A/N:Thank you all for reviewing! It was absolutely, fantastically amazing to come home after a 7 hour car ride (with my sister! -_-) and find an account of great reviews. I love all of your reviews! Thankyouthankyouthankyou.
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Kimmy~Thanks for your review! I got it after I uploaded the third chapter, so you're in this one. ^_^
Key~Thanks! Keeping people in character is pretty hard. I'm glad you think I did it well. And I'm sorry that the pairing doesn't agree with you. ^_^ Your reviews are still so nice though.
Stephie~I love your review! It is so, so, x100 encouraging! And I love your comment about the "safe hands" thing. And I'm really glad you think my fic is "happy" 'cause that's what I was aiming for. ^_^
vernal equinox~Isn't it cool that we're both from practically the same place? It's funny to find someone online that you don't know lives practically next door! And LA... the most fun I had there was the 5 hours I managed to steal off the laptop.
Chu~Thanks! Here's the next chapter, enjoy! (hopefully)
Thanks to everyone for reviewing! I absolutely 100% love reviews, they're the best thing since sliced bread! And Josh Hartnett! (whoactedinPearlHarborwithBenAffleckwhoohootwohottiesinonemoviesorryIgethyperthinkingabouthim)
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Disclaimer: Inuyasha doesn't belong to me, although I'd gladly accept him, Sesshomaru or Miroku as a Christmas present.
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Chapter 4
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Inuyasha squinted against the sun. "Hey! Inuyasha!" The dog demon looked down to see Miroku calling up to him. "Lunch is over. Come on!"
Inuyasha gave an almost imperceptible nod. "I'm coming."
*Kagome, please be all right.*
Almost as if he could read his mind, Miroku told Inuyasha, once the latter had jumped off the tree, "She'll be fine. We're almost there." Miroku knew how worried Inuyasha was, so he didn't mention the fact that they were completely and utterly lost. Not as if Inyasha need telling, though. Not one of them had a clue where Sesshomaru spent his time when he wasn't traveling, and no one they'd asked had known or had the nerve to tell. Miroku sighed. He really hoped his words would become true before it was too late.
Sesshomaru leaned against a wall in his large garden. In the near distance, a little girl sat next to a young lady on a grassy field. Sesshomaru had expressed his wish that Kagome tutor Rin while they waited for Inuyasha to arrive. Of course, both Kagome and Rin had been delighted at his request. As he watched the pair contentedly, Jaken came to stand beside his master. "Lord Sesshomaru," he ventured. "Do you think it wise to let Rin become so attached to Inuyasha's bitch? She will be leaving in a little while, and the child shall be upset." Jaken wasn't really worried about the obnoxious little girl, but the more she seemed to like Kagome, the kinder the master became to the teenager. Jaken hated the thought of someone replacing his position. Why, any day now the master will tell him to leave, that Kagome can replace him. Jaken shuddered at the thought. 'No,' he thought, narrowing his eyes into slits. 'I won't let that happen.'
Rin giggled and held up a flower. "This is pretty, Kagome-nechan. I'll give it to you."
Kagome grinned. "That's so sweet, Rin-chan! Thank you." Rin nodded. "And here's another one for Sessho-sama." She held up an identical flower. "Kagome-nechan," Rin paused and looked up. "Are you going to marry Sessho-sama?" Kagome blushed, caught off guard. "O-o-of course not, Rin-chan! What a question!"
"Do you find me so repulsing then?" A smooth voice sounded above Kagome. She looked up to see Sesshomaru standing over her, one eyebrow raised. "Oh no!" she said, horrified. "That's not what I meant at all!"
Sesshomaru said skeptically, "Well, that's not how I heard it."
"Oh.." Kagome was very red by now, her face hot. "What I meant was.." Luckily, before she got herself into too deep a mess, Rin interrupted. "Sessho-sama! A flower for you." she handed him the daisy. "You seem to give me a lot of flowers, Rin-chan." Sesshomaru remarked as the took the bloom carefully, as if it were some sort of rare treasure.
"I love flowers, Sessho-sama." The child looked up at him, her large eyes sparkling. "Don't you love flowers?"
Sesshomaru looked over at Kagome, who was smiling gently down at Rin. "Certainly."
