It had been more than a month since Jet had kissed Kay. They were now inseperable. Jet picked kay up for school before Miguel stopped by to pick up Charity. Miguel was confused at first, but didn't ask her about it. After a while, it was normal to see Kay and Jet walking the halls, or sitting on the bleachers with Jessica, Reese, Simone and Simone's new Ryan, a handsome black boy with tightly curled blac hai and laughing brown eyes. Jet had discovered that his old school had the same colors and the same initials as Harmony High. So he was either seen in his letterman's jacket or his black leather one. Same with Kay. She was either in her letterman jacket, Jet's letterman jacket, or the black leather one Jet had given her.
Jet and Kay were alone on the bleachers waiting for the others. Jet usually gave Jessica a ride, but she had been walking with Reese latly.
"Hey Little Bit?" Jet asked.
"Hmm?" Kay asked with a smile. He had started calling her 'Little Bit' after she'd gone with him to his grandfathers birthday party and his grandfather had called her a 'little bitty thing'. Jet had found it highly amusing and had laughed to hard he hadn't been able to breath for five minutes. His face had turned an interesting shade of red and his mom had to pound him on the back to get him to breath.
"I won't be here tomorrow. We, my parents and I, are going into New York. Luke's having surgory and we're going to see him." Jet told her.
"Okay." Kay said. "I'll see you when you get back." She grinned at him. Jet grinned back and smoothed down a few stray strands of her hair. Then he tucked it behind her ears. Kay smiled trustingly at up at him, her eyes shining. Jet turned his head slightly and breathed in the scent of her.
The bell rang, and Jet sighed. he stood up and pulled Kay to her feet. It was evens and they both had Chemistry, then Performance/Jazz Choir. Today, Jet was getting the song he was singing as a solo at the concert. He was thinking of asking Kay to come up with him at the concert, so her could sing to her. But he'd have to see what song Mr. Winter wanted him to sign.
He dozed through most of Chemistry. Kay elbowed him a few times, but all he did was mumble and shift position on the lab table. Kay rolled her eyes and concentrated on her notes. Somehow, Jet slept through Chemistry every day and sailed through it with abousutly no problmes. Kay was breezing through the class too, but she stayed awake and had Jet helping her. Jet joked that he learned in his sleep, and Kay was starting to beleive it. He learned more asleep then he did awake it seemed.
The bell finally rang. Jet jumped to his feet, fully awake.
"Well. That was refreshing. Wouldn't you say?"
Kay stared at him, then laughed and smacked him lightly with her binder.
"Get out of here!" She scolded him. Jet laughed and scooped Kay up his arms. She shrieked in mock horror, making Jet laugh again.
"What are you laughing at?"
"You Little Bit."
Kay smacked his chest. Jet bent his knees, and Kay grabbed both of their binders and books. Jet shifted her weight slightly in his arms and carred her out the door.
The choir room was on the oppisote side of the school, quite a distance, but Kay wasn't heavy. Jet weighed 190 pounds, a little heavy for being only 5'10, but it was solid muscle. He walked quickly, with Kay holding their books and joking with him. She kept poking him in the chest, trying to get him to laugh. Jet giggled, but didn't squirm. Jet heard his name being called. He glanced over his shoulder and saw Miguel hurring towards him.
He slowed down and looked down at Kay.
"Miguel's coming."
"Is Charity with him?" Kay asked. Jet checked over his shoulder and nodded. Kay made a face, then let her head fall back. She was now looking at everything upside down. Miguel and Charity caught up to them.
"Hey Jet. . . Kay?" Miguel stared at her in surprise.
"Hi Miguel, Charity." Kay said thickly, grinning insanly at them. Her eyes were crossed and her hair tumbled down like a chocolate water fall. Jet found the image extremly adorable. He leaned down and gently kissed the top of her nose. The he set her on her feet.
"Nice to see you two, but we got to go. Come on Little Bit. Time for choir." Jet grinned at Kay and offered her his arm. Kay giggled and slipped her arm through his. Then they walked down the hall. Miguel and Charity stared after them. Miguel snagged Simone's arm as she walked past.
"Simone, are Jet and Kay dating? I thought she was going out with Reese." Simone gave Miguel a look he didn't understand. It was a look of pure disgust. When she spoke, her voice was cold and clipped.
"Kay and Reese were *never* going out Miguel. In fact, Reese and Jessica are getting really close, not Reese and Kay. And no, Jet and Kay are not dating. Their just really close. I think the only people those two are closer to are their older brothers. Face it. Jet is closer to Kay then you every were." With that, Simone spun on her heel and walked off.
The next day, Kay was sitting on the stage, going over lighting cues, sound cues, props and sets for the new school play with Ryan. She yawned and streched, taking a swing from the Pepsi next to her. Her entire Stage Tech class had to stay after school, yesterday and today, to work on the play. With the way things were going, there was no telling how many days they'd have to stay. She looked at her watch and groaned. It was 6:30! Ryan glanced at her.
"What's up, Little Dot?" Kay rolled her eyes.
"What is it with with guys and giving me name that involve the word 'Little'?" Kay complained.
"Quit whining Little Bit." Jet said.
"Oh shut up Jet." Kay said. Then she gasped, jumped to her feet and spun around. Jet, all 5'10 and 190 pound of him, was standing in frontof the stage. His sunglasses were on, and his hands were in the pockets of his leather jacket.
"Hey Little Bt." Jet said with a lopsided grin.
"Jet!" Kay yelled. Just then, Migule walked into the auiditorm. He had heard Jessica say something about Kay having to stay after school and had come by to see if she neede somebody to walk home with.
Instead he heard Kay yell. 'Jet!'. As he watched, Kay ran across the stage, then jumped off it. Jet caught her around the waist and spun around, both of them laughing. He set her down on her feet and Kay wrapped her arm's around his waist, hugging him tightly. Miguel rubbed his eyes and blinked a few times.
He had never seen Kay act like that with anyone but her brother Nathan. He saw Jet's arms go around Kay's neck, and he hugged her tightly to. They broke their embrace. 'Finally.' Miguel thought. But he noticed, rather grumply, Jet still had his arm around Kay's shoulders, and her arm was still around his waist.
"You guy's done?" He asked her. She shrugged, but looked Mr. Brooks, the drama teacher. Mr. Brooks crossed his arms and glared at Kay and Jet for a minute. Kay and Jet both widened their eyes into the perfect puppy look. Mr. Brooks laughed and waved his hand.
"Go on. Get out of here you two." He said.
Kay and Jet cheered and slapped high fives. Kay seperated from Jet and grabbed her backpack off one of the chairs. Jet waited for her as she shrugged on the leather jacket he had given her. Then started doors, but Mr. Brooks called their names. They turned to look at him, and he pointed at a dejected looking Ryan.
"Take him with you. He's going to useless without you two around to help him cause trouble."
Ryan made a 'who, me?' face, but still jumped off the stage and grabbed his stuff. He looked at Mr. Brooks and grinned.
"For the record, I don't need those two here to cause trouble. They just make it so much more fun." Mr. Brooks laughed again and pointed at the door.
"Get out of here you little terrors."
"Again with the little!" Kay exclaimed dramaticly, throwing her hands up in the air. Mr. Brooks laughed harder.
