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A/N:FINAL CHAPTER!!!! *cheers* woo, ive been meaning to finish this fic, FOREVER! argh, anyways, alot of sap, a smidge of angst and more Leekato luvin we all enjoy, with a bit of lime, i promised that didnt i? Anyways, I *WOULD* have done all the Tamer's POV's but i'd never end this fic if i did, erm sorry if i got Lee's lil sister's name wrong, i can *NEVER* remember it! ^_^;;
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(Lee's Journal)
Jan 6.
"OW ow Ow!!"
I looked up seeing Kazu knealted over holding his butt and whimpering like a puppy..
"I told you not to let Kenta be dominate in bed." i warned him with a smile.
"Haha, funny, anyways i cant help it, ive been sore for 2 days now, damn those flavoured condoms dont give off good lubericant.."
"Your suppose to use them orally then anally." i said adjusting a wheel on a motorcycle..
"Kenta was really horny! I cant say no to those big puppy dog eyes of his!"
I sighed, Kazu hadnt changed a bit since we were Tamers...
I was just finishing up on this motorcycle, i changed the oil and checked the guages, everything seemed working fine.
I glanced at my watch '5:24' p.m., it was around quitting time, i had to get off and go home to attend to *things*..
OK, so your probably wondering 'Why is Jenyra Lee the only NORMAL one around?' Well Im not excally the normal one.
You see, as you probably already have, alot of the tamers have changed, weither for the best or worst, im not sure, but everyone has changed.
Well maybe after all that shock, i tried buring myself in my studies, trying to avoid sex, drugs, and violence as much as possible, I really have...but, sometimes...it just doesnt work..
Maybe it was just after that party of Makoto's, after i had experienced a bit of drunkeness and so had Takato, much less, he tried to make out with me..
And after seeing Ruki and Jeri, it had just been...hell.
*flashback*
BACK AT MAKOTO'S PARTY..
"Ok, Takato Matsuda, I daaaaare you to...hm, Make out with Jenyra!"Makato said in a slurred speech.
"Okkkkkkkay!" Takato said dreamily, he turned to me, his eyes were droopy and you could smell the achohol on his breath.
Before i had a chance to say anything in the process Takato leaped on me, trying his best (which wasnt much due to the influence) He managed to kiss me on the lips, then he started groping my body, after that i heard a glass shatter, i looked behind me to see Juri for a second and she was out the door.
Now even if I *did* have slight feelings for Takato, I wasnt about to do anything sexual with him while he was drunk, So I pushed him off of me.
He feel back with a slight thud "Jeeenyra!" he moaned, I shook my head and got up.
This was getting insane, all my friends around me were at their worse, this wasnt a party, it was chaos.
So after reconsiling with the other tamers, well the best i could, we decided to ditch this dryed out Party go home, and take some asprin for the hang-over the next morning.
Takato was too drunk to walk, So i had slung him over my shoulder and tryed my best to walk him out, thats when I went looking for Juri and Ruki, which i found in the backyard, engaging in an 'activity'.
Shiuchon was a bit drunk herself, but i warned her I'd tell Okaasan and Otoosan if she didnt leave, so she finally did.
Kazu was trying his best to comfort a now vomiting Kenta, I decided they could find their way home.
So in the process of walking home.....
"Leeee?" Takato spoke up in a drunken voice.
"What is it?"
"Wfat happind at Makkato's parraty?"
"You got drunk, so did a bunch of other people."
"Drunk?"
"Under the infulence, You've cosumed alot of Alcohol,Your Intoxicated...so on and so forth"
"You use Bigguh woirds."
"Rright."
We had started nearing his home, I explained the whole thing to Takato's parents, they said they'd handle it and I left.
I was returning home, I walked inside, everyone was gone...
'Shiuchon should be home by now..' i thought to myself, walking to the back of the hallway, i knocked on her door three times (that was our special way of knowing who was at the door)
No awnser.
I opened the door cautiously, just if she *might* be in there...the room was completely empty..
I sighed, lately she had been out alot, i wasnt too sure of what,but i trusted my sister, so i didnt think much into it.
I turned to go out the door when i heard something break, almost like the sound of glass.
I looked down to see a large injection needle benethe my foot, something was in it and was staining the carpet.
I leaned down to pick it up, it didnt smell, strangely, i went to pick it up when a stinging sensation shot thru my hand, i pulled it back almost immediately and glanced at my hand.
Blood.
The glass had cut my hand pretty deep and whatever was in that needle gotten in there too, i didnt think much about it and picked up the glass anyways, throwing it away.
I cleaned my hand and bandaged it, then i returned to my sister's room to see if i could find anymore of that stuff.
