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A/N:YAY! You guys gave me OVER 3 reviews!! *glomps readers* Ok, SIXTH chapter! God i never thought i'd take this fic this far. @_o Orginally I was gonna start it, then i didnt get any input on it so i didnt write another chapter for a month or so, posted, then reviews came in and i was like 'WOW!' So here it is, thanks to you, anyways, buckets and buckets of LEEKATO! Smidge of Ryokato and Ryolee.
Anyways, again thanks, this is *so* helping my writing career! Gah, dont think im asking for reviews to say 'oh my fic is good' i ask for it to see if people actually like it and for any ideas to help me write!Really! REALLY!! Stop lookin at me that way!!
Just Please dont get the wrong idea ^_^''
And on with the Show! And whatever the hell happened with Ryo n' Taka-chan ^^;.
~
(Ryo's Journal)
10:56 pm. Jan 6th (a/n: will the day ever change?!)
I sigh, pacing the floor of the hospital.
How could he do this!?
God, I just came for a visit and this is what happens?!
Yeah, I had came for a visit to see Takato, I was living in Kyoto working on the digital world information and so on for awhile.
After that I find myself as a janitor in some two-bit porno shop barely making ends meat. ( a/n: er is that meet?! -_-')
I finally did get enough money to come back to Tokyo, my first stop was Takato, after all, it was he who got me outta the digital world.
My first kiss even..
But it was plain to see Lee and him were engadged in one of those 'silent' relations.
You know, where you exchange body language and what not?
Anyways, i figured i was just upset when i did so, I believe thats what led me to being bisexual in the first place..
But this isnt the case..
*flashback*
You see, I had come just back from Kyoto's 9611 E train to Takato's house, it was *still* the bakery, i couldnt believe it after all these years..
They Matsuda family now has 8 bakeries in all.
Which was great, I'd thought Takato would be happy to see me, his parents invite me in, greetings and what not then lead me up to his room as if i was some little baby.
Which was slightly annoying I must admit but at least i was going to be able to see Takato again which was a good thing since it'd been so long.
Then we open the room to see my friend in a mangled sort of way,cuts all over his body, blood covering him, the floor, almost everything...
It was gruesome..
And its not like those realistic violence tapings, its so much different when you actually *know* the person.
Lastly, their was a razor, one long, metal razor, clenched in Takato's hand, he had fainted from the obviouse loss of blood.
Then Mrs.Matsuda started screaming at the top of her lungs, panic arose and Mr.Matsuda was yelling at me to go and call an ambulience.
I didnt know what to do so i did what they told me,I raced downstairs, grabbed the phone and called up 911 immediately, I got put on hold for a few minutes then they finally took me off..
'911 state your emergency.'
'Hurry! Quick, my friend, he's he's on the floor, theirs blood everywhere, people are screaming You have to get here..!!!!'
'Slow down slow down! Address and location please!'
'184 Kyoodi Street, West Shinjuku, Matsuda's Bakery! Now!!!!!!!'
'Alright, we'll be right down.'
And they hung up..
I waited and Waited..
Finally after what seemed hours of hearing the sobs and fetal attempts by the Matsudas up stairs, the medics arrived, I was searching thru the phonebook calling up all the old tamers.
Their leader was dying for god's sake!
The first assumption was that their had been a struggled and the perpetraitor has feld the scene of the crime.
Or so said the cops, the bakery was closed down and their was alot of commotion going around.
I got down to the Hospital as quickly as I could, the Matsudas had went in the ambulience with Takato so they were already there.
That was 1 and a half hours ago.
I'm pacing the floor in the waiting room now, Im so scared, god I hope he doesnt die, they wont let me go back their because their too 'busy'.
The Matsudas are watching in the room, the nurses says only immediate family can be back there.
Lucky me..
After a little bit..the elevator doors opened and I see Kazu and Kenta walk in...
They sure had changed alot.
"Ryo, dood, what's going on?!" Kazu asked almost immediately.
"Takato's hurt, dying..he's loosing blood, their doing all they can.."
"Is he gonna make it?" Kenta asks.
"I don't know."
So we waited, 10 minutes later Ruki and Juri arrive, I explain everything....
