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"It's Cancer" Eric whispers to Annie. "Amanda has been going to counseling for a while to get help with dealing with her drinking and sneaking out and fighting. She never told anyone ever about the rape, and she freaked when she did and that's why she drank."
"So she really moved here because her mother wants to be near her sons during this time." Annie whispers back
"Robbie is at an age where he is capable of taking care of someone so is Rick although maybe less willing. If Grace wanted her kids near her she would of sent for them." Eric answers
"So what do you think it is? Grace wants to make amends with her sons in case something happens and Amanda needs to be cared for. Is that what your thinking?" Annie asks
"It certainly looks that way. I don't know how advanced her cancer is though, I don't think Amanda does unless she isn't letting it on of course."
"Then what are you planning on doing about this?"
"I'm not so sure yet, I want to see how much Amanda does know first before I jump into this." Eric replies
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"Amanda's mother has cancer." Simon whispers to Lucy "I went upstairs to go and talk to her and I heard them talking. She's been going to counseling too, because of all the trouble she had gotten into from fighting and drinking and stuff like that."
"Wow I never - you know like thought that someone who seemed as sweet as Amanda could be capable of that kind of stuff if what your saying is true." Lucy says wide eyed
"All of it." Simon answers nodding his head. "But I think she's changed from those ways, she said she was finally happy, because of me."
"Simon she's probably having a hangover, and she's taken painkillers this could all be some sort of twisted illusion."
"I never thought you could be so judgmental, this is Amanda we're talking about."
"Come on Simon we've known her for what a week?" Lucy retorts she stops when they hear a door slam for a moment "I'm sorry I've had a stressful day, you're probably right and I probably overreacted."
"You did overreact ok." Simon replies angrily and storms off, he notices Amanda's crutches propped against the wall right outside the doorway. Simon sighs and rushes towards the door. Once outside he stops noticing Amanda hasn't gotten far and is sitting on the bench outside the door. "I thought you had left." He says sitting next to her
"I wasn't lying. I don't do that anymore. But you and Lucy have every right not to believe me. You know your parents are talking about me in the kitchen." She chuckles "They think there's more to our moving here then that my mom wants to be near her kids, they think she might be so sick she wants to have me reconnected with Robbie so he'll take care of me."
Simon studies her carefully, her face much more pale then when he met her, her eyes seemed sort of dull and lifeless, her face was expressionless, her hair lay limply around her. She looked tired and so small sitting there. "What is it?"
"Do you think that's true? That my mom is so sick but didn't tell me?" Amanda asks looking at her hands.
"I only know what you told me, but I think that if that is true then you've got a smart mother, and I think that if that be the case that Robbie cares enough about you that he'd be there for you."
"I hope so." Amanda replies
"Amanda, Simon, what are you two doing out here?" Robbie asks
"Talking." Amanda answers
"Haven't you had enough of that for one night?" Robbie jokes back, he notices she only shrugs in response. "Listen I heard them talking to, if mom really is that sick, and I'm not saying she is, but I will be there to take care of you."
"I know you will, but it would never be the same."
"I know it wont, but mom will be fine."
"Don't make a promise you can't keep." Amanda whispers
"What?"
"That's what mom told dad when he left. Don't make promises you can't keep. Don't promise that mom will be ok, you don't know that."
"Then at least don't worry all right?" Robbie pleads.
"Robbie's right." Simon agrees
"Why are you all outside?" Ruthie opens the door. "Thanks for inviting me. Oh Amanda the phone's for you." Ruthie holds out the phone
"Hello?- how'd you get this number? No I know, yea………Where is she? So why did you call? Oh." Amanda gets quiet and looks down as she listens.
"Ruthie who was on the phone?" Robbie asks
"A guy, he didn't say who" Ruthie shrugs
"One of your friends maybe, about tonight?" Robbie suggests
"Her face is too serious for that." Simon replies
"OK, all right. I got to go though, no he's here. Yes right now. No I don't think that's a good idea. You're coming back when? Why tomorrow? This should be great…..no I'm not holding a grudge, yea bye." Amanda hangs up thoroughly annoyed
"Who was that?" Simon asks immediately
"Rick" Robbie answers "He's the only person that pisses her off like that."
Amanda nods.
"So he's coming here with Mom tomorrow? I guess that means she told him."