Now usually im not the kind of person who goes snooping around in other people's stuff, no, that's not me.
But their had to be a good reason my kyoodai had this junk.
I started looking through the doors, a few magazines, clothes, random girl junk, through her pile of clothes and her closet..
Nothing.
Finally i searched under her bed, i found an old shoe-box and pulled it out.
Hopefully this was it.
I opened the box to find many more of the large injection needles, with tubes full of some kind of liquid and others full of a white powder a wad of money in the side.
Heroin.
My imooto-chan did........drugs?!?
No no, that cant be possible...she..
I couldnt handle it, it wasnt right, that wasnt Shiuchon, that wasnt her at all.
Maybe that's why she was out so much, maybe that's why she didnt come home til late hours of the night..
I should have know.
2 HOURS LATER..
I heard the door creak open and saw Shiuchon come in, she had a box under her hand.
"Moshi Onni-chan." she said quietly.
"What's in the box?"
"Excuse me?"
"I asked you, what's in the box?"
She glanced down at it "Oh nothing.."
"Dont lie Shin, tell me."
"It's nothing Jen, i swear."
I got up from the couch and stormed towards her grabbing the box from her which opened in the process, more needles and little tubes fell on the floor.
"How do you explain this?!!!" i yelled.
"Onni-chan, it's not what you think..I.." she started sobbing.
"You what? Mean to tell me my sweet little sister is a drug-addict, oh swell!"
"No No...you dont understand..."
"I understand fine, Your gonna have a helluva alot of explaining to do when Mom and Dad get home."
"NO! Please please dont tell...Onni-chan!!"
I just walked away, i didnt even want to consider her to be my sister anymore.
She cried the rest of the night, she even confessed to 'kaa-san 'too-san without me even around.
They decided it was best to send her to a rehab for help, and so they did.
Without her around, I went out alot, I still had alot of anger weld up inside of me.
I kept finding myself in the slums of Tokyo, meeting up with gangsters going into bars and the what not, finally i went to one bar, a bunch of people in the corner were injecting themselves with Heroin.
They offered me some, I thought about it brieftly, and figured. 'What the hell.' everyone else was going down the drain, ya cant beat em, join em.
So, I myself, started trying that heroin stuff, if it helped my sister so much, maybe it could help me.
Then i got addicted, i didnt tell anyone, and I wore long shirts to cover up the scars they left, I'd run out of money and get desperate,very violent, I'd beat up any dealer i could find and get some, during my highs I'd do stupid stuff, go out and steal things, vandalize things, even found myself with a couple of prosistutes a few times.
My grades were falling, it didnt matter, everytime i got a report card I'd throw it away, any
letters from the school would be burnt.
I kept no records of my grades, nor any of my problems.
No-one knew, and that's how i wanted it, just like that.
Then finally, my 'Too-san found out, he's been helping me, I was recovering slowly,
I was doing better, Everything was improving, Occassionally I'd get high, but not often.
I was even getting better in Martial-arts, help people with their electronic whenever they needed it, hell I was even helping Kazu in the body-shop.
Until i saw Takato that day, when he, the one person in the world I remotely cared about anymore, hurting himself, all purity was lost, i didnt feel like trying to hold back.
I hurt him, I had to, its all i could stand to do, and then i started crying, i dont know why, then i had to escape...just......escape.
So now,just a month after everything had been going so well, its now been getting worse, my grades are falling again.I still help Kazu, not as often as I used to, and i havent went to see my Sen-sei in forever..
I think i may quit soon, Im not sure, i dont think Im sure of anything now.
My sister is living with my Aunt now, it's closer to the rehab, she's still going, she's suppose to be home this summer.
But what's she going to think of her Onni-chan now?
Now Im even worst off then i was before, Even Kazu notices, but i just make up lies.
I still like Takato, what am i saying, I love him, but i cant face him like i am now, Im just a wreck.
Why would he want me now?
Why would anyone?
I walk outside the shop, on my normal route home, I push my hands in my pockets, feeling the small tube hidden inside.
I don't wanna shoot up again, I dont want to.
But my hunger for the drug is stronger than my will, I'm losing it, I have to get home, I have to.
Just once more.
One more high, and I wont do it anymore.
But something inside me says I will, I just *will*.
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To Be CONTINUED!
