Title Inner thoughts
Author usagirl
Part 2
A/n This is part two of inner thoughts it is in Darien view before he finds out she ran away. On with the story...
Inner Thoughts
She is my everything. The only thing that is truly important in my life. Usagi. The way she laughs. The way her eyes sparkly when she is happy. And when she cries I can it breaks my heart. I know a lot of people think I am cold and distant from her, but have you seen her Father if I showed outward affection to her in public and some one told him I would be a dead man walking. I know she would never betray me. She is too good for that. Yet she still doubts my love for her. And I know I probably shouldn't get this way but when she is jealous it lets me know she truly cares for me and only me. And I can say I don't do much to sooth her fears. I always push her away when she needs me the most. I...I never was good at expressing affection. Every since the accident I have been afraid that if I let someone into close I would lose them like my parents, or like how I lost Serenity in the Silver Millennium. Usagi is my only family now, that and her friends. They are like little sisters to me, but to tell you the truth I wouldn't spend so much time with them if they weren't Usako friends and in the past my guardians love. Even then they always bothered me. I try to interact with them the best I can but I would rather spend time with my Usako. Sweet... Sweet Usako. My love. I wish there was away to express my feelings towards you but I don't know how. You have always been the loving one in the relationship. Always open about everything. But I am still afraid to show you how I really feel. And my heart saddens when I think that I am put her threw some much pain. She deserves someone so much better but I am unwilling to give her up. And lately I have seen that she is depressed. She is not my bouncy bright-eyed beautiful goddess Usako. And yet I cannot tell you that every time I try the opposite comes out. I can't help it when I criticize you but honestly I wouldn't change a thing. Her eyes no longer hold their special sparkly her heart-warming smile is almost non-existent. Her laugh that can brighten a room is conspicuously absent. And as I sit in the arcade I have a sense of dread come over me. Usako. Usako what have you done. I can no longer sense your life force. I can feel you are still alive but... where are you Usako? My hearts stops please Usako you couldn't have... You couldn't have... My thoughts were interuputed and my fears had proven true. Ikkuko looked bewildered.
"Has anyone seen Usa?" No one had seen her.
"What is wrong Ikkuko is Usagi okay?" I heard Andrew ask. And I felt tears sting my eyes. It's my fault. It my fault. I should've been more loving towards her. I should've. been more caring no she gone because of me. I drove her away. She left me.
"Usagi's run away. She left me this note."
To be continued...
I know it is pretty short but I will try to get the next chapter out soon. Ja ne
usagirl