Disclaimer- I don't own Adema or Korn or Harry Potter.
A/N- What happens now? Some romance, some betrayal, and Harry returns a favor… Some of the words in the song reek of, something conforming, but some of them are oh so perfect, like "I miss the pain and the torment that you put me through" that is just- well let's go. Dudley… I dunno, I just needed him to do that, well you'll see. And see the end Author's not for an explanation of certain things.
THIS CHAPTER IS RAUNCHY AND HAS RAPE LOOK OUT!!!!
Sarcastic Draco- "Raunchy rape? What sort of Author are you?"
Psycho Harry- "The good kind, kill it."
MiniMe- "I thought we put him back in the cage?"
Witty Hermione- "The king of Malfoyness released him, and Harry still won't put out for him."
Sarcastic Draco- "Aw, poor Granger, is Weasley not giving you enough sexual release?"
Witty Hermione grins and points at the fic.
The Way You Like ItI'll get inside you
I'll get inside you
Draco… Harry whispered in his mind. In his bed at Hogwarts Draco tossed and turned, his body heat rising as fear made his adrenaline run like burning oil. He saw Harry, saw the blood; god there was so much blood… He awoke with a startled gasp and a whisper in his heart.
Then he looked at his arms and tried to scream.
Don't live ashamed, 'cause feelings change but fame remains
The reason why your gonna wanna take me home tonight
Shame is something that can rule you, fear of embarrassment can create warped holes that are easy to manipulate, it is amazing what people can be pressured into doing for fear of being different. Shame had ruled Draco Malfoy for his entire life; he feared embarrassment bar few things. It held a terror for him that spiders did for Ron; failing did for Hermione, losing his life to Harry… As such Draco didn't show fear, fear was embarrassing, it was a weakness that could be exploited by the cruel tongues of others. But lately, it was all he could do to live without letting what he'd seen get to him…
And now on his arms blood brimmed and burned from the cuts he'd made, but they'd healed hadn't they? Slowly the blood faded and Draco moaned, Potter was getting to him, he was losing his sanity as surely as Potter had lost his.
"I don't wanna go insane." He moaned piteously and clutched his head in agony of choice.
It's all the same up in this game, the people change
And money claims everyone from everything
He is the key; Lucius's boy is the key. Voldemort thought. Draco was the key to Potter's insanity. Somehow he needed to get Potter and Draco together, and then he could flee to a sane host through that link between them. Potter was a sinking ship; it was time for Voldemort to jump it-
God he was fucking cold.
I can't believe that you would think that shit of me
I was amazed at the torment that you put me through
Harry watched, he was good at watching. Smeltings was a prosperous school, settled out in the green hills of Scotland it was prestigious and beautiful. Harry smiled, it needed some, readjustment, but all in good time of course. He swirled power around him like a brief breeze and descended, allowing the shadows to cloak his passage. The sun shone brightly but Harry found the shadows, that was who Harry was now, shadows and ice.
He swept along, and when he was near some of the boy they got a shiver, cold swept up their arms and gave them goose bumps. Finally Harry found Dudley, Dudley, Dudley… He growled and for a second the shadows flickered and some of the boys could have sworn they saw an angry youth standing there, hauntingly translucent.
Dudley Dursley was totally unaware of the unseen scrutiny he was receiving; instead he was focusing on a boy name Havelock Marlow, a self-professed homosexual. The boy was pretty and small, nearly feminine features made him look fragile and indeed he was, he had eyes though that would make you want to hold him forever and tell him it was all going to be ok. Dudley hated him on principle.
And as he advanced with three other cronies that assisted him in his bullying Havelock whimpered in fear. He was cornered a nook that the castle walls formed and no one could see the five boys, and if they did they wouldn't say anything. After all, Havelock was fag and deserved it right? And why speak up when you knew Dudley would get you somehow.
Dudley gestured and two of his buddies, Rust and Fred smashed the boy back against the stone making him cry out in pain. Then Dudley raised one meaty fist and slammed it into the smaller boy's stomach, while Rust and Fred held him up. Another slimmer boy, Abe stood watch for faculty. None of them could see Harry walk right next to Dudley as he beat the boy again. Then Dudley smiled.