A/N: I SAID LEEKATO!! *smacks self* I also said LAST CHAPTER, unfortunately, somehow 4 chapters isnt gonna finish this fic, so yes, Im gonna be writting more, But i need at least 3 REVIEWS! Yes! Because After 4 chapters some stuff has gotta come out of the readers...soo...gomen nasai! ^^;
3 REVIEWS OR BUST!
A/N:FINAL CHAPTER!!!! *cheers* woo, ive been meaning to finish this fic, FOREVER! argh, anyways, alot of sap, a smidge of angst and more Leekato luvin we all enjoy, with a bit of lime, i promised that didnt i? Anyways, I *WOULD* have done all the Tamer's POV's but i'd never end this fic if i did, erm sorry if i got Lee's lil sister's name wrong, i can *NEVER* remember it! ^_^;;
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(Lee's Journal)
Jan 6.
"OW ow Ow!!"
I looked up seeing Kazu knealted over holding his butt and whimpering like a puppy..
"I told you not to let Kenta be dominate in bed." i warned him with a smile.
"Haha, funny, anyways i cant help it, ive been sore for 2 days now, damn those flavoured condoms dont give off good lubericant.."
"Your suppose to use them orally then anally." i said adjusting a wheel on a motorcycle..
"Kenta was really horny! I cant say no to those big puppy dog eyes of his!"
I sighed, Kazu hadnt changed a bit since we were Tamers...
I was just finishing up on this motorcycle, i changed the oil and checked the guages, everything seemed working fine.
I glanced at my watch '5:24' p.m., it was around quitting time, i had to get off and go home to attend to *things*..
OK, so your probably wondering 'Why is Jenyra Lee the only NORMAL one around?' Well Im not excally the normal one.
You see, as you probably already have, alot of the tamers have changed, weither for the best or worst, im not sure, but everyone has changed.
Well maybe after all that shock, i tried buring myself in my studies, trying to avoid sex, drugs, and violence as much as possible, I really have...but, sometimes...it just doesnt work..
Maybe it was just after that party of Makoto's, after i had experienced a bit of drunkeness and so had Takato, much less, he tried to make out with me..
And after seeing Ruki and Jeri, it had just been...hell.
*flashback*
BACK AT MAKOTO'S PARTY..
"Ok, Takato Matsuda, I daaaaare you to...hm, Make out with Jenyra!"Makato said in a slurred speech.
"Okkkkkkkay!" Takato said dreamily, he turned to me, his eyes were droopy and you could smell the achohol on his breath.
Before i had a chance to say anything in the process Takato leaped on me, trying his best (which wasnt much due to the influence) He managed to kiss me on the lips, then he started groping my body, after that i heard a glass shatter, i looked behind me to see Juri for a second and she was out the door.
Now even if I *did* have slight feelings for Takato, I wasnt about to do anything sexual with him while he was drunk, So I pushed him off of me.
He feel back with a slight thud "Jeeenyra!" he moaned, I shook my head and got up.
This was getting insane, all my friends around me were at their worse, this wasnt a party, it was chaos.
So after reconsiling with the other tamers, well the best i could, we decided to ditch this dryed out Party go home, and take some asprin for the hang-over the next morning.
Takato was too drunk to walk, So i had slung him over my shoulder and tryed my best to walk him out, thats when I went looking for Juri and Ruki, which i found in the backyard, engaging in an 'activity'.
Shiuchon was a bit drunk herself, but i warned her I'd tell Okaasan and Otoosan if she didnt leave, so she finally did.
Kazu was trying his best to comfort a now vomiting Kenta, I decided they could find their way home.
So in the process of walking home.....
"Leeee?" Takato spoke up in a drunken voice.
"What is it?"
"Wfat happind at Makkato's parraty?"
"You got drunk, so did a bunch of other people."
"Drunk?"
"Under the infulence, You've cosumed alot of Alcohol,Your Intoxicated...so on and so forth"
"You use Bigguh woirds."
"Rright."
We had started nearing his home, I explained the whole thing to Takato's parents, they said they'd handle it and I left.
I was returning home, I walked inside, everyone was gone...
'Shiuchon should be home by now..' i thought to myself, walking to the back of the hallway, i knocked on her door three times (that was our special way of knowing who was at the door)
No awnser.
I opened the door cautiously, just if she *might* be in there...the room was completely empty..
I sighed, lately she had been out alot, i wasnt too sure of what,but i trusted my sister, so i didnt think much into it.
I turned to go out the door when i heard something break, almost like the sound of glass.
I looked down to see a large injection needle benethe my foot, something was in it and was staining the carpet.
I leaned down to pick it up, it didnt smell, strangely, i went to pick it up when a stinging sensation shot thru my hand, i pulled it back almost immediately and glanced at my hand.
Blood.
The glass had cut my hand pretty deep and whatever was in that needle gotten in there too, i didnt think much about it and picked up the glass anyways, throwing it away.
I cleaned my hand and bandaged it, then i returned to my sister's room to see if i could find anymore of that stuff.