Amanda nods again, eyebrows raised. Her eyes shining in the light. Robbie realizes she is about to cry.
"Ruthie can you go inside please? I need to talk to Amanda." Robbie asks
"All right, I'm tired anyway." Ruthie agrees
"I think it really is that bad." Amanda says as soon as the door shut behind Ruthie
"Come on Amanda you don't know that."
"Why else would Rick be coming back with her and both of them early? What else could that mean?" Amanda challenges
"Amanda, Robbie's right you don't know anything yet." Simon argues
Robbie is looking down. "No, she's right, something is wrong for them to be coming back early and for Rick to be coming with her."
Amanda shakes her head looking up at the sky. "I hate this." She mutters softly
"We're going to get through this no matter what the outcome." Robbie assures her "That's a promise I can keep."
"It's amazing you know, how much someone could transform in what seems like overnight." Eric says to Annie as they listen in on their conversation
"You really can't make a habit out of eavesdropping you know." Ruthie says pointedly coming up behind them.
"We're not eavesdropping, we're just…" Eric trails off
"Obtaining information?" Ruthie asks tapping her foot and crossing her arms
"Yes."
She rolls her eyes "Same as eavesdropping." And goes upstairs
Amanda , Robbie and Simon walk in then and see Annie and Eric hovering around the door.
Amanda the colored once more drained from her face goes straight upstairs Simon close behind her. Robbie shakes his head. "Rick's coming is not good. Listen I want to talk to my mom and Rick tomorrow before Amanda gets a chance, I'm going to go while you guys are at church, the only thing is she wont leave the house while she's waiting to find something out meaning…."
"She'll refuse to go to church." Annie finishes "I think we can make an exception in this case."
"Yes I agree." Eric replies "Why don't you try to go and get some sleep."
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Amanda stumbles out of bed the next morning and took a quick shower, toweled off and got dressed. She noticed how quiet the house was as she saunters downstairs and saw Annie rushing to clean the twins mess. "Where are you all going?" Amanda yawned
"Church, but you can stay here in case your mom calls but she said she's be back this evening, then Robbie reminded us of your stubbornness and how you most likely wouldn't budge."
Amanda smiled because she knew how right that was. "Let me clean that for you." She offers
"Thanks, that'd be great we'll see you later." Annie rushes out to the car.
Amanda cleans up the mess of baby food and just as she finishes Simon walks downstairs, rumpled and tired looking.
"Your not at church?"
"I don't feel good." Simon groaned
"Hangover?"
"I don't think so, I got fever too."
"Aww, go back upstairs I'll bring you some tea or something." Amanda smiles happy to be keeping herself busy.
"Here." Amanda sits on Simon's bed with a cup of tea and some crackers. "Stomach Virus is going around, or maybe it's just a cold."
"I'm not really hungry anymore." Simon admits
"I figured that, anything I can get you?"
"No, thanks though."
"All right." Amanda gets up to go to the doorway. "Simon" She hesitates going from foot to foot.
"What's wrong?" Simon asks sitting up
"That other day when this all started, how come you didn't want to….."
"I didn't want to pressure you I guess."
"Oh." Amanda looks around avoiding eye contact.
"Did you ever have sex after…"
"Yea." Amanda replies softly "I couldn't see any reason not too….only once though."
"Was it how you thought it should feel?"
"No."
"So why did you want to have sex with me?"
"Cause I really like you and I can tell your different, enough that you would turn away a chance. Most guys wouldn't."
"You're right."
"So then you're not ready?"
"I don't know, were you?"
"Not really, I thought I was ready for anything."
"I understand you and I wont ever push you to do something you do want to…one question though."
"What?"
"Kissing isn't off limits right?"
"Of course not. Maybe more even" Amanda smiles coyly as she kisses his neck
"Mmmm." Simon groans happily as they continue kissing.
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"Crap!" Amanda mutters breathlessly as her beeper goes off. Simon lays his head on her lap while she checks her beeper.
"Who is it?" He asks studying her face
"My house, my mom's home." Amanda answers softly
Simon sat up and put his arm around her in support. She exhales deeply. "I got to go, I need to face this sooner or later anyway. Don't get up, you're still sick remember?"
"Don't give up hope." Simon kisses her forehead and watches her walk out of his room as he lay back down onto his pillows.
"I'll call you later." Amanda's last words to him were.
To be continued please R&R thanx!