If you can see right through the greed and all your needs
You realize that you were just about as bad as me
"You guys wanna do the thing?" The other two grinned and Abe shrugged. Havelock looked up in fear and Dudley smiled. He gestured to Fred who sneered at Havelock.
"Turn him around." Havelock paled and then winced as he was shoved up against the stone. "You know you remind me of my cousin Harry, I bet he's a fruit too. You think he likes it up the ass just like you?" Dudley whispered into Havelock's ear and the boy whimpered but didn't cry out, if he did who knew what they would do? He gasped as he felt someone pulled down his trousers and Dudley laughed.
"I bet he does, Fred you go first." Fred grinned and reached for his trousers when he stopped and pointed at Dudley, a look of fear in his eyes, the he froze. Dudley frowned and looked beside him and his face paled.
"You- you!" He whispered and then was slammed against the wall by a force he could see. Abe turned to look and found himself immobilized too. Havelock turned and his eyes went wide.
There stood a boy who was pale and- beautiful. His eyes were a green that amazed the smaller boy and his features were that of a Greek god. But inside the beauty… Havelock's higher thinking process was telling him that the boy was beautiful, but his gut instinct was saying RUN!
"What is your name?" The boy asked softly as Rust was frozen as well. He smiled then, but the smile held no joy in it, he was merely remembering when Hermione had cast that body bind curse on Neville, who knew it could be so fun?
"Havelock." Harry sniffed the air, taking a deep breath that pressured his diaphragm.
"Ah, a pretty name for a pretty boy, now these." Harry turned to look at the other four and gestured. They all lifted up and formed and line, each one frozen in various positions of surprise and horror. "I know this one." Harry pointed at Dudley. "Think I'm a fruit Dudders? You don't know the half of it. By the way, if you ever see your dad again you may need to wear a bib from how much he drools now, and I do hope your mother survived that house fire…" He trailed off at the expression on Dudley's face.
"Oh wait, I take that back." Harry said, a look of astonishment on his face and then he leaned in close to Dudley's ear. "Because I hate all of you for what you did to me, and now I need to justification to do this." Harry stood back.
"Crucio." And all the boys watched in horror as Dudley's skin went pale and he broke out into a sweat where he couldn't scream. Harry let him hang there for a good 30 seconds and then released him
"I want to die Dudley, I need the peace, this living stresses me so much." He cocked his head to one side. "I don't know anymore, what do I need?" He looked at them closely, feeling the terror rolling off of them in waves. Then he grinned.
"I know now." Then he turned to Havelock.
"I shall take you with me, I cannot leave you with four dead unexplained bodies and you can give me what I need." The four boys lost control of their bowels but Harry didn't deign to notice as he waved his hand at them. They all screamed as the body bind curse was lifted. They ran, but you can't outrun power. Harry whispered and each of them stopped as their bodies seized up and they wailed as their limbs became useless. They could breathe and talk, but nothing else. Harry took touch away from them; they were totally numb to anything.
And then he took from them the gift of speech, and cast Crucio one last time, by now the Magical enforcement agency would be there soon. Time to go-
Harry grabbed Havelock and they vanished.
Sometimes I only remember the days when I was young
Nowadays no one remembers when they were young and stupid
(The way you like it)
"Havelock, you are a pretty child aren't you?" Harry crooned. He'd taken them to a place he'd discovered in the fiords of Norway. After using the transfiguration knowledge at Voldemort's disposal he'd created a house. Inside it was cozy, not the result of a madman's efforts, it was the creation of a boy that wanted home. Havelock shivered as Harry gazed at him.
"You remind me of another pretty boy I knew." Harry leaned in closer and rested his hot cheek against Havelock's, letting his dark hair clash with the smaller boy's sandy blond hair. "He gave me something I needed, I want you to give me it as well." Havelock shivered again in desire and fear.
"What did he give you?" Havelock whispered and Harry chuckled, a low sensual sound that filled the room.