"Are you seriouse?!" Juri asks almost in tears.
"Of course! You'd think I called you all up for the fun of it!?!" I snapped.
She looked down.
"Get off Juri's back!" Kenta said challenging me.
"HEY YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IVE.." I said getting up very un-rascional
Kazu stood up and broke it apart "Hey Hey Cool it!"
We gave each other 'go-to-hell-looks' settled down a bit and sat down with a sigh.
After a moments silence..
"Guess we're all under alot of stress.." Ruki trails off.
"Where's Jen?" Kenta asks looking over at me, his face was softened so i could tell we both sort of flew off the handle a little while ago.
"I don't know, I figured he'd be the first one out of you all." I sighed
Just then, like if magic, or fate or something the elevator doors open and guess who we see?!
"Is Takato alright?" Jenyra panted.
~
(Lee's Journal)
Im trying to catch my breath from running to the hospital and see all my old commerates sitting around (which is rare anymore) looking up at me.
"You made it!"Juri says standing up.
I walk over them and feel my heartbeat slow down "Im so sorry...Short notice i had to go by foot."
"That's ok." Ruki says smiling at me, her violet eyes soft.
I feel comfortable all of a sudden, its so weird being reunited again,with all my old friends...but I still havent seen my closest friend.
"Is he going to be alright?" I ask scared to death.
"We're not sure yet."Ryo says distantly.
"Where's his parents?" i ask looking around.
"In the room with him." Kazu says looking at the tile pattern on the floor.
Silence again.
"So now.....we wait?" I ask, the ex-tamers give me a nod..
So for, i dont know how long, theirs a silence between us all, like were lost in reminince of our beloveded leader,like 'this will be the last time we see him' or 'if he dies.....what are we going to do?'
Maybe me the most of all of them because soon the silence is broken
"Matsuda Takato is going to be fine..but he's still unconicious." a nurse says, she has long brown hair that curls at the tips and soft mocca colored eyes.
"Can we go see him?" I ask egarely.
She nods and I glance back over at the other Tamers.
"I think Lee should go first!" Juri peeps up.
"Me too!" Kazu agrees.
"Same here." Ruki says.
"Agreed."Kenta smiles.
"Huh?" i start wondering why 'me' I wasnt Takato's friend...i wasnt worthy of being so, but seeing all those faces and them agreeing on one thing was a mircale.
"Go on Jen!" Ryo said.
I stood up, giving them all one last uneased look, then glanced at the nurse..
"Follow me." she said politely.
So i did.
I never noticed how everything in the hospital was so......white...the walls were crying out in the most brilliant of light colors and blinded me for awhile.
At least its better than that black...but both of those are practically the same...they mean....emptiness.
I felt alot of that lately.
My thoughts soon came to a hault as the nurse stopped by a room, the door was shut.
She opened it gently, the room was cascaded in a soft shadow, dim low lights were casting a warm yet seriouse atmosphere around the the place, the walls were lined in a blue very plain pastal wallpaper and the place was filled with all sorts of medical equitment..
The room smelt so clean, my eyes wondered over to the Matsudas, Mrs.Matsuda was sobbing over her son's bed while sitting in a chair and Mr.Matsuda was rubbing her shoulders and reassuring her.
"You two take a rest, get something to eat and try to relax a bit, your son is in stable conditions and the best of care." the nurse said in a coaxing voice.
"C'mon honey." Mr.Matsuda cooed to his wife, she sniffled and stood up.
They walked out of the room embraced for comfort.
"I'll leave you alone with the patient." and with that the nurse left.
It was just me and Takato, I walked over, slowly, catiously, to his bed, I was so shocked to see my love in such a state..
Their was in IV in his right arm, pumping in blood,his nose had a plug in it as well and it seemed to help him breathe,he seemed to be already dressed in hospital clothes and he was attached to a heart mointer that kept his rhymticatic heartbeat..
Takato's heartbeat..
I listened to the steady beat, it soon became unise with my own.
I glanced more over his body, their were many scars covering his lightly tanned body and new wounds that had been wrapped up, some of the blood had been seeping through the bandages,he had one around his head even, and it did look as though he had gotten into a browl..