"Go, before I change my mind." He said, waving his hand. Kay laughed and put her hands on Jet's shoulders.
Jet bent his knees. Kay laughed, and hopped onto his back. Ryan followed them out into the hall. They were walking down the hall, talking, joking and laughing when they ran into Miguel. Ryan literally ran into Miguel, knocking him to the ground and sending Ryan stumbling back. Ryan regained his balence and helped Miguel to his feet.
"Miguel what are you doing here?" Jet asked.
"I could ask you the same question." Miguel said stiffly. Kay rested her chin on Jet's shoulder and glared at Miguel.
"Jet's here to give you Ryan and me a ride home. You have no reason or right to be here. So start talking." Kay said, narrowing her eyes and giving him her 'look'.Miguel swallowed but stood his ground.
"I overheard Jessica saying that you had to stay after school. So I came to see if you wanted to walk home with me." Kay's face softened and she smiled at Miguel.
"No, I'm fine Miguel. Jets going to give me a ride. Maybe another time."
"Yeah. Another time." Miguel said. He shot a glare in Jet's direction then turned and stomped down a side hallways. Jet and Ryan exhanged a look. Then Kay blew a stream of air on the back of his ear. Jet hunched his shoulder and turned his head to avoid it. Kay laughed, making Jet grin and Ryan laugh. Jet set Kay down, then whirled on her. He tickled her sides mercilessly. Kay slipped out of his grasp. She gave him a small shove, then ran up the hall. Jet laughed and ran after her. Ryan rolled his eyes, grinned, and walked after them.
Kay hit the door running. She ran out into the chill November night, her leather jacket keeping her warm. There was a flah of lighting, a crah of thunder, and it began to *pour*. Kay laughed and spun around. Jet stopped just inside the doors. He saw Kays hrug her jacket off and place it on the stairs with her backpack, where it was dry. Then she ran back out into the rain. She spun around, her face uplifted, her mouth open. Jet opened the door and stepped outside. Kay looked at him, the water running down her face, her hair soaked.
"Come out here Jet. The rains find." She said with a grin. She was getting completly soaked. Jet grinned back. He took his jacket off and set it with Kay's. then he ran out into the rain. It was raining hard, flatening his black and green hair, running down hisf ace and back, soaking his tee shirt. Kay ran to him, her long brown hair wet, water running over her face. She grinned at him, and Jet had to grin back. She grabbed his hands and pulled him out into the empty parking lot. She began to spin around. Jet shrugged to himself and began to spin with her.
They spun around faster and faster, the parking lot and school blurring together. Jet felt Kay's grip on his wrists loosen and a devilsih smile spread across his face. He let go, and both of them fell back. They both landed in puddle, spashing water everywhere. Kay and Jet burst out laughing.
"You are a brat!" Kay gasped through her laugher.
"And you a whiner Little Bit!" Jet shot back.
"Say that to my face, Green!" Kay said, jumping to her feet and running towards the patio. Jet jumped up with the practiced ease and grace of a star football player.
He ran after her, the blood poinding through his viens, his grin lighting up his face. He bounded towards the patio, quick as a cat. Kay glanced over her shoulder, the surprise registering in her eyes before she grinning and sped up. Jet increased his stride, his feet scrambling for traction on the wet grass. Kay's foot slipped on the grass and she almost fell. She regained her footing and took off running again. But that tiny slip had given Jet the chanced to catch up With a mock yell, he dived at her legs, knocking her down. They rolled over and over on the grass, laughing.
Jet finally pinned Kay down and grinned at her, water dripping off hsi nose She grinned up at him and giggled.
"Your a whiner Little Bit." He whispered, his voice husky.
"And your a brat Green." Kay whispered back. She looked so beautiful, with her face wet, her hair soaked and her tee shirt plastered to her skin that Jet couldn't resist. He leaned down and kissed her. Kay tensed at first, but she instintly responded to it. She kissed him back, wrapping her arms around his neck and running her fingers through his hair.
Jet planted his elbows on either side of Kay, then rolled to the side. They were laying on their sides, still kissing. Jet used his strong arms and dragged Kay right up agaisnt his body. he deepened the kiss, and Kay responded eagerly, almost attacking his mouth. Kay played with the hairs at the base of his neck, while Jet ran his hands up and down her back. They were inturupted by someone loudly clearing their throat. They rolled onto their backs and looked up.
Ryan was standing there, holding a binder over his head and grinning at them like the cat that swallowed the canary.
"Am I inturupting something?"
"Yes." Jet growled.
"Too bad. I'd like to get home this century." With that, Ryan turned and walked back to the parking lot. Jet and Kay started laughing. Jet jumped to his feet and pulled Kay to hers. They were still laughing as they walked back to the front steps, hand in hand. They grabbed their stuff, then walked to the car, still holding hand. Ryan was in the backseat, so Kay climbed into the passenger seat. Jet slid into the car and started the car.
Kay shivered slightly and Jet switched on the heater. As soon as they dropped Ruan off, Kay slid across the seat and leaned agaisnt him. Jet wrapped his arm around her shoulders and dropped a kiss to the top of her head. Jet drove to her house. He pulled into her driveway, but Kay showed no indication of getting out of the car. Jet took a deep breath and got up his courage.
"There's a dance at my old school, and, offically, I'm going to be DJing. Unoffically, I'm going and I need a date. Do you want to go?"
"Sure. I'd love to." Kay said without hesitation. "Formal or informal?"
Jet was so stunned that it took him a moement to answer.
"Umm, formal. The Winter Formal."
"When?"
"Umm, three weeks."
"Okay. That's enough time for me to get a dress." She kissed him on the cheek, then slid out of the car. "See you in the morning."
"See ya." Jet replied with a nod. Kay smiled then ran inside. She heard his car pull away and grinned. She drifted into the dining room where her family was eating dinner.
"Hey Kay." Jessica said, smiling at her sister.
"Hi Jess." Kay beamed. "Hey everybody." Charity glaned up and gasped.
"Kay, what happened? Your all wet!" Kay glaned down and laughed when she realized that she was so wet that water was dripping off her clouths onto the kitchen floor. She tossed her hair, sending water flying onto Sam and Jessica, who laughed, and Grace and Charity, who both yelled 'Kay' angerly.
"Jet and I played in the rain after Tech practice was over."
'Oh, Jet got back from New York in time? Is he picking you up tomorrow?" Jessica asked.
"Yeah. Need a ride?"
"No, I'm walking with Reese."
"You two are getting close." Kay teased gently.
"No closer then you and Jet." Jessica retored good naturedly. Kay grinned brightly. "What are you so happy about?" She asked suspouisly.
"Nothing." Kay said, the grin still on her face. "I'm going to change and take a shower." Jessica followed her sister upstairs. She cornered Kay inside their room.
"Talk." She demanded. Kay sat on her bed. Jessica sat in the desk chair.
"Jet kissed me!" Kay squealed. Jessica smiled at her sisters delight.
"About time. When?" Kay told her sister what had happened after Tech practice. When she finished, Jessica's smile riviled Kays.
"And he asked me to The Winter Formal at his old school in three weeks." Kay contined.