Kagome sat on her bed, deep in thought. Another pleasant day had passed, and now her lazy mind was wondering if her business with this Inuyasha person was even that important. "I mean," she said aloud to herself as she changed into pajamas. "I mean, I love it here with Rin-chan. And Sesshomaru-sama is so kind to me. Do I really want to go back with Inuyasha, who I don't even know?" As she was pondering over this question, a sudden flash of previously lost memory so strong it almost knocked her over reccurred.
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"Inuyasha!"
"What do you want, wench?"
Huff. "I just wanted to check your wounds! You don't have to be rude to me."
"Just my luck, to get stuck with an overly sensitive woman like you."
"C'mon." Gently cajoling. "I just want to make sure you're okay."
"I'm a hanyou, Kagome. I healed hours ago."
"Are you sure?"
Fiery golden eyes turned soft. "I'm sure."
"Okay then." She turned to leave.
"And..Kagome?"
"Yes?"
"Thanks."
Surprise. "Thanks? For what?"
Silence. Then, "For caring."
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Kagome rocked herself back and forth on the soft sheets as tears rolled freely down her face. 'What was that?' she asked herself. 'And why am I crying? And those eyes... God, I miss him.'
Another voice took over. 'Miss who? You don't even know who your memory is!'
The first voice again. 'I know it's Inuyasha! And I know that I have feelings.. did I love him?'
Voice two. 'I don't think it's possible. You don't even remember the guy! Besides, what about Sesshomaru? You know you love him.'
'Love him? How is that..'
'You love how he's so cold, but his eyes warm up when he looks at Rin, or at the little gifts she gives him. You love him because you see gentleness in there.. and you want to reach it.'
Sniff. 'Silly romantic notions.'
'But.. you are starting to feel _something_ for him, aren't you? Admit it.'
Kagome groaned and punched her pillow into a satifying shape. "This is so confusing! Like something out of a soap opera.."
She sniffed. "Might as well get some sleep."
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"Kagome!"
She turned around at the sound of her name and faced familiar eyes. Her heart skipped a beat. "Inuyasha?"
She blinked, and realized who she was looking at. "Sesshomaru!"
He looked at her, eyes unreadable. "Do you miss him?"
"M-miss him? Who, Sesshomaru-sama?"
"My brother. You miss him, I can tell. Did you love him?"
"I- I don't remember him, Sesshomaru-sama."
"But you remember your feelings for him." It wasn't a question, but rather a complete and definite statement.
"I suppose so."
"What did you feel?"
"I'm not sure."
"Tell me, Kagome. Please." Those eyes were so familiar and heart-breakingly sad.
"I really don't know, Sesshomaru-sama."
"Fine then." his voice turned brisk. "One more question, before I go."
"Go? Where are you going, Sessh-"
"What do you feel for me?"
Kagome stared shocked. "I-" But before she could complete her sentence, the world before her began to fade away. "Sesshomaru-sama! Come back! I didn't answer you.."
"It's too late."
Then the voice, too, faded away, and Kagome was left standing alone.
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"Ahh!" Kagome sat up in bed, gasping. "Oh my God." she murmured, pressing a hand to her furiously beating heart. "That was the worst dream I've ever had." Admittedly, the dream wasn't all that scary, but the feeling of utter lonliness left Kagome feeling awfully frightened. She lay back down on her bed, wishing with all her might for her memory to return, so it could get herself out of this confusing predicament.
Inuyasha stared at the brightly glowing moon. If it were up to him, they would be traveling through the night, searching for Sesshomaru's domain until they found it. But the group consisted of him, two humans and a child demon. Three of them needed their rest, and as much as they too wanted to find Kagome, they couldn't do it if they were dead on their feet. So Inuyasha had to settle with resting during the nights. He sighed. Things always looked extra hopeless in the darkness. What if he never found Kagome? And even if he did, what was going to happen? The thought that Kagome didn't even resist Sesshomaru troubled him greatly. Was she brainwashed by his evil brother? Did she, gods forbid, have a change of heart? Was there an evil spell put upon her? These ponderings went through his mind, and try as he might, he couldn't get them out again. What was going to happen?
