Complicated Love Chapter 1
Living 'The Life'
She entered the living room of the 2 bedroom apartment and was not surprised not to say the least it looked the same as if it did when she left for school early. Scanning the room with her tired eyes she nodded and placed an 'I can't believe this' type of look onto her face. She walked over to the couch and placed her daughter onto it.
As Chloe placed her daughter onto the couch she fidgeted somewhat. Then awakened a slight bit to say.
"No, mommy. I don't wanna come back here. I don't wanna, no mommy no" said the little girl before she nodded back to sleep. But it would be a restless sleep. Because at any given moment he would be stepping in.
Chloe couldn't do anything but stiffle a cry at her daughter's plea. She felt bad for the life she was giving to her and the environment she was living in. At times she even convinced herself that at least her daughter wouldn't know the pain of not having her mother in her life but whether being raised with several different families and bouncing from home to home. But then again was this any better? I some ways yes but the fact that it still could be grouped with how she grew up scared her. What if her daughter hated her eventually for the pain she put her through of living here?
Chloe couldn't face that thought. She now began to understand Nancy and why she made the decisions she did. The path's her mother once took when Chloe was only a child. And at times Chloe couldn't blame her but yet she knew having her mother in her life was better than any life.
Letting out a sigh of air, Chloe began picking up the mess her boyfriend left for her. He was a pig when it came to living with. Close and pizza boxes lay all over the floor. Alcohol bottles lay busted on their carpet. Take in mind, the apartment wasn't always a mess, just when he decided to throw a last minute party for him and his friends. His gang he had been associated with. The life he had here, had apparently never been forgotten in his mind. Because since the minute they were in New York, his time was spent with them a late hours into the night. Doing what she hated and why she wanted to get away from him. He had become violent and hurtful, it was a whole new side of him she had never witnessed. She was sure Belle didn't even know about this part of him.
'He wasn't always like this' she thought. She had convinced herself that her original feelings of her current boyfriend's habit hadn't been like this when they were in Salem.
"Salem" she said aloud not even realizing it. The word carried a lot for her. Her past and the life she once lived there. Then it was him she thought of when she looked at her daughter. "Oh Katy-Bear, you'll never get the chance to know the type of man your father was" Chloe said with tears in her eyes as she caressed her daughters face. Stopping her mind from going into the past she began to pick up large amounts of junk on the floor and clean before he got in the house.
(Later)
After she had finished cleaning up, she fixed dinner. By the time she was through Sarah had already been up.
Helping her mother prepare dinner had been one of Sarah favorite things to do when he wasn't around. "Mommy what are we going to make for dessert?" Sarah asked in her tone that her mother knew how to read.
"Well Katy, what would you like to have for dessert" Chloe said smiling and half laughing at her daughter. She always did this around this time when there was something specific she wanted to eat for dessert. Already knowing the answer to her daughter's question.
"Chunky chocolate chip cookies and" Sarah was saying…
"And to go to the park to enjoy those cookies" Chloe finished for her smiling at her daughter's usual wish at this time of the day.
"Please mommy. I love you this much!" Sarah shouted holding out her arms wide spread meaning for Chloe to come pick her up and hug her. Which Chloe did.
"Yes baby we can make cookies and then go to the park and enjoy those cookies as soon as I am through with this. But we can start getting the batter ready so we can bake now if you can go to the cabinets and start getting out what we need" Chloe said.
"Okay" Sarah said using one of the kitchen chairs to reach the cabinets, so that she could get the ingredients out and sit them on the counter. "What are you cooking tonight, mommy?" she questioned turning around to face her mother.
"Oh, we're just making spaghetti with garlic bread for your oh so curious mind" Chloe smile knowing that was one of many of her daughters favorite meals and had asked her to fix it the day before.
Sarah squealed in excitement because her mother had remembered. Then Sarah went back to obtaining the ingredients when a slam of the front door rocked her and almost caused her to fall. She did but into the arms of her loving mother. She shuddered because the air around them that was once filled with warm laughter and love had turned cold.
"It's okay, I got you Katy. Don't worry, I've got you" Chloe said trying to comfort her scared little girl. By sitting in the chair and rocking her daughter back in forth in the chair. Then the door opened again and came his voice before he left.
"Chloe! I'll be back, don't go anywhere!" he shouted before slamming the door shut and locking it. Not even giving her the chance to respond.
Chloe heard the locks click signaling that he had indeed locked the door. "You alright, Katy-Bear?" she questioned.
