(A/N: I hope you like this. Quick reminder that it does deal with suicidal themes!)
Disclaimer: I do not own Bura or any DBZ/GT characters! I also do not own the song title 'Blissed and Gone' that's
a Smashing Pumpkins song!
I barely remember how I got here. Well… I remember but it's not something I enjoy talking about. Sitting here
thinking it over I quietly wonder why I did it. Why I took that soft, slick, cold, sharp knife and deeply slid it
into my wrist. It hurt a little, I do remember that, but after a few minutes the pain slowly slipped away, and I
felt better about everything. And I faintly remember mama coming into my room after I had done it. She started
crying and trying to clean up the blood, talking to me the whole time asking me why I had done it and telling me it
was all going to be ok. I told her, with my last couple of breathes, that I knew it was going to be ok and that I
loved her, but she didn't say anything then I started crying. 'Course mama did love me, but she just didn't show it
as much as I would have hoped. I hope she knows this wasn't her fault; I wouldn't want her to have to live thinking
that I did this because of her. I'm not really sure who's 'fault' it was. I guess it was my own. Not enough love for
myself or anyone else for that matter. No love…. Always putting myself down even though Pan-chan and Marron-chan
would correct me about it, I still couldn't believe them. Pan-chan and Marron-chan… I loved them so much they would
always hug me and be there for me when I needed to talk... I think I should have taken them up on that a little more. Maybe I should've talked to them about my problems more… oh well to late now. I'll make sure to tell them that when they get here, although I hope that's not to soon. I hope Marron-chan gets her wish and oniisan asks her to marry him. Then she can be happy for the rest of her life and they can grow old together. I would love to see that. And I hope Pan-chan finds someone too Kami knows she deserves it. Maybe Ubuu-kun and her will get together they would be so kawaii! Even though she's always had a crush a oniisan, I know she realizes that it won't happened because he's with Marron-chan now, and I'm glad she's happy for them. Oniisan… he was never nice to me, but I think I miss him a little. Although I'm not sure why he was never nice to me, never caring about anything that had to do with me. I think I would have liked to be Mirai Trunks' little sister, he sounded like a great guy, but I'm not sure how I would have dealt in his timeline. Oniisan went through rough times though and I know that. Maybe I would
have been just like oniisan, if Papa had treated me the way he treated him. I had always, I know, held a special
place in Papa's heart, though like mama he didn't want to show it. I've always hated that about him never wanting
to show any kind of emotion towards anyone. That's the one thing I will always resent about him. But I think
everyone does… Even Goku-san, we've talked about it. He thinks it was wrong for me to 'runaway' from my problems
but he said he could understand why. He said that he knew what was going on in my life and wished he could have
been there to help me. That made me feel good, I really wished he had been there on earth, and then maybe I'd still
be there too…
~End~
(A/N: I think maybe I should have mentioned Goten in there somewhere and it was kind of short, but this was just
kind of a spur of the moment thing. Maybe I'll rewrite it soon. Please review!)
Disclaimer: I do not own Bura or any DBZ/GT characters! I also do not own the song title 'Blissed and Gone' that's
a Smashing Pumpkins song!
I barely remember how I got here. Well… I remember but it's not something I enjoy talking about. Sitting here
thinking it over I quietly wonder why I did it. Why I took that soft, slick, cold, sharp knife and deeply slid it
into my wrist. It hurt a little, I do remember that, but after a few minutes the pain slowly slipped away, and I
felt better about everything. And I faintly remember mama coming into my room after I had done it. She started
crying and trying to clean up the blood, talking to me the whole time asking me why I had done it and telling me it
was all going to be ok. I told her, with my last couple of breathes, that I knew it was going to be ok and that I
loved her, but she didn't say anything then I started crying. 'Course mama did love me, but she just didn't show it
as much as I would have hoped. I hope she knows this wasn't her fault; I wouldn't want her to have to live thinking
that I did this because of her. I'm not really sure who's 'fault' it was. I guess it was my own. Not enough love for
myself or anyone else for that matter. No love…. Always putting myself down even though Pan-chan and Marron-chan
would correct me about it, I still couldn't believe them. Pan-chan and Marron-chan… I loved them so much they would
always hug me and be there for me when I needed to talk... I think I should have taken them up on that a little more. Maybe I should've talked to them about my problems more… oh well to late now. I'll make sure to tell them that when they get here, although I hope that's not to soon. I hope Marron-chan gets her wish and oniisan asks her to marry him. Then she can be happy for the rest of her life and they can grow old together. I would love to see that. And I hope Pan-chan finds someone too Kami knows she deserves it. Maybe Ubuu-kun and her will get together they would be so kawaii! Even though she's always had a crush a oniisan, I know she realizes that it won't happened because he's with Marron-chan now, and I'm glad she's happy for them. Oniisan… he was never nice to me, but I think I miss him a little. Although I'm not sure why he was never nice to me, never caring about anything that had to do with me. I think I would have liked to be Mirai Trunks' little sister, he sounded like a great guy, but I'm not sure how I would have dealt in his timeline. Oniisan went through rough times though and I know that. Maybe I would
have been just like oniisan, if Papa had treated me the way he treated him. I had always, I know, held a special
place in Papa's heart, though like mama he didn't want to show it. I've always hated that about him never wanting
to show any kind of emotion towards anyone. That's the one thing I will always resent about him. But I think
everyone does… Even Goku-san, we've talked about it. He thinks it was wrong for me to 'runaway' from my problems
but he said he could understand why. He said that he knew what was going on in my life and wished he could have
been there to help me. That made me feel good, I really wished he had been there on earth, and then maybe I'd still
be there too…
~End~
(A/N: I think maybe I should have mentioned Goten in there somewhere and it was kind of short, but this was just
kind of a spur of the moment thing. Maybe I'll rewrite it soon. Please review!)