Now usually im not the kind of person who goes snooping around in other people's stuff, no, that's not me.
But their had to be a good reason my kyoodai had this junk.
I started looking through the doors, a few magazines, clothes, random girl junk, through her pile of clothes and her closet..
Nothing.
Finally i searched under her bed, i found an old shoe-box and pulled it out.
Hopefully this was it.
I opened the box to find many more of the large injection needles, with tubes full of some kind of liquid and others full of a white powder a wad of money in the side.
Heroin.
My imooto-chan did........drugs?!?
No no, that cant be possible...she..
I couldnt handle it, it wasnt right, that wasnt Shiuchon, that wasnt her at all.
Maybe that's why she was out so much, maybe that's why she didnt come home til late hours of the night..
I should have know.
2 HOURS LATER..
I heard the door creak open and saw Shiuchon come in, she had a box under her hand.
"Moshi Onni-chan." she said quietly.
"What's in the box?"
"Excuse me?"
"I asked you, what's in the box?"
She glanced down at it "Oh nothing.."
"Dont lie Shin, tell me."
"It's nothing Jen, i swear."
I got up from the couch and stormed towards her grabbing the box from her which opened in the process, more needles and little tubes fell on the floor.
"How do you explain this?!!!" i yelled.
"Onni-chan, it's not what you think..I.." she started sobbing.
"You what? Mean to tell me my sweet little sister is a drug-addict, oh swell!"
"No No...you dont understand..."
"I understand fine, Your gonna have a helluva alot of explaining to do when Mom and Dad get home."
"NO! Please please dont tell...Onni-chan!!"
I just walked away, i didnt even want to consider her to be my sister anymore.
She cried the rest of the night, she even confessed to 'kaa-san 'too-san without me even around.
They decided it was best to send her to a rehab for help, and so they did.
Without her around, I went out alot, I still had alot of anger weld up inside of me.
I kept finding myself in the slums of Tokyo, meeting up with gangsters going into bars and the what not, finally i went to one bar, a bunch of people in the corner were injecting themselves with Heroin.
They offered me some, I thought about it brieftly, and figured. 'What the hell.' everyone else was going down the drain, ya cant beat em, join em.
So, I myself, started trying that heroin stuff, if it helped my sister so much, maybe it could help me.
Then i got addicted, i didnt tell anyone, and I wore long shirts to cover up the scars they left, I'd run out of money and get desperate,very violent, I'd beat up any dealer i could find and get some, during my highs I'd do stupid stuff, go out and steal things, vandalize things, even found myself with a couple of prosistutes a few times.
My grades were falling, it didnt matter, everytime i got a report card I'd throw it away, any
letters from the school would be burnt.
I kept no records of my grades, nor any of my problems.
No-one knew, and that's how i wanted it, just like that.
Then finally, my 'Too-san found out, he's been helping me, I was recovering slowly,
I was doing better, Everything was improving, Occassionally I'd get high, but not often.
I was even getting better in Martial-arts, help people with their electronic whenever they needed it, hell I was even helping Kazu in the body-shop.
Until i saw Takato that day, when he, the one person in the world I remotely cared about anymore, hurting himself, all purity was lost, i didnt feel like trying to hold back.
I hurt him, I had to, its all i could stand to do, and then i started crying, i dont know why, then i had to escape...just......escape.
So now,just a month after everything had been going so well, its now been getting worse, my grades are falling again.I still help Kazu, not as often as I used to, and i havent went to see my Sen-sei in forever..
I think i may quit soon, Im not sure, i dont think Im sure of anything now.
My sister is living with my Aunt now, it's closer to the rehab, she's still going, she's suppose to be home this summer.
But what's she going to think of her Onni-chan now?
Now Im even worst off then i was before, Even Kazu notices, but i just make up lies.
I still like Takato, what am i saying, I love him, but i cant face him like i am now, Im just a wreck.
Why would he want me now?
Why would anyone?
I walk outside the shop, on my normal route home, I push my hands in my pockets, feeling the small tube hidden inside.
I don't wanna shoot up again, I dont want to.
But my hunger for the drug is stronger than my will, I'm losing it, I have to get home, I have to.
Just once more.
One more high, and I wont do it anymore.
But something inside me says I will, I just *will*.
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To Be CONTINUED!
A/N: I SAID LEEKATO!! *smacks self* I also said LAST CHAPTER, unfortunately, somehow 4 chapters isnt gonna finish this fic, so yes, Im gonna be writting more, But i need at least 3 REVIEWS! Yes! Because After 4 chapters some stuff has gotta come out of the readers...soo...gomen nasai! ^^;
3 REVIEWS OR BUST!