Sesshomaru looked into the mirror. There were at least a dozen empty bottles on the table, and one nearly full one in his hand. Even though the liquor affected him much less than it would a human, enough quantities of it was sure to do the trick. Fortunately for Sesshomaru, the alcohol didn't affect his body, which healed the poison minutes after he drank it. However, he could get quite fuzzy for the time being, and that was enough for him. It meant he could wake up tomorrow with clear head and remember what he did the night before. Not that it was much to remember. Sesshomaru had decided to spend the night talking to himself in the mirror. At this point, he didn't much care for how idiotic he might look to an outsider. After all, he figured, he could easily kill any unwanted witnesses to his intoxicated state. "What are you going to do?" he asked his reflection. "You can't possibly feel anything for a mere human."
'But you do.' His inner voice, provoked by the large amount of drink, taunted him openly.
"Shut up." he snarled, tossing back another swallow.
'You adore Rin, and you are beginning to find Kagome quite attractive.'
"So she's good-looking," he shot back. "Some human women can be good looking. That means nothing."
'But you don't want her just for her body, do you? You are falling in love with her.'
"Am not!"
The voice, undaunted by his anger, continued gleefully. 'This is perfect. The cold blooded Sesshomaru who terrorizes humans constantly finds himself falling in love with one. Two, if you count the affection toward the child. Just like his worthless half brother.'
That last bit pushed his patience over the edge, and Sesshomaru found himself throwing a bottle at the mirror, which promptly shattered. However, right before it did, the little voice had one last say. 'Just because you know I'm right.'
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Ending Notes: Heh. Sorry about the whole Sesshomaru-drunk thing. I know that he's way too dignified, but I couldn't resist! Besides, it was the only way I could think of to get his thoughts out into the open. I read this really really good IY fanfic and now I'm feeling all low on self esteem.. heh. Anyway, it's Christmas Eve, so I don't suppose you guys will read this for a couple more days, if you have more of a life than I. Happy Holidays!
12/24/01
Please review? I love reviews.. you cannot imagine how addicted I am to them. ^_^ I'm aiming for 10 per chapter... but maybe that's a little too optimistic. But I'm going to try "looking on the bright side" (heh) and see if I can reach at least 40 by this chapter..*hinthint* Maybe even more *dreamy* Hey.. if I write 10 chapters, and the review-optimistic-idea thing works, I'll get 100 reviews! *starry eyes*
Tsha. Like that's going to happen. But a girl can dream, can't she?
Enough babbling.. review! Even if you already did! I love all reviews! Please?!
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Kimmy~Thanks for your review! I got it after I uploaded the third chapter, so you're in this one. ^_^
Key~Thanks! Keeping people in character is pretty hard. I'm glad you think I did it well. And I'm sorry that the pairing doesn't agree with you. ^_^ Your reviews are still so nice though.
Stephie~I love your review! It is so, so, x100 encouraging! And I love your comment about the "safe hands" thing. And I'm really glad you think my fic is "happy" 'cause that's what I was aiming for. ^_^
vernal equinox~Isn't it cool that we're both from practically the same place? It's funny to find someone online that you don't know lives practically next door! And LA... the most fun I had there was the 5 hours I managed to steal off the laptop.
Chu~Thanks! Here's the next chapter, enjoy! (hopefully)
Thanks to everyone for reviewing! I absolutely 100% love reviews, they're the best thing since sliced bread! And Josh Hartnett! (whoactedinPearlHarborwithBenAffleckwhoohootwohottiesinonemoviesorryIgethyperthinkingabouthim)
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Disclaimer: Inuyasha doesn't belong to me, although I'd gladly accept him, Sesshomaru or Miroku as a Christmas present.
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Chapter 4
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Inuyasha squinted against the sun. "Hey! Inuyasha!" The dog demon looked down to see Miroku calling up to him. "Lunch is over. Come on!"
Inuyasha gave an almost imperceptible nod. "I'm coming."
*Kagome, please be all right.*
Almost as if he could read his mind, Miroku told Inuyasha, once the latter had jumped off the tree, "She'll be fine. We're almost there." Miroku knew how worried Inuyasha was, so he didn't mention the fact that they were completely and utterly lost. Not as if Inyasha need telling, though. Not one of them had a clue where Sesshomaru spent his time when he wasn't traveling, and no one they'd asked had known or had the nerve to tell. Miroku sighed. He really hoped his words would become true before it was too late.