"I'm scared, mommy. Can we go to the park now?" Sarah asked re-opening her eyes and staring at the eyes of her mother. Sarah couldn't hold it in any longer as she began to cry and fear took control of her. Her body racking Chloe's arm and whimpering to the man's words. The man who constantly hurt her but hurt her mother even more. Emotionally and physically, yet he could never affect her mentality, she wouldn't have it. She knew better and Sarah knew eventually her mother would be saved by the man in armor.
Chloe knew what was happening to her daughter and knew what would help her somewhat but not completely get rid of the fear. "Of course we can go to the park. Let me just get these cookies finished and place the spaghetti in a pan and then we can go. We can leave and enjoy some warm cookies this winter day, okay?" Chloe asked smiling.
"Okay" Sarah said feeling a little bit better and stronger, as she got up and began helping Chloe prepare the cookies. Chloe smiled realizing now more than ever. Her life was this. This being her daughter and her music but more of her daughter than anything. Attending Julliard during the day sometimes wore her out but picking her daughter up from daycare always seemed to brighten her day even as hard as her days was. 'This is the life' Chloe thought smiling at the mess her daughter began to make with the flour.
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(Elsewhere in New York)
"Officer", said the Chief of Police to one of his best officers and then continued "I need you to go do something for me." Chief of Police, James Darwin had been watching one of his best slowly lose himself. He knew he needed a break. Knowing his officer had never truly recovered from whatever past he had. But he was in no condition for him to go out undercover or at least do his job right in this shape.
"Yes sir" the officer said somewhat out of it. His mind had been off thinking elsewhere at the time. Back to Chicago and the girl who broke his heart.
"Look, there is this special assignment I want you to, okay. Come here and listen carefully" Darwin said grinning at what he was about to say.
The officer stepped in closer and listened closely to what the chief had to say.
"GET YOU'RE A** together and go out and have some fun. Geez, your liking a walking zombie. I know this case your on is draining but take a little breather okay. Go to the park and enjoy some fresh air! That's an order! If you don't do it, I'll suspend you for a week for not following direct orders giving by the chief. Now go and I'll have someone check on you in a hour just to make sure your there enjoying the winter weather." he smiled.
The officer stood back in shock. 'He couldn't do that really?' he thought. Not wanting to put up a fight he said, "You expect me to stay at a park a full hour? What am I suppose to do? Watch the kids swing and play hide-go-seek. What do I look like, a fu…"
"Watch your mouth before I do something you'll regret" the chief said sternly. "And besides you have to stay there for at least 2 hours to really take up the view. Not the time's a wasting get going, son." the chief said patting him off.
(10 Minutes Later)
He was standing in the park and looking around, not believing the fact he was actually here. Not knowing what to do he walked over to a bench and sat down to think.
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"Katy, you got your jacket on sweetie? The cookies are cooled off now and we can go the park!" Chloe added enthusiastically. Not a second later was her daughter rushing into the kitchen with her jacket and gloves on. Chloe had to smile a bit and stifle a laugh because her daughter as young as she was, was smart but had decided today was 'Backwards Day'. Having put her shoes and gloves on wrong. Her gloves if put on correctly had her initials to her name on them S.W. not W.S. as she had them on now.
Once everything was said and done the two were walking out the house. Chloe was somewhat reluctant, feeling scared as to what her boyfriend might do once he find out she left after he told her not to. But she left him a note. 'That should be good enough, I hope' she thought afraid to test it but she didn't want to disappoint her daughter. And her daughter's happiness meant more to her than what any man could do to her.
Hand in hand, Chloe and Sarah stepped out the apartment and made the walk to the park. With the chunky chocolate chip cookies in hand.
"Mommy?" Sarah questioned.
"Yes, honey?" Chloe looking down at her daughter.
"Do you miss my daddy?" she asked.
"Everyday honey, everyday." Chloe answered.
(Minutes Later)
They had finally reached the park. And Chloe let loose Sarah's hand as she watched her daughter run off and hop onto a swing. She watched the glow on her Katy-Bear's face. Chloe smiled and said aloud "This is the life."
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Chloe's boyfriend stepped into the apartment 20 minutes after she left and immediately smelled she had cooked dinner. Smiling he went into the kitchen expecting to see her figure in an apron over a warm stove cooking for him. But he didn't and anger rose up in him as he went all around the apartment searching for her and not having seen the note on the table. "WHERE THE F**K IS SHE!" he yelled punching his fist into the wall. 'Oh, she's going to get it when she gets back. I told her not to leave and she left! She must be laughing this up now. No one makes a fool of me. NO ONE!' he thought angrily.
