Deadly Love
Chapter: 4
Rating: R
By: Psycho4moon
I know the last chapters were kind of blah but I'm trying
here, I mean this is my first fan-fic.
So here goes hopefully this one will be longer. When I have (') those it means that either
Mamoru or Usagi is reading each other's minds.
It will be clear which one in the sentence.
After that awful encounter with my friends I went to the
only place where I could be alone and think.
I went to the park, the section with the rose gardens. They looked so beautiful with the moonlight
sparkling off their tips making the top look almost transparent. I feel like my life is like the rose; it
looks so beautiful but yet if you touch it, you only end up hurting
yourself. I may look sweet and
vulnerable but I can take care of myself if anyone tries to mess with me.
"No sweet and vulnerable girl should be out here alone,"
rumbled a husky voice. Oh my gosh he
can read my mind why didn't I see it before.
'Why are you laughing' " because
you look so cute when your mad"
"Don't mess with me tonight, I'm not in the mood." Tonight has been a bad night, first the
fight then I run into him again and I can't love him cause he's well he's him.
"What fight?" he questioned.
"Would you stop doing that!" I yell.
"Oh your just mad cause you can't do it," he smirked. Oh that's what you think 'why can't she love
me?' "What do mean that's what I think," he asked all confused. I laugh oh your so confused "Yes I am and I
would like some answers," he says somewhat annoyed.
"Well let's see, why can't she love, does that sound
familiar, well it should you were just think it a minute ago," I smile as I say
the last words. It's so hard to keep
from laughing.
"Since when have you been able to read minds?"
"Oh I don't know since I was like 60 or was it 70. I can't remember but it's been awhile." I
laugh.
"How old are you?"
Oh you look so cute when your confused, no scratch that you look so
sexy. "Think you but now if you could
answer my question."
"I asked you to stop doing that! Now to answer your question I'm 179 years old but in three days
if you must know I'm going to turn 180," I retorted.
"Well then we will have to do something special for your
birthday," he said with a hint of mischief in his eye.
"What did you have in mind?" No matter if I love him or not I can't be with him cause he's not
the one.
He replied, "Oh I don't know, a night alone with me," That
had a little too much emphasis on night alone for my liking. Before I could say anything else I felt
these very cold, bony hands on my neck.
"So you're the one who has taken him from me," hissed the
voice of a female. Oh she was going to
pay, she doesn't know who she is dealing with.
"Please Beryl you never had a chance with me." I can't believe he's not going to do
anything but talk to her. Obliviously
she wasn't one to be reasoned with, she pretty much seemed out of her mind to
me at least. Its not like I can't take
care of myself but still if he even cared a little for me, he would do
something, anything! Or is he testing
me, well I can't wait forever, I'm starting to run out of breath and I've
missed everything they said to each other.
Looks like I'll have to take matters in my own hands. I easily pick her up and throw her on the
ground. She quickly gets up, shock
written all over her face. I take this
in my favor and strike again, this time kicking her right in the jar, flinging
her back hitting a tree.
"You bitch!" I laughed;
she has no clue what she has just done.
I pull out one of my stakes from my coat pocket; at least I'm always
prepared. She comes running up at me
and tries to attack. I dodge the punch
and throw her on her back, with the stake right above her heart. She is still kind of groggy from the fall on
the ground.
"I'm not just a bitch, I'm the Bitch," I laugh. "And I want to let you in on a little secret
before you die. I want to let you know
whom your getting killed by. The names
Serenity, you should be grateful to even have looked at me. Not many people get to go to their grave
knowing that one of the most powerful people killed them. You didn't even stand a chance." With that said I stab her right through the
heart and she dies, I can do nothing but laugh.
"You didn't tell me, you had other talents."
"I didn't see you helping me," I retorted. I see him closing the gap between us even
though my back is turned towards him.
"I wanted to see if you really could take care of yourself,"
he smirked. I knew he was talking about
the first time we met.
"I told you I could that first night, why should anything
change." He was right behind me, I was
having a hard time thinking, and hell I was having a hard time doing anything
breathing or standing up for that matter.
"Why do you try to fight me, I know you want me, I know you
love me," he whispered in my ear. So
shocked I turned around, realizing the mistake I made, I tried to back up but
he grabbed my waist and pulled me even closer then we were before. I could feel his hot breath on my lips. I actually thought for a minute that I was
the one who died and I was now in the purest heaven. I felt his velvety lips against mine. I could live like this forever; I could even see myself in his
arms for all eternity. No wait this is
wrong I can't fall for him, I can only fall for Endymion, he is my true love,
my one and only love. I feel his tongue
against my lips begging for me to open and let the warm, moist object of
ecstasy invade every nook and cranny of my mouth. I had to stop before this got out of hand. It takes all of my strength to push him
away. I put at least 5 feet of space
between us, I stand there looking at him gasping for air. I see that he is not even out of breath, not
even close then it dawns on me, he's dead, he doesn't breath. I just gave away my secret that I was still
living. I look him in the eyes and see
them filled with confusion.
"I can explain," I say hoarsely. Where should I start?
There is so much to tell.
"You have a lot of it to do." He still hadn't let me go and I noticed his grip was getting
tighter on my waist. I was actually
getting nervous, me. "Now sit down," he
barked. He threw me down on the bench
and then set down beside me. I let out
a whimper of pain. "Oh did that hurt,
I'm sorry." Oh he pissed me off, but I
didn't do anything. Why?
"What do you want from me?"
"I want the truth."
"You don't have to hurt me in the process do you," I ask.
"If that's what it takes for you to tell me."
"I would have told anyways, you didn't have to treat me like
your rag doll."
"I'm sorry, you just made me really mad. Are you going to tell me that you never did
anything that you wish you hadn't when you mad," he said as if he already knew.
I gasped. "How did
you know?"
"Did you forget, I could read your mind?"
"I hurt someone who I thought was my friend but I was
mistaken. Then my 'so called' friends
threw me out of 'our' house after a heated argument. I don't really want to explain more about that."
He stroked my cheek.
"How could anyone throw out a cute, frightened helpless bunny?"
"I'm not helpless, haven't I proved that yet."
"No, you might be physically strong and able but you are
still helpless none the less," he replied.
I looked in his eyes and seen them filled with the promise that he would
never let anything happen to me. I
don't know when it happened but I felt his lips brush mine again. This time my mind did not leave me.
I whisper, "I can't."
"Neither can I but I want you all the same. And knowing that I can never be with you, my
Usako, tears me apart. My heart, if I
have one, feels like it is being torn from my chest everyday, from the pain of
not having you near. I want your heart,
I want your mind, I want your body, and most of all I want your soul." I can't keep the tiny droplets of wetness
from falling down my eyes. He just told
me all of his feelings and I love him more for it but I can't.
"Oh Mamo-chan I feel the same." I wish you could be Endymion, but I was told I could only be with
him. "Why can't you love me?"
"Why can't you?" I
don't care what they say I have to tell him.
The sun will be coming up soon so if I'm going to tell him it has to be
now.
I whisper, " I was told I can only love Endymion" I open my
eyes to see his reaction but realize I'm all alone. Damn he always does that.
I hope I have the courage to tell him next time we meet, if we
meet. I look at the horizon to see the
top of the sun peeking its head over the grassy hills. Two more days till my judgment day. Fucking sun!
I know it's still not long but I can't find good places to
stop. Please review or else I'll think
everyone hates the story, I know it sucks but at least tell me.