"Pain."
Come on baby help me, someone to confide in
(I'll get inside you)
Now you're beggin' me to stay…
"Ha- HARRY!" Draco shouted as he clawed the bed sheets in the infirmary. Beside the window Ron looked up. He'd been assigned to watch Malfoy now, and he stared in apprehension at the boy. Suddenly Malfoy launched up and out of the bed.
"He's, oh god, he just…" Draco shivered in the fear of what Harry had done, it took time to break Crucio once it had been cast, those boys… They would never be able to bear human touch again, but then again they wouldn't know would they? Ron found himself being drawn forward to Draco as the boy huddled in a form of fear. And then he choked up as Draco looked at him, with something wild and broken in his eyes.
"Oh god, he's going to open- NO!" Draco clutched his head and then leapt for Ron who could only gasp in surprise as Draco slammed him against the wall and with a burning intensity that made his body taut with desire kissed him.
My life has changed but fuck the fame, I'll stay the same
You can't complain when you can pay the bills and do your thing
"That's right Havelock." Harry whispered in the boy's ear. Havelock couldn't believe this, his mother had rejected him for being gay and had sent him to a Smeltings in the hope they would make a man of him there, he'd never even kissed another boy before, and now… Harry growled and Havelock winced, the boy wasn't being aggressive enough, well he knew how to fix that…
Harry laid a hand on Havelock and let a brief surge flow through them, and then as Havelock's eyes widened in unholy lust he opened the bond. The boy wanted him, he just needed help. Love is pain; his parent's absence had proved that hadn't it? They loved him so they died so that he could be famous and beautiful. Draco loved him and hurt him. Snape loved him and hurt him. Voldemort…
He gasped as Havelock tore his clothes from his body and growled possessively and grabbed Harry's mouth with his own and kissed him, this wasn't slow, this wasn't beautiful, it was bestial and raw, primal and it made the blood flow hot and sear the veins…
Appreciate, don't player hate, congratulate
I miss the pain and the torment that you put me through
(I'll get inside you)
Ron was stunned, Draco was all over him making him feel… God he trembled and moaned like a novice- which he was. Ron was a pure virgin, he'd never even kissed someone else and Draco had certainly given him a crash course in it. Suddenly Draco was tearing his clothes away and nipping him lightly all over his body.
Ron moaned and slid to the floor. Draco still all over him and then gasped in surprise as he felt fingers in his-
Ron flushed and made ready to hit Draco or something when Draco looked at him and whatever was in those eyes made him still with fear and then-
Pleasure, concentric waves expanding a glow and he moaned as Draco found the sweet spot. And then it was gone, Ron gasped but didn't have time to do anything as Draco fumbled with his wand and whispered something. He looked at Draco again, he didn't want this, not so quickly, Draco wasn't himself…
So what's to fear when everything is crystal clear
You realize that you should do the things you wanna do
"Come on Harry, be a good fuck." Harry moaned as Havelock entered a place in him that completed him, and god it hurt. It tore at this insides and burned so much that he saw lights before his eyes. But it couldn't compare to Draco, but it filled that hole, the gaping pit that was in Harry's soul. And for a second the ice melted and he saw what he was, and then it slammed back into him full force.
"Fuck me harder." Harry rasped and Havelock tried but the spell could only go so far with no real talent behind it, Draco new how to combine pleasure and pain on a level beyond that of anyone else Harry'd ever fucked.
Don't give in to what people say, don't be ashamed
To separate the feelings on your mind you can't sedate
(I'll get inside you)
Ron screamed in agony, but the spell that Draco's eyes wove held him in place as the other boy poised for entrance. Draco had remembered one thing through the haze of lust that Harry had woven for him and had cast the lubrication spell; it had been drilled into him. He didn't think as he squeezed Ron's arms hard enough to make the bones creak.
Suddenly he was in and Ron screamed again, useless screams as the silence charm was in effect. Ron felt utterly helpless and god it hurt so much he could feel pain spiking into him and he was humiliated and weak and he cried, dry wracking sobs that shook his body with only more pain and the wet sound of Draco fucking him.