Living 'The Life'
She entered the living room of the 2 bedroom apartment and was not surprised not to say the least it looked the same as if it did when she left for school early. Scanning the room with her tired eyes she nodded and placed an 'I can't believe this' type of look onto her face. She walked over to the couch and placed her daughter onto it.
As Chloe placed her daughter onto the couch she fidgeted somewhat. Then awakened a slight bit to say.
"No, mommy. I don't wanna come back here. I don't wanna, no mommy no" said the little girl before she nodded back to sleep. But it would be a restless sleep. Because at any given moment he would be stepping in.
Chloe couldn't do anything but stiffle a cry at her daughter's plea. She felt bad for the life she was giving to her and the environment she was living in. At times she even convinced herself that at least her daughter wouldn't know the pain of not having her mother in her life but whether being raised with several different families and bouncing from home to home. But then again was this any better? I some ways yes but the fact that it still could be grouped with how she grew up scared her. What if her daughter hated her eventually for the pain she put her through of living here?
Chloe couldn't face that thought. She now began to understand Nancy and why she made the decisions she did. The path's her mother once took when Chloe was only a child. And at times Chloe couldn't blame her but yet she knew having her mother in her life was better than any life.
Letting out a sigh of air, Chloe began picking up the mess her boyfriend left for her. He was a pig when it came to living with. Close and pizza boxes lay all over the floor. Alcohol bottles lay busted on their carpet. Take in mind, the apartment wasn't always a mess, just when he decided to throw a last minute party for him and his friends. His gang he had been associated with. The life he had here, had apparently never been forgotten in his mind. Because since the minute they were in New York, his time was spent with them a late hours into the night. Doing what she hated and why she wanted to get away from him. He had become violent and hurtful, it was a whole new side of him she had never witnessed. She was sure Belle didn't even know about this part of him.
'He wasn't always like this' she thought. She had convinced herself that her original feelings of her current boyfriend's habit hadn't been like this when they were in Salem.
"Salem" she said aloud not even realizing it. The word carried a lot for her. Her past and the life she once lived there. Then it was him she thought of when she looked at her daughter. "Oh Katy-Bear, you'll never get the chance to know the type of man your father was" Chloe said with tears in her eyes as she caressed her daughters face. Stopping her mind from going into the past she began to pick up large amounts of junk on the floor and clean before he got in the house.
(Later)
After she had finished cleaning up, she fixed dinner. By the time she was through Sarah had already been up.
Helping her mother prepare dinner had been one of Sarah favorite things to do when he wasn't around. "Mommy what are we going to make for dessert?" Sarah asked in her tone that her mother knew how to read.
"Well Katy, what would you like to have for dessert" Chloe said smiling and half laughing at her daughter. She always did this around this time when there was something specific she wanted to eat for dessert. Already knowing the answer to her daughter's question.
"Chunky chocolate chip cookies and" Sarah was saying…
"And to go to the park to enjoy those cookies" Chloe finished for her smiling at her daughter's usual wish at this time of the day.
"Please mommy. I love you this much!" Sarah shouted holding out her arms wide spread meaning for Chloe to come pick her up and hug her. Which Chloe did.
"Yes baby we can make cookies and then go to the park and enjoy those cookies as soon as I am through with this. But we can start getting the batter ready so we can bake now if you can go to the cabinets and start getting out what we need" Chloe said.
"Okay" Sarah said using one of the kitchen chairs to reach the cabinets, so that she could get the ingredients out and sit them on the counter. "What are you cooking tonight, mommy?" she questioned turning around to face her mother.
"Oh, we're just making spaghetti with garlic bread for your oh so curious mind" Chloe smile knowing that was one of many of her daughters favorite meals and had asked her to fix it the day before.
Sarah squealed in excitement because her mother had remembered. Then Sarah went back to obtaining the ingredients when a slam of the front door rocked her and almost caused her to fall. She did but into the arms of her loving mother. She shuddered because the air around them that was once filled with warm laughter and love had turned cold.
"It's okay, I got you Katy. Don't worry, I've got you" Chloe said trying to comfort her scared little girl. By sitting in the chair and rocking her daughter back in forth in the chair. Then the door opened again and came his voice before he left.
"Chloe! I'll be back, don't go anywhere!" he shouted before slamming the door shut and locking it. Not even giving her the chance to respond.
Chloe heard the locks click signaling that he had indeed locked the door. "You alright, Katy-Bear?" she questioned.