"Oh, I'll go with you to get a dress. Think we can get Dad to run us into New York to go shopping for the weekend?"
"I'm sure he will if we ask him." Kay said. Then she shooed Jessica out of th room so she could take a shower. After her shower, Kay went back downstairs in a pair of black pajama pants with green, purple, silver and blue star and a matching tanktop. Her quilt, composed of patches of silver, blue, purple and green material in no pattern anyone could see with a black bottom was around her shoulders.
She snuggled into the couch with her quilt, a glass of hot coco, and a book. She was just settling down when Miguel and Charity walked out of the kitchen into the living room.
"Hello Kay." Miguel said.
"Hi Miguel. When did you get here?" Kay asked, not looking up from her book.
"About ten minutes ago. What are you reading?"
"Sabriel."
"Is it any good?"
"Yeah. It's really good. Jet lent it to me."
At the mention of Jet, Miguel's face darkened. Just then, the phone rang. Charity left to answer it.
"Hey Kay, can I talk to you in private?" Miguel asked.
"Sure. Lets go up to my room." Kay said, throwing back her quilt and standing up. Just then, Chairty came back into the living room, holding the cordless phone.
"Kay, it's for you. It's Jet." Kay face brightened. She jumped to her feet and took the phone.
"Hey Jet!"
"Hey Kay." Jet said.
"Whats up?"
"Listen, my parents and my family have this tradition. Right before it gets too cold, we have this big barbacue party. All my family is coming, and my brothers are coming down. Want to come?"
"Sure! When is it?"
"This Saturday."
"Cool. See ya tommow Cutie?"
"All right Babe. See ya."
"Bye."
"Bye." Kay hung up, then ran to the kitchen. "Dad!"
"What baby girl?"
"Jet invited me to a family party Saturday. Can I go?"
"Where is it?"
"His house."
"Sure." Sam said with a smile.
"Yes! Thanks dad." Kay said happily, giving her dad a hug.
She went back out to the living room. Charity was alone.
"Where's Miguel?" Kay asked, confused.
"He's out back, waiting. He wants to talk to you."
"Okay." Kay said with a shrug. She grabbed a hooded sweatshirt from next to the door and went outside. Miguel was standing at the edge of the porch, looking at the stars.
"What's up Miguel?" Kay asked, moving past him to sit on the swing he had put up for Charity.
"I wanted to talk to you."
"About what?" Kay asked, beginning to pump her legs and swing.
"About Jet." Kay glanced at him in confusion, but didn't stop swinging.
"What about Jet?"
"You two have been getting pretty close." Kay stopped at that. She crossed her arms and glared.
"What's the matter Miguel? Jealous?"
"No! I'm just saying, watch your back."
"What for?" Kay asked, getting to her feet. "I trust Jet."
"I don't." Miguel said stubornly.
"Why not?" Kay asked slowly, trying to keep her anger under control.
"Because he's just a punk street kid with an attitude. He cuts class, and he's just a typical bonehead jock."
"He is not!" Kay said angerly. "He doesn't cut class, and he's really smart. He's even helping me in some classes. What is your problem Miguel?"
"My problem is that you're letting Jet influence you."
"What?!" Kay yelled, clentching her fists.
"I'm just afraid that he'll confince you to do something that'll get you hurt."
"Miguel! Jet's my best friend!" Miguel looked at her, confused
"I thought you were my best friend."
"No Miguel you were." Kay turned on her heel and stalked inside. "Mom! I'm going for a walk!" She called upstairs before slipping on a pair of sneakers and going back into the yard and out the gate.
She made her way to the beach. A huge willow tree over look the ocean. Kay climbed to the top and looked out over the ocean, watching the waves. She was so confused. Maybe she should just go tell Miguel that she was sorry. After all, he had been her friend for a long time. And he was just worried about her. He didn't know Jet as well as she did. That was it! Maybe she could get Miguel and Jet to spend some time together. Kay stared out over the waves as she thought about her two best friends.
She had climbed down as was about to leave when she heard Jet's voice.
"Hey Cutie."
"Jet! What are you doing here?"
"Jess called me and said you and Miguel had a fight and that you were pretty upset."
"How'd you know to find me here?" Kay asked. Jet smiled and came up to her, putting his arms around her waist.
"I know you Little Bit."
Kay smiled at him and was about to kiss him when Miguel showed up.
"Kay!"
"Miguel!" Kay yelped, jumping out of Jet's arms. "What are you doing here?"
"I came to find you. I'm sorry. I was out of line."
"Oh Miguel." Kay said, running to him and giving him a hug. "So was I. I'm sorry. You've been my best friend since we were in diapers, and we'll always have that."
"Hi Miguel." Jet said just then, coming up behind Kay.
Miguel jumped. "What are YOU doing here?!" The hostility was clear in his voice. Kay glared at him while Jet stiffened. She put an arm around Jet protectively.
"Miguel! Stop it! Jet was just worried about me!"
"Little Bit, could you leave us alone for a minute?" Jet asked gently, smiling down at her. "Miguel and I need to talk."
"Well. . ." Kay said warily. But Jet grinned at her, then leaned down and gave her a small kiss on the forehead.
"Please." He said.
"Okay." Kay agreed. "I'll be right over there."
"Okay." Jet said. Kay walked over the hill and out of sight. Jet turned to Miguel.
"Okay Miguel. Out with it. WHAT is your problem?" Jet asked.
"Your my problem! Kay is my best friend, and your taking her away from me!"
"Well, maybe if you hadn't ignored her when she was right in front of you, I wouldn't have been able to take her away from you, which I didn't!"
"You did! I want you to stay away from her!"
"Migeul! Your not Kay's father, and your not her boyfriend! Why don't you just but out of her life? She's not a child, in case you haven't notice! She's a kind, sweet, passionate, funny, strong, brave, understanding, brillant, beautiful young woman! You might have seen it if you weren't so obbesessed wtih Chairty!"
Jet's words stunned Miguel. Was it true? Was he so in love with Chairity that he didn't even notice that Kay had grown up? He turned his back on Jet.
"I don't have to put up with this! I'm out of here!" Miguel stomped over the hill that Kay had disappeared over just a few minutes ago.
Kay jumped to her feet when she saw Miguel stomp over the hill. Jet was following him.
"Kay." Miguel said.
"What is it?" She asked, worried. Miguel was being so serious.
"Jet and I have come to a decision." Miguel didn't know why he said that. He and Jet hadn't agreed to anything. He felt bad about lieing to her, but knew it was the only way to get his friend back.
"Choose."
"What?" Kay asked, stumbling back. "What are you talking about?"
"Choose. You have to choose between me and Jet."
Jet came up just as Miguel said the last part. He was stunned. He would never ask Kay to do that! But before he could say anything, Kay gasped and her eyes filled up with tears.
"How could you ask me to do that? Either of you!" Kay yelled.
"Kay. . ." Jet said, stepping foreward to take Kay in his arms.
"No Jet! Don't! Don't ask me to do this, and then hug me! You disgust me! Both of you! Your so selfish!" With that, Kay turned and ran down the beach, back towrads her house.
Jet watched her go. Then he turned to Miguel. "Thanks a lot Miguel. Because of you, I've probably just lost the girl I love forever." With that, Jet also left, leaving Miguel alone on the beach.