Subcontiously i was edging myself closer to him whilst looking over his innocent body..
My hand reached out to stroke his forehead but i felt myself shaking I was afraid I was going to kill him by touching him..
Instead I pulled up a chair next to his bedside, and watched him breathe..
He was so beautiful like this..
Even if he was in a distressed state, Takato always had a glow to him..
I soon found myself holding his hand tightly and stroking his soft chestnut hair..
Singing an old chinese lullaby to him even..
Then i heard a cough and looked up.
Ryo was standing in the doorway.
"Ryo! What are you doing in here?! Your just gonna sit their and stare?!" i whispered loudly.
"Two vistors at a time.And anyways I didnt want to break up the moment." he remarked.
"What moment?"
"The moment you two 'lovebirds' were having and excuse me you were the one staring!"
"I wasnt staring!" i said bitterly.
"Oh don't deny it Jen, Your in love with the guy, everyone sense it." Ryo smirked walking close to Takato's bed.
I remained silent.
"Why dont you just tell him?" Ryo said, breaking the silence.
"I'm not what he wants.."
"What do you mean your *not* what he wants? Your what he needs!"
"No I'm not."
"Havent you seen the boy lately, he's a mess!"
"Not as much as me." I mumble.
"What?"
"Look, you dont understand,even if I did tell him, he wouldnt love me, Takato isnt *that* way."
Ryo laughs "I must disagree good ol' chap, cuz when we were 10 we kissed."
I looked up at him wide eyed "What?!"
"Well I did the kissing for the most part, and from what Ive heard he's alot *that* way."
"But still....i dont think he'll love me." i sigh.
"You'll never know if you dont try. Besides,we're all human ne?"
And with that he left.
I dwelled on that thought...long and hard.
I wouldnt know.
I had to at least try..
God knows if anyone will forgive me.
But I had to try..
I pull his hand up to my lips and kiss it gently.
"I hope you wake up soon Koi..."
~
(Takato's Journal)
9:34 am Jan 7th (a/n: the day changed, yay!)
Pain.
That's the first thing I feel, aching...all over, im so lightheaded.
I try and open my eyes but everything is so blurry and bright.
I look around, the hospital...how did i get....here?
I remebered being really depressed, I went in my room to cut and I felt there wasnt a reason for matulating myself much longer and I might as well get the whole thing over with..
And i remember seeing blood.....everywhere.
Then darkness..
And here i am.
I glance around my pale room, not even realising I was sitting up, alot of flowers and balloons were around my bed as were alot of a equitment.
Then I see him.
Lee, sleeping, on my bedside, his hand close to mine.
He stayed here all night?
Did he save me?
Should have left me to die..
I just wanted to die...so much for that..
I was so confused by the matter but so happy to see Lee, Ive been waiting everyday, longing, just to see his beautiful face.
And now he's here..
I stare at him unknowlingly, he's so beautiful with the sunshine shining over his pale yellow skin, his dark blue locks falling lightly over his face, the way his face gently curves..
I reach out to touch his cheek and he awakes aburtly, in shock I pull my hand back.
He blinks blurred eyed then realises what's going on..
"Takato-kun! Im so sorry!" he starts apologising.
"For what?"
He stares at me for a second and begans talking again
"For staying here, I didnt mean to fall asleep."
"Its ok! Really..that was very, kind."
"No just stupid, I'll be going." he makes a attempt to leave but i grab his hand.
"You seem troubled....do you have something to tell me?" I asked concerned.
His silver eyes seem so saddened.
"Takato I.."
"What?"
He glances away.
"Nothing."
I feel like he's hiding something, like he's trying to keep some big secret from me.
"Please Jen..tell me!" I plead.
"I gotta go." He grabs his jacket and walks out.
I wish I knew...
I wish I told him.
God Im such an idiot!
"I love you Jen!!" I call out.
But theirs no answer.
~
TO BE CONTINUED!
A/N: Haaaaaaaaaaah, was that Leekato-y enough? Ok Ok, so it was rather strange I do admit..I dont know why i ended it like that, i just did, so sorry.Anyways, the next chapter WILL have lime fluff and everything and will be the ACTUAL end.
