I'm Scared

Chapter 15: I'm Scared!

Liz went back to the house. She had no idea what to do? Will he come back? How do I explain this to Buffy? What the hell is his name?, she thought with frustration. There is food, so I won't starve to death. I saw wood by the fireplace. But I need a phone. I guess I'll stay here for night and see what happens tomorrow. Maybe the guy will come back. Maybe he cooled off. Who's Angel? Name sounds girly.

Liz walked upstairs and noticed the stars were peaking out and were shining on her. If I make a wish, will it come true? Or this time will it be the opposite? I give up on this wishing business.

She looked through her bag and found some clean sheets of paper, wasn't her journal but anything that she could vent out would do well.

Ok, where do I start? I am no longer Liz Parker I am Buffy Summers. Buffy who lost her boyfriend because a complete stranger didn't know what to do and didn't even know his name. Buffy Summers is stranded in a cabin by herself. It's horrible. I thought I would like it, get away from Roswell, enjoy life. No I hate being here.
I wish I was home (ok let's switch words: like). I realized that I enjoy being Liz Parker. I may not like the fact that Max is dating Tess, but I like being me. After all Liz Parker has Alex Whitman and Maria Deluca, two of the greatest people I have ever known. Being in someone else's body has given me a new respect for life. I realize I can't have Max I can't always get what I want. With this experience I will remember the times. May have not been the greatest, but I like being me. End of story I like being me. I don't want to be Buffy. She certainly enjoys herself, but the vampire business (I am still not convinced) I don't want to deal with. I don't want to deal with those things that they so believe. Sounds like a cult. But I will know that Buffy handles herself well. She may not be the greatest in school, but a good person. That guy really cares for her, I can tell. The way he looks at her--me. I hope I didn't ruin anything. I hope she didn't find out about the Czechs. Tired write tomorrow hopefully in my body. Or if not back in Sunny dale.

Liz thought about other things, she tried to take her mind off the situation that was given to her. She thought about school, but then it was questioned if Buffy did ok on the test she was supposed to take. So that was out. She thought about Maria and Michael. She genuinely hoped they were still doing ok. She very wanted them to be happy. She thought how they are so different but are so good together. They are like a key. One is needed for the other one to work. But the thing that get nagging her was the vampire business. She knew they didn't exist. Vampires don't exist. She kept repeating to herself. Why am I so afraid? I know they don't exist. I know that for a fact. Only aliens, but then again I really didn't think aliens existed, NO Liz THINK STRAIGHT. VAMPS DO NOT EXIST. The house that Riley had rented was one of those old woods houses, so of course it would creak now and then. Liz would jump at the sound of a creak and the sound of anything.

She continued to write her thoughts and her desires on the paper while the song of Linkin Park played in the background.

Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me

To some extent Liz agreed what the he was saying. She has been paranoid. Granted she was in a house, by herself; made someone lose her boyfriend, can't help but think about Max.

She stopped writing and rested her head on the bed post. She had a long day. She hoped she could fix everything. She promised herself that when she got back to Sunny dale or even to a phone she would tell her story.

When Liz finally succumbed to her desire to go to sleep she heard a tap on the window. Instinctually she thought it was Maria wanting to rant about Michael, but quickly remembered she was in her own hell. She warily crept to the window she heard the noise. She felt like one of those characters that were in those stereotypical slasher movies; heart beating, scared, wished she was under her covers protected from danger. But that wasn't her life. She had been conned by Nasedo, tricked, had her life in danger, but all those times she had someone to rely on: Max. He wasn't here, no one was here to protect her from whatever wanted her harmed.

She peered outside and saw the leaves on the tree sway with the wind. She thought she saw a squirrel or one of those small animals that make people jump because they think its some kind of boogyman. But those people were right. Her eyes widened as she saw the face of a man who's face was distorted, he stepped infront of the window and snarled. Liz screamed in horror and jumped back causing the table to crash into the floor. He continued to pound on the window and say taunting words that she couldn't hear partly because of her screaming. She ran to the front door and put the deadlock in place. She ran to the middle of the room and carried the fallen table to the door. She prayed that what she saw was her mind going overboard and she was imagining it. She crept to the window and she saw him. She clearly knew that this was no dream. It stopped pounding the window and she got a good look at the monster. It was a vampire. It's brow was brought up and looked like a chain of mountains. His face was grayish blue looking, its teeth a horrible yellow, fangs in place, and chipped teeth, eyes glowing a menacing yellow it scared the living daylights out of Liz. Her small body trembled in fear when she heard what the vampire said, "Slayer".

The vampire continued to repeat slayer while staring at Liz. With all her might she wanted to run, but she couldn't leave the house, she couldn't make her feet move, they felt like weights or anchors that kept her feet planted on the ground. The vampire continued to make growling noises and started to grin. He stayed still, he thought the Slayer would come out and fight him fall for the trap, but she didn't. She was smart.

Liz's feet finally cooperated with her and she shut the blinds and ran to her room, grabbing her bags and a bag of groceries she forgot to place in the fridge. She threw them on the bed and but a glass she brought up before and placed it carefully on the doorknob. If anyone were to try to open the door the glass would fall and would wake Liz up. But tonight she wouldn't be asleep. She paced around the room. Adrenaline kicking in she didn't know what to believe. She saw a vampire. She thought the Billy Idol guy was nuts, but she believed him. She didn't know anything about vampires, except for the stake and the cross and the garlic. Everything said in a vampire flick. What could she do? She knew they couldn't stay out during the day. So she would only have to survive the hours left of night and then find a way back home. God she wished that guy was here. He could protect her. Wait a second, I remember the guys at the shop say something about asking me--Buffy about what to do about the vampires,so am I a vampire hunter or something? Do I slay vampires? That's it I'm a vampire slayer!

Song Credit: Linkin Park "Paper cut" on their 2000 album "Hybrid Theory". Highly recommendable. Get it here: Single or whole album (really good). FYI- Remember the opening rock number for Meet the Dupes that's "With You" by Linkin Park.