*I'm so scared that the way that I feel
Is written all over my face
When you walk into the room
I wanna find a hiding place.*
The next night, Kay ran into her room and lay down on her bed. looked. Tonight was the choir concert, and her and Jet hadn't spoken to each other all day. He had avoided her, occasionally looking at her out of the corner of his eyes with a sad look in his eyes. Kay rolled over and switched on her radio.
*We used to laugh, we used to hug,
The way that old friends do.
But now a smile and a touch of your hand
Just makes me come unglued.*
Kay lifted her tear streaked face from the pillow and stared at the radio in amazement. She she laughed, a silent and bitter laugh. Sometimes she thought the guy at the radio sation was physic or something. The radio was always playing music that suited her mood perfectly.
*It's such a contradiction
Do I lie or tell the truth?
Is it fact or fiction?
Oh, the way I feel for you.*
Kay sighed and sat up. She walked over to the closet and started searching for an outfit to wear. She didn't really want to go to the concer. Her head ached, her stomach was killing her, and her throat hurt from crying. But she had to go to go. She had a solo tonight, the first one she had ever had.
*It's so complicated
I'm so frustrated,
I wanna hold you close,
I wanna push you away,*
Kay shook her head when she relized that she had been so deep in thought that she had paused before her closet door. She cursed herself when she looked at her watch and started rummaging through the closet again. She saw the clouths, but her mind wasn't registering. All she could think about was Jet. . .
*I wanna make you go,
I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it?
Should I tell you how I feel?*
Jet was the only think she could thing off. His bright green eyes. . . his black hair with the green tips. . . his stong yet gentle hands. . . his crooked smile. . . his soft voice. . . his adorable golden brown skin. . . no guy at their school, no, the entire world, could compare to Jet. He was her best friend, the one she filrted with, the one she argued with. The one she was in love with.
*Oh, I want you to know,
But then again I don't,
It's so complicated.*
Kay shook her head and pulled out her new favorite outfit. She had gone shopping with Jessica and Simone today after school She got dressed quickly, then looked in the mirror. a black leather skirt that fell to just below her knees, black leather boots, a dark red turtleneck shirt that just barely touched the waist of the skirt and a snow white leather jacket. She thought Jet would like her white leather jacket. Jet. . .
*Just when I think I'm under control,
I think I finally got a grip,
Another friend tells me that my name
Is always on your lips.*
Kay sighed and started shuffling through papers on her desk looking for the sheet music to her solo. She wanted to go over it once more before the concer.. Her elbow hit the edge of her desk, knocked her pen holder and some other stuff off her desk. Kay yelped in pain and rubbed her elbow, blinking to clear her eyes of the tears that had sprung up at the sharp pain.
*They say I'm more than just a friend,
They say I must be blind.
Well, I admit that I've seen you watch me
From the corner of your eye.*
Muttering under her breath, Kay bent to pick up everything. Her fingers touched the pen holder and she froze. It was the ceramic one Jet had made her. A midnight black kitten, the exact shade as he hair, with wide green eyes like his and a blue collor with a shiny silver tag that read 'Kay'. It reminded her of Jet. . .
*It's so complicated
I'm so frustrated,
I wanna hold you close,
I wanna push you away,*
Kay jerked her hand back like she had been burned. She propeled herself backwards, covering her mouth with her hand to stiffle a sob. What was this? Was the entire world conspiring agaist her to force her to admit her feelings for Jet? First the radio, then the shirt, then the pen holder. . .
*I wanna make you go,
I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it?
Should I tell you how I feel?*
The pen holder had the same infuriating cute grin that Jet had, grinned at her in the same way. Like a kitten who was lost and wanted to come home with you. Kay picked up the pen holder and cradled it to her chest, letting silent tears slid down her face. What was wrong with her? Why was she always fighting what everyone else said was obvious? She'd seen the way Jet looked at her sometimes, yet she pushed it to the back of her mind.
*Oh, I want you to know,
But then again I don't,
It's so complicated.*
Why was she fighting? Was it because she was afraid? Yes, that was it! She was afraid! She was afraid that Jet didn't like her, that he just liked being her friend, and flirting with her. She was afriad that he would tell her that he didn't like her as more than a friend. And she was afraid of losing him as a friend.
*I hate it
Cause I've waited so long
For someone like you.
What do I do?*
"Come on Kay! It's time to go!" Sam yelled up the stairs. Kay wiped her eyes, then quickly gathered up her pens and pencils, and grabbed her music. She could go over it in the car. She ran down the stairs and out the door, past her dad and into the warm car. The same sation was on in the car, and the song was still playing.
*Should I say it?
Should I tell you how I feel?
Oh, I want you to know,
But then again I don't.
Kay growled and switched it off. She didn't want to think about how much she missed Jet's friendship, or how much in love with him she was. All she wanted to do was go over her music. She flipped open her music and concentrated on that as her dad drove her and Jessic to the school.
*It's so complicated
It's so complicated.
It's so complicated.*
Kay cleared her throat and stepped foreward as Mr. Winter announced her. Straining her leather jacket, she stepped up to the microphone and nodded to the pianist. The pianist began to play. Kay closed her eyes and began to sing.
*Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed*
This song reminded her of Jet. Because that's how her love for him felt. Like she was drowning in it, and him. But she didn't mind. She loved it. She loved being in love with him. Until that was gone.
*Some say love it is a hunger
An end less aching need
I say love it is a flower
And you it's only seed*
Kay tried to swallow her tears, but it wasn't working to well. She could fell them building up behind her eyes. She blinked fast, but they were still there. She took a deep breath, closed her eyes and lost herself in the music.
*It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dyin'
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong*
The tears were coming now, and she couldn't stop them. They were rolling down her face, and she wiped at them as she sang the last lines.
*Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose*
The tears rolled down her face as Kay broke into sobs and backed up as the last strains of music faded away. She tried to run off the stage, but Jet stopped her.
"Wait Kay." He whispered. Then he was pulling her foreward, back towards the microphone. He stepped up the microphone and spoke into it.
"Excuse me ladies and gentlemen. I know this isn't on your program, but I'm going to sing to this girl right here. You see, I've never been able to express my self very well in words. But when I heard this song, I knew it was the perfect way to tell her something." He nodded and music came over the speakers. Kay looked up and saw Ryan in the sound system booth. He gave Jet a thumbs up and Jet grinned and nodded his thanks. Then he took Kay by the hand and began.
*If I had one single wish
I'd go back to the moment I kissed
You goodbye
No matter how I try
I can't live
Without you in my life
Maybe you'll say you still want me
Maybe you'll say that you don't
Maybe we said it was over
But Baby I can't let you go
I walk around trying to understand
Where we went wrong
And I can't pretend
It wasn't me
And it wasn't you
But I'm convinced
We gave up too soon
Nothing left to lose
After losing you
There's nothing I can't take
When I run to you
When I come for you
Don't tell me I'm too late*
The last sounds of music faded and Kay found herself facing Jet. He was standing there, with a hopeful, begging little smile on her face. Kay thought about it only for a second. Then she rushed across the stage and into Jet's arms. He caughter her and hugged her tightly, her arms around his waist, his arms around her shoulders and neck.
