Disclaimer: not mine
Warnings: um...mushiness?O.o little drama, angst, etc. Kaen freaks out...
AN: well this chapter is SUPPOSED to be longer than the others...there's a lotta Suboshi cuz I was listening to his image song while writing.
Chapter 6:Acceptence...
By: fire demoness
"Amiboshi…?"
he looked startled at first, but then he slowly smiled at me. I jerked my head around him to stare at the person that had opened the door...
"Suboshi!?"
he stepped into the room and knelt down by his brother. There, side by side, I could hardly tell the difference between the two. Suboshi glanced at the earring in my hand and gave a meaningful look to his brother. They went to a corner and started whispering in hushed tones. I leaned forward to hear what they were saying.
"Why did you tell her?! It's not part of the plan!! Tomo won't be very happy with yo-"
"I told her because I HAD to! She doesn't deserve this kind of treatment!! At the most she deserves her memories back!! Remember how she used to care for you when I was...assumed dead? Remember!?"
there was silence as Suboshi thought about what his brother had said. Kaen frowned slightly as flashes of what seemed to be memories, except set in an ancient chinese place, came rushing back. There was a boy...Suboshi...he was beat up...Amiboshi was dead...Kokoro was dressed in a shogun's outfit...but, he seemed so cruel...
There was a shuffling sound and the two brothers walked back to me. they seemed meloncholy, but determined. Amiboshi sighed while Suboshi knelt down close to my face. I scrunched up against the wall and tilted my head at him...this almost complete STRANGER...but he felt so familiar...so did Kokoro and his brother...
"Soi...do you remember me? you said my name...think back...can you remember things about me?"
"No...i don't know you!! I don't know ANY of you!! Leave me alone!! What do you want with me..? what..?"
He sighed and leaned closer. I felt his fingertips touch my forehead and found myself staring at those intense golden-brown eyes as memories came flooding back. Memories of him, of a blond girl, of ...Kokoro...but he was known as Nakago...
I shook my head and shoved his fingers away. He looked taken back, his body glowing an eerie blue as I shrunk into a corner. This was too strange...it was like split personalities or something...i- who was "I" anymore!? Kaen? Or the one they called "soi"...?
"Soi I- "
"NO!!! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!! GO!!"
I clutched at my head, trying to keep things in order, to maintain a persona...to know who I was...
//I'm Kaen, I am Kaen, I am NOT Soi...i'm just me...kaen...just…me...//
I started sobbing towards the end of my thoughts and "suboshi" reached a hand towards me, only to have me shrink back from his touch. He looked sincerely hurt, but I didn't care. I needed an identity...someone... I couldn't be 2 people...i just COULDN'T!! this wasn't real...it's just a dream...it's just a...dream...just...a...dream... there was a faint flute coming in...my eyes were So...so...heavy...i was so sleepy...sleep seemed like a good idea...the memories were going away...this was bliss...i ...am...Kaen.
**after Kaen as fallen sleep, Amiboshi's POV**
I opened my eyes slowly and lowered my flute. Suboshi was still hurt from her lashing...she was so different now.
"Aniki...is she still herself? Why has she changed so much?...why..?"
He lowered his head to the ground. Our transfering of memories trick hadnt worked. She had just pulled back and seemed more frightened than ever. This was NOT a good start.
"just let her be...she'll come to in a bit. Just give her time. She'll accept who is was...who she is."
**to Kokoro and Tomo**
"Tomo."
He smiled cruely at me and raised a long slender finger to my cheek. I gave him a cold stare, but he didn't even flinch.
"so...the oh-so-powerful Nakago, here at MY dispense...oh the irony..."
His laugh echoed around the dark room, bouncing off the walls and repeating itself...over and over...and over… Nakago.
"did you REALLY think that your precious Soi..." he hissed the word "soi" in a tone of utter dislike," would be the only one here? Kakakakaka...but no...Amiboshi...Suboshi...ashitare...Miboshi...and last of all: ME!"
his nail swept back and left a long gash on my cheek. I stumbled a bit from the sheer pain of it all...only to hear his cackle again. Then a kick to my stomach made me double over in pain.
"What's the matter NAKAGO!?! Aren't you STRONG enough anymore?!?! Have you gone soft??..."
Tomo's taunting voice followed me deep into the bliss of unconsiousness...
TBC
Ok her thoughts are a little screwed up, but if you were remembering STRANGERS and thinking flashbacks about weird thigns, you'd freak out too!^.^sorry if you dotn like this chapter, but I wasn't really in...a "writing mood" ^.^ this is one of my best fics I think...but I'll always love "family portrait" ^.^ plz go see? =) or tell someone about THIS fic? I'd LOVE reviews!! ^.^ *sniffle* all my hard work…and only so little reviews... this chapter took 2 HOURS!! O.O!