Sometimes I only remember the days when I was young
Nowadays no one remembers when they were young and stupid
"Yes." It was a throaty growl, Harry bit down hard and tasted blood, but it was nowhere near so sweet as Draco's- he moaned as Havelock shoved in again and he could feel the boy tight with tension and desire. He looked down the bond and-
Ron? Something beckoned him from the brink of ice and he was coated in understanding, before seeing how much Ron enjoyed it. Now he and Ron understood each other, although he was certainly enjoying it more than he had, all those tears, maybe he could learn from Ron? And then release drew near, he could feel it from Havelock and from Draco, and the combination of those three was enough to give Harry was high of pain and sex pleasure he needed.
For a brief moment he lived the lucid dream that was freedom from insanity, and then, as according to the laws of physics, he swung back hard to the other side.
(The way you like it)
Come on baby help me, someone to confide in
(I'll get inside you)
Now you're beggin' me to stay…
"Seamus I'm so worried." Hermione whispered into the Irishman's shoulder. Seamus nodded and nuzzled her hair.
"It'll all be ok, Harry will be ok-"
"No, that's what I'm so worried about." She began but Seamus put a finger over her mouth and stared deeply into her eyes. Her breath caught at what she saw there and Seamus smiled sadly.
"If we aren't hopeful, we are dead 'Mione." He leaned forward and whispered in her ear.
"If we don't hope we die, and it's not our time to die."
"Hope, because sometimes that's all we have."
"And hope for no other reason than we need to live 'Mione, and to love."
I'll get inside you
Now you're beggin' me to stay…
Ron groaned and clutched himself, rolling over to his side and curling into the fetal position when Draco awoke from his trance.
"Wha- what the fuck?" He whispered and Ron flinched.
"Harry, it was Harry, you, you-" Ron choked and clutched himself tighter before he felt Draco's touch. Oh god, oh god, oh god, oh god, oh god, oh god, oh god, oh god-
He was scared and the touch made hi shiver and whimper. Draco's eyes melted then and he slid next to Ron and curled his arms around him and Ron whimpered again.
"Ron- I'm so sorry, here." Draco helped Ron up, and Ron absently marveled at how Draco was so strong for looking so small. And Draco wondered how Ron- he was calling him Ron… Gods, he was a monster but- there was no time for his regret now; he needed to give comfort to where comfort was due.
And so he covered Ron and then embraced him, and a time later, Ron stopped shivering, and grew warm.
I'll get inside you
You would always say I'd never be shit
They would always say I'd never be shit
But look at me now, look at me now!
I should start smoking. Harry decided and conjured a cigarette. Beside him the boy- Havelock right? Knelt in the corner, his tear stained face betrayed and fearful.
"What's your problem babe?" Harry asked, his voice angry and commanding and Havelock winced. Harry seemed to soften before his eyes and was suddenly up against Havelock, pressing his body against the other boy's.
"I know, it hurts a little doesn't it?" He traced a line on Havelock's cheek, even in his insane stupor he recognized how soft and lovely it was. Havelock was beautiful; he was innocence, pure innocence-
Violated so nicely.
I'll get inside you
Now you're beggin' me to stay…
I'll get inside you
Now you're beggin' me to stay…
"Come on babe, just cruise, if it hurts make it ice." Harry said calmly, he took a drag on the cigarette and let the chemicals calm and sooth his body, smooth ice, fallen angel, he decided he liked himself.
"You're like this." Harry said and gestured, there appeared a perfect illusion of Havelock who gasped.
"Yes, you are quite lovely, but look at you, you feel to much." Harry began to breathe faster and crushed the cigarette in his fist; it didn't even get the chance to burn him as it was frozen. "You need to be free Havelock, free like this!" He shouted and let the anger overflow him, hatred-
NO, IT'S TO HOT! And he smashed the emotion with his will power. And let the ice rule…
The way you like it
Sometimes I only remember the days when I was young
Nowadays no one remembers when they were young and stupid
"DAMN!" Voldemort thundered. For a second there he'd almost managed to break the boy's control, but now-
"Voldemort." He whirled around, where was that voice coming from.