"Why do we complicate things?" Jet whispered.
"I don't know." Kay whispered back. "But why don't we make one thing simple?" Jet smiled when he realized the full implication of what she said. He just about gaver her a heart attack, lifting her off the ground as he kissed her.
Jet and Kay were alone on the bleachers waiting for the others. Jet usually gave Jessica a ride, but she had been walking with Reese latly.
"Hey Little Bit?" Jet asked.
"Hmm?" Kay asked with a smile. He had started calling her 'Little Bit' after she'd gone with him to his grandfathers birthday party and his grandfather had called her a 'little bitty thing'. Jet had found it highly amusing and had laughed to hard he hadn't been able to breath for five minutes. His face had turned an interesting shade of red and his mom had to pound him on the back to get him to breath.
"I won't be here tomorrow. We, my parents and I, are going into New York. Luke's having surgory and we're going to see him." Jet told her.
"Okay." Kay said. "I'll see you when you get back." She grinned at him. Jet grinned back and smoothed down a few stray strands of her hair. Then he tucked it behind her ears. Kay smiled trustingly at up at him, her eyes shining. Jet turned his head slightly and breathed in the scent of her.
The bell rang, and Jet sighed. he stood up and pulled Kay to her feet. It was evens and they both had Chemistry, then Performance/Jazz Choir. Today, Jet was getting the song he was singing as a solo at the concert. He was thinking of asking Kay to come up with him at the concert, so her could sing to her. But he'd have to see what song Mr. Winter wanted him to sign.
He dozed through most of Chemistry. Kay elbowed him a few times, but all he did was mumble and shift position on the lab table. Kay rolled her eyes and concentrated on her notes. Somehow, Jet slept through Chemistry every day and sailed through it with abousutly no problmes. Kay was breezing through the class too, but she stayed awake and had Jet helping her. Jet joked that he learned in his sleep, and Kay was starting to beleive it. He learned more asleep then he did awake it seemed.
The bell finally rang. Jet jumped to his feet, fully awake.
"Well. That was refreshing. Wouldn't you say?"
Kay stared at him, then laughed and smacked him lightly with her binder.
"Get out of here!" She scolded him. Jet laughed and scooped Kay up his arms. She shrieked in mock horror, making Jet laugh again.
"What are you laughing at?"
"You Little Bit."
Kay smacked his chest. Jet bent his knees, and Kay grabbed both of their binders and books. Jet shifted her weight slightly in his arms and carred her out the door.
The choir room was on the oppisote side of the school, quite a distance, but Kay wasn't heavy. Jet weighed 190 pounds, a little heavy for being only 5'10, but it was solid muscle. He walked quickly, with Kay holding their books and joking with him. She kept poking him in the chest, trying to get him to laugh. Jet giggled, but didn't squirm. Jet heard his name being called. He glanced over his shoulder and saw Miguel hurring towards him.
He slowed down and looked down at Kay.
"Miguel's coming."
"Is Charity with him?" Kay asked. Jet checked over his shoulder and nodded. Kay made a face, then let her head fall back. She was now looking at everything upside down. Miguel and Charity caught up to them.
"Hey Jet. . . Kay?" Miguel stared at her in surprise.
"Hi Miguel, Charity." Kay said thickly, grinning insanly at them. Her eyes were crossed and her hair tumbled down like a chocolate water fall. Jet found the image extremly adorable. He leaned down and gently kissed the top of her nose. The he set her on her feet.
"Nice to see you two, but we got to go. Come on Little Bit. Time for choir." Jet grinned at Kay and offered her his arm. Kay giggled and slipped her arm through his. Then they walked down the hall. Miguel and Charity stared after them. Miguel snagged Simone's arm as she walked past.
"Simone, are Jet and Kay dating? I thought she was going out with Reese." Simone gave Miguel a look he didn't understand. It was a look of pure disgust. When she spoke, her voice was cold and clipped.
"Kay and Reese were *never* going out Miguel. In fact, Reese and Jessica are getting really close, not Reese and Kay. And no, Jet and Kay are not dating. Their just really close. I think the only people those two are closer to are their older brothers. Face it. Jet is closer to Kay then you every were." With that, Simone spun on her heel and walked off.
The next day, Kay was sitting on the stage, going over lighting cues, sound cues, props and sets for the new school play with Ryan. She yawned and streched, taking a swing from the Pepsi next to her. Her entire Stage Tech class had to stay after school, yesterday and today, to work on the play. With the way things were going, there was no telling how many days they'd have to stay. She looked at her watch and groaned. It was 6:30! Ryan glanced at her.
"What's up, Little Dot?" Kay rolled her eyes.
"What is it with with guys and giving me name that involve the word 'Little'?" Kay complained.
"Quit whining Little Bit." Jet said.
"Oh shut up Jet." Kay said. Then she gasped, jumped to her feet and spun around. Jet, all 5'10 and 190 pound of him, was standing in frontof the stage. His sunglasses were on, and his hands were in the pockets of his leather jacket.
"Hey Little Bt." Jet said with a lopsided grin.
"Jet!" Kay yelled. Just then, Migule walked into the auiditorm. He had heard Jessica say something about Kay having to stay after school and had come by to see if she neede somebody to walk home with.
Instead he heard Kay yell. 'Jet!'. As he watched, Kay ran across the stage, then jumped off it. Jet caught her around the waist and spun around, both of them laughing. He set her down on her feet and Kay wrapped her arm's around his waist, hugging him tightly. Miguel rubbed his eyes and blinked a few times.
He had never seen Kay act like that with anyone but her brother Nathan. He saw Jet's arms go around Kay's neck, and he hugged her tightly to. They broke their embrace. 'Finally.' Miguel thought. But he noticed, rather grumply, Jet still had his arm around Kay's shoulders, and her arm was still around his waist.
"You guy's done?" He asked her. She shrugged, but looked Mr. Brooks, the drama teacher. Mr. Brooks crossed his arms and glared at Kay and Jet for a minute. Kay and Jet both widened their eyes into the perfect puppy look. Mr. Brooks laughed and waved his hand.
"Go on. Get out of here you two." He said.
Kay and Jet cheered and slapped high fives. Kay seperated from Jet and grabbed her backpack off one of the chairs. Jet waited for her as she shrugged on the leather jacket he had given her. Then started doors, but Mr. Brooks called their names. They turned to look at him, and he pointed at a dejected looking Ryan.
"Take him with you. He's going to useless without you two around to help him cause trouble."
Ryan made a 'who, me?' face, but still jumped off the stage and grabbed his stuff. He looked at Mr. Brooks and grinned.
"For the record, I don't need those two here to cause trouble. They just make it so much more fun." Mr. Brooks laughed again and pointed at the door.
"Get out of here you little terrors."
"Again with the little!" Kay exclaimed dramaticly, throwing her hands up in the air. Mr. Brooks laughed harder.
"Go, before I change my mind." He said, waving his hand. Kay laughed and put her hands on Jet's shoulders.
Jet bent his knees. Kay laughed, and hopped onto his back. Ryan followed them out into the hall. They were walking down the hall, talking, joking and laughing when they ran into Miguel. Ryan literally ran into Miguel, knocking him to the ground and sending Ryan stumbling back. Ryan regained his balence and helped Miguel to his feet.