"It's Cancer" Eric whispers to Annie. "Amanda has been going to counseling for a while to get help with dealing with her drinking and sneaking out and fighting. She never told anyone ever about the rape, and she freaked when she did and that's why she drank."
"So she really moved here because her mother wants to be near her sons during this time." Annie whispers back
"Robbie is at an age where he is capable of taking care of someone so is Rick although maybe less willing. If Grace wanted her kids near her she would of sent for them." Eric answers
"So what do you think it is? Grace wants to make amends with her sons in case something happens and Amanda needs to be cared for. Is that what your thinking?" Annie asks
"It certainly looks that way. I don't know how advanced her cancer is though, I don't think Amanda does unless she isn't letting it on of course."
"Then what are you planning on doing about this?"
"I'm not so sure yet, I want to see how much Amanda does know first before I jump into this." Eric replies
***********
"Amanda's mother has cancer." Simon whispers to Lucy "I went upstairs to go and talk to her and I heard them talking. She's been going to counseling too, because of all the trouble she had gotten into from fighting and drinking and stuff like that."
"Wow I never - you know like thought that someone who seemed as sweet as Amanda could be capable of that kind of stuff if what your saying is true." Lucy says wide eyed
"All of it." Simon answers nodding his head. "But I think she's changed from those ways, she said she was finally happy, because of me."
"Simon she's probably having a hangover, and she's taken painkillers this could all be some sort of twisted illusion."
"I never thought you could be so judgmental, this is Amanda we're talking about."
"Come on Simon we've known her for what a week?" Lucy retorts she stops when they hear a door slam for a moment "I'm sorry I've had a stressful day, you're probably right and I probably overreacted."
"You did overreact ok." Simon replies angrily and storms off, he notices Amanda's crutches propped against the wall right outside the doorway. Simon sighs and rushes towards the door. Once outside he stops noticing Amanda hasn't gotten far and is sitting on the bench outside the door. "I thought you had left." He says sitting next to her
"I wasn't lying. I don't do that anymore. But you and Lucy have every right not to believe me. You know your parents are talking about me in the kitchen." She chuckles "They think there's more to our moving here then that my mom wants to be near her kids, they think she might be so sick she wants to have me reconnected with Robbie so he'll take care of me."
Simon studies her carefully, her face much more pale then when he met her, her eyes seemed sort of dull and lifeless, her face was expressionless, her hair lay limply around her. She looked tired and so small sitting there. "What is it?"
"Do you think that's true? That my mom is so sick but didn't tell me?" Amanda asks looking at her hands.
"I only know what you told me, but I think that if that is true then you've got a smart mother, and I think that if that be the case that Robbie cares enough about you that he'd be there for you."
"I hope so." Amanda replies
"Amanda, Simon, what are you two doing out here?" Robbie asks
"Talking." Amanda answers
"Haven't you had enough of that for one night?" Robbie jokes back, he notices she only shrugs in response. "Listen I heard them talking to, if mom really is that sick, and I'm not saying she is, but I will be there to take care of you."
"I know you will, but it would never be the same."
"I know it wont, but mom will be fine."
"Don't make a promise you can't keep." Amanda whispers
"What?"
"That's what mom told dad when he left. Don't make promises you can't keep. Don't promise that mom will be ok, you don't know that."
"Then at least don't worry all right?" Robbie pleads.
"Robbie's right." Simon agrees
"Why are you all outside?" Ruthie opens the door. "Thanks for inviting me. Oh Amanda the phone's for you." Ruthie holds out the phone
"Hello?- how'd you get this number? No I know, yea………Where is she? So why did you call? Oh." Amanda gets quiet and looks down as she listens.
"Ruthie who was on the phone?" Robbie asks
"A guy, he didn't say who" Ruthie shrugs
"One of your friends maybe, about tonight?" Robbie suggests
"Her face is too serious for that." Simon replies
"OK, all right. I got to go though, no he's here. Yes right now. No I don't think that's a good idea. You're coming back when? Why tomorrow? This should be great…..no I'm not holding a grudge, yea bye." Amanda hangs up thoroughly annoyed
"Who was that?" Simon asks immediately
"Rick" Robbie answers "He's the only person that pisses her off like that."
Amanda nods.
"So he's coming here with Mom tomorrow? I guess that means she told him."