Uhhmm...Reviews? *laughs bitterly*
A/N:YAY! You guys gave me OVER 3 reviews!! *glomps readers* Ok, SIXTH chapter! God i never thought i'd take this fic this far. @_o Orginally I was gonna start it, then i didnt get any input on it so i didnt write another chapter for a month or so, posted, then reviews came in and i was like 'WOW!' So here it is, thanks to you, anyways, buckets and buckets of LEEKATO! Smidge of Ryokato and Ryolee.
Anyways, again thanks, this is *so* helping my writing career! Gah, dont think im asking for reviews to say 'oh my fic is good' i ask for it to see if people actually like it and for any ideas to help me write!Really! REALLY!! Stop lookin at me that way!!
Just Please dont get the wrong idea ^_^''
And on with the Show! And whatever the hell happened with Ryo n' Taka-chan ^^;.
~
(Ryo's Journal)
10:56 pm. Jan 6th (a/n: will the day ever change?!)
I sigh, pacing the floor of the hospital.
How could he do this!?
God, I just came for a visit and this is what happens?!
Yeah, I had came for a visit to see Takato, I was living in Kyoto working on the digital world information and so on for awhile.
After that I find myself as a janitor in some two-bit porno shop barely making ends meat. ( a/n: er is that meet?! -_-')
I finally did get enough money to come back to Tokyo, my first stop was Takato, after all, it was he who got me outta the digital world.
My first kiss even..
But it was plain to see Lee and him were engadged in one of those 'silent' relations.
You know, where you exchange body language and what not?
Anyways, i figured i was just upset when i did so, I believe thats what led me to being bisexual in the first place..
But this isnt the case..
*flashback*
You see, I had come just back from Kyoto's 9611 E train to Takato's house, it was *still* the bakery, i couldnt believe it after all these years..
They Matsuda family now has 8 bakeries in all.
Which was great, I'd thought Takato would be happy to see me, his parents invite me in, greetings and what not then lead me up to his room as if i was some little baby.
Which was slightly annoying I must admit but at least i was going to be able to see Takato again which was a good thing since it'd been so long.
Then we open the room to see my friend in a mangled sort of way,cuts all over his body, blood covering him, the floor, almost everything...
It was gruesome..
And its not like those realistic violence tapings, its so much different when you actually *know* the person.
Lastly, their was a razor, one long, metal razor, clenched in Takato's hand, he had fainted from the obviouse loss of blood.
Then Mrs.Matsuda started screaming at the top of her lungs, panic arose and Mr.Matsuda was yelling at me to go and call an ambulience.
I didnt know what to do so i did what they told me,I raced downstairs, grabbed the phone and called up 911 immediately, I got put on hold for a few minutes then they finally took me off..
'911 state your emergency.'
'Hurry! Quick, my friend, he's he's on the floor, theirs blood everywhere, people are screaming You have to get here..!!!!'
'Slow down slow down! Address and location please!'
'184 Kyoodi Street, West Shinjuku, Matsuda's Bakery! Now!!!!!!!'
'Alright, we'll be right down.'
And they hung up..
I waited and Waited..
Finally after what seemed hours of hearing the sobs and fetal attempts by the Matsudas up stairs, the medics arrived, I was searching thru the phonebook calling up all the old tamers.
Their leader was dying for god's sake!
The first assumption was that their had been a struggled and the perpetraitor has feld the scene of the crime.
Or so said the cops, the bakery was closed down and their was alot of commotion going around.
I got down to the Hospital as quickly as I could, the Matsudas had went in the ambulience with Takato so they were already there.
That was 1 and a half hours ago.
I'm pacing the floor in the waiting room now, Im so scared, god I hope he doesnt die, they wont let me go back their because their too 'busy'.
The Matsudas are watching in the room, the nurses says only immediate family can be back there.
Lucky me..
After a little bit..the elevator doors opened and I see Kazu and Kenta walk in...
They sure had changed alot.
"Ryo, dood, what's going on?!" Kazu asked almost immediately.
"Takato's hurt, dying..he's loosing blood, their doing all they can.."
"Is he gonna make it?" Kenta asks.
"I don't know."
So we waited, 10 minutes later Ruki and Juri arrive, I explain everything....