"Miguel what are you doing here?" Jet asked.
"I could ask you the same question." Miguel said stiffly. Kay rested her chin on Jet's shoulder and glared at Miguel.
"Jet's here to give you Ryan and me a ride home. You have no reason or right to be here. So start talking." Kay said, narrowing her eyes and giving him her 'look'.Miguel swallowed but stood his ground.
"I overheard Jessica saying that you had to stay after school. So I came to see if you wanted to walk home with me." Kay's face softened and she smiled at Miguel.
"No, I'm fine Miguel. Jets going to give me a ride. Maybe another time."
"Yeah. Another time." Miguel said. He shot a glare in Jet's direction then turned and stomped down a side hallways. Jet and Ryan exhanged a look. Then Kay blew a stream of air on the back of his ear. Jet hunched his shoulder and turned his head to avoid it. Kay laughed, making Jet grin and Ryan laugh. Jet set Kay down, then whirled on her. He tickled her sides mercilessly. Kay slipped out of his grasp. She gave him a small shove, then ran up the hall. Jet laughed and ran after her. Ryan rolled his eyes, grinned, and walked after them.
Kay hit the door running. She ran out into the chill November night, her leather jacket keeping her warm. There was a flah of lighting, a crah of thunder, and it began to *pour*. Kay laughed and spun around. Jet stopped just inside the doors. He saw Kays hrug her jacket off and place it on the stairs with her backpack, where it was dry. Then she ran back out into the rain. She spun around, her face uplifted, her mouth open. Jet opened the door and stepped outside. Kay looked at him, the water running down her face, her hair soaked.
"Come out here Jet. The rains find." She said with a grin. She was getting completly soaked. Jet grinned back. He took his jacket off and set it with Kay's. then he ran out into the rain. It was raining hard, flatening his black and green hair, running down hisf ace and back, soaking his tee shirt. Kay ran to him, her long brown hair wet, water running over her face. She grinned at him, and Jet had to grin back. She grabbed his hands and pulled him out into the empty parking lot. She began to spin around. Jet shrugged to himself and began to spin with her.
They spun around faster and faster, the parking lot and school blurring together. Jet felt Kay's grip on his wrists loosen and a devilsih smile spread across his face. He let go, and both of them fell back. They both landed in puddle, spashing water everywhere. Kay and Jet burst out laughing.
"You are a brat!" Kay gasped through her laugher.
"And you a whiner Little Bit!" Jet shot back.
"Say that to my face, Green!" Kay said, jumping to her feet and running towards the patio. Jet jumped up with the practiced ease and grace of a star football player.
He ran after her, the blood poinding through his viens, his grin lighting up his face. He bounded towards the patio, quick as a cat. Kay glanced over her shoulder, the surprise registering in her eyes before she grinning and sped up. Jet increased his stride, his feet scrambling for traction on the wet grass. Kay's foot slipped on the grass and she almost fell. She regained her footing and took off running again. But that tiny slip had given Jet the chanced to catch up With a mock yell, he dived at her legs, knocking her down. They rolled over and over on the grass, laughing.
Jet finally pinned Kay down and grinned at her, water dripping off hsi nose She grinned up at him and giggled.
"Your a whiner Little Bit." He whispered, his voice husky.
"And your a brat Green." Kay whispered back. She looked so beautiful, with her face wet, her hair soaked and her tee shirt plastered to her skin that Jet couldn't resist. He leaned down and kissed her. Kay tensed at first, but she instintly responded to it. She kissed him back, wrapping her arms around his neck and running her fingers through his hair.
Jet planted his elbows on either side of Kay, then rolled to the side. They were laying on their sides, still kissing. Jet used his strong arms and dragged Kay right up agaisnt his body. he deepened the kiss, and Kay responded eagerly, almost attacking his mouth. Kay played with the hairs at the base of his neck, while Jet ran his hands up and down her back. They were inturupted by someone loudly clearing their throat. They rolled onto their backs and looked up.
Ryan was standing there, holding a binder over his head and grinning at them like the cat that swallowed the canary.
"Am I inturupting something?"
"Yes." Jet growled.
"Too bad. I'd like to get home this century." With that, Ryan turned and walked back to the parking lot. Jet and Kay started laughing. Jet jumped to his feet and pulled Kay to hers. They were still laughing as they walked back to the front steps, hand in hand. They grabbed their stuff, then walked to the car, still holding hand. Ryan was in the backseat, so Kay climbed into the passenger seat. Jet slid into the car and started the car.
Kay shivered slightly and Jet switched on the heater. As soon as they dropped Ruan off, Kay slid across the seat and leaned agaisnt him. Jet wrapped his arm around her shoulders and dropped a kiss to the top of her head. Jet drove to her house. He pulled into her driveway, but Kay showed no indication of getting out of the car. Jet took a deep breath and got up his courage.
"There's a dance at my old school, and, offically, I'm going to be DJing. Unoffically, I'm going and I need a date. Do you want to go?"
"Sure. I'd love to." Kay said without hesitation. "Formal or informal?"
Jet was so stunned that it took him a moement to answer.
"Umm, formal. The Winter Formal."
"When?"
"Umm, three weeks."
"Okay. That's enough time for me to get a dress." She kissed him on the cheek, then slid out of the car. "See you in the morning."
"See ya." Jet replied with a nod. Kay smiled then ran inside. She heard his car pull away and grinned. She drifted into the dining room where her family was eating dinner.
"Hey Kay." Jessica said, smiling at her sister.
"Hi Jess." Kay beamed. "Hey everybody." Charity glaned up and gasped.
"Kay, what happened? Your all wet!" Kay glaned down and laughed when she realized that she was so wet that water was dripping off her clouths onto the kitchen floor. She tossed her hair, sending water flying onto Sam and Jessica, who laughed, and Grace and Charity, who both yelled 'Kay' angerly.
"Jet and I played in the rain after Tech practice was over."
'Oh, Jet got back from New York in time? Is he picking you up tomorrow?" Jessica asked.
"Yeah. Need a ride?"
"No, I'm walking with Reese."
"You two are getting close." Kay teased gently.
"No closer then you and Jet." Jessica retored good naturedly. Kay grinned brightly. "What are you so happy about?" She asked suspouisly.
"Nothing." Kay said, the grin still on her face. "I'm going to change and take a shower." Jessica followed her sister upstairs. She cornered Kay inside their room.
"Talk." She demanded. Kay sat on her bed. Jessica sat in the desk chair.
"Jet kissed me!" Kay squealed. Jessica smiled at her sisters delight.
"About time. When?" Kay told her sister what had happened after Tech practice. When she finished, Jessica's smile riviled Kays.
"And he asked me to The Winter Formal at his old school in three weeks." Kay contined.
"Oh, I'll go with you to get a dress. Think we can get Dad to run us into New York to go shopping for the weekend?"
"I'm sure he will if we ask him." Kay said. Then she shooed Jessica out of th room so she could take a shower. After her shower, Kay went back downstairs in a pair of black pajama pants with green, purple, silver and blue star and a matching tanktop. Her quilt, composed of patches of silver, blue, purple and green material in no pattern anyone could see with a black bottom was around her shoulders.
