Title: Inner Thoughts

Authors: Usagirl

Sorry this took so long. I have been really busy with various things and the fact I have lacked inspiration for a long time. I am going to have a new story out soon. Just the first chapter, once I am done revising it. And I would do one with the senshi's thoughts and feeling but I am just not getting the angel to it. There might be some of them later but for now this is it.

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A million thought rushed through Mamoru's head. I just couldn't believe it. She was gone. My life was gone. The only person I could truly love was gone. Now the question was, how to get her back. And more importantly where was she? Mamoru sighed and closed his eyes.

Why Usako? Why did you have to leave me? I know I am not the best at showing emotions, but did you really think I don't love you? I can't believe this. How can I be with another girl, if I am in love with you? How can she think so little of herself? She is the greatest thing in the world. This just can't be happening.

Mamoru was on the verge of crying again. So many questions but only one girl had the answers.

Meanwhile..

Usagi sighed. She was so lonely. But she would do this to make Mamo-chan happy.

"Oh Mamo-chan... I miss you so much...but I want you to be happy. That is good enough for me, is you being happy. I wonder what girl you are going to chose. I mean you and Rei are both very...well... I'm not sure but you both are alike. You and Ami are both smart so maybe you will pick her, or maybe Makoto. Even Minako.... I don't really care as long as you are happy..."

"You were always such a liar Princess." Usagi's head snapped around.

"I am not."

"Oh really. How can you say that you will be happy if he is happy, when in fact you are making him miserable."

"What are you talking about Pluto?" Pluto bowed in front of her Princess.

"Oh come now Princess you no very well what I mean. He is in absolute pain without you. He mourns even more than you. And he was the one that was supposed to feel better about this, right?"

"Of course. He should be ecstatic now that I am gone. Now he has no obligation to feel he needs to marry me."

"Well it seems you plan has backfired Princess." Usagi looked bewildered.

"What do you mean backfired?"

"When I last left him he was crying and trying to figure out where you could of gone."

She shook her head, "That can't be right."

Pluto sighed, "Why do you think you are so unworthy of love my Princess? You are one of the nicest people I know. You are so kind and gentle. And you have saved this world so many times. Why can't you believe you are worthy of happiness?" There was a brief pause and Usagi kept her eyes fixated on the ground.

She whispered sadly, "Because I am not."

Pluto looked bewildered and for the first time since the conversation had begun lost her nonchalant attitude, "WHAT?!"

Usagi sighed and looked in to Pluto's eyes. In their depths was a longing, and a dark emotion. One that she was not meant to feel. They did not seem like her eyes anymore, but that of a strangers. They had lost the sparkle and light of them. Pluto could only stare into them.

"I know I am not and I realize it now. I have accepted finally after everyone else already has," Pluto stood dumbfounded, "I know, I am not smart like Ami, or self confident and proud like Rei. I am not a good cook or strong like Makoto, or beautiful and talented like Minako or Michiru. I can't even compare to Haruka or you."

Usagi voice cracked and her eyes filled with tears.

"That day in the park, when I saw Mamoru with the girls, he looked so happy and relaxed. He was laughing and having a good time. He is always so reserved around me. He seems more at ease with them. I realized that he doesn't like to be around me. So I don't want to bother him any more. With me out of the way they all can be happy. I mean I am always told of my numerous mistakes. I know it bother them. I can't seem to do anything right. That is until now. With me out of the way they all can be happy. They don't have to worry about my mistakes and carry on with there life."

Usagi started to cry silently.

"I know they can be happy and I don't want to be in the way of that. No matter how much sadness it brings me I don't want to be in the way of their future and happiness. And no matter what anyone says I am not going to think otherwise."

As Usagi ended her declaration tears were streaming down her cheeks. Pluto hung her head down and slowly walked away from her Princess. Tears of sadness slowly crept down her cheek. And silently she vowed to herself this will end with her Princess happy. Her Princess deserved to be happy.

And with the resounding clicks of her shoes on the floor she left her Princess to fulfill her do to protect her Princess. And in this case it was her Princess's heart that was at stake.

To be continued....

I am sorry boring and short chapter but I did the best I could at the moment. I am sorry for any gramical mistakes but I edited it myself and that is not one of my strong suits.

~usagirl