"Are you seriouse?!" Juri asks almost in tears.
"Of course! You'd think I called you all up for the fun of it!?!" I snapped.
She looked down.
"Get off Juri's back!" Kenta said challenging me.
"HEY YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IVE.." I said getting up very un-rascional
Kazu stood up and broke it apart "Hey Hey Cool it!"
We gave each other 'go-to-hell-looks' settled down a bit and sat down with a sigh.
After a moments silence..
"Guess we're all under alot of stress.." Ruki trails off.
"Where's Jen?" Kenta asks looking over at me, his face was softened so i could tell we both sort of flew off the handle a little while ago.
"I don't know, I figured he'd be the first one out of you all." I sighed
Just then, like if magic, or fate or something the elevator doors open and guess who we see?!
"Is Takato alright?" Jenyra panted.
~
(Lee's Journal)
Im trying to catch my breath from running to the hospital and see all my old commerates sitting around (which is rare anymore) looking up at me.
"You made it!"Juri says standing up.
I walk over them and feel my heartbeat slow down "Im so sorry...Short notice i had to go by foot."
"That's ok." Ruki says smiling at me, her violet eyes soft.
I feel comfortable all of a sudden, its so weird being reunited again,with all my old friends...but I still havent seen my closest friend.
"Is he going to be alright?" I ask scared to death.
"We're not sure yet."Ryo says distantly.
"Where's his parents?" i ask looking around.
"In the room with him." Kazu says looking at the tile pattern on the floor.
Silence again.
"So now.....we wait?" I ask, the ex-tamers give me a nod..
So for, i dont know how long, theirs a silence between us all, like were lost in reminince of our beloveded leader,like 'this will be the last time we see him' or 'if he dies.....what are we going to do?'
Maybe me the most of all of them because soon the silence is broken
"Matsuda Takato is going to be fine..but he's still unconicious." a nurse says, she has long brown hair that curls at the tips and soft mocca colored eyes.
"Can we go see him?" I ask egarely.
She nods and I glance back over at the other Tamers.
"I think Lee should go first!" Juri peeps up.
"Me too!" Kazu agrees.
"Same here." Ruki says.
"Agreed."Kenta smiles.
"Huh?" i start wondering why 'me' I wasnt Takato's friend...i wasnt worthy of being so, but seeing all those faces and them agreeing on one thing was a mircale.
"Go on Jen!" Ryo said.
I stood up, giving them all one last uneased look, then glanced at the nurse..
"Follow me." she said politely.
So i did.
I never noticed how everything in the hospital was so......white...the walls were crying out in the most brilliant of light colors and blinded me for awhile.
At least its better than that black...but both of those are practically the same...they mean....emptiness.
I felt alot of that lately.
My thoughts soon came to a hault as the nurse stopped by a room, the door was shut.
She opened it gently, the room was cascaded in a soft shadow, dim low lights were casting a warm yet seriouse atmosphere around the the place, the walls were lined in a blue very plain pastal wallpaper and the place was filled with all sorts of medical equitment..
The room smelt so clean, my eyes wondered over to the Matsudas, Mrs.Matsuda was sobbing over her son's bed while sitting in a chair and Mr.Matsuda was rubbing her shoulders and reassuring her.
"You two take a rest, get something to eat and try to relax a bit, your son is in stable conditions and the best of care." the nurse said in a coaxing voice.
"C'mon honey." Mr.Matsuda cooed to his wife, she sniffled and stood up.
They walked out of the room embraced for comfort.
"I'll leave you alone with the patient." and with that the nurse left.
It was just me and Takato, I walked over, slowly, catiously, to his bed, I was so shocked to see my love in such a state..
Their was in IV in his right arm, pumping in blood,his nose had a plug in it as well and it seemed to help him breathe,he seemed to be already dressed in hospital clothes and he was attached to a heart mointer that kept his rhymticatic heartbeat..
Takato's heartbeat..
I listened to the steady beat, it soon became unise with my own.
I glanced more over his body, their were many scars covering his lightly tanned body and new wounds that had been wrapped up, some of the blood had been seeping through the bandages,he had one around his head even, and it did look as though he had gotten into a browl..