Sesshomaru leaned against a wall in his large garden. In the near distance, a little girl sat next to a young lady on a grassy field. Sesshomaru had expressed his wish that Kagome tutor Rin while they waited for Inuyasha to arrive. Of course, both Kagome and Rin had been delighted at his request. As he watched the pair contentedly, Jaken came to stand beside his master. "Lord Sesshomaru," he ventured. "Do you think it wise to let Rin become so attached to Inuyasha's bitch? She will be leaving in a little while, and the child shall be upset." Jaken wasn't really worried about the obnoxious little girl, but the more she seemed to like Kagome, the kinder the master became to the teenager. Jaken hated the thought of someone replacing his position. Why, any day now the master will tell him to leave, that Kagome can replace him. Jaken shuddered at the thought. 'No,' he thought, narrowing his eyes into slits. 'I won't let that happen.'
Rin giggled and held up a flower. "This is pretty, Kagome-nechan. I'll give it to you."
Kagome grinned. "That's so sweet, Rin-chan! Thank you." Rin nodded. "And here's another one for Sessho-sama." She held up an identical flower. "Kagome-nechan," Rin paused and looked up. "Are you going to marry Sessho-sama?" Kagome blushed, caught off guard. "O-o-of course not, Rin-chan! What a question!"
"Do you find me so repulsing then?" A smooth voice sounded above Kagome. She looked up to see Sesshomaru standing over her, one eyebrow raised. "Oh no!" she said, horrified. "That's not what I meant at all!"
Sesshomaru said skeptically, "Well, that's not how I heard it."
"Oh.." Kagome was very red by now, her face hot. "What I meant was.." Luckily, before she got herself into too deep a mess, Rin interrupted. "Sessho-sama! A flower for you." she handed him the daisy. "You seem to give me a lot of flowers, Rin-chan." Sesshomaru remarked as the took the bloom carefully, as if it were some sort of rare treasure.
"I love flowers, Sessho-sama." The child looked up at him, her large eyes sparkling. "Don't you love flowers?"
Sesshomaru looked over at Kagome, who was smiling gently down at Rin. "Certainly."
Kagome sat on her bed, deep in thought. Another pleasant day had passed, and now her lazy mind was wondering if her business with this Inuyasha person was even that important. "I mean," she said aloud to herself as she changed into pajamas. "I mean, I love it here with Rin-chan. And Sesshomaru-sama is so kind to me. Do I really want to go back with Inuyasha, who I don't even know?" As she was pondering over this question, a sudden flash of previously lost memory so strong it almost knocked her over reccurred.
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"Inuyasha!"
"What do you want, wench?"
Huff. "I just wanted to check your wounds! You don't have to be rude to me."
"Just my luck, to get stuck with an overly sensitive woman like you."
"C'mon." Gently cajoling. "I just want to make sure you're okay."
"I'm a hanyou, Kagome. I healed hours ago."
"Are you sure?"
Fiery golden eyes turned soft. "I'm sure."
"Okay then." She turned to leave.
"And..Kagome?"
"Yes?"
"Thanks."
Surprise. "Thanks? For what?"
Silence. Then, "For caring."
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Kagome rocked herself back and forth on the soft sheets as tears rolled freely down her face. 'What was that?' she asked herself. 'And why am I crying? And those eyes... God, I miss him.'
Another voice took over. 'Miss who? You don't even know who your memory is!'
The first voice again. 'I know it's Inuyasha! And I know that I have feelings.. did I love him?'
Voice two. 'I don't think it's possible. You don't even remember the guy! Besides, what about Sesshomaru? You know you love him.'
'Love him? How is that..'
'You love how he's so cold, but his eyes warm up when he looks at Rin, or at the little gifts she gives him. You love him because you see gentleness in there.. and you want to reach it.'
Sniff. 'Silly romantic notions.'
'But.. you are starting to feel _something_ for him, aren't you? Admit it.'
Kagome groaned and punched her pillow into a satifying shape. "This is so confusing! Like something out of a soap opera.."
She sniffed. "Might as well get some sleep."
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"Kagome!"
She turned around at the sound of her name and faced familiar eyes. Her heart skipped a beat. "Inuyasha?"
She blinked, and realized who she was looking at. "Sesshomaru!"
He looked at her, eyes unreadable. "Do you miss him?"
"M-miss him? Who, Sesshomaru-sama?"
"My brother. You miss him, I can tell. Did you love him?"
"I- I don't remember him, Sesshomaru-sama."
