Title: Inner Thoughts

Author: Usagirl

A/N I hope you all like it. Go read my other stories and stop by my site and sign my guestbook. Thanks to Ashley for Editing*~_~*

Inner Thought

Mamoru was on the verge of crying, but he managed to choke out, "What did the note say?" His voice was mangled with fear and sadness.

Ikkuko was shaking and tears started to cling to her cheeks. Her voice quivered, "It says that she doesn't want to be a burden to us anymore and... and that she is sorry we could never be proud of her. *sob* That she wishes that everyone will be happy and *sniff* that she would miss us all *sob*. It also said how she was sorry for disappointing everyone and she was going home." By that time she was sobbing uncontrollably. Mamoru was looking at her quizzically.

"Mamoru, she also had a letter in here for you. I didn't read it because I wanted to respect your privacy." She thrust the letter in his hands and ran out of the door, sobbing in a perfect imitation of Usagi.

Mamoru looked at the soft pink envelope with a small bunny in the corner. She always did love bunnies. His name was scrawled in her messy writing and there looked to be tear stains on it. With trembling hands he opened the envelope and pulled out a pink piece of paper.

'Dear Mamoru,

I am going to miss you my love. I bet you are wondering why I left. I am not sure how to say this but I guess I'll put it the best way I know how. Lately, my love for you has been burning brighter than ever, but you seem to be, how should I put this, becoming distant towards me. I know I am not the princess I once was and I never will be again. She was raised as a princess; proper and all that other stuff and I was not. I realize now the only reason you stay with me is because of our past and for awhile I didn't even care. Just to be yours and knowing I was yours was enough for me, but I can't do this to you any more...'

Tears were streaming down his face. 'She did this because of me. What does any of this have to do with what she did to me?' He continued on with the letter.

'...making you live a lie. I know I'll never be good enough for you. Half the time I don't know what you are talking about. I guess I really am an Odango Atama. You can talk about almost anything with my friends but hardly ever say a word to me. Maybe if I was more intelligent like Ami or beautiful like Rei and talented like Minako, maybe than I would deserve you. Like yesterday in the park, you were talking so intently to them, you didn't even spend time with me or notice when I walked off. They are what you deserve, not me. And I hope you are happy with one of them...'

Mamoru was choking back sobs at the words in the letter and noticed there were tear marks on the paper.

'...it was never said that you had to marry the moon princess for the moon and earth to unite. In all truth you could marry any one of the senshi. I bet you would have liked to know that sooner, instead of hanging around with me. I would've told you, I should have told you, but knowing you were mine for one instant made my life complete. I know I can never be anything more than I am. I have realized that. When I did realize it, I knew I could no longer hold you down. I have one request, when you get married and have children, never bring them to the moon. For if you do, I will remember exactly what I lost and I might do something foolish. If you do come to the moon I will make sure you and the scouts will never see me. I no longer want to ruin your lives. My first grade teacher said I would never amount to anything and I guess she was right. No need to worry, I'll be safe and I don't want you to feel guilty. So what I am trying to say is...'

"No Usako, no it can't be," Mamoru whispered to himself. Tear marks, old and new, had stained the paper.

'...goodbye my love, my heart, my soul. Goodbye Mamo-chan.

Forever Yours,

Usagi Tskuno'

"This can't be happening, this can't be happening." And with those few words he flew out of the arcade.

To be continued....

I don't know should I get straight to the U/M stuff or do a piece on each of the Sensh's thoughts of Usagi leaving,. Email me and review.

Usagirl