She snuggled into the couch with her quilt, a glass of hot coco, and a book. She was just settling down when Miguel and Charity walked out of the kitchen into the living room.
"Hello Kay." Miguel said.
"Hi Miguel. When did you get here?" Kay asked, not looking up from her book.
"About ten minutes ago. What are you reading?"
"Sabriel."
"Is it any good?"
"Yeah. It's really good. Jet lent it to me."
At the mention of Jet, Miguel's face darkened. Just then, the phone rang. Charity left to answer it.
"Hey Kay, can I talk to you in private?" Miguel asked.
"Sure. Lets go up to my room." Kay said, throwing back her quilt and standing up. Just then, Chairty came back into the living room, holding the cordless phone.
"Kay, it's for you. It's Jet." Kay face brightened. She jumped to her feet and took the phone.
"Hey Jet!"
"Hey Kay." Jet said.
"Whats up?"
"Listen, my parents and my family have this tradition. Right before it gets too cold, we have this big barbacue party. All my family is coming, and my brothers are coming down. Want to come?"
"Sure! When is it?"
"This Saturday."
"Cool. See ya tommow Cutie?"
"All right Babe. See ya."
"Bye."
"Bye." Kay hung up, then ran to the kitchen. "Dad!"
"What baby girl?"
"Jet invited me to a family party Saturday. Can I go?"
"Where is it?"
"His house."
"Sure." Sam said with a smile.
"Yes! Thanks dad." Kay said happily, giving her dad a hug.
She went back out to the living room. Charity was alone.
"Where's Miguel?" Kay asked, confused.
"He's out back, waiting. He wants to talk to you."
"Okay." Kay said with a shrug. She grabbed a hooded sweatshirt from next to the door and went outside. Miguel was standing at the edge of the porch, looking at the stars.
"What's up Miguel?" Kay asked, moving past him to sit on the swing he had put up for Charity.
"I wanted to talk to you."
"About what?" Kay asked, beginning to pump her legs and swing.
"About Jet." Kay glanced at him in confusion, but didn't stop swinging.
"What about Jet?"
"You two have been getting pretty close." Kay stopped at that. She crossed her arms and glared.
"What's the matter Miguel? Jealous?"
"No! I'm just saying, watch your back."
"What for?" Kay asked, getting to her feet. "I trust Jet."
"I don't." Miguel said stubornly.
"Why not?" Kay asked slowly, trying to keep her anger under control.
"Because he's just a punk street kid with an attitude. He cuts class, and he's just a typical bonehead jock."
"He is not!" Kay said angerly. "He doesn't cut class, and he's really smart. He's even helping me in some classes. What is your problem Miguel?"
"My problem is that you're letting Jet influence you."
"What?!" Kay yelled, clentching her fists.
"I'm just afraid that he'll confince you to do something that'll get you hurt."
"Miguel! Jet's my best friend!" Miguel looked at her, confused
"I thought you were my best friend."
"No Miguel you were." Kay turned on her heel and stalked inside. "Mom! I'm going for a walk!" She called upstairs before slipping on a pair of sneakers and going back into the yard and out the gate.
She made her way to the beach. A huge willow tree over look the ocean. Kay climbed to the top and looked out over the ocean, watching the waves. She was so confused. Maybe she should just go tell Miguel that she was sorry. After all, he had been her friend for a long time. And he was just worried about her. He didn't know Jet as well as she did. That was it! Maybe she could get Miguel and Jet to spend some time together. Kay stared out over the waves as she thought about her two best friends.
She had climbed down as was about to leave when she heard Jet's voice.
"Hey Cutie."
"Jet! What are you doing here?"
"Jess called me and said you and Miguel had a fight and that you were pretty upset."
"How'd you know to find me here?" Kay asked. Jet smiled and came up to her, putting his arms around her waist.
"I know you Little Bit."
Kay smiled at him and was about to kiss him when Miguel showed up.
"Kay!"
"Miguel!" Kay yelped, jumping out of Jet's arms. "What are you doing here?"
"I came to find you. I'm sorry. I was out of line."
"Oh Miguel." Kay said, running to him and giving him a hug. "So was I. I'm sorry. You've been my best friend since we were in diapers, and we'll always have that."
"Hi Miguel." Jet said just then, coming up behind Kay.
Miguel jumped. "What are YOU doing here?!" The hostility was clear in his voice. Kay glared at him while Jet stiffened. She put an arm around Jet protectively.
"Miguel! Stop it! Jet was just worried about me!"
"Little Bit, could you leave us alone for a minute?" Jet asked gently, smiling down at her. "Miguel and I need to talk."
"Well. . ." Kay said warily. But Jet grinned at her, then leaned down and gave her a small kiss on the forehead.
"Please." He said.
"Okay." Kay agreed. "I'll be right over there."
"Okay." Jet said. Kay walked over the hill and out of sight. Jet turned to Miguel.
"Okay Miguel. Out with it. WHAT is your problem?" Jet asked.
"Your my problem! Kay is my best friend, and your taking her away from me!"
"Well, maybe if you hadn't ignored her when she was right in front of you, I wouldn't have been able to take her away from you, which I didn't!"
"You did! I want you to stay away from her!"
"Migeul! Your not Kay's father, and your not her boyfriend! Why don't you just but out of her life? She's not a child, in case you haven't notice! She's a kind, sweet, passionate, funny, strong, brave, understanding, brillant, beautiful young woman! You might have seen it if you weren't so obbesessed wtih Chairty!"
Jet's words stunned Miguel. Was it true? Was he so in love with Chairity that he didn't even notice that Kay had grown up? He turned his back on Jet.
"I don't have to put up with this! I'm out of here!" Miguel stomped over the hill that Kay had disappeared over just a few minutes ago.
Kay jumped to her feet when she saw Miguel stomp over the hill. Jet was following him.
"Kay." Miguel said.
"What is it?" She asked, worried. Miguel was being so serious.
"Jet and I have come to a decision." Miguel didn't know why he said that. He and Jet hadn't agreed to anything. He felt bad about lieing to her, but knew it was the only way to get his friend back.
"Choose."
"What?" Kay asked, stumbling back. "What are you talking about?"
"Choose. You have to choose between me and Jet."
Jet came up just as Miguel said the last part. He was stunned. He would never ask Kay to do that! But before he could say anything, Kay gasped and her eyes filled up with tears.
"How could you ask me to do that? Either of you!" Kay yelled.
"Kay. . ." Jet said, stepping foreward to take Kay in his arms.
"No Jet! Don't! Don't ask me to do this, and then hug me! You disgust me! Both of you! Your so selfish!" With that, Kay turned and ran down the beach, back towrads her house.
Jet watched her go. Then he turned to Miguel. "Thanks a lot Miguel. Because of you, I've probably just lost the girl I love forever." With that, Jet also left, leaving Miguel alone on the beach.
*I'm so scared that the way that I feel
Is written all over my face
When you walk into the room
I wanna find a hiding place.*
The next night, Kay ran into her room and lay down on her bed. looked. Tonight was the choir concert, and her and Jet hadn't spoken to each other all day. He had avoided her, occasionally looking at her out of the corner of his eyes with a sad look in his eyes. Kay rolled over and switched on her radio.
