's heart the way you did!" Ron yelled even louder that some people decided it best to leave the Common Room.
"Ron, let Harry explain!" Hermione pleaded. Harry had a feeling that Hermione knew the reason behind the way Harry had behaved.
"Why should I let him explain?!? He used my sister. God, Harry, I never thought you would do this!!"
"Ron, listen-" Harry was once again interrupted by Ron.
"You better stay the bloody hell away from my sister!" Ron screamed and then punched Harry in the face. Harry never would have believed that Ron could be so strong. Just before Harry blacked out, he heard Ron say, "Maybe his parents killed themselves just to get away from him! I know I would do that!!"
A/N - Finally, my writer's block has been cured!! Just before I fell asleep last night, I thought this up and I couldn't wait until the morning to type it. Well, I hope you enjoyed it. This is the conflict that I was talking about. I'll try to get chapter 10 up soon. Please, as a Christmas gift, review my story!! Thanks!!