Subcontiously i was edging myself closer to him whilst looking over his innocent body..
My hand reached out to stroke his forehead but i felt myself shaking I was afraid I was going to kill him by touching him..
Instead I pulled up a chair next to his bedside, and watched him breathe..
He was so beautiful like this..
Even if he was in a distressed state, Takato always had a glow to him..
I soon found myself holding his hand tightly and stroking his soft chestnut hair..
Singing an old chinese lullaby to him even..
Then i heard a cough and looked up.
Ryo was standing in the doorway.
"Ryo! What are you doing in here?! Your just gonna sit their and stare?!" i whispered loudly.
"Two vistors at a time.And anyways I didnt want to break up the moment." he remarked.
"What moment?"
"The moment you two 'lovebirds' were having and excuse me you were the one staring!"
"I wasnt staring!" i said bitterly.
"Oh don't deny it Jen, Your in love with the guy, everyone sense it." Ryo smirked walking close to Takato's bed.
I remained silent.
"Why dont you just tell him?" Ryo said, breaking the silence.
"I'm not what he wants.."
"What do you mean your *not* what he wants? Your what he needs!"
"No I'm not."
"Havent you seen the boy lately, he's a mess!"
"Not as much as me." I mumble.
"What?"
"Look, you dont understand,even if I did tell him, he wouldnt love me, Takato isnt *that* way."
Ryo laughs "I must disagree good ol' chap, cuz when we were 10 we kissed."
I looked up at him wide eyed "What?!"
"Well I did the kissing for the most part, and from what Ive heard he's alot *that* way."
"But still....i dont think he'll love me." i sigh.
"You'll never know if you dont try. Besides,we're all human ne?"
And with that he left.
I dwelled on that thought...long and hard.
I wouldnt know.
I had to at least try..
God knows if anyone will forgive me.
But I had to try..
I pull his hand up to my lips and kiss it gently.
"I hope you wake up soon Koi..."
~
(Takato's Journal)
9:34 am Jan 7th (a/n: the day changed, yay!)
Pain.
That's the first thing I feel, aching...all over, im so lightheaded.
I try and open my eyes but everything is so blurry and bright.
I look around, the hospital...how did i get....here?
I remebered being really depressed, I went in my room to cut and I felt there wasnt a reason for matulating myself much longer and I might as well get the whole thing over with..
And i remember seeing blood.....everywhere.
Then darkness..
And here i am.
I glance around my pale room, not even realising I was sitting up, alot of flowers and balloons were around my bed as were alot of a equitment.
Then I see him.
Lee, sleeping, on my bedside, his hand close to mine.
He stayed here all night?
Did he save me?
Should have left me to die..
I just wanted to die...so much for that..
I was so confused by the matter but so happy to see Lee, Ive been waiting everyday, longing, just to see his beautiful face.
And now he's here..
I stare at him unknowlingly, he's so beautiful with the sunshine shining over his pale yellow skin, his dark blue locks falling lightly over his face, the way his face gently curves..
I reach out to touch his cheek and he awakes aburtly, in shock I pull my hand back.
He blinks blurred eyed then realises what's going on..
"Takato-kun! Im so sorry!" he starts apologising.
"For what?"
He stares at me for a second and begans talking again
"For staying here, I didnt mean to fall asleep."
"Its ok! Really..that was very, kind."
"No just stupid, I'll be going." he makes a attempt to leave but i grab his hand.
"You seem troubled....do you have something to tell me?" I asked concerned.
His silver eyes seem so saddened.
"Takato I.."
"What?"
He glances away.
"Nothing."
I feel like he's hiding something, like he's trying to keep some big secret from me.
"Please Jen..tell me!" I plead.
"I gotta go." He grabs his jacket and walks out.
I wish I knew...
I wish I told him.
God Im such an idiot!
"I love you Jen!!" I call out.
But theirs no answer.
~
TO BE CONTINUED!
A/N: Haaaaaaaaaaah, was that Leekato-y enough? Ok Ok, so it was rather strange I do admit..I dont know why i ended it like that, i just did, so sorry.Anyways, the next chapter WILL have lime fluff and everything and will be the ACTUAL end.
Uhhmm...Reviews? *laughs bitterly*