"I'm scared, mommy. Can we go to the park now?" Sarah asked re-opening her eyes and staring at the eyes of her mother. Sarah couldn't hold it in any longer as she began to cry and fear took control of her. Her body racking Chloe's arm and whimpering to the man's words. The man who constantly hurt her but hurt her mother even more. Emotionally and physically, yet he could never affect her mentality, she wouldn't have it. She knew better and Sarah knew eventually her mother would be saved by the man in armor.
Chloe knew what was happening to her daughter and knew what would help her somewhat but not completely get rid of the fear. "Of course we can go to the park. Let me just get these cookies finished and place the spaghetti in a pan and then we can go. We can leave and enjoy some warm cookies this winter day, okay?" Chloe asked smiling.
"Okay" Sarah said feeling a little bit better and stronger, as she got up and began helping Chloe prepare the cookies. Chloe smiled realizing now more than ever. Her life was this. This being her daughter and her music but more of her daughter than anything. Attending Julliard during the day sometimes wore her out but picking her daughter up from daycare always seemed to brighten her day even as hard as her days was. 'This is the life' Chloe thought smiling at the mess her daughter began to make with the flour.
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(Elsewhere in New York)
"Officer", said the Chief of Police to one of his best officers and then continued "I need you to go do something for me." Chief of Police, James Darwin had been watching one of his best slowly lose himself. He knew he needed a break. Knowing his officer had never truly recovered from whatever past he had. But he was in no condition for him to go out undercover or at least do his job right in this shape.
"Yes sir" the officer said somewhat out of it. His mind had been off thinking elsewhere at the time. Back to Chicago and the girl who broke his heart.
"Look, there is this special assignment I want you to, okay. Come here and listen carefully" Darwin said grinning at what he was about to say.
The officer stepped in closer and listened closely to what the chief had to say.
"GET YOU'RE A** together and go out and have some fun. Geez, your liking a walking zombie. I know this case your on is draining but take a little breather okay. Go to the park and enjoy some fresh air! That's an order! If you don't do it, I'll suspend you for a week for not following direct orders giving by the chief. Now go and I'll have someone check on you in a hour just to make sure your there enjoying the winter weather." he smiled.
The officer stood back in shock. 'He couldn't do that really?' he thought. Not wanting to put up a fight he said, "You expect me to stay at a park a full hour? What am I suppose to do? Watch the kids swing and play hide-go-seek. What do I look like, a fu…"
"Watch your mouth before I do something you'll regret" the chief said sternly. "And besides you have to stay there for at least 2 hours to really take up the view. Not the time's a wasting get going, son." the chief said patting him off.
(10 Minutes Later)
He was standing in the park and looking around, not believing the fact he was actually here. Not knowing what to do he walked over to a bench and sat down to think.
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"Katy, you got your jacket on sweetie? The cookies are cooled off now and we can go the park!" Chloe added enthusiastically. Not a second later was her daughter rushing into the kitchen with her jacket and gloves on. Chloe had to smile a bit and stifle a laugh because her daughter as young as she was, was smart but had decided today was 'Backwards Day'. Having put her shoes and gloves on wrong. Her gloves if put on correctly had her initials to her name on them S.W. not W.S. as she had them on now.
Once everything was said and done the two were walking out the house. Chloe was somewhat reluctant, feeling scared as to what her boyfriend might do once he find out she left after he told her not to. But she left him a note. 'That should be good enough, I hope' she thought afraid to test it but she didn't want to disappoint her daughter. And her daughter's happiness meant more to her than what any man could do to her.
Hand in hand, Chloe and Sarah stepped out the apartment and made the walk to the park. With the chunky chocolate chip cookies in hand.
"Mommy?" Sarah questioned.
"Yes, honey?" Chloe looking down at her daughter.
"Do you miss my daddy?" she asked.
"Everyday honey, everyday." Chloe answered.
(Minutes Later)
They had finally reached the park. And Chloe let loose Sarah's hand as she watched her daughter run off and hop onto a swing. She watched the glow on her Katy-Bear's face. Chloe smiled and said aloud "This is the life."
************
Chloe's boyfriend stepped into the apartment 20 minutes after she left and immediately smelled she had cooked dinner. Smiling he went into the kitchen expecting to see her figure in an apron over a warm stove cooking for him. But he didn't and anger rose up in him as he went all around the apartment searching for her and not having seen the note on the table. "WHERE THE F**K IS SHE!" he yelled punching his fist into the wall. 'Oh, she's going to get it when she gets back. I told her not to leave and she left! She must be laughing this up now. No one makes a fool of me. NO ONE!' he thought angrily.