Unless the Lonely Star Should Fall

Title: Unless the Lonely Star Should Fall
Author:
talena
Disclaimers: Nope, don't own anything, otherwise this story of mine would be a script for an episode. Roswell belongs to Jason Katims and Melinda Mitz.
Category: Liz-centered
Ratings/Genre: PG-13/angst
Summary/Spoilers:
After the events of EOTW, Liz discovers the darker side of life, a side that could very well be the end of her.
Author's Notes: This is my first Roswell series, and the first of many more series to come. God only knows how many ideas that are swimming around in my head. So please help with the constructive criticism. I also love using songs to help the mood in my stories, so you'll see a lot of songs used in my chapters.
Dedication/Distribution: If you want to post it, just ask, ok? Oh and this is for Tabasco Liz and Gaudicia (Silver Sky) my absolute two favorite people!

Prologue: On My Own

Liz Parker sat shell-shocked. What had she just done? How could she just hurt him that bad? Because it was the right thing to do. If this had continued, he would have been more hurt in the long run. A small voice answered from the back of her mind, but Liz didn't pay any attention to it. She was still staring at the spot where she had last seen Max. Oh God! That expression on his face! And the look in his eyes! She had felt her own heart shattering in sync with his. But Liz knew that she would never forget his face tonight. No she would never be able to forget the anger, hurt, and betrayal that was written all over his face. That look. It was like his life had just ended and it was hurting her every time she closed her eyes.

Liz barely registered Kyle's voice as he placed a comforting hand on her shoulder, whispering that it would be okay, only causing her mind to cry out. No! It's not okay! It will never be okay again!

Liz barely registered Kyle's departure until she heard the soft thud of her closing door, and she stood to walk into the bathroom. Once there she began to mechanically dress, not even able to look at herself in the mirror for the guilt was far too great.

Liz walked out to the balcony and was about to climb out the window, but she caught sight of something from the corner of her eye. Looking over, her eyes widened when she caught sight of the Gomez tickets. Gingerly picking them up, Liz suddenly had a flash and she saw herself and Kyle in bed as a wave of immense pain washed over. She stumbled and fell into Future Max's arms. He helped her into one of her lawn chairs and sat in the other one in front of her. There was a moment of silence before Max spoke up.

"I've fought a thousand battles...but watching you do that was the hardest thing I've ever had to do."

"The look on his face...on your face." Liz stammered, trying to control her spinning emotions.

"Maybe it's for the best. For you, too." Max replied, trying to sound nonchalant.

"What are you talking about?" Liz asked surprised.

"I saw you with Kyle. He's turning out to be a...a great guy. Maybe it would be better for you to be with a human." Max answered just as calmly as before.

Liz stared at him disbelievingly and stood up quickly. "Don't you realize what you are to me...and you're always gonna be? You're the love of my life. Everyone else is gonna be second best. There'll never be another YOU!"

Each word came out stronger and more full emotion then the last until Liz just collapsed, exhausted.

"So Max and...Tess are going to be together now." Liz stated sullenly as she stared at her hands, refusing to meet her love's future form.

"I don't know. I don't know anything now. This is a different world."

Another moment of silence hung over them until Liz's voice came out softly. "I'm gonna be alone."

"Maybe. Maybe not. From now on, the future is to be determined. It's what've always said to you, Liz. We create our own destiny."

"Could you dance with me?"

"What?"

"I wanna have my wedding dance."

Liz looked up at Max, her eyes pleading him and he nodded, unable to refuse her. He waved his hands, and the soft melody of 'I Shall Believe' starts filling the still night air. They danced quietly, the weight of the world settled on the star-crossed lovers' shoulders. Max twirled Liz and she began to spin. Liz stopped spinning and looked back to see that Max had disappeared. As if he hadn't been there at all. Liz collapsed, and wept. She wept for herself, for Max, and for a future that was lost. Liz looked up to see a star shooting across the night sky, and one thought crossed her mind. I'm all alone now.

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A Week Later…

Liz turned around the corner and stopped dead in her tracks when she found Max Evans with his arms around a girl with sandy brown hair, looking deeply into her green eyes. She watched as he whispered something into her ear, causing her to giggle and smack him playfully. Max just smirked and lowered his head, and just as their lips touched Liz looked away, a single tear rolling down her cheek.

And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to
Without a home, without a friend,
Without a face to say hello to.
And now the night is near
Now I can make believe he's here.


On My Own Les Miserable