Inner Thought

Author Usagirl

OMG! The last chapter. And my first complete fic. Needs to celebrate but I can wait til later.

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The two appeared before the majestic Palace in a haze of silver light. Mamoru left Sailor Pluto standing there and went on a frantic search for his Princess.

"Let Serenity go with and pray all will be right. You two have already disturbed the timeline enough as it is." Pluto sighed and walked away.

Mamoru's mind reeled. Where could she be? Where the hell could she be. I need to find her. Make things right. Oh Usako I love you so much why did you have to leave in the first place... NO! Stop! I am not going to start thinking about these things again. I love her, she loves me that is all that's important. Now how to find her and bring her home. Mamoru took several deep breaths.

"Now if I was emotional distraught..." Which you are, The little voice in his head taunted. "And needed a place to calm down." Which you do. "I would go..." You really don't need to think about it that much, the little voice Jeered. "The rose gardens."

Mamoru started off with a quick place to the rose gardens but the more he moved the slower he paces went until he came to a complete stop. His mind was betraying him again. What am I going to say to get her to come back? How am I going to convince her to come back? I need her. But what if she doesn't need me or love me anymore. Oh Usako... What can I do to convince you I love you?

Mamoru slowly started to walk again. "Please Usako, some back to me. I need you."

Tears gathered in his eyes as he continued on his way to the rose garden. "Please Usako please."

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Usagi sat in the rose garden staring in the stars. She knew she had done the right thing but yet the pain in her heart made her doubt her self.

"It is for the best. It has always been for the best. I am not going to let honor or tradition get in the way of his happiness, even if it destroys mine. But I could never be happy with him knowing that he stayed with me out of honor and tradition, but I can't be happy without him either. Life never will be easy for me will it?"

Of course not, you are the legendary Moon Princess. The legendary warrior. You were not meant to have ANYTHING easy. Love, friendship, honor and hope. You worked so hard but you are constantly belittled. No one realized how hard you did work and try. Maybe you weren't only running away from your beloved Mamoru, but your friends and family also...

"No... That's not why. I did it so Mamoru could be happy. IT WAS ALL FOR HIM!"

As Pluto said you were always such a great liar Princess. Admit it you couldn't stand there comments. How they always made you feel small. They never appreciated you. You tried but you were always the one who they complained about. Just tell the truth you weren't running away from only from him but all of them. In a way the are all like him...

"Why are you doing this...They aren't like that..."

Face the facts, they all in a way relate to each other. Rei lost her mother when she was young and was sent to leave with her Grandpa. She became cold too, didn't let to many people near her and pushes people away. She used her powers as away to frighten people off. Then there is Ami who's mother and father are divorced. Her mother is hardly there so she became came quiet and self reserved. Makoto lost her parents too, so she became tough and unknowingly used her strength to scare people away. And then there is Minako, the blonde who's parents you never see. Now I figure she uses her ditzy ness to ward off people too. Face the facts my dear Princess the only reason the get along so well is because they have that one thing to relate with... being lonely... You feel left out because you can't relate with them but you are one of the reasons why the bond was strengthened. They have gone from being lonely to having you as their bond... And know you have taken that bond away...

Usagi shook her head, " Where are all these thoughts coming from? I am getting so confused." Usagi slowly shut her eyes. But her mind was slowly starting to see the connection. "Why am I so sleepy..." Usagi slowly laid down and fell asleep, the thoughts from before still going through her head.

Pluto smiled from the behind a pillar. "Now everything should work out smoothly. Hopefully the darling Prince won't mess it up..."

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Mamoru stood in front of the door to the garden. He knew his Usako was inside.

"All I need is to go through those doors and I will be able to see Usako again..."

How do you know she even wants you even more? Hmmm... And even if she does, what are you going to say to get her to come back with you? If I was you I would just give up on it...I mean it's not like you can't find somebody else.

"No," Mamoru stated with finality, "Usako is mine and she is the only one for me. I don't care what happens I am going to have her back." And with that Mamoru slowly opened the door to the rose garden. The garden always seemed to amaze him with the variety of roses. Especially the blood red roses that was the symbol for his love for her. And that was when he saw her. His beautiful Usako, sleeping in a mass of hair and rose petals surrounded her. No goddess could compare to her beauty.

Without thinking he reached down and touched her face. "Oh Usako my love..." And with that thought on his mind he bent down and kissed her soft lips...

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Usagi awoke to a very comforting feeling. All thoughts flew out of her mind as she felt someone's lips against hers. She sighed contentedly and kissed back...

Oh Mamoru, her mind sighed.

No this can't be happening. What is he doing here? This isn't right. This isn't right... But it feels so good...How can something this right feel so good...

A tear streamed down her cheek as thoughts collided in her head.

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Mamoru was in complete heaven. This feels so right.

But Mamoru' hand encountered a tear from Usagi's face...and he slowly drew away. Usagi eyes were down cast and tears were streaming down her cheeks.

"Why do you cry my love?" Mamoru asked his voice shaking.

In the tiniest of voices Usagi whispered, " Because this is not right..."

"WHAT?!" Mamoru fairly shrieked, Usagi's eyes shot up to Mamoru face at the pain in his voice, "How can this not be right? I love you. That's all that matters. I don't care about the other girls, I don't care about the past all I know is I love you." He grabbed a red rose and held it up to her, "This rose has been a symbol of love for over a thousand years. It has not wilted. It has survived and remained as beautiful and as red as the first time I have seen you, no wait it has become even more beautiful since the first time I have seen you. I would never lie to you about something as important as this. If our love faded so would the rose, but it is still here. IT IS STIL HERE USAKO!"

Usagi looked down, "But I thought that you would be happier..."

Mamoru's voice broke as he looked at her, "STOP! Just stop thinking. Just stop thinking. What do you feel when you are with me? Because when I am with you I feel safe and content and so loved. I have never felt like that Usako. I feel like I don't have to talk with you to keep our bond there because I would be content to just die in your arms knowing that you loved me and I loved you," Tears streamed down Usagi's face. "Now the question is, how do you feel about me Usako. Tell me how you feel about me."

"I love you more than anything Mamo-chan but..." Mamoru's mouth silenced hers.

"No more buts Usako. We love each other. It is time with stop listening to our doubts but our hearts. Now Usako, do you believe me?" Mamoru's eyes shined with pure love and adoration for the little bunny he held with his arms...

Usagi sighed content fully, "Oh Mamo-chan..." As she said that she pulled his head down and kissed him with all the love and feelings she couldn't express with words. But words were not needed as the love that they shared bloomed even more then it had before. No matter what would happen they would always be together. And so the two lovers kissed as a beautiful red rose bloomed behind them, signaling that the love between the two was great.

Pluto watched with a content smile on her face, "About damn time. I bet they want to be alone for a while. No point in rushing them home." And with that Pluto walked out of the garden quietly shutting the door to the garden. But of course the two did not notice because they were a bit preoccupied....

The End...

Like it hate it? tell me what you think. I know it may not of ended the way you thought but I just wanted to get it done and this is what came to be. My first complete fic. I really hoped you liked it. I really hoped you liked it. Please Review or Email me. Now the only problem is what fic to work on next. If you have any suggestions about that email me too. Thanks for reading. Hope you enjoyed.

Usagirl