Amanda nods again, eyebrows raised. Her eyes shining in the light. Robbie realizes she is about to cry.
"Ruthie can you go inside please? I need to talk to Amanda." Robbie asks
"All right, I'm tired anyway." Ruthie agrees
"I think it really is that bad." Amanda says as soon as the door shut behind Ruthie
"Come on Amanda you don't know that."
"Why else would Rick be coming back with her and both of them early? What else could that mean?" Amanda challenges
"Amanda, Robbie's right you don't know anything yet." Simon argues
Robbie is looking down. "No, she's right, something is wrong for them to be coming back early and for Rick to be coming with her."
Amanda shakes her head looking up at the sky. "I hate this." She mutters softly
"We're going to get through this no matter what the outcome." Robbie assures her "That's a promise I can keep."
"It's amazing you know, how much someone could transform in what seems like overnight." Eric says to Annie as they listen in on their conversation
"You really can't make a habit out of eavesdropping you know." Ruthie says pointedly coming up behind them.
"We're not eavesdropping, we're just…" Eric trails off
"Obtaining information?" Ruthie asks tapping her foot and crossing her arms
"Yes."
She rolls her eyes "Same as eavesdropping." And goes upstairs
Amanda , Robbie and Simon walk in then and see Annie and Eric hovering around the door.
Amanda the colored once more drained from her face goes straight upstairs Simon close behind her. Robbie shakes his head. "Rick's coming is not good. Listen I want to talk to my mom and Rick tomorrow before Amanda gets a chance, I'm going to go while you guys are at church, the only thing is she wont leave the house while she's waiting to find something out meaning…."
"She'll refuse to go to church." Annie finishes "I think we can make an exception in this case."
"Yes I agree." Eric replies "Why don't you try to go and get some sleep."
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Amanda stumbles out of bed the next morning and took a quick shower, toweled off and got dressed. She noticed how quiet the house was as she saunters downstairs and saw Annie rushing to clean the twins mess. "Where are you all going?" Amanda yawned
"Church, but you can stay here in case your mom calls but she said she's be back this evening, then Robbie reminded us of your stubbornness and how you most likely wouldn't budge."
Amanda smiled because she knew how right that was. "Let me clean that for you." She offers
"Thanks, that'd be great we'll see you later." Annie rushes out to the car.
Amanda cleans up the mess of baby food and just as she finishes Simon walks downstairs, rumpled and tired looking.
"Your not at church?"
"I don't feel good." Simon groaned
"Hangover?"
"I don't think so, I got fever too."
"Aww, go back upstairs I'll bring you some tea or something." Amanda smiles happy to be keeping herself busy.
"Here." Amanda sits on Simon's bed with a cup of tea and some crackers. "Stomach Virus is going around, or maybe it's just a cold."
"I'm not really hungry anymore." Simon admits
"I figured that, anything I can get you?"
"No, thanks though."
"All right." Amanda gets up to go to the doorway. "Simon" She hesitates going from foot to foot.
"What's wrong?" Simon asks sitting up
"That other day when this all started, how come you didn't want to….."
"I didn't want to pressure you I guess."
"Oh." Amanda looks around avoiding eye contact.
"Did you ever have sex after…"
"Yea." Amanda replies softly "I couldn't see any reason not too….only once though."
"Was it how you thought it should feel?"
"No."
"So why did you want to have sex with me?"
"Cause I really like you and I can tell your different, enough that you would turn away a chance. Most guys wouldn't."
"You're right."
"So then you're not ready?"
"I don't know, were you?"
"Not really, I thought I was ready for anything."
"I understand you and I wont ever push you to do something you do want to…one question though."
"What?"
"Kissing isn't off limits right?"
"Of course not. Maybe more even" Amanda smiles coyly as she kisses his neck
"Mmmm." Simon groans happily as they continue kissing.
**********
"Crap!" Amanda mutters breathlessly as her beeper goes off. Simon lays his head on her lap while she checks her beeper.
"Who is it?" He asks studying her face
"My house, my mom's home." Amanda answers softly
Simon sat up and put his arm around her in support. She exhales deeply. "I got to go, I need to face this sooner or later anyway. Don't get up, you're still sick remember?"
"Don't give up hope." Simon kisses her forehead and watches her walk out of his room as he lay back down onto his pillows.
"I'll call you later." Amanda's last words to him were.
To be continued please R&R thanx!