*We used to laugh, we used to hug,
The way that old friends do.
But now a smile and a touch of your hand
Just makes me come unglued.*
Kay lifted her tear streaked face from the pillow and stared at the radio in amazement. She she laughed, a silent and bitter laugh. Sometimes she thought the guy at the radio sation was physic or something. The radio was always playing music that suited her mood perfectly.
*It's such a contradiction
Do I lie or tell the truth?
Is it fact or fiction?
Oh, the way I feel for you.*
Kay sighed and sat up. She walked over to the closet and started searching for an outfit to wear. She didn't really want to go to the concer. Her head ached, her stomach was killing her, and her throat hurt from crying. But she had to go to go. She had a solo tonight, the first one she had ever had.
*It's so complicated
I'm so frustrated,
I wanna hold you close,
I wanna push you away,*
Kay shook her head when she relized that she had been so deep in thought that she had paused before her closet door. She cursed herself when she looked at her watch and started rummaging through the closet again. She saw the clouths, but her mind wasn't registering. All she could think about was Jet. . .
*I wanna make you go,
I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it?
Should I tell you how I feel?*
Jet was the only think she could thing off. His bright green eyes. . . his black hair with the green tips. . . his stong yet gentle hands. . . his crooked smile. . . his soft voice. . . his adorable golden brown skin. . . no guy at their school, no, the entire world, could compare to Jet. He was her best friend, the one she filrted with, the one she argued with. The one she was in love with.
*Oh, I want you to know,
But then again I don't,
It's so complicated.*
Kay shook her head and pulled out her new favorite outfit. She had gone shopping with Jessica and Simone today after school She got dressed quickly, then looked in the mirror. a black leather skirt that fell to just below her knees, black leather boots, a dark red turtleneck shirt that just barely touched the waist of the skirt and a snow white leather jacket. She thought Jet would like her white leather jacket. Jet. . .
*Just when I think I'm under control,
I think I finally got a grip,
Another friend tells me that my name
Is always on your lips.*
Kay sighed and started shuffling through papers on her desk looking for the sheet music to her solo. She wanted to go over it once more before the concer.. Her elbow hit the edge of her desk, knocked her pen holder and some other stuff off her desk. Kay yelped in pain and rubbed her elbow, blinking to clear her eyes of the tears that had sprung up at the sharp pain.
*They say I'm more than just a friend,
They say I must be blind.
Well, I admit that I've seen you watch me
From the corner of your eye.*
Muttering under her breath, Kay bent to pick up everything. Her fingers touched the pen holder and she froze. It was the ceramic one Jet had made her. A midnight black kitten, the exact shade as he hair, with wide green eyes like his and a blue collor with a shiny silver tag that read 'Kay'. It reminded her of Jet. . .
*It's so complicated
I'm so frustrated,
I wanna hold you close,
I wanna push you away,*
Kay jerked her hand back like she had been burned. She propeled herself backwards, covering her mouth with her hand to stiffle a sob. What was this? Was the entire world conspiring agaist her to force her to admit her feelings for Jet? First the radio, then the shirt, then the pen holder. . .
*I wanna make you go,
I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it?
Should I tell you how I feel?*
The pen holder had the same infuriating cute grin that Jet had, grinned at her in the same way. Like a kitten who was lost and wanted to come home with you. Kay picked up the pen holder and cradled it to her chest, letting silent tears slid down her face. What was wrong with her? Why was she always fighting what everyone else said was obvious? She'd seen the way Jet looked at her sometimes, yet she pushed it to the back of her mind.
*Oh, I want you to know,
But then again I don't,
It's so complicated.*
Why was she fighting? Was it because she was afraid? Yes, that was it! She was afraid! She was afraid that Jet didn't like her, that he just liked being her friend, and flirting with her. She was afriad that he would tell her that he didn't like her as more than a friend. And she was afraid of losing him as a friend.
*I hate it
Cause I've waited so long
For someone like you.
What do I do?*
"Come on Kay! It's time to go!" Sam yelled up the stairs. Kay wiped her eyes, then quickly gathered up her pens and pencils, and grabbed her music. She could go over it in the car. She ran down the stairs and out the door, past her dad and into the warm car. The same sation was on in the car, and the song was still playing.
*Should I say it?
Should I tell you how I feel?
Oh, I want you to know,
But then again I don't.
Kay growled and switched it off. She didn't want to think about how much she missed Jet's friendship, or how much in love with him she was. All she wanted to do was go over her music. She flipped open her music and concentrated on that as her dad drove her and Jessic to the school.
*It's so complicated
It's so complicated.
It's so complicated.*
Kay cleared her throat and stepped foreward as Mr. Winter announced her. Straining her leather jacket, she stepped up to the microphone and nodded to the pianist. The pianist began to play. Kay closed her eyes and began to sing.
*Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed*
This song reminded her of Jet. Because that's how her love for him felt. Like she was drowning in it, and him. But she didn't mind. She loved it. She loved being in love with him. Until that was gone.
*Some say love it is a hunger
An end less aching need
I say love it is a flower
And you it's only seed*
Kay tried to swallow her tears, but it wasn't working to well. She could fell them building up behind her eyes. She blinked fast, but they were still there. She took a deep breath, closed her eyes and lost herself in the music.
*It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dyin'
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong*
The tears were coming now, and she couldn't stop them. They were rolling down her face, and she wiped at them as she sang the last lines.
*Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose*
The tears rolled down her face as Kay broke into sobs and backed up as the last strains of music faded away. She tried to run off the stage, but Jet stopped her.
"Wait Kay." He whispered. Then he was pulling her foreward, back towards the microphone. He stepped up the microphone and spoke into it.
"Excuse me ladies and gentlemen. I know this isn't on your program, but I'm going to sing to this girl right here. You see, I've never been able to express my self very well in words. But when I heard this song, I knew it was the perfect way to tell her something." He nodded and music came over the speakers. Kay looked up and saw Ryan in the sound system booth. He gave Jet a thumbs up and Jet grinned and nodded his thanks. Then he took Kay by the hand and began.
*If I had one single wish
I'd go back to the moment I kissed
You goodbye
No matter how I try
I can't live
Without you in my life
Maybe you'll say you still want me
Maybe you'll say that you don't
Maybe we said it was over
But Baby I can't let you go
I walk around trying to understand
Where we went wrong
And I can't pretend
It wasn't me
And it wasn't you
But I'm convinced
We gave up too soon
Nothing left to lose
After losing you
There's nothing I can't take
When I run to you
When I come for you
Don't tell me I'm too late*
The last sounds of music faded and Kay found herself facing Jet. He was standing there, with a hopeful, begging little smile on her face. Kay thought about it only for a second. Then she rushed across the stage and into Jet's arms. He caughter her and hugged her tightly, her arms around his waist, his arms around her shoulders and neck.
"Why do we complicate things?" Jet whispered.
"I don't know." Kay whispered back. "But why don't we make one thing simple?" Jet smiled when he realized the full implication of what she said. He just about gaver her a heart attack, lifting her off the ground as he kissed her.