"Voldemort, you must wait, choose the moment of highest flame, and use the closest thing lost." The voice whispered, and Voldemort nodded with a hungry look in his eyes.
(The way you like it)
Come on baby help me, someone to confide in
(I'll get inside you)
Now you're beggin' me to stay…
Havelock shuddered as the cold swept through the small house and shivered as frost grew on Harry before he awoke. He stared at the wall, his green eyes vacant and listless, and then he snapped out of it so suddenly Havelock jumped in fear.
Sometimes I only remember the days when I was young
(I'll get inside you)
Nowadays no one remembers when they were young and stupid
Lucius strode up to his son's room, his cloak billowing behind him like so much black echoing. His pale and aristocratic features were drawn and angry. He walked into his Draco's room and stopped, a gentle twitch forming on his face, his son was in bed curled up around that- that Weasley boy… Anger grew from deep within him, Potter was one thing, he had money and stature, and with a little grooming maybe could have class and style.
But the Weasleys had nothing to offer his son; he growled and swung angrily out of the room. After this was over he'd have a talk with his son over such things, he would not have the Malfoy line polluted by tainted blood.
(The way you like it)
Come on baby help me, someone to confide in
(I'll get inside you)
Now you're beggin' me to stay…
Dumbledore sighed and leaned back into his chair. Beside him Fawkes glowed softly and lit up the features on the old man's face. His craggy nose and wise eyes were alit with sorrow.
"Harry, what has happened to you?"
(I'll get inside you)
Now you're beggin' me to stay…
(I'll get inside you)
Now you're beggin' me to stay…
"Yeah…" Harry whispered. Then he turned to Havelock, his eyes glistening with cold.
"You were a good fucker Havelock, but I need more than your- skills can offer. I'm going to leave for a time, and then come back with some company, and then maybe you can learn a thing or two." Havelock begun to shudder, he didn't want to learn a thing or two, he wanted out, he wanted to be home with his mother that yelled at him and not the in the presence of a mad man with magical powers.
Harry didn't even notice, he was wrapped up in plots, how to get Draco and Ron out of Hogwarts, they could understand the need… He needed Draco inside of him so that he could scream like he used to. And then he could purge the place, but he needed that from them, and they liked it, you could tell by their tears.
The way Harry liked it.
The way you like it…
A/N- All right, I'm sorry about the Ron/Draco if anyone actually objects, but this is turning into a sort of triangle and I'm not sure where it's taking me, this story seems to write itself, I only know how it's going to end. Which I'm not telling ^_^.
Witty Hermione- "Well there you go Draco, lookie what you did."
Sarcastic Draco- "At least I got some, all you did was have some sappy talk about hope?"
Psycho Harry- "How much to tonight? Cuz if a shave and a haircut is two bits then-"
MiniMe- "Someone get him back in that cage!"
Shout outs!
DragonSoul- Evil psycho Harry rules!
Gia- Intense, nice words thank you, and I've got your email address so don't worry about that anymore.
Creamy Mimi- I don't know, I write it and- well never mind that's not a good argument… All right this is crazed, but if we love it can't be that bad for us right?
SophieB- Lucius gets some spot light next chapter, along with Hermione. I do try and limit dialogue because it forces me to add the extra description, so I'm glad you appreciate that. But soon things start to go really haywire and someone else cracks, try and guess who for puntos…
Mizzy- Woah's a good word, it's also the kind of word that I look for when writing this. It is a little hard to write insanity, have any good books from the perspective of an insane person?
Lokakuu- Thank you for that, I liked how your review was worded actually, and I'm glad you think I managed to capture its essence.
Lodestar- Ooh, subtlety, thank you! And wonderfully disturbing? Booyah! That's what I'm glad to achieve.
Felicity Dream- Yeah I hate that, you get to the end of a story and then- poof! There's no more, so here's the next portion of this.
THE NEXT PART WILL NOT BE OUT SO QUICK AS TOMORROW I RESTART SCHOOL, SORRY!