"But you remember your feelings for him." It wasn't a question, but rather a complete and definite statement.
"I suppose so."
"What did you feel?"
"I'm not sure."
"Tell me, Kagome. Please." Those eyes were so familiar and heart-breakingly sad.
"I really don't know, Sesshomaru-sama."
"Fine then." his voice turned brisk. "One more question, before I go."
"Go? Where are you going, Sessh-"
"What do you feel for me?"
Kagome stared shocked. "I-" But before she could complete her sentence, the world before her began to fade away. "Sesshomaru-sama! Come back! I didn't answer you.."
"It's too late."
Then the voice, too, faded away, and Kagome was left standing alone.
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"Ahh!" Kagome sat up in bed, gasping. "Oh my God." she murmured, pressing a hand to her furiously beating heart. "That was the worst dream I've ever had." Admittedly, the dream wasn't all that scary, but the feeling of utter lonliness left Kagome feeling awfully frightened. She lay back down on her bed, wishing with all her might for her memory to return, so it could get herself out of this confusing predicament.
Inuyasha stared at the brightly glowing moon. If it were up to him, they would be traveling through the night, searching for Sesshomaru's domain until they found it. But the group consisted of him, two humans and a child demon. Three of them needed their rest, and as much as they too wanted to find Kagome, they couldn't do it if they were dead on their feet. So Inuyasha had to settle with resting during the nights. He sighed. Things always looked extra hopeless in the darkness. What if he never found Kagome? And even if he did, what was going to happen? The thought that Kagome didn't even resist Sesshomaru troubled him greatly. Was she brainwashed by his evil brother? Did she, gods forbid, have a change of heart? Was there an evil spell put upon her? These ponderings went through his mind, and try as he might, he couldn't get them out again. What was going to happen?
Sesshomaru looked into the mirror. There were at least a dozen empty bottles on the table, and one nearly full one in his hand. Even though the liquor affected him much less than it would a human, enough quantities of it was sure to do the trick. Fortunately for Sesshomaru, the alcohol didn't affect his body, which healed the poison minutes after he drank it. However, he could get quite fuzzy for the time being, and that was enough for him. It meant he could wake up tomorrow with clear head and remember what he did the night before. Not that it was much to remember. Sesshomaru had decided to spend the night talking to himself in the mirror. At this point, he didn't much care for how idiotic he might look to an outsider. After all, he figured, he could easily kill any unwanted witnesses to his intoxicated state. "What are you going to do?" he asked his reflection. "You can't possibly feel anything for a mere human."
'But you do.' His inner voice, provoked by the large amount of drink, taunted him openly.
"Shut up." he snarled, tossing back another swallow.
'You adore Rin, and you are beginning to find Kagome quite attractive.'
"So she's good-looking," he shot back. "Some human women can be good looking. That means nothing."
'But you don't want her just for her body, do you? You are falling in love with her.'
"Am not!"
The voice, undaunted by his anger, continued gleefully. 'This is perfect. The cold blooded Sesshomaru who terrorizes humans constantly finds himself falling in love with one. Two, if you count the affection toward the child. Just like his worthless half brother.'
That last bit pushed his patience over the edge, and Sesshomaru found himself throwing a bottle at the mirror, which promptly shattered. However, right before it did, the little voice had one last say. 'Just because you know I'm right.'
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Ending Notes: Heh. Sorry about the whole Sesshomaru-drunk thing. I know that he's way too dignified, but I couldn't resist! Besides, it was the only way I could think of to get his thoughts out into the open. I read this really really good IY fanfic and now I'm feeling all low on self esteem.. heh. Anyway, it's Christmas Eve, so I don't suppose you guys will read this for a couple more days, if you have more of a life than I. Happy Holidays!
12/24/01
Please review? I love reviews.. you cannot imagine how addicted I am to them. ^_^ I'm aiming for 10 per chapter... but maybe that's a little too optimistic. But I'm going to try "looking on the bright side" (heh) and see if I can reach at least 40 by this chapter..*hinthint* Maybe even more *dreamy* Hey.. if I write 10 chapters, and the review-optimistic-idea thing works, I'll get 100 reviews! *starry eyes*
Tsha. Like that's going to happen. But a girl can dream, can't she?
Enough babbling.. review! Even if you already did! I love all reviews! Please?!
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